Confessions of an Addict - #1 Entry: Why I Started This.

#1 Entry: Why I Started This.1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2hTEZ6W5Y

This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE5bhvNZrX

A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDGfkCIvLz

His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKYAWV65KO

Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxMruQBSSg

Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI6Bui8Aah
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc3h3Cp2sr

I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7os5uzmQi

So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeDqIaNyXQ

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And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqnNIUHRaP

Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQ4n5EBQtO

But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP99TzAd348

So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA0pRB2AnT

I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqo68ZSdNJt

But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc6IVVmoMH

I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEm2QwmkDVa

So calling it off, was it that bad?1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHoXpXWPwD

Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNaoSHtk5A

BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9Uw4e93YJ

But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6Gux4iU0p

If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOGLhr3CO4

But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9I5Xk9k1PI

He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwO22eu9uV

So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bCuBT2u7T

Henceforth, we have this. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyJj9QeQX3

Thanks for bearing with me. 1352Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfTAhzPzX8

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