第一二八章：畢業營(七)471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8IBXalAjd
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一聲喊道下，我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKdbASRUGg
已經不知道，這個舉動到底是理性控制，還是感性驅動了……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSL8uknsNE
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不過在我懷中的Mandy，也在一陣錯愕過後。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKGpKJFy6F
便輕聲地說：「做咩咁突然攬住人……」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNkl2wi4LY
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jf44GUcOr
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後，她也再說：「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCcuCuon9t
聽到她這這番說話，我才下意識過來，現在還是在營區內，隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHRSDRRUZf
因此，我便很快把她推離懷中，並說：「對……對唔住。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoFSLZUXXn
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動，反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8asC5YrKmK
我想，突然被人抱入懷中，有這個反應也不奇怪。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwknGx9geT
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「不如我哋去個邊企？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9itvgCVOtQ
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我，便指向了近河畔邊的平台。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW0kBOcESX
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向，沉默了一會。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7NKu2v02F
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說：「好。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrrXgfTi3n
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去，不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhixqE8fQyC
畢竟，現在我腦中想著的，都只是她那一句「道別」。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1bikBaTG2
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直到我們來到平台，並雙雙靠在欄杆上。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUPoElPr80
她也開口說：「聖誕之後，我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslPImc5koY
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIdV0Sr1wr
而她對於的我反應，似乎都感到有點意外。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhl8VjEzSL
於是好奇地望向我，隨即我都一同與她對視起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOWscntUSO
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊，唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2QOyz3m2V
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定，可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGksmF820cU
始終，她已經不是第一次離開我了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFFnMjO1RL
三年前，她因為移民而前往了澳洲。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uVsb8PxxQ
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcPZ28yirh
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲，這樣代表，終有一天，她還是要離開……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE17K5M1MBL
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「點解又突然翻去讀書？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiCjyEFxcy
她沒有即時回答，而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVxoTD43Y0
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先，但屋企人都希望我唔好考，而喺返去讀多兩年high school，然後直接駁入U。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXfgQLE1Xy
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聽到她這樣說道，我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V7HZmsiUu
畢竟論教育，香港的教育實在太過落後，只專注在菁英培育上。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7NjxLxXqi
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式，來區分能力高與低的學生。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdstr8GT82t
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYj3DRMF5Z
換做是我的話，都會選擇在海外升學。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvBR3J2i2g
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在她的話後，我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMEewWT9nk
頓時覺得眼前的景色，就如同不久的未來一樣。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxi53HFfUAN
現在晚上看著，只會覺得一團漆黑，根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVDJDR9S96
換做早上看著的話，卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S3KaEtX1U
人，會因為一時的迷茫，而失去向前的動力。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2KZQy3Mvl
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適，並最後失去了探索的動力。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyMbdwPAdT
到底是選擇留在舒適圈，還是離開，都將會引致不同的未來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvY7jVzQg53
而我們往往擔憂的，就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAcjDKuJ0R
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Mandy發現我沒有回應，於是又再說起來：「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHjoyTRJmo
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJJwfPa0p7
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中，而是說出心中話：471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42mKmOpmeO
「老實講啊，其實我唔想你走。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTBzfASRfl
「我知啊，啱先你攬住我個陣，我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcmTJrTpCI
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiQzPGl8Zr
但接著又再問：「點解咁唔想我走？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYac0kAnzEb
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHz2WX164Iw
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然而，她又沒有立即回答，而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSw9USzcuz
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qI2oQQ3S5
「點解啊？」我一臉好奇地反問道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx4T1CRnOJ
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjr3q34vR9
她這樣一說，使我愣住了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskDwEKKZdb
但是正當我開口時，她又說：「仲有其他人值得你自私。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFXWIoTzoT
「你嘅其他人喺指？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEhGJu8OMn
「Venus啊，Elaine啊，甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cg5TGwq5y
在她提起Venus的名字時，我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUDsw1idL9
就是開學的那一天，她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIEqZ8Uwb9
因此我也不禁問：「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VwO7DhzOz
她點頭，然後望向夜空：「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F6FWxIZoc
即使與全班說，大家都知道後，都是改變不了她要離開的事實。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YC2ZEnih7
而我此刻想對她就只是：「比我……」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfRSO6SlKH
「時間都唔早啦，不如我哋翻去啦。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePfjbQS9Ll
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6YrJdtXWQ
是巧合？還是刻意呢？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zPhfSBDFz
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並且她在提議後，只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDk3GoaEQnV
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話，點頭回應：471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFGNecJDng
「都好。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC6hM434TU
答應了的這一刻也代表著，我們的話題，將會在此結束……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMu3ku6YKBM
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片刻後，我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbkwtfU0Ct
並在打開門的一刻，就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIAlwQCqwF
「散完步翻嚟啦？」Harriet看見我的出現，便立即問道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgFRTOoj0w
而我只是坐到他的旁邊，並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFUkyiBq04
「唉，感情真喺好複雜呢。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCGDEea6NV
他先是愣住了，但是也一同靠向後，並輕笑了一聲說：471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBqR8zZ5z7
「喺啊，感情真喺好複雜架。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqsElRb84A
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「想放手，但又想捉緊，真複雜」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbu4Rcs0uK
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