《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年，好似已經唔太愛。》 - 二十四歲（續：思思）

就這樣，一天天起床，一天天梳洗。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9WV2i3uRM
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思思不再扮靚，因為，不知道打扮給誰看，棉花糖懂得欣賞她的唇色麼。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhw6xZ3K50g
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日間，她帶棉花糖上學；中午，接棉花糖回家；下午，替其看功課。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4B70VnP4w
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她記得，第一天帶棉花糖回幼稚園的情況，思思彎腰拖着棉花糖的手，一步步的走樓梯，到達幼稚園門口。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy5iuTQCW5
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思思說：「幼稚園好好玩㗎！可以識到好多朋友，仲可以學到好多嘢添噃。棉花糖乖。」說罷，拉着棉花糖往門口送去。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLG4WtsirRb
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思思一鬆手，棉花糖就問：「媽媽同我一齊玩？」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEmHuKRlAG
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「唔會，媽媽唔番學，等間你放學，媽媽就會嚟接你㗎啦。」思思蹲下。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDcEZmypvU
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「唔濟！我淨係要媽媽！」棉花糖開始哭泣，不是那種喧嘩的哭鬧，而是一抽一搐的啜泣，奶聲奶氣地撒嬌。期間一直環抱思思的頸，不讓她離去。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNXEeK1n4A
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思思心軟。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KhPJz9V0l
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當她聽見棉花糖說只要媽媽，心中感動——這小人兒將我當成她的依靠，所有的相處意義倍增，肯定了當中的感情真實確切。雖然她知道，這只是分離焦慮，只要棉花糖習慣上學，情況就會改善。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFcUJEXopr
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思思親吻棉花糖：「棉花糖想唔想識新朋友？」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRWtd95tv4
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「唔想。我已經有媽媽。」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfGT0HZXOO
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「真係？但朋友可以同你玩玩具喎，好得意好好玩嘅玩具喎。想唔想？」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZiaOfNktX
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「嗯，少少啦……」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNX4QX1D73
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「乖。」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBH0mJKdW5
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思思將棉花糖送進去，雖然一撒手，棉花糖又哭，但思思知道，幼稚園老師會安撫她。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRTKMZZwKl
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這種情況維持了半個月，後來棉花糖若離遠見到同學，都會跑過去，遺下還背着書包的思思。她又好笑又好氣——唔係淨係要我咩？你個小騙子。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50csO53h66
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她有感，女大不中留，竟然有種「嫁女」的失落；然後上前將書包交給棉花糖，並向她說再見，只是小小人兒再沒有哭泣，也再沒有回頭送她一個依依不捨的眼神，已經與同學大聊特聊昨天傍晚的卡通。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDkp4GFrBB
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之後，思思就會到鄰近的街市買菜煮飯。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTCmravFh2
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她嘴甜，常因而買到便宜兩元的豬肉；或者，就算買一點菜都可以獲送一棵蔥。她很討厭魚的腥味，魚檔連找回來的硬幣都有一股濃烈的腥臭；但棉花糖喜歡吃番茄煎紅衫魚，而且思思從小聽信「食魚會聰明」，所以一星期最少買兩次。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH0QmbAQMV
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買菜後回家，大概九點，她去喚阿朗起床，他要到地盤工作。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD56ltI03A
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她知道他每天都很累，所以，讓他「有咁遲得咁遲」起來；如果某天休息，她就會攝手攝腳地回來，盡量不吵醒他。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUD6bSVDnh
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思思問過阿朗：1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZqVukQsNr
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「其實做地盤咁辛苦……不如做其他啦？Sales?」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaY7abq9Fd
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「地盤多錢吖嘛，宜家咁嘅環境，金融海嘯呀，做唔嚟其他工，而且我講嘢又唔叻。」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UgPg8Dpiz
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「哦……」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUDzGMcJDl
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如果是以前，阿朗絕對不會自貶，而是自信地說：「都係嘅，我可以學下點sell嘅。」1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKV2GtEdV9
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思思覺得，阿朗和以前相比，不太一樣。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyXlRZjwYx
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嗯。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVamiA8iAYc
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其實，誰沒有變？1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcjB7AeIOd
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思思發現，自己的身體再不如以前緊緻，肚上的贅肉將以往的腹肌包裹，放鬆坐下，竟然有兩截肉，而她從來沒有過。手臂變粗，那是久抱棉花糖的象徵，負重增肌。而且，毛孔開始粗大，T字區微微泛油；照鏡，但覺比以前憔悴。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN9ELtiOZw
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她覺得，她的面容在質問她——你咁樣過落去，得唔得？1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYEqJwLlly
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她已經很久沒有化妝，畢業之後，幾乎全副心思放在家裏。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OoLHPW58v
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每天，她關心的是「今晚買咩餸」、「要記得幫棉花糖剪碎啲菜」、「啲衫幾時乾」，再沒有想過「咩食物補膠原蛋白」、「邊隻粉底最控油」、「啲衫點襯最修身」。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NTUq5Wg7c
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思思希望阿朗不要嫌棄她的樸素。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHeXmnhOwq
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雖然他初見她時，她確實不施脂粉；但又怎麼一樣呢？那時，她只是一個學生，而現在，她是一個妻子，也是一個媽媽，他已經叫她：「老婆」。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdbbXepCwV
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怎麼一樣呢。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9cEU8Fixm
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明明，曾經祈求和他一秒白頭，髮鬢霜雪，冰鮮他們的愛情。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgfdsOhIzQ
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可是，她竟然希望自己永遠年輕：是否男人幾多歲，都迷戀十八歲的女人？她此刻祈願，阿朗眼中的她，永遠朝氣漂亮，骨肉永遠均稱。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjYKbT8V2U
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想到此處，思思打開電腦，跟住螢幕中的俏麗佳人做運動，踢踢腳、扭扭腰、奔跳奔奔，揮汗如雨。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGByAH9TmD
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有時偷懶，說服自己身材已經適中，何況胸口位置首先湛汗，她總覺得胸部脂肪有意出走，她若停止運動，則可以變相挽留她的一對軟枕，畢竟，減肥先瘦胸嘛；但下一刻，坐下，看見大腿驚成金華火腿，又站起來，繼續擺動四肢。1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OnJcXCdKH
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有時，思思又心想——1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xLSlYA5Nl
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佢如果愛我，就會愛我嘅所有嘢㗎啦，唔通到時再老啲又唔要我啦喎？如果，阿朗肥到二百磅，咁我都、嗯、希望佢唔會變成咁啦……1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2yZzu2Lo3
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唉，都係試吓keep fit先，唔懶得㗎！1349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmYC0mhznd
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