好像這個月金代表(金南佶)在他的NGO平台發了日誌,一張他拍攝的照片跟一代表它的名字《迷路》。我老是在想……代表先生,你想走的路已經好好在那裡,你人也在上面好好前進啊? 指的是哪方面的「迷路」啊? (壞笑) 不過同時地,我人也像腦袋被人打了一棍,在想……自己該往哪裡走呢?609Please respect copyright.PENANA0LCbnsaEUe
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嗯,每個人靜下來的時候,都有機會冒出這感覺,不知道自己之後的日子該怎麼走。609Please respect copyright.PENANAg56SHmo7LV
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還是學生的時候我很想野心大大的,想當一個用文字養活自己的社會人物﹔但是到進入社會經歷了不同的事情之後,覺得光要當好一個人,已經是條很困難的路了,妄想開什麼分支線呢? 最後我的目標就變成當一個每天對得起自己,可以舒心過一天的平凡又幸福的普通人。609Please respect copyright.PENANAcarHh4SmtI
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然後,我現在有好好走在那條路上。609Please respect copyright.PENANA8F4DrA7990
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……那麼又是在迷茫什麼?609Please respect copyright.PENANAW7um7eWSgo
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迷茫自己在沒辦法再工作的時候,真正退休的時候想做什麼? (懵)609Please respect copyright.PENANALruUd7bWmg
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一直有想法開一家書店,不過以我的能力大概是做不好,因入貨什麼會覺得很煩,在想有沒有可能是二手書店吧? 但那始終只是一個想法,沒說很想做到。所以那種迷途感真的很虛無。609Please respect copyright.PENANA0C2xceNLo2
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我也很迷惑自己的故事,《不能愛你嗎》這作品有沒有達到自己想要的水準。609Please respect copyright.PENANAexNpbylZj5
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心裡對它其實有個數,不過我的看法跟讀它的讀者所抱的想法,不一定一致……收到的讀者回音不多,所以不敢抱很高的期望給它。我閒時自己會回頭,從頭到尾讀一次(至少得自己也能讀得下去才能期盼有人讀它),然後尋找需要微調的位置,再思考它缺了的是什麼,接著在未來的章節試著補上。609Please respect copyright.PENANAiRve85gqOV
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雖然說我一直把「要是完成它就弄成書寄過去給本尊」這事當成笑話來看,但是卻真的有這個想法。因為比起說應援,我比較想以這方式告訴他,自己有這程度的欣賞他才創作這故事,並把它真弄成一本書當成禮物送給他,而這件事將會花費我很大筆錢去達成……那真的是很貴的禮物,以至於我會在想,它有沒有這資格成這件事。609Please respect copyright.PENANAsRKtW2rEsF
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就這樣,我又懵了。609Please respect copyright.PENANADtLU5fPc6f
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因我想寫出來的故事,會讓人不想說放賣它出去,會說為了想回憶那種愛情,坐在一邊從書櫃上拿下來讀的愛情故事。那很自大的幻想,可是每位愛書人士的書架,總有一些書是不捨得它不在那裡,我很想做到那樣……然後再把它弄成禮物寄過去。(喂) 瞧,可見我真的很想那麼幹的。609Please respect copyright.PENANASb0YMJ7tO6
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有時我真的很慶幸自己還是一個無名之人,那樣我就不用背負太多別人的想法,自由地活著,任性地無罪惡感迷茫下去,直到自己時間沒了為止。609Please respect copyright.PENANAdBQCoGgEiW
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(拍拍大腿) 得趁自己放假的時間把筆記本裡的內容處理完才行。就這樣。
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我腦袋中的雜音
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ISSUE #34
迷路
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