《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年，好似已經唔太愛。》 - 過（四）

思思待阿朗出門後，打開手機，又重看一次那張照片。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IZ3e56EYL
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阿朗笑得很寫意。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGanqZ9kwXw
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他們的肩貼得緊緊的，有同一款笑眼。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bnh5zPOAY
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有沒有可能，他們並不是偶然碰面，而是一早約好呢。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ekyg0RlZ8
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會不會，峰仔只是在說謊，只是替阿朗隱瞞她呢。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE5TPupJhd
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哇，如果屬實，峰仔，原來很醒目。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpv8gwMj2x
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那麼，為什麼阿朗要騙她？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1AhgAhsf0
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因為和前度女朋友見了面嗎。單純如此？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g3FjuJRSk
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還是，和對方耳語過，感官的騷癢化成欲拒還迎的神情，面部温熱化成生理腫脹，跳躍至獸性本能？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpGOHJztvh
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應該不會吧。阿朗是這樣的人嗎？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipkr9Wdv2D
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他可是說過，一生一世都愛她的。他就捨得令她傷心欲絕麼。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBRdQVRjHh
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好吧，如果真沒有出軌，為什麼會和Fiona見面？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpknqWsiFzX
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原裝河粉在思思心不在焉的拉扯下，常常斷開一半，兩手油淋淋的，不得不自嘲，身為家庭主婦，不應忽視本職。她遂專注地將一束束河粉分成一條條，下油，爆香乾葱和蒜片。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqP25Gyu92r
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加入魷魚、魚片、蝦仁。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTE1UYJphK
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手握着鑊鏟。思思又想，其實，或許峰仔並無撒謊呢。她為什麼要懷疑？她就這樣信不過他嗎！他可是每天都會吻她額頭、誇她飯菜好味、願意下床關燈的——好丈夫。他是愛她的吧。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5e2quDO9L
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昨晚，他從抱着微泣的她，到親吻她的敏感帶，而後進入她時，下體腫脹之際，突然，她很清醒。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16Fu6mqAEf
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她問自己，為什麼突然做愛？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡod18rk7qwk
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他們的喘氣聲是因何而生？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWKYDDUbjz
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空間為什麼開始動蘯和扭曲？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Zl6lHiCeU
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可是，下一刻，快感又填滿她的腦，所有的潺潺水聲都叫她：不要掃興。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5ebyEfoZE
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為什麼做愛？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGR02aPBuc
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當然，因為有愛。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3epbh3BUf
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阿朗乘車，想，可能Fiona，或者思思，甚至他自己，都覺得和思思的婚姻是一段過期的愛情。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwgNaW0slV
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但他自己知道：不是。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hMyD1wAh2
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他對思思自然有「戀人」的感覺，仍喜歡聽她講無聊的瑣碎，雖然很無聊，雖然很瑣碎，但看到她說「被呃秤」的扁嘴樣，他覺得很可愛，像以前她曾因弄跌雪糕而悶悶不樂一樣。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxcYMvNN50
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有些事情當然不同了，他倆的髮型都在長長短短地改變，黑色素的積聚令黑痣生在奇怪的部分上，年歲增長，難保一切如舊。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7peZQ7RRg
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但回家，和她共對，仍然快樂。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSX0uOALjge
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積累下來的回憶和久經習慣的相處，不再有新鮮感，但是，化作了另一種舒適。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQj1MhuHnL
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一樣，可親可愛。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSb9XW4oKJ
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只是有時，他沒有太多心力細味，他真的太累了，每天汗流浹背，他懷疑，流失的尚有支撐自己牢牢站穩的動力，汗水被太陽蒸發，不再復生。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPfo9gCTXn
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如果他真的足夠空閒，有很多事可能也不一樣了，至少，他會有閒情逸致，和她討論新上映的本土電影、廣東歌、即時新聞。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuIxOjHVsU
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不會休竭。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW9FztJH45
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有時，他又覺得和思思相處，有點壓力，他覺得，她不會，也不應明白他的苦況。他也不想讓她明白。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4kwGGSaFv
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婚姻之後的所有變遷，是他們個人心境上的變化，有時不滿，有時焦慮，有時傷感。但每一次，他的選擇都並非抽拂而去，而是將她擁得緊緊的。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11UvU9Ouse
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除了，瞞着她，去找Fiona——988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTuFlQKAKu
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所以此刻，他忽然愧疚。暪着思思，卻與Fiona聊得歡快，不也是一種離開嗎，這等同「不需要妻子」，仿佛他另有温枕軟玉一樣。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITSQmzNHhN
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是嗎？可是，這只是與異性聊天罷了。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fkQmAzQZA
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啊。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdLUsrUTRj
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他是愛思思的。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDACYhhrFS
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如此想來，又惱恨，為什麼要瞞她那麼多事呢？他應該有她傾聽煩心事就足夠。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudHhAG3Vzu
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是嗎？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ovLEYeuOB
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不是嗎？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU72azegJL0
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他托着下巴，看着左方的樹不斷向後飛去，像永遠不會再看到那些翠綠，忽然婉惜。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjofKEBvFz
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這一條重復的路，已走過太多遍，有時有點沉悶，但每次打着呵欠、看着熟悉的風景，才真的有安心的感覺。如果，這條路上忽然種了櫻花樹，那麼，他會當成一種驚喜，然後，更愛凝望這條路。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD75my0OpD
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一切都是往更好的方向進發。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xHqjAOzLo
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他決定，要和Fiona斷聯。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcstr81NBF
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臨進家門，看到Fiona給他發短訊，一則關於黑奴的笑話。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgqYHRjwJn
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他點了進去，看了五秒，忍住沒有笑，他暗暗慶幸：不用落地獄。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aesPk7KEx
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本來，正想回覆她：「無聊」；又想起，早上誓要和她斷絕來往；所以，又下線，袋起手機。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalVhLF78ha
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將鎖匙插入，未轉，門已利落地打開了。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmPMaWOeeN
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乾炒海鮮河的味道，撲鼻而來。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ldOMP2FvN
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思思如常抱了抱阿朗。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKkcXeA6WJ
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「番嚟啦？快啲洗手沖涼食飯啦！」988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETEQBz8H2v
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「炒河？」988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuv2DXy09n
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「係呀。之前你話好耐冇食呀嘛。」988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUKp3wkB8U
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「Mua～」988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStaesIEi2I
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阿朗笑。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJ8ENtaWjX
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思思確實很久沒有煮一些阿朗很喜歡的菜餚。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ossq3gCTK
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她不想讓棉花糖吃得太濃味，偏偏，阿朗則喜歡挑戰味蕾的極致。而思思在懷孕及生育之後，都一改以前的口味，轉為清淡。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiFtS6mh0A
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慢慢，她就沒再加太多調味料。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mOkOyzp8o
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慢慢，她也忘記了，阿朗很久沒有吃上他真正喜歡的飯菜。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3NrQryO8V
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慢慢，阿朗也習慣了，不再對煎、炸、鹹、辣唸唸有詞。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNI9gbk0xF
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不知道為什麼，她縱然自問細心體貼，可是，還是會忽略他的需要。她忘了這個家裏，不止她和棉花糖天天坐在飯桌前，還有他，低頭吃飯，卻永遠給她遞上一個大拇指。但是，她總以為，得到了他的誇讚，就等於他是喜歡的。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuOKjUYgYG
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可是，現在想來，他的讚賞只是給思思這個人本身，不是飯菜本身。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGcMx7soCQ
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吃慣了，不代表喜歡吃吧。所以，要令他更喜歡才是啊。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHQ4KYUYYN
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種一棵櫻花樹吧。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkAOZJTCZK
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她感激。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUXujtENQi
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今早買菜的時候，思思看到粉麵檔的婆婆彎腰，其自行搥背：988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94sAG2VcL6
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「靚女，買唔買啲河粉呀？我哋就嚟搬啦。」988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2m7sSc51Md
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她這才想起，阿朗很喜歡吃炒河，曾經誇她炒得很有鑊氣；只是，她很久已經沒有煮。結果，難得二人外出吃飯，他就會叫乾炒牛河，拌着辣醬吃下。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu90o1D1GeK
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雖然她知道，這個檔家永遠都在約滿，永遠都在搬遷，下個月，一切又如舊。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsH1nm8VR1
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但她還是買了。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8U83tzQVpB
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因為她，應當就在今天煮一頓阿朗喜歡的，應當就在今天提醒自己要多加照顧阿朗的感受，應當就在今天讓阿朗開開心心地吃到記憶中的味道。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01j7WMEOGz
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她應當就在今天，多給阿朗安全感，讓他相信，她永遠都在他身邊——988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSHqBO3Nie
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拜托，不要離開，不要往外另覓一雙軟稔臂彎，另一個人夠我有力嗎？我可是持續地扛得起棉花糖的；希望，也扛得起你的憂愁，不如，和我分享一下吧。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRe0tGRggWj
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留下來，好嗎？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW1rlyqyp8
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不要搭理Fiona，可否？988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9vRqewKj3
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怎樣看，思思都覺得，自己與阿朗更相襯。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MInl0tPqS
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思思並非覺得阿朗會逃離，多年感情就此毁於一旦？就算他想，她也會阻止，盡力挽回。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW00f8Elk2I
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只是，這一整天下來，她都在不斷反省自己的不足。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsxhkxNgbc
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即使阿朗沒有和Fiona見面，即使他從無異心，即使他是真的愛她。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcQGdcGh3K
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阿朗經已為他們付出很多很多，她看在眼內，不敢多言。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcHoVGvQGs
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若然，他需要在外尋找心靈慰藉，責任完全在於他嗎？她又想，自己是否無法給他足夠的信心，讓他相信，她可以一直一直地陪伴他呢。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aEdxakzzm
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可是，思思覺得，她真的可以。988Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgi2z9BFGZ
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