暑假篇：釋懷530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGo3Evegug
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmli8mMGsnh
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdl1YaI4NDj
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7nrJUve16
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhM8UUY0jL
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhX050d1gL
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLpTlWDLMp
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IdvC8ooET
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgevQdGjCDz
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphsCh0m6Zs
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4jZ4BWypT
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAlyhsgxLX
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「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCAPHXZ3aV
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXnzrrrkJe
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVExDjIBfW
一種難以形容的內疚感。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCydbSQjow
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIBCC62Jtl
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBlrV38vUH
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssIg1lj2jD
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHPQ5z8DjQ
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRcjZ5lASA
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNEt2iC2kT
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKpZerVvPW
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRp1QDtPnY
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BKoSljYmK
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhILeNcqkpA
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRneeCwm9CL
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2K6vh6YoDW
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6ynLRNKkc
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdF4PJkReXU
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmSCeJKHGP
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIQmYWqxtw
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT8JBEQZ6Y
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMtYv7RG34
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFa6ivH61IL
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwrVqZ1o1Q
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2GO8m0pcP
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOm6RLXEoW
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiW07FFaj8
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於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rO7klreqg
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7K7XLElfXy
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRQIbqkloQ
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zCMa4pQ46
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQr9ecL9hC
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAta1tZzwX
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuooUlpeiG
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkV30b0Gti
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她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE6zdSmfqW
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2GO2sydki
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX73cLkYZeM
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4jyv4nIYs
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVVlXvOaPi
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsN0uPKorX
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGn4JV5gPj5
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViyCPbwDi6
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5B6juyWuq
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIO7czcJGP
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34oKAyAxdD
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsN50jWd8Mv
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqOjE0bp5m
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlGu95We5I
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0IETAFOo1
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQxrWOKkik
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssk6rzPDzY
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY5fb89rdp
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDvIoQkJ5k
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqI20gwLkC
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLeSYp709W
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNYShsZKgK
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2JZwv2pAw
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yzH1Envcl
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjlH2PKaWD
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZsvOhOCfY
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVWHtoQrc2
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGguDP18gRi
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLmgzUC1e2
甚麼原來就是我？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4P0jS42nt9
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然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxXnKqgtCi
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L4wtkbDYD
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55zZBUT6pe
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFq3lxt8GIR
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhEAqa7ape
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZXVGno4jj
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7dH9azuU7
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lYeAEQWUL
「到底講緊咩啦……」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iar6DwddC
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCO4xFMamoZ
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHZLUD4ECN
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlDaY4kUxZ
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5X27srkHZ3
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8lXlWQbv7
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuGX9PQOQ8
而且還是三個那麼多……530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nqtH11FTK
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSYy4Rgjo2
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~530Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXOuYzI16l
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