暑假篇：釋懷517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1MwjdVCuo
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWldCR26bEN
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshvuAPjflX
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Bv5PMOHnK
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMS4fo6pLE
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISrjFyv75E
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqhJk7Z25q
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA3fTcb2vr
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0z26AXMK7m
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XbIUsk7tA
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9R8hqh1Xlk
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6fewBO7uJ
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「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7miEeEjfMC
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaB5BVZo016
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3WwWSgu8N
一種難以形容的內疚感。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxV8YwzzfgR
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT48qSdwj8X
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84rWxFdNN7
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0wmBESojQ
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbSfyMFj4R
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKImjz3fcs
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2geffGr7Y
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp40u5th6jw
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7FfcyS4kt
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGnfjGDSxM
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFIFVQtK59
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJjRcxz6sd
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEUsiRYsF4
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwHEkVGli8
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpeiuoiATo
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp46ay0RgBl
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73uoO1ICtp
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0PyhgICxp
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7S7GXl2KA
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLWp7lr6Ev
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuQWKhaubV
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLMcSXg8KW
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo43LaLLSrz
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9WIj9PpAT
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於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rEdn3wmNh
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV86X3qwGAI
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkw42oJxe7
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62SjNgzbS7
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwTbdstr5Y
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyHHOP6mtV
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqXUkWsUpv
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpscDzdoG8g
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她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7tZju1fkW
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNrj8RldwP
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlG4R9Ipi9
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdnzvGX0bk
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuH2AaEVLsi
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9C4T9ay4C
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXQ2kPQcqd
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHURX8wFol2
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ2dOm5j0v
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsvPhSORFB
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlAHW6Dsdq
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5GkAS37do
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvj2OzTS7U
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7D3CeAMdo
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfIPg31oFX
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhtzxeJQXP
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UNTdRguq8
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hQAeoIpNR
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMGFQ8IDCT
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe7HmctKk8
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRm9L4L5JM
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7bRUeeKjk
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWL8lJPBTx
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RX82ZtQd2
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv7a13SoC1
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0gVPkrDcA
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH34EPmLNF
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBidMAU5eC
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuhQm6P4s7
甚麼原來就是我？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxFv63fJIp
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然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5EqdOtn7k
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzoseJf9gu
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFrK2YxrIx
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTEHIPMsUz
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXU44c7zxXJ
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OIuSqbtsr
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S8gY7coUZ
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvIg7DkXoa
「到底講緊咩啦……」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerRVRf69cE
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsggEYluamh
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOxLb3hlGQ
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnACWkjgF8y
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYanhNHCzN
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7pY6YXHmw
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD8fyzjMkH
而且還是三個那麼多……517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6JNsM0FmK
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvn1dvd37ve
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡli6VysjRic
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