Confessions of an Addict - #1 Entry: Why I Started This.

#1 Entry: Why I Started This.1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNotscDIAR

This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiFT3s7Dzf

A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcO9nQcoXp

His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96KFv790lF

Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipHsSNANMN

Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBhMetFTJq
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHo1GWswWAQ

I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGNHV1JJLK

So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH1EEFL3uX

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And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5TPMI8H4z

Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpJcGpjLXh

But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqTSs5VgpQ

So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUTQWueJBw

I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72MB6twyx7

But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5jzrs3dM0

I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XDjZzg2t0

So calling it off, was it that bad?1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXrPAMfHvh

Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20NoQKfRcQ

BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0ZDHXmRNS

But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpR80bmOOyz

If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclkPWt2tWo

But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEwnvbaGNn

He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFveW0IsFY

So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPA3bBOemKr

Henceforth, we have this. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbUuD0T2J3

Thanks for bearing with me. 1353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLGmuL566k

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