這陣子我得承認自己在偷懶呢……因為發生了些事情令人感覺不太好受,真的要問是什麼事,看標題我猜大家也能想到一二。真心做人真不容易,別人結完婚都希望能回到娘家被人疼愛,自己卻回到娘家只被人無情地對待,說真的不怎好受——有種「要是能死掉就好了」這樣的念頭……諷刺的是覺得那日子沒離我有多遠,就……嗯。584Please respect copyright.PENANAsESTMHs4YF
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只能說自己現在人還活著,在身體還沒有垮掉之前大概得繼續撐著吧?584Please respect copyright.PENANATR5wwpZhb4
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暫時休息的原因是筆下的角色,許俊赫那家庭背景多少有參考到自己,以這一兩星期裡我的心理情況動筆對自己不怎健康呢? 很是希望未來真的成家的大家,請以友善的心去對待自己身邊的人,不要讓老一代的惡習繼續下去,惡性循環﹔他們要成為那種人是他們的選擇,我們是可以自主成為怎樣的人。584Please respect copyright.PENANAXLYYrjQVcy
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話是那麼說,有時覺得自己的努力像沒價值時,真的很無力。584Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5Hone9Mo0
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我只是想開心過每一天,一般來說我都沒要求身邊人為自己做什麼,一直被單方面地要求真的是……好累。愈是有親屬關係的,對自己就愈冷漠無情或更偽善,每想起就想送對方一個中指﹔憑什麼在沒問對方的情況下就丟光人家的東西呢? 簡單的尊重到了六十歲都學不懂嗎? 想被個年輕自己三十多年的後輩罵到無地自容嗎? 有本事在我面前抬扛啊? 別在我身後搞小動作,沒種的混蛋。(那所謂的長輩在一次吵架後慘敗給我後,在我面前成了家裡蹲。)584Please respect copyright.PENANAd831lbUVMv
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是的,對我來說很重要的東西,在回娘家想拿走時,什麼都不剩,感覺很糟。我很想哭鬧,卻像另一半哪晚看的YOUTUBER說的抑鬱症特徵那樣,對什麼事都「無感」,明明難受,但身體失去了發洩的指令,看起來就像機械人在做每天固定得幹的事而已,這並不正常﹔直到有晚老爸的一通電話不小心幫我啟動了那機制,我才能大哭起來。這還是頭一遭。584Please respect copyright.PENANAwwQOHRxtOQ
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老爸叫我客觀點,我對他說︰我已經很客觀了,主觀任性起來,我還想跟他們斷六親呢?584Please respect copyright.PENANAGsiThxfjqK
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最慘的是,我可以這樣處理,但內心深處並不想這樣,這才令我難過。584Please respect copyright.PENANA1YemYz6KtD
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在丈夫家有時聽到些冷言冷語,因娘家的習性影響,明明說的不是自己(另外我沒完全會聽客家話),都認為他家裡人在說我,腦子又萌生起「真想死掉」的想法。584Please respect copyright.PENANAI5PG6ezM46
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在想自己存在的價值跟意義是什麼?584Please respect copyright.PENANAHqp6e8qr8R
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這種家屬式的枷鎖真的跟詛咒好像沒什麼兩樣呢?
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我腦袋中的雜音
Author:
諾雅
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Oct 29, 2020
ISSUE #19
所謂的家族關係(2)
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