前晚睡前刷手機的時候,我看到一位幾年前在手機乙女遊戲結識的台灣女網友,在面書的限時動態打了一小段文字。她在最後的部分打了這一句「離開吧」,很是讓我擔心,結果自己懶理時間(當時已經是凌晨一點多了),也發了訊息問她還好嗎? 最後知道令她難過的是什麼事,人也安好後我心裡才踏實了。521Please respect copyright.PENANAmm8C0SYNrC
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因為是其他事情的話,我也不知道能對她說些什麼去支持對方。521Please respect copyright.PENANAqGthXwhhHA
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因自己也很吃力去尋找要逗留在這個世界上的理由。521Please respect copyright.PENANApd44Rxz6R0
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這世上的確存在著美好的事物,可不幸的是丑惡的部份永遠是多出美好事物的三、四倍(也許以上)。有些「惡」我們是可以靠自己的力量去改變它,然而總有一些不能。521Please respect copyright.PENANADeaNo8K6Nb
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現實很殘酷,尤其在這2020年,更是明顯。521Please respect copyright.PENANAz8OExtwQIH
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往日還可以埋頭在一些作品裡,讓自己思緒陷入那些作品中,遺忘掉現實有多垃圾跟不知所謂。但是今年連到電影院看套作品也困難﹔想出外買點書待在家裡看,卻沒剩多少書店可選擇﹔意圖敗家收藏心頭好,又要顧慮因沒有收入,不能隨便購物——最終,自己連陷入作品中迷失的動力也沒有。521Please respect copyright.PENANA0t5OQJRkuu
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就算滑手機,你再想避開一些負面資訊,它還是可以讓你看見。521Please respect copyright.PENANAKMzkFkrH7k
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說真的很是疲憊。我每天得亂幻想還沒寫到的內容橋段,才可以情緒正面一些。521Please respect copyright.PENANAep4sCkHrzY
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解決了網友的問題,我昨天還得面對,自己失去喜歡的英雄角色演員的現實。521Please respect copyright.PENANA7DUhR4Ch30
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對,我說的是黑豹。本人是漫威影視宇宙的毒粉,光是系列的模型這些年也收藏不少,最多是Marvel的Legends系列,其次大概就是系列的黏土人了。因為就只有這系列容易集齊全部電影角色。我也集齊了黑豹系列Legends有推出的影視設計模型。521Please respect copyright.PENANAczdudNOh08
(昨晚我甚至還跟丈夫說: 想把黑豹Play Art改的放出來,懷念他。)521Please respect copyright.PENANAnci7IXNUCR
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其實我很清楚自己所喜愛的藝人、作者、朋友又或親人,總有一天會突然離開自己生活中。亦知道有時人離開更加輕鬆,不過人這樣做等同認輸了(等等,我好像認了很久),每次沉思也每次深感矛盾。521Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6DiS7Jln8
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無法控制跟改變的事情太多了,產生過大的無力感,這是令人最感到煩躁跟苦惱的。521Please respect copyright.PENANAsGb8JNX2fb
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網友也很敏銳發現我心靈情況也沒好她多少,我也如實告訴她以上的那些。碰巧原來她也知道我在沉迷的演員金南佶,結果就忘我聊了很久。(真可惜,香港沒多少人認識他。)521Please respect copyright.PENANA56ZvIBU2HN
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——久到那種讓人感無力的煩惱不知什麼時候離開了。521Please respect copyright.PENANAnlQUFbUupe
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其實想好好過日子,就是要這樣享受這種簡單的快樂。521Please respect copyright.PENANAkfxGEhkt2z
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只有這樣才能把叫讓人感到噁心的「惡」離開。521Please respect copyright.PENANABIakjCB86y
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只是……不容易啊?
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我腦袋中的雜音
Author:
諾雅
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Aug 30, 2020
ISSUE #14
離開吧?
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