我和日朗在一起。849Please respect copyright.PENANA4uZrJpNteq
849Please respect copyright.PENANA0Dj9Z6KIl3
他對我很好,好得我要向他學習怎樣愛人;在他之前,原來我只愛過父母親,只有他們能帶給我痛楚,也只有痛苦也能實切地證明這份感情的重量,只有快樂的話,不過是一種娛樂,那並沒有厚度。849Please respect copyright.PENANAlGPZbTsRFv
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我與別人交往的時候,只有開心,只有自我關照;但講到尾,其實我並不關心別人怎麼活。849Please respect copyright.PENANAYsVZDftj2E
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他們開不開心、好不好,我不在乎。849Please respect copyright.PENANAcI7c54b0cl
849Please respect copyright.PENANAhutPGmhjIr
為什麼我要管他們呢?他們只是提供愛給我的一種工具。849Please respect copyright.PENANA9Ot2GvoynV
849Please respect copyright.PENANAxgo0qW8QpO
但日朗不同。我喜歡他。849Please respect copyright.PENANACFWMQq4QX1
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感覺是完全不一樣的,我想知道他怎樣看待我——849Please respect copyright.PENANAkapYPPiS7d
849Please respect copyright.PENANA4To9cddpNA
我想知道,佢會鍾意我幾耐?佢覺得我點?同其他人比呢?849Please respect copyright.PENANAv3gzzBXgtP
849Please respect copyright.PENANAydTdRCStj8
但是有些事,我是絕對不會讓他知道的,譬如我收很多觀音兵。如果他發現,我想,我會說:849Please respect copyright.PENANAGpUihPBwHg
849Please respect copyright.PENANArfgHnd1pEj
「我唔係有心㗎,咁人哋鍾意我吖嘛?係咪?849Please respect copyright.PENANAWwuxvxVzcx
849Please respect copyright.PENANAGuZSeLXrIK
你原本都係其中之一嚟㗎咋,只係,我鍾意你咋嘛。」849Please respect copyright.PENANAMJ7dbDqcY1
849Please respect copyright.PENANAIbGM45m7BT
這種說法是不是值得欣賞呢?我不知道,但如果是我,聽時會很開心呢,畢竟對方肯定了我啊,是不是?849Please respect copyright.PENANA8ROMKmnVwB
849Please respect copyright.PENANA2EW1q9iqaR
我喜歡他,明明我喜歡他——我看到他的時候會心動,別人靠近他時我會吃醋,也會在他沒空陪我時感到委屈。如果這都不叫愛,那怎樣才是呢?849Please respect copyright.PENANAe3CjbRwV3e
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可是,我受不了。849Please respect copyright.PENANAFnRKTI7Kjc
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慢慢,他要求我:849Please respect copyright.PENANAcCxLWDSfGC
849Please respect copyright.PENANATm1wqDwZgf
「你可唔可以唔好遲咁耐到?」849Please respect copyright.PENANAykp48Imtxs
849Please respect copyright.PENANAGUYf9FdlOK
「下個月先買俾你好冇?我做緊part-time㗎啦,但宜家未有咁多錢……」849Please respect copyright.PENANATYGd9Z0R7V
849Please respect copyright.PENANAdDhIwGyz75
「喂,你唔好嬲啦,明明係你錯,點解你可以嬲番我轉頭嘅?」849Please respect copyright.PENANAzKZiMdNkpn
849Please respect copyright.PENANAvu69Y1Ooaq
我開始失落。849Please respect copyright.PENANAleLMfxUOxn
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我覺得,他不夠喜歡我,如果真是足夠喜歡,為什麼會對我有那麼多不滿?為什麼不能更多的包容和忍讓?別人都只唯唯諾諾,為什麼他就不可以呢?從來沒人這樣說過我啊。849Please respect copyright.PENANAuYleTC4Di2
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難得我已努力向你證明:我愛你。849Please respect copyright.PENANAW2R1Uam1Xj
849Please respect copyright.PENANA3AgcyGsAu2
我賣力地和你口交、公開和你戀愛、不再接受他人的美意——很明顯了吧?849Please respect copyright.PENANA1XGHzF8qFh
849Please respect copyright.PENANACcLIePXX4A
為什麼你這樣貪心呢?這種美意還不夠嗎?849Please respect copyright.PENANA7RbgQQt6S2
849Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3MnGtjxdW
「我明嘅……你可能唔太識得點愛人,咁不如我哋一齊學,好冇?」849Please respect copyright.PENANA2Bt21crziQ
849Please respect copyright.PENANAD7O2KDrikk
日朗温柔地牽着我,但口中所說的,對我而言卻是嚴厲的苛責。849Please respect copyright.PENANAOTUs12rjqG
849Please respect copyright.PENANAzq1F7GmbOy
我不懂愛人?849Please respect copyright.PENANAf5a2hYPd6Y
849Please respect copyright.PENANAs4uVfVLm0O
我不懂愛人——是的,那是因為,一直都是別人愛我嘛,我看別人付出已足夠了。去到自己愛的時候,好像也因而不那麼的得心應手呢?849Please respect copyright.PENANAW1JKNSX4xx
849Please respect copyright.PENANA4d5VxBz4lp
日朗說我懶,懶得不願向他多走幾步;我跟他生氣:喂,我已經努力咗㗎啦,咁多人裏面,你已經得到咗最高待遇,點解你唔滿意呢?849Please respect copyright.PENANAkfpNfLMn0I
849Please respect copyright.PENANAgp7hg5eMN3
係咪因為——849Please respect copyright.PENANAMDg3IFtZrf
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你唔夠愛我呢?849Please respect copyright.PENANAX5cokcZ0ts
849Please respect copyright.PENANAm8KB0KZVWC
這個念頭成了一顆種子埋在我心間。日朗對我很好,但慢慢,我就沒有安全感了,我覺得他不夠別人那麼無條件愛我。849Please respect copyright.PENANAZx0nWkmOgb
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對,就是這樣。849Please respect copyright.PENANARGbc0fJ92k
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我的心再一次與他疏離。849Please respect copyright.PENANAoKCSTXiVsE
849Please respect copyright.PENANAPcJmhah0Sd
我突然看不起他。明明並沒有那麼愛我,卻裝出一副委曲求全的樣子。849Please respect copyright.PENANAQEfGUVrmK9
849Please respect copyright.PENANAuH5pvVIYvw
但是,我還繼續和他在一起,因為他太好了,如果別人知道他喜歡我,也會在心裏高看我幾分。人性如此;而他本身,也算是頗盡心盡力地對我好的,如果我提出要求,他也會努力做到。849Please respect copyright.PENANALgQMsvc7YR
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只是,不似別人舉重若輕。849Please respect copyright.PENANAesG5lzufKN
849Please respect copyright.PENANAhpL9OkVs3J
而像我這樣的女神並不會滿足於此的,我要得到很多很多,才能區分我自己和別人的差距。849Please respect copyright.PENANAaf8R25qrgd
849Please respect copyright.PENANAV3A3DOq5ul
所以我出軌——849Please respect copyright.PENANAK87etfJcv5
849Please respect copyright.PENANAMMyC4XQwqj
其實這也是一種貼心吧?我想要的在日朗身上得不到,方才另覓他人,提供我所需,填補我和他的空隙;又不需勉強他勞苦自己,他既可以繼續愛我,我的私心又可繼續被滿足,一舉兩得。849Please respect copyright.PENANAY0iGtitIjz
849Please respect copyright.PENANAAo5xbnTnkx
本來,日子很好,我也因為得到別人的疼愛而變得更柔和一點,沒有再對日朗提過分的要求、沒有再輕易地發脾氣,總覺得自己要有觀音的氣量。849Please respect copyright.PENANAU9LGi5TKpg
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直到,日朗發現我出軌。849Please respect copyright.PENANAbVjUe1n94i
849Please respect copyright.PENANAbNCeEaIoL0
他很激動。他不明白為什麼我要這樣做,他覺得他已對我至好,為我獻出全部;我只說,我要更多,他給我的還不夠。849Please respect copyright.PENANAcxpx9rOeYX
849Please respect copyright.PENANAwA6amu1Av0
那一刻,平常冷靜沉穩的他突然捨棄了自尊,雖然,他指出我的不對:849Please respect copyright.PENANAcWjiycnZCb
849Please respect copyright.PENANAsQUvGtLsGF
「你唔滿意點解唔同我講?如果唔鍾意,應該係分手而唔係出軌?」849Please respect copyright.PENANA1urT9bJegN
849Please respect copyright.PENANA2iFfCPkz5E
但是,很快,他又自責地和我說他會改,即使他也不一定知道自己錯在何處。849Please respect copyright.PENANA3BpodLLNAw
849Please respect copyright.PENANABEy2mpvLQ3
結果,他不斷付出。849Please respect copyright.PENANAtXySA3Le1n
849Please respect copyright.PENANAEFEFjmhKAm
而我看見他這樣,又覺得他的魅力不比往昔了,我比他高級,心慢慢地飛走;或者,不在他那處。849Please respect copyright.PENANAkkiArFVkUG
849Please respect copyright.PENANAy5nWB77mGs
他說:「你唔好同其他人一齊,我哋重新開始好冇?」849Please respect copyright.PENANAaEwQAI0R5x
849Please respect copyright.PENANAXd8XVDaaiY
他說他愛我,想和我共偕連理。849Please respect copyright.PENANAp3j7n85fpL
849Please respect copyright.PENANA44qqswDxrQ
「咁……算啦,對唔住。」849Please respect copyright.PENANAoKSHCkUEny
849Please respect copyright.PENANAJrDd7A3NSr
我開始覺得心煩,突然,我不需要他的愛了,我喜歡的是光芒萬丈的程日朗,不是這個垂頭喪氣的男人。849Please respect copyright.PENANA6eJxvgwHCQ
849Please respect copyright.PENANAF1MhT8EZ6v
唉,真令人無奈。849Please respect copyright.PENANA7s9WuQteAh
849Please respect copyright.PENANA7IYiiEWwZf
我有別人給我的愛了。849Please respect copyright.PENANAp6FpG902xV
849Please respect copyright.PENANAsYFzxiRaq5
而且,他不能接受我有別人,不能包容我的廣交——849Please respect copyright.PENANAIvVKx0WKa2
849Please respect copyright.PENANA0M6HJngEeU
唯有再見。849Please respect copyright.PENANABERUgfhRVH
849Please respect copyright.PENANAYYOyqvm1gp
再見。849Please respect copyright.PENANAHRfhp9Nm8m
849Please respect copyright.PENANASlrQ6F2pr7
只是,後來,我又念記他。849Please respect copyright.PENANAqo2I0S1OoM
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《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年,好似已經唔太愛。》
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