#1 Entry: Why I Started This.745Please respect copyright.PENANAhA6xUoMYbz
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.745Please respect copyright.PENANAAcJKw1lfqF
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAneYbtAaAz7
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.745Please respect copyright.PENANA6mcJChAvZ3
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 745Please respect copyright.PENANAWCwVUjwtQh
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 745Please respect copyright.PENANA7D224xsz7e
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAOyHBUaGRMp
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAljumaLxulI
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAG5ggwblFXh
...745Please respect copyright.PENANARv4AVnir1O
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?745Please respect copyright.PENANAqLkJZNmYni
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.745Please respect copyright.PENANAwevCrCMnVv
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)745Please respect copyright.PENANAgleazzsh9M
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAemeEFkgg3Z
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAJEZ5r4pahp
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?745Please respect copyright.PENANApOgiX2qSVn
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 745Please respect copyright.PENANALBnlyy6uhq
So calling it off, was it that bad?745Please respect copyright.PENANAji5EpH6HIa
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 745Please respect copyright.PENANA5cjWAzTh9S
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)745Please respect copyright.PENANAKUSda0yZQv
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAypzyGUq5yT
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAgR8UFusqzu
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAalJTTD0UtA
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAvr6p1cgMsj
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAodVYAwM7Qc
Henceforth, we have this. 745Please respect copyright.PENANAzKhNmFDLWk
Thanks for bearing with me. 745Please respect copyright.PENANA4AgfeAL9mE
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