Confessions of an Addict - #1 Entry: Why I Started This.

#1 Entry: Why I Started This.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQUAvdcnwc

This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKteAiSXgK

A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFfqwPoQS8

His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3yYCmssKG

Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSqEadOF2b

Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKg1U9X8bS1
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQhXARNZnp

I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94qI8Deu36

So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hEu3YkOE1

...731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNNfc3ArL2

And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWHgCilCCA

Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4hblXjgME

But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGEiUsS90V

So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfibgHoQah

I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqxZD1A6y7

But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5QwClLhJh

I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssPoDlwPN3

So calling it off, was it that bad?731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38IzOBvAIc

Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPWyxd2Xfi

BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTk4hKwhh9C

But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3r0hfvOKp

If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidF82F9o9V

But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHBZJoxEOr

He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoowJvNksx

So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Uj0ClPR9r

Henceforth, we have this. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIre0WagTi

Thanks for bearing with me. 731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOFGXmb2EH

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