我和日朗在一起。584Please respect copyright.PENANAIBt05Omtf1
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他對我很好,好得我要向他學習怎樣愛人;在他之前,原來我只愛過父母親,只有他們能帶給我痛楚,也只有痛苦也能實切地證明這份感情的重量,只有快樂的話,不過是一種娛樂,那並沒有厚度。584Please respect copyright.PENANA7MOnSUPrDm
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我與別人交往的時候,只有開心,只有自我關照;但講到尾,其實我並不關心別人怎麼活。584Please respect copyright.PENANAkmzgRFIm4D
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他們開不開心、好不好,我不在乎。584Please respect copyright.PENANAklxm8Ovy4m
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為什麼我要管他們呢?他們只是提供愛給我的一種工具。584Please respect copyright.PENANAfBDy5FKs0x
584Please respect copyright.PENANAsgsrlrRZKb
但日朗不同。我喜歡他。584Please respect copyright.PENANALbNI1tTIs2
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感覺是完全不一樣的,我想知道他怎樣看待我——584Please respect copyright.PENANAIAgKsohwVe
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我想知道,佢會鍾意我幾耐?佢覺得我點?同其他人比呢?584Please respect copyright.PENANAp4ZTgrzAaT
584Please respect copyright.PENANAjNhbbE2c3Z
但是有些事,我是絕對不會讓他知道的,譬如我收很多觀音兵。如果他發現,我想,我會說:584Please respect copyright.PENANAF6lmlXEfZD
584Please respect copyright.PENANAz0KaoNIA4g
「我唔係有心㗎,咁人哋鍾意我吖嘛?係咪?584Please respect copyright.PENANAvF84WXRXeM
584Please respect copyright.PENANAMBoHm9I1YO
你原本都係其中之一嚟㗎咋,只係,我鍾意你咋嘛。」584Please respect copyright.PENANA4JUOq6nvtp
584Please respect copyright.PENANATzw2l0eMQe
這種說法是不是值得欣賞呢?我不知道,但如果是我,聽時會很開心呢,畢竟對方肯定了我啊,是不是?584Please respect copyright.PENANAXBg1V9QgQr
584Please respect copyright.PENANA7j3NDemMnm
我喜歡他,明明我喜歡他——我看到他的時候會心動,別人靠近他時我會吃醋,也會在他沒空陪我時感到委屈。如果這都不叫愛,那怎樣才是呢?584Please respect copyright.PENANA90it3hSC14
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可是,我受不了。584Please respect copyright.PENANAvLt0gxfqmW
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慢慢,他要求我:584Please respect copyright.PENANA92gJDRAX3t
584Please respect copyright.PENANA51D1Vj7MAK
「你可唔可以唔好遲咁耐到?」584Please respect copyright.PENANA5IUu8edKrr
584Please respect copyright.PENANAnbFIPmFyAC
「下個月先買俾你好冇?我做緊part-time㗎啦,但宜家未有咁多錢……」584Please respect copyright.PENANAjT2KZEifqc
584Please respect copyright.PENANAoZEZ051D4l
「喂,你唔好嬲啦,明明係你錯,點解你可以嬲番我轉頭嘅?」584Please respect copyright.PENANA0xAo4Jv0HM
584Please respect copyright.PENANAogXFfmFTUK
我開始失落。584Please respect copyright.PENANAi2HNmSHv61
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我覺得,他不夠喜歡我,如果真是足夠喜歡,為什麼會對我有那麼多不滿?為什麼不能更多的包容和忍讓?別人都只唯唯諾諾,為什麼他就不可以呢?從來沒人這樣說過我啊。584Please respect copyright.PENANASlBfLIIjrN
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難得我已努力向你證明:我愛你。584Please respect copyright.PENANAjcAOnncRco
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我賣力地和你口交、公開和你戀愛、不再接受他人的美意——很明顯了吧?584Please respect copyright.PENANAf8ovMzX2Ai
584Please respect copyright.PENANAEO6xAG6oja
為什麼你這樣貪心呢?這種美意還不夠嗎?584Please respect copyright.PENANAhbyIMv3Kqx
584Please respect copyright.PENANAvkpT1ZJkZc
「我明嘅……你可能唔太識得點愛人,咁不如我哋一齊學,好冇?」584Please respect copyright.PENANARqMCFnDppV
584Please respect copyright.PENANADtKy38M56K
日朗温柔地牽着我,但口中所說的,對我而言卻是嚴厲的苛責。584Please respect copyright.PENANAFGREkAnR78
584Please respect copyright.PENANAvO8Lihv6xH
我不懂愛人?584Please respect copyright.PENANA6r0Cf8BvNC
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我不懂愛人——是的,那是因為,一直都是別人愛我嘛,我看別人付出已足夠了。去到自己愛的時候,好像也因而不那麼的得心應手呢?584Please respect copyright.PENANAuZLI1hbF5b
584Please respect copyright.PENANAQGEr9VmAUM
日朗說我懶,懶得不願向他多走幾步;我跟他生氣:喂,我已經努力咗㗎啦,咁多人裏面,你已經得到咗最高待遇,點解你唔滿意呢?584Please respect copyright.PENANAFGidewcbcp
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係咪因為——584Please respect copyright.PENANAIjWQv6plBv
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你唔夠愛我呢?584Please respect copyright.PENANAoiMv6p2PHR
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這個念頭成了一顆種子埋在我心間。日朗對我很好,但慢慢,我就沒有安全感了,我覺得他不夠別人那麼無條件愛我。584Please respect copyright.PENANAVxiO3WaLAi
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對,就是這樣。584Please respect copyright.PENANAwiCgArJU4z
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我的心再一次與他疏離。584Please respect copyright.PENANAmA3tlEjtvH
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我突然看不起他。明明並沒有那麼愛我,卻裝出一副委曲求全的樣子。584Please respect copyright.PENANAtCPaGIDxRz
584Please respect copyright.PENANA75Qwljsvy4
但是,我還繼續和他在一起,因為他太好了,如果別人知道他喜歡我,也會在心裏高看我幾分。人性如此;而他本身,也算是頗盡心盡力地對我好的,如果我提出要求,他也會努力做到。584Please respect copyright.PENANAIV1aFiNovV
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只是,不似別人舉重若輕。584Please respect copyright.PENANAcAKXXiHYrO
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而像我這樣的女神並不會滿足於此的,我要得到很多很多,才能區分我自己和別人的差距。584Please respect copyright.PENANAKu5MkOZoQC
584Please respect copyright.PENANA0uTOyttqP5
所以我出軌——584Please respect copyright.PENANAisCCtxoh7D
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其實這也是一種貼心吧?我想要的在日朗身上得不到,方才另覓他人,提供我所需,填補我和他的空隙;又不需勉強他勞苦自己,他既可以繼續愛我,我的私心又可繼續被滿足,一舉兩得。584Please respect copyright.PENANADy0QBhocgC
584Please respect copyright.PENANAj2FtoZR9Th
本來,日子很好,我也因為得到別人的疼愛而變得更柔和一點,沒有再對日朗提過分的要求、沒有再輕易地發脾氣,總覺得自己要有觀音的氣量。584Please respect copyright.PENANAqFG8Jg5ENX
584Please respect copyright.PENANA12RhKAk9JW
直到,日朗發現我出軌。584Please respect copyright.PENANANrW3xatkzV
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他很激動。他不明白為什麼我要這樣做,他覺得他已對我至好,為我獻出全部;我只說,我要更多,他給我的還不夠。584Please respect copyright.PENANApoIGgjj7dZ
584Please respect copyright.PENANAcc3bSapfr8
那一刻,平常冷靜沉穩的他突然捨棄了自尊,雖然,他指出我的不對:584Please respect copyright.PENANAAtpczvGtpe
584Please respect copyright.PENANAqVBBCQO7Rv
「你唔滿意點解唔同我講?如果唔鍾意,應該係分手而唔係出軌?」584Please respect copyright.PENANA7bsjiTFwOo
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但是,很快,他又自責地和我說他會改,即使他也不一定知道自己錯在何處。584Please respect copyright.PENANA9rdCJigFHG
584Please respect copyright.PENANA2jzBLPq4zd
結果,他不斷付出。584Please respect copyright.PENANA8DyEG36OIR
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而我看見他這樣,又覺得他的魅力不比往昔了,我比他高級,心慢慢地飛走;或者,不在他那處。584Please respect copyright.PENANASNouBD1mY0
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他說:「你唔好同其他人一齊,我哋重新開始好冇?」584Please respect copyright.PENANAQNLIy0nkNG
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他說他愛我,想和我共偕連理。584Please respect copyright.PENANA12D1EADfmz
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「咁……算啦,對唔住。」584Please respect copyright.PENANAPLDir4kukg
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我開始覺得心煩,突然,我不需要他的愛了,我喜歡的是光芒萬丈的程日朗,不是這個垂頭喪氣的男人。584Please respect copyright.PENANAY7xxYEyprN
584Please respect copyright.PENANAvUMQVxR1fz
唉,真令人無奈。584Please respect copyright.PENANAKUZ9YtECfk
584Please respect copyright.PENANA5PTy2yxFiP
我有別人給我的愛了。584Please respect copyright.PENANAQj1Q8pS66d
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而且,他不能接受我有別人,不能包容我的廣交——584Please respect copyright.PENANA3c629fyyOT
584Please respect copyright.PENANAkTlwJCxrFZ
唯有再見。584Please respect copyright.PENANAzBNjYqTD0R
584Please respect copyright.PENANA19mKiODbvS
再見。584Please respect copyright.PENANAL600pPStol
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只是,後來,我又念記他。584Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZIzbQDHZb
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《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年,好似已經唔太愛。》
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ISSUE #79
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