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可惜，現實中，他卻是情怯的。愛，不一定使人勇敢。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgXLdD7eqb
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終於星期一，朝光放學，馬上來到社工室。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERXLj3544h
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「Hello，靚女姐姐。」他將書包拋到沙發上。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDpaRhg7xG
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「今日搞咩，咁口甜？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgu97No8kw
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「冇呀，咁你係吖嘛。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0epbeJhoL
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「神神化化。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYGIQKfdA5
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「係呢，上個星期嗰個男人，就係你老公？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJq9u8GdV2p
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「係呀。」那不然？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsCauV0QBd
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「咁呢，佢係個點嘅人嚟？」他想了解多一些，沒有為什麼。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95Q28NKV79
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「嗯——」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcBSOCNKT7
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思思停下手上的工作，思考「程日朗」是一個怎樣的人。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxUOguDR1G
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勇敢？大方？有義氣？驕傲？聰明？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfwH7bGplm
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細心？温柔？體貼？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa10FeKhQ5
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不、不。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hckv809K9
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不。他是，他是。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjK6XM11VEo
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可是，這些形容詞仿佛已經變成了一種遠古的印象，或者成為了一些顯而易見的公論，譬如，說起牛頓會想起蘋果，說起魯迅會想起人血饅頭，說起黃子華會想起棟篤笑——但大體呢？又似乎說不出什麼來，正如世上大部分人都不清楚三大定律的細則為何，一樣。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTbv6Q9chy
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思思「記得」阿朗是怎樣的人。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmAYIkmIbm
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但這是一種記憶，好像，又變得很模糊。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWod3T76Yb
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慢慢，另一個面向的印象開始浮現——他會因為小事而嘮嘈她幾句，他有時會反對她的意見，他偶然忘記二人的紀念日，他會敷衍地回覆在說閒話的她。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tI5F4lVHM
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這是他，真實又乾脆的他。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZoybaHh3z
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他還是他，只是多增少減，變成了一個她更了解的他——807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc4CL3fNYn
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「喂呀，你諗咁耐㗎？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSV3yWTWw26
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變成了一個，她比以往感到陌生的他……更加熟悉，也可以解讀為：更加疏離。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnlcqQjawy
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「我老公好好，嗯，好好啊。不過，我會話以前好啲，可能係我變咗啫。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9zxhDQRxs
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「咩意思？」朝光期望她會肯定。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YMuDIzozQ
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「咁一齊得耐，就緊係同啱啱一齊嗰牌係唔同啲㗎啦。唔識點同你解釋……你當係我貪心囉，又鍾意宜家呢種安穩，但同時，又鍾意後生嗰時嘅大家咁。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrTiHMJ9CP
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「咁係咪啫係，冇咁鍾意？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nOpHZV0TN
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思思也不知道。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtTXa0GPhx
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不經細思、真要說的話，她會答：「係。」因為她不會再因為他而心跳加速，不會再突然覺得他很好看，不會再想和他說很多無聊的瑣碎，她寧願自己一個沿着海濱靜靜的走。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFhl6tQYqP
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她有時覺得很煩，不願意再理會身邊的一切，可是，她不理解自己這種心理——因為，現在一點都不煩惱——已成家、各得其宜、孩子乖巧、工作穩定。她慰藉過丈夫從前的壓力和異心，安撫過女兒的任性和頑皮，迎戰過奶奶的挑剔和責備，抵禦過別個女人的挑釁和攻佔……807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMUAilARIs
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但她似乎，沒法守護自己的心。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSHKR0N05R
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很煩很煩很煩。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkBq2KYDdZ
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她知道，有些事情是不對的，可是，它還是出現了，並且不走；像流浪狗把尿撒在街燈的柱上，尿就一直流、流、流，從在柱上清晰可見的水潤，到已與石地顏色所差無幾，再流至街燈照不到的黑暗；但一經過，還是會嗅到一股尿臊味。看不到是看不到，不顯眼是不顯眼，但說到底還是成為了她心頭上小小的疤，她覺得她是那暗巷。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjT3ApWh9gk
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「鍾意。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmQ2JR2ike
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她沒有確切的答案，但她總不能對一個青年學生透露心聲。何況，喜不喜歡的定義，是什麼？熱戀男女的喜歡，和已婚男女的喜歡，完全是兩個次元的物種。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqDdjcdWQI
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是她忽然想要回到熱戀的最初，想回味那份青澀的悸動。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyc7FaX62X
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「啫係冇以前咁鍾意啦。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBc91Xa78FX
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朝光看得出，她最近越來越不在狀態，雖然她還是專心聆聽、回應，但是，想事情的時間比以往久，答話時的用語又總是不夠貼近問題。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIziR7HzXjJ
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幸福的婚姻會使人如此頹靡嗎？807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNdktwRQHH
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他又有些隱隱的失落——點解，唔可以話俾我聽，同我分享呢？我應該同你算唔錯熟㗎……因為，你覺得我仲係小朋友？而你已經係大人？如此鬰悶。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsnOK3TqNI
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「唔係呀。點會？」她在心頭慌了一下，迅速答。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxTyWARU4E
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「做咩咁驚呀？平時問你嘢，你都冇答得咁快㗎喎。其實冇以前咁鍾意，都好正常啫……有咩問題先？」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi9Yisyo9l
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「咁我自己嘅事，當然答得快啦。」807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxhR0yXNvW
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其實朝光說得有道理，激情褪色，感覺上差了一點，是很正常的事。可是，又似乎非常愧於啟齒，阿朗聽到的話，一定會不開心的；或者，如果阿朗如此和思思說，她難免也會非常落寞。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIDvFU3JvO
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這應該，應該是一個有共識的美麗秘密；但此刻，沒有共識，只是她的一個小小煩憂。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhKJiXvXei
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「係咩，唔信。」朝光肯定地質疑。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTkjF8Aqwc
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「唔信就算囉。」她晃了晃頭，不打算繼續話題，轉身看電腦。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhMjum2ydy
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她隱約知道問題所在，他們，再不是當日那個他們。807Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrnBd0TagO
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