《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年，好似已經唔太愛。》 - 紀念悲（二）

漸漸，阿朗開始習慣和Fiona聊天，不過這種習慣並非罌粟，只是，定時定候上一炷香，燒出的飄逸也夠滿足他的誠心。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQZf63jKGf
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有時思思進房，看見阿朗凝神捧着手機，而他之前並不會。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZQ183X2SS
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她好奇：1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBs6A96go0
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「做咩呢排成日對住部手機？睇緊咩？」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsslFDQPIFq
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「好睇咪睇。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykIkm6at3r
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他會訛言只是看看新聞，看看小狗的圖片，看看朋友的近況。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrIHKJpcxq
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事實上，他沒有說謊，看的新聞是Fiona傳來的，小狗則是她的寵物，理所當然地，他也由此知道她的近況。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCnBOajwtk
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他沒有講大話，只是也沒有完全坦誠而已——1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEGVp7SYph
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Come on！邊個夠膽誠實咁樣同自己老婆講：1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmr3o2DgQfe
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「哦，我同緊個Ex傾偈呀。我哋緊係冇嘢啦，只不過好清楚大家嘅生活咋嘛，同埋佢成日都讚我，而我都勁鍾意俾佢讚呀！嗱，就算係咁，我都冇對你唔住㗎，雖然我識佢就早你幾年，雖然我曾經因為佢冇哂尊嚴，雖然佢真係好撚靚，但我哋分手之後做番朋友啦，絕對冇嘢㗎！你信我啦！」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSdQf1PwYx
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他堅持自問，自己並不是喜歡Fiona，只不過，和她說話是挺開心的，能夠誠實、坦然，有時令他消除一天的壓抑。他將她當成樹洞，說一些思思不知道的憂愁；反正，Fiona最後也會安撫他。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38BU3dtPCl
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他只是偶然，想起她，然後給自己一些認同感而已。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcEwWLknoP
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他相信，那不是愛情。所以又更有前進的底氣，既然沒有不忠，對得住自己、對得住思思、對得住棉花糖；又能情緒自洽，以更佳的狀態撞向生活，何樂而不為呢？1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZZuMseyTF
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只要不讓思思知道，就沒有問題。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13V5zvLN01
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他問自己，為什麼，思思不可以是那個人，他為什麼不能和她說那麼多深沉的心事呢。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nZ3axbN90
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他還沒有答案。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8KvDM628P
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這種生活，大概維持了幾個月。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBaASybXCz
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直到，Fiona有意無意地提起，自己仍很想念他。這才出現了一些變化。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTKZgONBR5
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這些天來，阿朗都很沉穩地與她聊着，沒有暴露需求感。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2wsfGhT00
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如果她明明聊着，卻忽然消失，他也不會問：1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLLLalLFYD
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「做緊咩？」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11VtDrjt3N
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就隨她想回覆時才找他，他自然是毫無壓力的。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8qIJaSC7G
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阿朗面對Fiona，像黃昏時走在一條熟悉而短暫的村路，如果忽覺疲累，可以選擇乘車回家；但同時，又可以慢悠悠地走回去，欣賞沿途石階的裂縫。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ70smj5uOm
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沒有壓力，沒有負擔感，也沒什麼得失心。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1LJYsdrvk
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但是，因此，Fiona驚覺，阿朗和別人不同，幾年之後，他並不再似當初迷戀自己。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qameIHE2A
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Fiona落寞。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAk8yzgPdh
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感覺像，她身穿高踭鞋、立在中午太陽之下開揚的大街，曬得滿面都有腿腳的酸軟，她只能馬上揮手，跳上的士。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBU8g6JAfl
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她只好發奮，不再吝嗇；和他說：1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zg5JJjXY9
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「宜家我發現，咁多年嚟，其實我只係真心鍾意過你。你同其他人真係完全唔同。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApxCoS0CsZ
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阿朗在村路上聽見了抑揚頓挫的風，吹散了正在發酵的汗珠，感覺舒暢。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLvOvakYNp
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「做咩突然講呢啲？」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvKzRXv2cY
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路邊的蘆葦草突然刮過他的小腿，嚇了他一下，癢癢的。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CKFdF7mam
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「因為你真係特別啩。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W5lcUHWkT
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他的腳步往左前方踏去，即使這樣更近馬路，至少別過了被草葉監察的不安。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61qffs9eLl
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「係咩？」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1WWgBG9kZ
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而Fiona，則嘗試說服司機超速駕駛，即使身處的士，還是有種眼目被日光填滿的燥熱。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTf2irrYnh
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「做你老婆，應該真係好幸福。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVZ2JBoH27
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阿朗看着眼前的直路，突然想起，家裏有人留飯給他；他猶豫，要不要跑回去？1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaZmYYvAoj
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「嗯，係嘅。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg826lEJpmW
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他放棄，這一段是上坡路，跑回去，將會身水身汗，太疲憊，倒不如先享受現在的寧靜。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21piApLLgl
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「我最近都有啲唔開心，好想見你。阿朗，要唔要出嚟飲一杯？」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfRACty8U7
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到達，Fiona拿出錢包，看了看的士的跳錶顯示。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2SFBuz8nE
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「可以。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIirUKY5eqf
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付錢、開門、下車。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1L6i0CRlK
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「星期六夜晚？」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfzBFQSOSI
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阿朗在路上走着，入夜，月亮的身影更明顯了；只是，他的頭頂，被路燈照耀，月光淡淡的擱置天上，不知道有什麼用。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71akcOoA8Z
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「好。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3SL3Jz4wV
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只是享受一下這一種閒適而已，走在人煙稀少的大街上，靜下心來。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uVf7Tykc1
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阿朗肯定自己不會走着走着改道，他只會回家吃飯，他是喜愛這一段歸途的。況且，飯菜會被保温，不會變涼。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2LZ4Dba0d
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所以，走慢一點吧。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtfkfM8wRo
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他想，應該不會有什麼問題的。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQem6MBIkga
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臨睡之前，阿朗搓了搓思思的腰窩，說：1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQZSIH5Bwa
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「老婆，我星期六約咗同學飲嘢。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkeXD7pfwe
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「邊個？」思思挑眉。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05jKOfabfS
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「中學同學，峰仔。」他只能撒謊。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4vCTyks7O
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她知道，峰仔是他的好朋友，其友好的程度令他們被誤會是同性戀。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKjMVZ0F4Q
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「好，唔好太夜番。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3fptlP7cU
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「知道！宜家一齊瞓啦。」1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsidmCUol9
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本來，思思心裏有很多話想說，想和他傾訴更多更多，譬如她的苦悶、無聊。畢竟這個開朗的他仿如初見，應更有心神聆聽她的需求，甚至滿足她。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFqSlgnMwn
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但是，下一刻，他又抱了抱她，他的氣息塗抹了她的鼻子，分享着同一口氣。忽然，她也好像不用說什麼，莫名的也快活起來。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6A0XZIFzC
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如此，她就知足。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlepjwYlD4
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月亮掛在天上，可能，真的沒什麼用。儘管如此，她仍然發亮。1443Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJm2l3KYdlA