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Some of my colleagues 323Please respect copyright.PENANAJEgGmIHKZn
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 323Please respect copyright.PENANAYSlUQIz9IH
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 323Please respect copyright.PENANAe0ZH9YvSfW
suggestion or hypnosis.323Please respect copyright.PENANACkuH18LlR8
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where323Please respect copyright.PENANACkmuWQUwqG
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzexcKm9C1Y
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 323Please respect copyright.PENANAf8sUbMn9aM
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want323Please respect copyright.PENANAwAHi0mkw3D
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 323Please respect copyright.PENANAcM6eOLs0Ea
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I323Please respect copyright.PENANAz3Lj5I09E9
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 323Please respect copyright.PENANA6GRUxiNgJU
capabilities.323Please respect copyright.PENANAQkxgfihMI8
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."323Please respect copyright.PENANANKQEHj1lZH
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David awakened. Not 323Please respect copyright.PENANAd0XseO8MFk
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 323Please respect copyright.PENANAEzRbQ8nlgm
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,323Please respect copyright.PENANATmkIjA7oi4
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 323Please respect copyright.PENANAiU6vWrHoHG
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 323Please respect copyright.PENANAVYkyOi6MJm
undamaged.323Please respect copyright.PENANA9fjTZeMFfD
"Only your physical body323Please respect copyright.PENANA7wCJsGmEBp
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 323Please respect copyright.PENANAh5Jl1V70P7
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of323Please respect copyright.PENANAbOibEAwtN9
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."323Please respect copyright.PENANAfBWMCvKSrY
A shadowy form appeared.323Please respect copyright.PENANA5mB9otPMBo
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 323Please respect copyright.PENANAqQ6cBYvGBq
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 323Please respect copyright.PENANAqHdtNr4nrj
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.323Please respect copyright.PENANAGnScgvPpQd
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.323Please respect copyright.PENANAqMCyMAQ7z3
"Am I in the...ether 323Please respect copyright.PENANAdikzloZrl2
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 323Please respect copyright.PENANA2HaPUuAGh2
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.323Please respect copyright.PENANAHh28CsiTAS
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 323Please respect copyright.PENANAAlgF1NB1uV
David was tired, too 323Please respect copyright.PENANAKgutA29YbE
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 323Please respect copyright.PENANAZVIaDuu2xi
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.323Please respect copyright.PENANAAaXsFqzfKV
The shadowy hood cocked 323Please respect copyright.PENANAH8SR0e4Kpj
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 323Please respect copyright.PENANAN7vqVrUvqZ
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 323Please respect copyright.PENANApusxZyMSS9
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 323Please respect copyright.PENANAyhsctSN8Cn
more grateful."323Please respect copyright.PENANAhoQjlBwTZT
"I..."323Please respect copyright.PENANARqoptBGvJw
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."323Please respect copyright.PENANARS1447iTV8
David groaned in 323Please respect copyright.PENANADS0sjud3Gg
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 323Please respect copyright.PENANAYQdZjQac8R
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 323Please respect copyright.PENANA52zH6xIf2A
falling point, that'd be fly."323Please respect copyright.PENANAd6PiOFNT8V
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAIQ87MzPjdv
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAovVDE3WWI4
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAErUCxu1ZqL
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."323Please respect copyright.PENANA0FgWzYBKF3
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAxvuyxGdHLo
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"323Please respect copyright.PENANACLMl7jfDQA
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."323Please respect copyright.PENANAWLjiHiV9Bd
David shouted and 323Please respect copyright.PENANAl6JJYzHoku
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 323Please respect copyright.PENANAQjIh1GTeea
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all323Please respect copyright.PENANAlljxFcEjsg
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He323Please respect copyright.PENANAqMJwRCaiwI
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 323Please respect copyright.PENANAE0T8QFFpYr
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 323Please respect copyright.PENANAnbXPPFB2NE
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 323Please respect copyright.PENANALAouE0kBOx
mist.323Please respect copyright.PENANAKLCKqj0Id8
Jester's voice came from323Please respect copyright.PENANAUFVLEFC5Vt
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 323Please respect copyright.PENANAYJlzoGylT0
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzNLYab4Y2u
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 323Please respect copyright.PENANA7oZNX0Qr3Q
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 323Please respect copyright.PENANA0un7YNA0Uz
creating a circle around Jester and David.323Please respect copyright.PENANALVHzI7o0IS
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 323Please respect copyright.PENANA8RoilohUs7
"Shut up!" David 323Please respect copyright.PENANAkoBd8uCp7m
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 323Please respect copyright.PENANALlvEDyNibv
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 323Please respect copyright.PENANA8s0iioRC90
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"323Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2uE6tjv9g
Jester gave another 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjqxeJSIX7n
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 323Please respect copyright.PENANA6fTxyj5npW
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 323Please respect copyright.PENANAMg1S7T3brY
afraid of the truth?" 323Please respect copyright.PENANAEDeXjgOApW
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 323Please respect copyright.PENANAruXXWouv3M
"You're what? A 323Please respect copyright.PENANANhd1mw3d3i
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 323Please respect copyright.PENANABCe2dkOQjj
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjKUtlEcymP
you've done not matter." 323Please respect copyright.PENANAFnj4RaL7Je
The shadows completely 323Please respect copyright.PENANAaQIyt4RvY7
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 323Please respect copyright.PENANAiRHdXNcKD0
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 323Please respect copyright.PENANAej7z8lW8cC
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 323Please respect copyright.PENANAXyWn2JtUyo
eye and shadows swallowed him.323Please respect copyright.PENANAF7f1dWgCax
Shadows parting, David 323Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZUvBmjRR8
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 323Please respect copyright.PENANA9DvxXM0qk9
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAarlXvWKgPc
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 323Please respect copyright.PENANAqDrJagAsEQ
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 323Please respect copyright.PENANAS5azGRfBvs
mother323Please respect copyright.PENANAOLZwy0ouYS
"This is my memory." 323Please respect copyright.PENANAIHMHNSDkjI
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 323Please respect copyright.PENANAvSX8pQEc4g
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.323Please respect copyright.PENANAtlfzcBf3N0
David didn't reply to 323Please respect copyright.PENANA0JaInFvezD
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 323Please respect copyright.PENANATuRRUwjlQ4
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.323Please respect copyright.PENANAjrT2dRxEMr
Unaware of what was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAOc0D02QN6u
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 323Please respect copyright.PENANASIF8c2YEuO
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last323Please respect copyright.PENANA6Ol5uGKgAP
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 323Please respect copyright.PENANAmQjQ0xS9Xb
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 323Please respect copyright.PENANAs6ifDvdDOe
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 323Please respect copyright.PENANArdiTYrpV87
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She323Please respect copyright.PENANALHyXU8niVW
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 323Please respect copyright.PENANANPANfacd2l
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."323Please respect copyright.PENANAI74VKYt7nr
Finally the screams of 323Please respect copyright.PENANAAV8IYiHpW1
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzu6IninlqQ
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 323Please respect copyright.PENANA6UinwJQy1z
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAD3VaO2oDCp
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 323Please respect copyright.PENANAkRxLeQJ7OK
the baby's throat and squeezed.323Please respect copyright.PENANAgUO9mJPfLG
David could feel his 323Please respect copyright.PENANArT0u6Gq1JW
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 323Please respect copyright.PENANAeHEoc3XVTu
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 323Please respect copyright.PENANArGAsCA2wT6
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjlgKN3yoPd
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 323Please respect copyright.PENANAvz5BONTiJn
stopped.323Please respect copyright.PENANAifLQKwyqMm
"Oh, nonononono." The 323Please respect copyright.PENANAlz29p8jUtk
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 323Please respect copyright.PENANARogU0Ztf4O
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAhrqTitxmR7
"You who were supposed 323Please respect copyright.PENANAsYaFwJNxmU
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 323Please respect copyright.PENANAwSkwob6jtr
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 323Please respect copyright.PENANAQWANcP02pH
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 323Please respect copyright.PENANAmkjLPUW6rV
Coughing David stood up 323Please respect copyright.PENANAIBKc7ZhkD0
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 323Please respect copyright.PENANA5lWOdxgogM
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 323Please respect copyright.PENANAvU6Nb5JoZp
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAuq0zurHXuV
"No, it was a small 323Please respect copyright.PENANAPejjyhgmED
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 323Please respect copyright.PENANAyKIuybQlyx
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.323Please respect copyright.PENANA49vCCSmle4
He was staring at the 323Please respect copyright.PENANAz7YNeGePhq
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was323Please respect copyright.PENANA1OdA6obJpE
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 323Please respect copyright.PENANAPdeuJpbmGs
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 323Please respect copyright.PENANAR7nzeMA14T
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzJ8NCY3gHI
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.323Please respect copyright.PENANArZba1RxtzT
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.323Please respect copyright.PENANAtwp3ttWlCM
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAfJy3kfl564
"I will!" Came a squeaky323Please respect copyright.PENANACJo4nutXye
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.323Please respect copyright.PENANAzuzPZQ4yd5
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had323Please respect copyright.PENANAy2J9ebgjBM
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 323Please respect copyright.PENANATRG3vR0z6b
was an adult.323Please respect copyright.PENANA2cc2nL7PTf
A knock came from a door323Please respect copyright.PENANAeM9wIpcVm7
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 323Please respect copyright.PENANA3imoveizN2
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 323Please respect copyright.PENANAaCApfC84qB
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAHfmji1CKMG
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAR9m7rcQrFl
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 323Please respect copyright.PENANADAKBR5f6Yt
being a bad boy.323Please respect copyright.PENANAf3QWD02qQW
That's why he didn't 323Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7HX0qXQQk
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 323Please respect copyright.PENANAASc3mBPBHb
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.323Please respect copyright.PENANAOdz2SDMEBc
"D..david" the answer 323Please respect copyright.PENANAxAmwOumrYP
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving323Please respect copyright.PENANAD0dXTsma4R
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."323Please respect copyright.PENANAT15OFlvhgY
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.323Please respect copyright.PENANAWXjg5qljSz
The man put his hands on323Please respect copyright.PENANATDiTEdzqQS
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff323Please respect copyright.PENANAch7I9E2Ubx
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAjg0GdF4oQg
David meekly shook his 323Please respect copyright.PENANAqlkdAjLH1M
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 323Please respect copyright.PENANAMZE9XPW0MB
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 323Please respect copyright.PENANAxCeQDlZ022
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 323Please respect copyright.PENANAU1p3cueF5o
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 323Please respect copyright.PENANAaTigwKcdtF
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 323Please respect copyright.PENANAnQsuW2p0B7
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 323Please respect copyright.PENANA8DxY1iWOKJ
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 323Please respect copyright.PENANAy5YN7uzIHT
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAMmq6UgAqh8
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down323Please respect copyright.PENANA44S6XvELC8
Davids body.323Please respect copyright.PENANAuh3zSgloo5
Please don't. Came adult David's voice323Please respect copyright.PENANAg2jN3t7TXo
Young David was scared; 323Please respect copyright.PENANAsfT10kS2hW
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 323Please respect copyright.PENANAQuPCTL76Rc
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAuawiYAbTZ7
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 323Please respect copyright.PENANAh38WVBIWOI
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."323Please respect copyright.PENANAt6AZtOuvE6
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.323Please respect copyright.PENANASjJhBlgXqn
"Mummy, mummy!" David 323Please respect copyright.PENANAK4tWIcQREo
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 323Please respect copyright.PENANAx53wOklVoc
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 323Please respect copyright.PENANAPRWw10wI2B
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzwN0WDE2mp
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 323Please respect copyright.PENANA46WCjSBATo
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.323Please respect copyright.PENANAAnlpgPsXbv
David didn't even know 323Please respect copyright.PENANA3XOYFjefGR
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 323Please respect copyright.PENANAgY2Zlo59EC
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 323Please respect copyright.PENANAbhxgCqJUKi
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.323Please respect copyright.PENANAtBDbcRcl4d
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 323Please respect copyright.PENANACSsHDfWxiz
David could barely hear 323Please respect copyright.PENANAR3ZSCtFnCL
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 323Please respect copyright.PENANAcUzv3aHikB
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 323Please respect copyright.PENANApbMT00CGJe
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 323Please respect copyright.PENANA3tTtWGIBiG
anger. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAoLusdTzjna
"There are more 323Please respect copyright.PENANAmBnNIg0flQ
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 323Please respect copyright.PENANAECPe9wivs3
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 323Please respect copyright.PENANANH3LjM0Z6c
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 323Please respect copyright.PENANAIMkhs661MT
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.323Please respect copyright.PENANAB6Y7s76Irt
"What else is there to 323Please respect copyright.PENANAXlHxyOHHxT
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 323Please respect copyright.PENANAz1PionW5PH
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 323Please respect copyright.PENANAe8aAdbHI20
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ4gfnfHp3
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood323Please respect copyright.PENANAupaSH4wawm
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 323Please respect copyright.PENANAVzR2ISdctg
floor. 323Please respect copyright.PENANARcw2v1QvFY
Even the pain didn't 323Please respect copyright.PENANAUTie3WeJ1g
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 323Please respect copyright.PENANAO1i9DXjJpK
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 323Please respect copyright.PENANAoVEcoetJUt
everything would be gone.323Please respect copyright.PENANAwjsSLIqfMh
~Just like that, give up323Please respect copyright.PENANAjWxzxwiPbX
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 323Please respect copyright.PENANAHE45RUEYwI
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 323Please respect copyright.PENANAG4hBlCeA1i
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer323Please respect copyright.PENANArvZutnq1s4
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzLmkFlcAnG
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse323Please respect copyright.PENANAUewZeb1H3j
than this."323Please respect copyright.PENANAxcxjJ2fpWj
~STOP! ~ David dropped 323Please respect copyright.PENANAR7GLGur027
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 323Please respect copyright.PENANAcbYvmmFBJr
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 323Please respect copyright.PENANAFCszgdGIA3
survive. Survive and live.323Please respect copyright.PENANA48Gc6ZXkth
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAZaPYv1o4y5
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAKDHt6EWkcz
"Indeed." Jester 323Please respect copyright.PENANAKF6XVwWUpM
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 323Please respect copyright.PENANAp3ISknN8Td
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 323Please respect copyright.PENANAek7GJPuSA2
like his own did.323Please respect copyright.PENANAiVZVys817p
"Why did you try 323Please respect copyright.PENANA6Rpq9LkTso
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 323Please respect copyright.PENANAQSFR9fDuxD
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 323Please respect copyright.PENANADUkmlGw2lA
process the influx of memories.323Please respect copyright.PENANAIMRcucJpFo
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"323Please respect copyright.PENANAfB9LyyuRTp
"You expect me to believe that?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAOKFRbQRXZR
"Believe what you want."323Please respect copyright.PENANAhqL7EPrRhq
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"323Please respect copyright.PENANAkOnn9Jrg4I
Jester chuckled. "All of323Please respect copyright.PENANAdJbaviusiN
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 323Please respect copyright.PENANAePXtbJoztq
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."323Please respect copyright.PENANAbnZRrILwar
"That just 323Please respect copyright.PENANAr0lhtbwcQv
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 323Please respect copyright.PENANAXDKPn4zL01
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?323Please respect copyright.PENANAhwoOnD5rDv
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."323Please respect copyright.PENANAbhM1Dg4OUP
David nodded. "Do it."323Please respect copyright.PENANAMLwK3doZQK
Everything shifted. 323Please respect copyright.PENANARNRtfPAwKx
David was cleaning his 323Please respect copyright.PENANAhPNdJGGhsf
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 323Please respect copyright.PENANA9dVTDp39yI
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 323Please respect copyright.PENANAMNezDYvwGo
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 323Please respect copyright.PENANAvZAtdRlOX0
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 323Please respect copyright.PENANAdfMrEIXKl5
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 323Please respect copyright.PENANA2wKoWDpbUs
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.323Please respect copyright.PENANAb70V0t4wQ8
His last one was just 323Please respect copyright.PENANAINm9hnvK9Z
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was323Please respect copyright.PENANA5slznMspOQ
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 323Please respect copyright.PENANAy9WLWCmyJn
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAG0CITOpLGm
Undamaged goods she loved to say.323Please respect copyright.PENANA14RZC9FN7G
Right on cue, David 323Please respect copyright.PENANA9RImR90GUC
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 323Please respect copyright.PENANA1QqQCDPgzX
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She323Please respect copyright.PENANA7nDN6w5h8a
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 323Please respect copyright.PENANAReyfHur4KI
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 323Please respect copyright.PENANA3RqqnxEl1g
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.323Please respect copyright.PENANAqVqiTgJXbs
Why was this his life? 323Please respect copyright.PENANAOEWcsCK3pQ
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 323Please respect copyright.PENANA0xyK7hYqsb
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 323Please respect copyright.PENANAamies44mLX
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 323Please respect copyright.PENANAZsA3ZKhqQL
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar323Please respect copyright.PENANAwYLKzlVptx
vein trying to get his eyes. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjFwEmQCDMD
~Enough David.~ A voice 323Please respect copyright.PENANAncAqr9axUm
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAWOYOioM3Jw
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAgFTwrEZCta
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force323Please respect copyright.PENANAtpoV6fEJzw
and met resistance.323Please respect copyright.PENANAlQmA0sUH2Z
The scratching and 323Please respect copyright.PENANAOJn6SBUxFG
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 323Please respect copyright.PENANAw3sKfqsEkG
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit323Please respect copyright.PENANAFOe6gebILs
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 323Please respect copyright.PENANA61cqXXdYfE
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 323Please respect copyright.PENANA2Y7H6kO6Wl
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.323Please respect copyright.PENANAvgglQ9rt0r
Oh god what did he do? 323Please respect copyright.PENANAxODUDqJNXO
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 323Please respect copyright.PENANAzQIXt1YHaO
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated323Please respect copyright.PENANAmpzeUmpO2M
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 323Please respect copyright.PENANAuSerDVFpQo
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 323Please respect copyright.PENANA9jculLA1aF
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries323Please respect copyright.PENANAkwZPZce12w
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 323Please respect copyright.PENANAGROXKMm1Fc
blood.323Please respect copyright.PENANAr281iCtnIo
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 323Please respect copyright.PENANA4VmsNkXNg0
There was a pause and everything quieted down.323Please respect copyright.PENANA8FS62skR46
A boy named David just 323Please respect copyright.PENANAWWFhQqjLCq
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 323Please respect copyright.PENANAHnf8vzS2G0
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 323Please respect copyright.PENANA8Q7zWeITsU
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 323Please respect copyright.PENANAykz2r5EvbA
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room323Please respect copyright.PENANAnpazG46NwA
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 323Please respect copyright.PENANAbaTMDnn0EW
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 323Please respect copyright.PENANA2cQLcy18Wv
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 323Please respect copyright.PENANAuQbbXOMyxi
silly of him.323Please respect copyright.PENANAv0GlybkQyS
Remembering his 323Please respect copyright.PENANAvStR75qUTz
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 323Please respect copyright.PENANAIJk0ekB629
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 323Please respect copyright.PENANA3cm8D6L0IZ
table preparing a meal. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAfchfP4QSQr
"There you are David!" 323Please respect copyright.PENANA43TwcXGowD
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start323Please respect copyright.PENANAnt2ypaC2ss
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 323Please respect copyright.PENANA721wCHttlm
This isn't the truth.323Please respect copyright.PENANA0AhvvAuP0z
David obligingly sat 323Please respect copyright.PENANA5qm5YVR86I
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 323Please respect copyright.PENANA6dI62R3BL5
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjEwDdCmdKU
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.323Please respect copyright.PENANABu45UOrLiX
A dream, nothing else.323Please respect copyright.PENANApr3qq3CMi9
They all thanked the 323Please respect copyright.PENANAWMnyssn4mf
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 323Please respect copyright.PENANA1DHE1JYi8K
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 323Please respect copyright.PENANAfWCtEUH9oI
this lie.323Please respect copyright.PENANA2Znx22gMfS
A lie that has to end.323Please respect copyright.PENANA4zc0TJAP7K
David was standing at 323Please respect copyright.PENANADalply51jb
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 323Please respect copyright.PENANAxUu2i9L4O3
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was323Please respect copyright.PENANA5Apjdg7lpJ
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 323Please respect copyright.PENANAUskHBXAOGR
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 323Please respect copyright.PENANA7yhhEI6ZZf
Either way David hated 323Please respect copyright.PENANAcsFE2TXBrz
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 323Please respect copyright.PENANA0zXaNTy4HY
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 323Please respect copyright.PENANAfH65UvAY2D
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 323Please respect copyright.PENANAUCWlttJSyV
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 323Please respect copyright.PENANAKohtAr1asf
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 323Please respect copyright.PENANA7OjrUZSbt4
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 323Please respect copyright.PENANAh2oiobGeHY
life this happy blissful life?323Please respect copyright.PENANAI5FCxNqDrY
The answer was so simple323Please respect copyright.PENANAiIK732j1H8
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,323Please respect copyright.PENANAOlfAV10hot
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 323Please respect copyright.PENANAxr2qJu96yp
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 323Please respect copyright.PENANAgVMSFmGERe
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 323Please respect copyright.PENANAxps8LwNdU5
David decided to start 323Please respect copyright.PENANAjNowXOzb4Z
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No323Please respect copyright.PENANAlUUuxJmzh9
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 323Please respect copyright.PENANA9VzyFhHMh7
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 323Please respect copyright.PENANApwb76HlUPm
mother. "No more mercy."323Please respect copyright.PENANADZMhnWwk6V
With the last stab 323Please respect copyright.PENANAqDy2HLcGVk
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 323Please respect copyright.PENANAD4N1O9P53J
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast323Please respect copyright.PENANAGuzqxFZ6Av
emptiness.
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