#1 Entry: Why I Started This.744Please respect copyright.PENANAktENB1LvMi
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.744Please respect copyright.PENANAbVsRH7v5Ma
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 744Please respect copyright.PENANATNMhn413dP
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.744Please respect copyright.PENANAPLsXs9gy7K
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 744Please respect copyright.PENANAKWz0Md4YhA
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 744Please respect copyright.PENANATaDWlcPoEB
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAPhcMIydu1m
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAR79LrexveV
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAL0C4JOF9of
...744Please respect copyright.PENANAU5wHIm8yio
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?744Please respect copyright.PENANA7NTyIKj41G
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.744Please respect copyright.PENANABt3HlBwbfo
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)744Please respect copyright.PENANAxVyyO7B6tO
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 744Please respect copyright.PENANA9HhWzlSBai
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 744Please respect copyright.PENANARCNne9mwjT
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?744Please respect copyright.PENANAZOHqAJYg5F
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAiFOpNjZKkP
So calling it off, was it that bad?744Please respect copyright.PENANArBbAxfHrRi
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAbidyugY6GU
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)744Please respect copyright.PENANA4hFrOAzD9j
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAuOBxaxWwg9
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAlcrekRhK8Z
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAbODQfhQ7rD
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAmF2l5QCp32
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAjYXAdnulZj
Henceforth, we have this. 744Please respect copyright.PENANAPDp2LTpJNW
Thanks for bearing with me. 744Please respect copyright.PENANA58pmEEWdSP
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