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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0Ov1tlUNy
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4VldxuBFd
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrjevg7eL8
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYG0ByRdtV
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjB4dNamcX
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiD61KlqZE
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gCkEbmbOA
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5XespFmXh
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2KJFHX4wB
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPZv0JBr7E
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yirzEJVV0
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cllBzqwaJ
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUVIy985SM
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE27KM9cVF
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCYPOLmeOK
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa82qRSCvbQ
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwi8rOzNDo
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCCzW4cik1
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9Q9Idvjhl
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg6PokxneU
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb80DBAxLd
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAGQdHqvC2
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyYEv2eZZL
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPqhYPMHel
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdV4GUlLSA1
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEMIxmRtAW
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyNZNoGn15
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkp3zoQVSg
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5imr7ezwSN
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Xomlt6Lda
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyw94zFLA7
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9gt6h4PpF
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZEXzC3QB7
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jPx9NrV7N
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CGJFjPf5y
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKKvH3oEeS
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNZTTIFz7T
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8LwOUFDLi
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecb1rM0LLF
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgu7zwKGsd
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePL1kxAWma
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9o1hIXQThL
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELpZNFyDKi
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QqUO58cOX
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStTP9S6Ifr
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEuZIMSJMd
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPucs1di2JX
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gy9hUt32i
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5SoueLp5f
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WlvOHblKf
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5zz83I72n
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPMD1posSl
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dfMopZ8Hg
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8H9jndxHx0
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DABgTejvm
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhZVR8MoJO
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWE5aZOmKyg
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMc3shWfDqW
隨即二人也站在了原地。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2j3GWGqxP
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ouNya4eoA
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELpYMtm9WC
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIBqc2qJeF
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhyWmCbZRF
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnVY74SZrN
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WWjHl29LB
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUvyjL1wsp
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZ8tPTqEJc
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoZY3p4k36
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKsgvlZ7VV
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94xtYKEyvE
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSFOKLdFhx
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtQnDcr0eS
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz72bAWr0t
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8bLwxxYMh
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79e1eHWBSx
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ2rCum2F4
可是，她接著聽到答案是……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOvdd61GJe
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4otqPHROP
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZtaOkxtDS
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuknBh3CMF
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS5t039hlx
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhR8yTByaRj
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0wVmzfhB7
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s2f1LWPxJ
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw3ex3zrCp
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGWPovLAOl
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfJTyOnrUX
 522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7UVSKsgsJ
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqMkH3b0GP
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgmli3xuyX
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgFQtbB7jX
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRPgYPyFy8
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcY6dkZMyZ7
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIK3IxcPbSu
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q1jIePIe6
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0cttWLU8V
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WV9NErGH6
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9U4dDSgpWJ
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULf5A1v3Ud
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5gBXH7DNx
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YpGfNicwa
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3c6SpKSFB
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMZmxCFdgH
「嚓—」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1qLRyuPWV
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqd1a4BL2BL
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作者在此鄭重聲明：522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuk3TdB2N1
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqViTJq4Vmi
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaH8Qsj9Bp
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPwkl3tKhr
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisc9dwjVCL
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9Uj1Qpewk
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7iWjL6NYq
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作者閒聊：522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSgGMKXmO7
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVIajTXemn
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqzgxsCw0L
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