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兩年多過去,我一直沒有全職工作,沒有跟半個朋友來往,過著封閉式生活。386Please respect copyright.PENANApQIazC8cnr
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今天運動完了,我回到家裡,一如以往空無一人、昏暗的大廳,洗好澡,打算推開房門的時候,聽到身後另一道房門拉開了。386Please respect copyright.PENANAdbLtc443p5
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「程,回來了嗎?」老爸說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAge25SoLnvu
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老爸數年前動過手術,幸運地,他的康復進度良好。數年過去了,傷口雖然還會隱隱作痛,老爸按時吃藥,依照醫生的指示,身體已沒大礙。386Please respect copyright.PENANAantrdwyWIG
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從前老爸是夜班司機,大病之後沒有上夜班了。不言敗的他,總是希望重投職場,以較低薪水重操故業,當兼職日班私人司機,每星期上班三天,其他時間在家裡休息。據老爸說,他的體力能應付工作需要,老媽當然想老爸以身體作為首要考慮,但是考慮到終點是希望老爸走出疾病的陰霾,所以放任醫學上失去工作能力的老爸繼續工作。386Please respect copyright.PENANAgFWbsCvkox
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一個秋日的午後,今天老爸不用上班。386Please respect copyright.PENANALpjLJPpLCZ
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「嗯。」我說。386Please respect copyright.PENANANjtXOdOmAw
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難道這個衣裝要出去嗎?386Please respect copyright.PENANA68SVxDCik9
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「吃了飯沒有,要做飯給你吃嗎?」老爸說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAuga1G0x1w6
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「不…不用了,已經吃了。」我說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAAjqxPv9Ihp
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「有空聊一下嗎?」老爸扶著牆壁,坐到沙發說。386Please respect copyright.PENANALSpdgy2KIh
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「…」386Please respect copyright.PENANAtyhMqtr37A
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突然要聊天,總覺得不會是甚麼好事。386Please respect copyright.PENANAh9ovoYGSly
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我倒了杯熱茶給老爸,坐到了老爸身旁,心裡準備好迎接老爸的訓斥。386Please respect copyright.PENANARHRMTdVF9d
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我稍稍察看老爸的臉,他是一張仁慈的臉。386Please respect copyright.PENANAbTAf93VoAQ
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「今天沒有補習嗎?」老爸說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAUtSAOs39ul
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「有啊,晚上有一個學生。」386Please respect copyright.PENANArrU8cWelZQ
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「不用等你吃飯了?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAwg3MIXFKfN
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「我吃了飯再出去。」386Please respect copyright.PENANA1DNcHfEVfw
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「收入…還好嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAqr5pAxwh3f
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兩年了,沒有全職工作的事實,家人當然知道,以前我跟他們說︰「我的開支會自理」,老爸老媽竟然沒有反對,光哥…自中學以後就不再管我的事了,所以沒人阻止我的決定。我一直依靠補習那份不高不低的收入過活,其他時間不斷做戶外運動和在房間做訓練,希望終有一天能打開那個「開關」,離開發展協調障礙這個問題。但時至今天,問題依然持續。386Please respect copyright.PENANAlq5KNMhlHn
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「嗯。」我馬虎回答。386Please respect copyright.PENANAXzklhTPQLo
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「不夠花的話我給你一點?」老爸說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAK2q6NaLqrM
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因為光哥的工程公司經營理想,他不時給一大把鈔票作為家用,感覺是送錢給父母的孝子,老爸老媽見到我的情況,不時問我錢夠不夠花,總是被我拒絕。386Please respect copyright.PENANAUiOJv6DjtZ
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「不用了,我還可以,老爸你把錢儲起來吧。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAJKcBAIr6P4
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路是自己挑的,到死,都要把路走完,為自己的決定負責。386Please respect copyright.PENANAzRDc8Gmba2
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「想關心一下你的情況,可以嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANALylgHW5B26
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你的身份是父親,沒有甚麼可以不可以啊,否定我的決定也是有道理的。386Please respect copyright.PENANAUlpjplbPbn
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「程你…真的沒打算找全職工作嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANANuDe4EF7ya
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「…」我盯著屋內的一角,思考怎樣回答。386Please respect copyright.PENANAvkJHpaCGE9
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「雖然錢方面你現在不成問題,但是長久下去,人的擔子愈來愈大,我們幫不了多少啊。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAD21VOHJspq
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作為補習老師,時薪升幅不算理想,最理想方法是多找幾個學生,這樣就犧牲時間,跟我的主要目標相違背。386Please respect copyright.PENANApdPixmlU7b
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「你爸我,知道你不是沒有工作的心,你每天都有去上班,幹自己喜歡的事,沒有問我們要過半毛錢,這些我們是知道的,但是你的情況,我們開始擔心了。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAHvqbumk57j
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要是老爸來硬的,我一定頂嘴,但是他用柔和的方式說這些話,我反駁不了,準確點說是「不忍心反駁」...386Please respect copyright.PENANAOFeU5wClbV
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「喜歡教學生,為甚麼不當全職補習老師?我朋友的女兒就是補習老師,這樣工作會穩定一點吧?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAUPjb6eZdsg
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我不是沒有想過當全職補習老師...全職就沒有時間了。我選擇維持這個狀態是希望找到更多時間,為身上的機能病找到答案,我深信自己能辦到,所以從來沒有放棄過,也沒有放棄過自己...386Please respect copyright.PENANAAbPNdQj76F
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這兩年裡,我不斷嘗試以前聽過的疑似答案,早就試過但沒甚麼治效、物理治療師的治療指示,還有白先生說的運動治療法,每天抽很多時間反覆做過無數次測試、鍛鍊,甚至中學確診之前被我否定了的方向也重新跑了一遍,有開倒車的感覺,但事實是︰所有都不像是答案,手部活動能力沒有突破性的改善...天啊...386Please respect copyright.PENANA0cvGVcVsv5
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可能,我對自己是個「不正常的人」這個自我定位耿耿於懷,不想被別人標籤,也不想接受這個事實,所以才花費無數時間想要治好這個病。386Please respect copyright.PENANAg3G9TaewED
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念念不忘,結果白花了兩年。386Please respect copyright.PENANAmeJBvLuKZd
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值得為一個旁人看來只是小問題的病花掉青春黃金期的兩年嗎?386Please respect copyright.PENANAKCCEY1xoUf
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我想沒有經歷過這類病症的人,是不會明白我的痛苦。這個想法,從中學開始我已經抱持著。386Please respect copyright.PENANAwx68qtkOWx
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即使是經歷過這種苦的白先生,也不太明白我的痛苦。他憑自己的其他優秀條件,成功找到其他類別的工作,他還「幸運地」解決了抄寫的問題,成就非凡。386Please respect copyright.PENANAdvC8ssDLik
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一將功成,萬骨枯。有多少同病相連的畢業生被這個病折騰得死來活去,迷失在時間的洪流之中?難道失敗者會站出來分享失敗的經驗嗎?從來只有成功者有資格搞分享會,讓所有人看成功者美輪美奐的一面。於我而言,我覺得失敗者也值得搞自己的分享會,前車之轍,可以借鑒,但是世界價值觀否定了我的想法,我一直找不到經驗分享,不論是生活周遭,還是越洋到世界彼端的網絡世界。386Please respect copyright.PENANAcvnOMHfezI
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「…」我好像有甚麼難言之隱似的,純粹低下頭。386Please respect copyright.PENANA9mSx6wXb6K
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「有甚麼事想要做嗎?」老爸說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAPO6JQHKQp2
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我微微點頭。386Please respect copyright.PENANA77XVjPazJ1
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「是不是那個...甚麼病?」老爸問。386Please respect copyright.PENANAgXiC5A1dTm
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原來老爸還記得我有這個問題。386Please respect copyright.PENANA1mJSQNDHx1
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我又微微點頭。386Please respect copyright.PENANAN0eMdf26mh
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「你爸我,還有你媽,唸書真的不多,不知道你發生了甚麼事,但是人的時間是有限的,你看我和你媽,臉上皺紋跟頭髮一樣多,不要留下後悔啊。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAuEcgphe86V
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不要留下後悔…386Please respect copyright.PENANAnHAsYvlVl8
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其實我現在做的事就是為了不留下後悔,但好像在製造另一個後悔…我開始搞不清了。386Please respect copyright.PENANAlS5RqDXHxs
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「聊別的吧。光快要結婚了,他有跟你聊過甚麼嗎?」老爸轉話題。386Please respect copyright.PENANAYivrN4k47r
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「沒有。」386Please respect copyright.PENANACk4bopRSOp
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這幾年我不斷向光哥搭話,他總是一句起,兩句止的回答,他怎會主動跟我說甚麼。386Please respect copyright.PENANAEXmG8HMP9b
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「甚麼?竟然沒有?兩星期後就是光的婚禮了。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAd86sVDcmSK
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「甚麼時候安排的?我完全不知道啊。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAmaxuEhT3c6
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我只知道光哥跟一個叫歐陽家琪的女孩交往了幾年,她不時在我們家吃飯,感情穩定,就只是這樣。我真不知道婚期。386Please respect copyright.PENANApneeoxtps0
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「光打算儀式簡單一點,把錢省下來。早上註冊簽文件,下午到雙方的家敬茶,晚上在茶樓擺幾圍,儀式就當完成了。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAOL81jxU0TK
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「沒有禮服之類的嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAtvgxg0oKCU
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「沒有,光主張一切從簡,他打算穿運動裝而已。」老爸難掩萬分恩惠心情地說。386Please respect copyright.PENANA7MgKewEG06
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穿運動裝結婚…386Please respect copyright.PENANAa8GNpre47A
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「即是說我們不用刻意打扮?」386Please respect copyright.PENANALjpjqsG3S7
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「我想是吧,我跟你媽打算穿得像逛街一樣而已,不然比主角更好看又有點奇怪。」老爸笑著說。386Please respect copyright.PENANAfMaRZqxUqa
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「那天我有甚麼可以幫忙嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANApQmFjeWyhk
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「嗯…暫時沒有。你那天早點起床,給一天光吧?補習可以調動一下時間嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANA0LDtTgFvMk
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「好的。」386Please respect copyright.PENANADLRXhXlGvo
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「還有,光說你不用買甚麼給他了,不用花這個錢。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAZZJDZ54CN5
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「…」386Please respect copyright.PENANADwAMvoj7C2
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買結婚禮物的話,獨力選一份禮物,少說也要二千多塊,精美一點或者挑戒指可能要三千,可能光哥考慮到我的經濟狀況吧。386Please respect copyright.PENANAyMG0bmWPvY
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「杜家終於有媳婦了,光真的混得不錯。」老爸的臉洋溢著幸福,老懷安慰般。386Please respect copyright.PENANAnWcGMcqU9D
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光哥中學成績太爛,沒有繼續唸書,早早踏入社會,卻因為找到自己前路去向,早早啟程出發、在社會混,混得理想;反觀自己…也是混社會,卻是「胡混」的「混」,事業還沒有起步。386Please respect copyright.PENANACpQI5rBwmw
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「其實你爸我…雖然今天只有自己一個人吃飯,但是相當高興,因為你們都有自己的事業︰你媽要工作,你也要工作,光除了工作還要陪女朋友,能有這個家庭,我非常高興。現在我最擔心的是你啊,程。」386Please respect copyright.PENANA8y3td9jxLj
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「…」386Please respect copyright.PENANASOJn3BltWi
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「可以的話,我真想你帶一個人上來吃飯,能倒茶給我喝就最好了。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAiLFo5nVUw2
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我就知道這個話題今天一定躲不了…你要喝茶是嗎?我倒給你,你要多少杯?386Please respect copyright.PENANAyNMNT6E3Xq
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「程啊。」老爸抓起我的手。「要學會為自己打算啊,人會老的。」386Please respect copyright.PENANA9xc9kBiCtN
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「嗯…嗯。」我只哼出一聲,表情苦澀,心裡被揪住似的。「呼…」386Please respect copyright.PENANAAq7iC95jFH
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速度…到今天還沒有結果…386Please respect copyright.PENANAm4ozHAoAYi
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「肚子真的不餓嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAllkTUUBJmb
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「嗯。」我哼聲。386Please respect copyright.PENANAqMuE8WQPvF
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「好吧,聊了很久,那麼不阻你了。」老爸說畢,蹣跚地回到房間休息了。386Please respect copyright.PENANAySokRxXqyk
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為何一個病人,即使被評為「永久失去工作能力」,拼死擠出半點力量,成就出不可能;而身為健全人士的我,卻甚麼也做不到…386Please respect copyright.PENANAsjzSiFNO96
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「為甚麼?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAQ97Xb32kEL
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為甚麼…386Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3jKXPt487
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我不想再停留在這個階段啊,那麼接下來的路,要怎樣走?386Please respect copyright.PENANAQqejYyRcWk
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[勵志] 命運的顏色 - 一個書寫障礙患者的故事
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