過去篇(四)440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGLhem0zsz
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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbel5HVmcZi
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5Su1YyCk5
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBydXoJamvJ
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxFAw9IZnf
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrvQFaup6q
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAyWE5Ri0T
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1C5NbRQOx8
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCXu3q1O5Z
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNquEK6b8ax
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88p229wG3r
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6nVOvx08j
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB4HE4iZyp
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJEw5bv1Bx
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CDMVZM8no
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WPFRoQDrE
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmRoPbMpNL
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGKn3Ewoci
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaliFv1KOSQ
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvpgLvQlea
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzseTNbwSYJ
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0Kko7LQIb
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbjqsbJwXB
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCwXJeARVj
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZrjcO9Jcu
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDxRFJiH9z
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEq9MOqvElf
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTZgZgf0V5
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddQjevNEOA
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnX40lj4o24
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO73eB4Uw3E
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJyXQ7WImB
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtwocbQViU
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVQmzVFyYL
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY44KcLdMf
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHCDrstaMJ
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sfgqGgE4M
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOePtIoeZx
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z5i4CZKMt
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0qjMVjAz2
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmp5zlKt4K
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXbE3ebN6V
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7KkLiZPiY
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlI3TGZud5N
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcRLRkp9Ok
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiESKLQaxTs
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF1etw760d
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV63rNRCB7v
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOWAmKImXX
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkbp17HrnF
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjOUdxIRV9
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ806Yff17Qx
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7mmCWH0Ag
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtR9n4zV48R
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTsQtSupQl
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDf5NWukEA
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtoGqbkvqT
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mRjpQmDSX
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkiDLA0r9Z
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgCxl8ZgV0
隨即二人也站在了原地。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS14ZQbEEPo
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7snNrfuCn
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpcmNLidEL
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNtPBK4vGw
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMEpVcMZAI
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FuHIUy2Bn
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLW3V9hc5r
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEUInpySQZ
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCX0h5NGNq
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5i56ohL1S
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmeKOqz50r
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBe1QVLMRX
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFiDTPZ6TD
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe10DpLpTw5
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuz3AQnLUJy
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcTs1vBVhK
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqL1fKrGtF
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGdtlYPiN9
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpYMCrMsoR
可是，她接著聽到答案是……440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs2MYxMTjw
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFqluWcdHa
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzC5Ywhr5T
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMYMRK39kQ
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzB6eckXoD0
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uPz10UyNi
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIfC5DOsb1
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnWTYFI6wY
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET4Wufn1fO
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ6cX2INnU
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoGAIk3w82
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhhf342UGP
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXyWHL5zhs
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfBa2fNKE8
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkvSRnkWyb
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUnEXkT9IZ
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V3irptKph
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbibmbybUoE
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNg42GEuHT
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloqxW34YVe
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DGv7nLBN0
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUxmvCuw76
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6XQwwmj7i
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SRI2fBskS
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHT7sJ3zPer
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJewmuNP4w
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrggMJYklp8
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iFOqJHpya
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetXok0PL0F
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbizyItlxp
「嚓—」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ25jDElH5R
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofOPo88yRf
 440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1e2Tx5qKV
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作者在此鄭重聲明：440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10r3rAlxSV
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6JEWL2H6g
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJPEP2f0is
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFU1g6pTjLP
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppdAm6QUJ8
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6jvhm0sFD
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagJsjDEzTO
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作者閒聊：440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPaWgywamb
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeulHZ5W8b
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……440Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh646jY6aQ
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