「這一句話，我會記上一輩子。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerXNE3vuYY
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMykRwa9qS
二十年前，我拋下這麼一句話，頭也不回，離開那個家。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoSRd3AmjD
某位於港島區的咖啡店內。淺啡木紋地磚和同調木紋膠板桌椅，配襯白色牆身和米黃色燈膽，輔以多個小盆栽和青色咕𠱸作點綴，簡潔得來帶有滿滿的溫馨。完全符合阿妹理想中「家」的形象。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Gj8We6fhb
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcYqCH1gLQ
我們齊齊長大於日本文化盛行的年代，對日系風格情有獨鍾實屬在所難免。惟鍾愛歸鍾愛，我不禁在心裡吐糟眼前的芝士蛋糕：虛假的芝士味道和香氣，甜得發膩的化學甜，有如焦土的乾癟質地。怎麼可以如此難吃？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfG44CPPQh
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6ADonwbJI
「不喜歡？」阿妹冷道，沒望我一眼，逕自品嚐她的芝士蛋糕和朱古力咖啡。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw01AJevmUX
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG32gva8lSp
「嗯。」我放下叉子，放棄價值五十元的蛋糕，暗嘆浪費。我寧可花同樣價錢，去茶餐廳吃鹹魚雞粒炒飯。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9QcbiARBP
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2SxfKuHcR
「這是區內最有名氣的芝士蛋糕。」阿妹對我的口味不以為然。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5nUJwwYRs
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4PwKXfINa
「以『難吃』見稱嗎？」我冷嘲，惹得鄰桌的情侣竊笑。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvaPd1rri9
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRU3cNyz09
阿妹面色玄青，無視我，低頭享用她的下午茶。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EnWowZUrG
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8MK4l37kL
我沒趣地拿出手提電話消磨時間，目光時而在通訊軟件上遊走，時而偷瞄對座的阿妹。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoeAlDOt61
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVtJ7JEG1C
我倆之間，是一張深度六百毫米的枱，也是二十年的空白。見面之前，我記憶中的阿妹是個廿三歲大學畢業生，純真無邪，略懂打扮；碰面當刻，舊印象驟然消失，獨一無二的阿妹變成充斥中環的普通辦公室女郎。微卷深啡長髮，濃妝豔抹，粉綠色及膝連身裙，純白色短袖小外套，三吋高跟鞋。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MpcEVHzYm
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCNjYtPNIQ
曾幾何時，我深信自己會跟阿妹一樣，成為打扮斯文的辦公室女郎。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4n1ohxjdT
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5HXQYxeFK
我的思緒飄到遙遠的平行世界去，直至阿妹放下叉子：「走吧。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVh2OEBe3C
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf61SmHFMR4
截下的士，我們直驅醫院去。車廂中，又是令人窒息的沉默。我從倒後鏡瞥望阿妹。她托著下巴，似是對著窗外景物發呆，亦似是從玻璃車廂的模糊倒影觀察我。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAbWldaM1x
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtL7IS9caM
「待會兒，態度必須要溫和。」阿妹的口吻帶有「命令」的味道。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7k0Tz4fUOK
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmX2M91QZ4
「盡量。」我是個直腸直肚的人。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNgssekwta
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFLOAhM4yS
「難道你沒能大發慈悲，讓媽咪『離開』得安詳？」她略略加強語氣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5KjNSuqXU
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EnmcNhVyB
「所以我沒有拒絕，而是答『盡量』！」我強抑怒火：「你不是不知道她的嘴巴就是不饒人！難道我要盲目啞忍所有過份要求？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiU3eOHwdLd
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9cgTBSQV8
「那天以後，她性格大變，嘴巴再也硬不起來。」阿妹神色放軟。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0AA9LRHS2
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuUSXw1Dvz
我沒駁斥，任由沉默張牙舞爪。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDSDjXqJ18
進入私人病房前，阿妹從手袋拿出一個小紙袋，塞到我手裡：「給媽咪的小禮物，佯稱是你買的。」沒待我答允，她已推門內進，不讓我有拒絕的機會。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUJy5zzCrn
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2liBzNlkS
病床上的媽咪，戴著頸箍，缺了左腿，全身插滿連接儀器的喉管。床頭櫃有熱水壼和膠杯，櫃側有一灰色的膠椅，椅上有她最鍾愛的墨綠色的毛衣。出乎意料，毛衣多年以來仍忠實地守候在她身邊，活像她幻想出來的完美女兒。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7lKORilXG
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitbMZozoG3
「送你的。」根據阿妹的指示，我奉上紙袋。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7QpU27Omy
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67KxWIm63f
媽咪的頭動不了，眼皮使力地開開合合，眼珠子艱難地轉動著，幾經辛苦才成功對焦，看見我。眼淚暴瀉，雙唇微顫，千言萬語卻離不開齒間。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt85Qbrm1ev
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf6w3RALlS
「喚媽咪吧。」阿妹怒目相向，恨我的狠。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCmDCHcXth
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3gGf7d6N8
縱先前對媽咪的病情略知一二，惟在此情此境，我竟反應不來，原地愣住。喜怒憂懼愛憎欲，好比混在一起的彩砂，沒能再分開。粒粒彩砂本來顏色鮮明，在此刻偏偏成了惹人眼花撩亂的雜訊，佔據每吋視線，令我看不清楚自己的心意。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwJjBvCoSw
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZy7N76GHw
「媽……咪……」我耗盡力氣，千辛萬苦才擠出兩粒字。不情不願，因為找不到自己的位置；心甘情願，因為這是最後的聚頭，該盡力讓事情有個不差勁的結局，算是清還她的養育之恩。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBilEAcXYm2
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSOJcbRHlF
阿妹招招手，要我湊近媽咪，讓她看清楚多年不見的女兒。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqZiYN4S2j
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ273fBthcvx
一絲抗拒掠過。我沒打算捕捉它，隨它消逝。我的手腳開始沒那麼生硬，乖乖依從阿妹的指令，走近床邊。阿妹要我給媽咪奉水，我照辦如儀。阿妹要我為媽咪披上毛衣，好，沒問題……不知底蘊的人看見「母慈女孝」的畫面，定會誤會我仨關係良好，感情深厚。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7aXfkBbN7
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6bCQWkMxN
整個探訪過程，媽咪沒能吐出片言隻字：她的喉嚨受惡菌感染，非但沒能進食固體食物，甚至失去語言能力。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeeKDH1wN5
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kiNtHmIvB
不得不承認，我賤格。表面和藹謙恭，底裡毒如蛇蠍。我幻想，如果二十年前的媽咪已失去語言能力，我會否仍生活在這個家，是個千依百順的好女兒？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJKZ0ZS0Lg
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqx2wX6ns1
兩小時後，媽咪倦極入睡。阿妹要我先離開病房，在門外等候她。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IoTfY7ss3
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyytARkGVT
甫踏出房門，我與阿姨碰個正著。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEl242Mf0Ce
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XRUxHj3DU
死八婆！若非她當年在旁煽風點火，我和家人的關係未必會破裂收場。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYudtERMGxT
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIuoHTtM9z
「我就是知道你會來。」阿姨擺出料事如神的姿態，以冷峻目光掃視我全身：「很缺錢吧？」講完莫名其妙的一句後，她掏出一張支票予我。「你的報酬。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyXtSNUP1g
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdEnh3zVwZ
我沒有立即接下，思疑她在打甚麼鬼主意。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Eg5vw3nsy
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ799Pt7IV
湊巧，阿妹從病房出來，看見我和阿姨在門口僵持，立即上前解釋事情因由：「我沒有告訴她關於支票的事。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXG6xPgu8d
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNCi9XB0XF
「你的意思……她不是為錢而來？」阿姨拿著支票的手緩緩垂下。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ5T1IPlN7
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeVcMGZ4Ih
「嗯。」受壓於阿姨的強勢，適才不慍不火的阿妹怯怯點頭。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXXTMui1s7
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5m1ocK6Wl
「那麼……」阿姨猶豫了半晌，最終還是決定將猜忌放進問題裡。「你為何而來？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagUUv6tnkG
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvttCPliVX
「出於對老人家的憐憫和惻隱。」我胡謅，強裝正氣凜然。其實我未曾細想自己為何而來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzvNZdffsC
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuAAFSxxvQ
「很好。可以省掉。」阿姨有意無意地將支票在我面前晃來晃去。逗狗似的。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzknJUaJHXV
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrixISGRY2f
「如果沒有別的要事，我先離開。」我選擇了忍耐。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yF2IqJK2l
醫院外的大路上，人不多，三三兩兩的。探病的、求醫的、久病初癒的、迴光反照的。我屬於哪種？該是「半死不活的」：情況沒有差得要死，卻怎也活得不好。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lxWeyzCAk
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cRe6oj9uv
缺錢？工作不順利？與丈夫婚姻不和諧？與子女有代溝？統統不是。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXnqfIrodZ
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVhRlno7J0
僅是純粹的不快樂，若有所失。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkGq1vMUfW
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8U1URpw2L
每當我感到幸福時，記憶就會成為粘粘的漿糊，將我黏在內心的缺口上。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEOMx2b2LZ
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGI0t1fEav
「等……我……」阿妹的聲音從後傳來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWrp7yR3V4
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV7XqOpcun
我佯裝聽不見，加快腳步，務求撇下腳踏三吋高跟鞋的她。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjaahfQHB1
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVSro64Yfy
「家姐！」豈料阿妹不顧儀態，高呼大叫，吸引途人們的目光。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsBcZTMl4T
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IRjxVCbXZ
我的雙腳不自已停下來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eDQgPT1oG
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76scNsE0Au
不消十秒，氣喘如牛的阿妹跑到我身邊來：「謀……殺……嗎？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCy8aL5CB2
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIF1DNP9d7n
我鐵著臉，沒意欲跟她開玩笑。「那張支票，是誰的主意？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja1WuuYD2w
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40krbxjAyD
「媽咪。」阿妹不敢正視我雙眼：「她覺得你會拒絕到來。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1PJbx2g2t
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUEhIGhr8k
「你們仍舊認為我是嫌棄家境窮困而離開嗎？」我本不欲重提舊話，奈何我忍不住要再次辯解。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36nD29dZXz
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XDKYm5Bru
「我們想不到其他原因。」阿妹的答案隱含委屈。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07Ka2CxZR2
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LIPhMlC0I
「我從不認為我們家境窮困。」我氣得開步走。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2ERLVt0Ft
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPStImUbuy
阿妹連忙拉住我的衣袖，轉換話題：「有興趣跟我和阿姨吃晚餐嗎？我們會與你討論遺產事宜。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcLF9sLv7z
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaXda9AnHQ
「沒有。」我乾脆利落地拒絕。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYrUPqWv3L
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1kIy5ajv7
「僅僅一頓便飯而已。」阿妹屢敗屢試。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDr7Yv8CH8
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnTafrcv00
「不了。」我稍稍施力甩開她的手。「你倆把錢分掉吧。無需通知我。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrIrK4p0r1
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPitwpnKa7A
「我會轉告阿姨。」世故的阿妹知道我在顧忌誰。「但你可以和我一起晚餐嗎？只是我跟你！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cnhpYJsN8
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnyUqupuGZ
我意識到這是她最後一次的邀約，再也講不出拒絕的說話，迷迷糊糊地與她並肩而行，行到醫院附近的咖啡店。她為我點了抹茶蛋糕和朱古力砂冰，聽聞是鎮店之寶。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zwZZbbDWt
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPz2DD5EYwu
我嚐了一口。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9vKlKefIQ
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxOEbDFDqn
甜得要命。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpyMtLJKDB
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ288sm4euCp
「你是否不再喜歡吃甜品？」阿妹從我的難受表情找到端倪。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFk6tqQGd4
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsN54hvZw7V
我傻傻點頭，驀然記起自己曾經是個無甜不歡的傢伙，對咖啡店的精緻甜品更是愛不釋手。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMR5yAuwRtj
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWS9GTHQ2F
「我對你的印象停留在二十年前。」阿妹眼裡盡是懷緬。「溫柔的、膽小的、笨笨的家姐。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7J5pHQwg4a
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyrWVAmpmd
「我自問從不是溫柔的傢伙，純粹是害怕開罪別人而假裝溫柔；我不是膽小的，至少我比你更有離家出走的勇氣；我不是笨笨的，起碼我有能力比你更先離開。」我努力提起叉子，再嚐一口蛋糕。很難吃。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S5emRtUwK
395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X9tmGQFKc
「難怪你要走。」阿妹噗嗤假笑，表情苦澀得複雜。「我們自以為了解你、明白你，不明白何以你最後竟捨棄我們……」她那握叉的手重覆戳向蛋糕，直至它成漿成糊。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDg4lyA9ux
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「其實我也不了解你們。至少，我沒有想過你們會利誘我來探望媽咪。」我苦笑搖頭：「我理解他們何以會不明所以。」由始至終，我在意的人只有阿妹。「你呢？你比他們更了解我的處境！別以為我不知道你當時同樣想走！」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeNqFG9Z2x
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「你終於承認當時是知道我的想法！」被我戳到痛處，阿妹失儀地將叉子擲在碟上。金屬叉子碰瓷碟，有如我的話碰她的心，發出響亮而清脆的碰擊聲。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHxTMdR9vm
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「為何你不帶我走？我日盼夜盼，盼望你會聯絡我，帶我走。在意識到你不會帶我走時，我又開始催眠自己，說你遇到意外，說你被壞朋友騙了，說你尚未安頓下來……我不知道該要怎麼辦！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtzTSVPAYj
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我有很多很多問號！ 395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4I8qF0oBND
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我不明白你的想法！我不清楚自己在你心目中的位置！我不明白為何我要為你編作解釋！我不明白為何我信任的人會拋棄我！我不肯定自己能否負擔起整個家！明明是我倆的共同責任，為何我要獨自承受？」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfC5lyCj7w
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「因為你是壓垮我的最後一根稻草。」思緒千迴百轉，最終我決定長話短說，淡然將描述她揮金如土的萬字怨言吞回肚子去。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA108WMiTto
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霎時間，阿妹答不上話，直視我雙眸，似是觀察我的表情，希望能夠從中找出一絲歉疚，亦似是在乞求我大開金口，施捨半句道歉話。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75e3Y2Wn3q
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可惜，我沒打算繼續在她的生命裡留下甚麼。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yCFOuUid4
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「算了吧。」為打圓場，阿妹選擇口不對心：「反正我們以後不會見面，不需要執著彼此。」若果她真的能夠放下執著，適才就沒能細數她的痛苦點滴。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW8P2l5VHO
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「是的。」我釋懷一笑，放下叉，不再勉強自己清掉碟上的蛋糕。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HBDWx5NQ4
用餐過後，我和阿妹公式化地道別，從此分道揚鑣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvwoa5sVB4
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我看看手錶，晚上十時許。路人不多，疏疏落落的。黃光路燈斜照著路人們，照出多個長腿叔叔。故事中的長腿叔叔是個擁有美滿人生的紳士，現實中的我們卻是破碎殘缺的獨立個體。東一塊，西一塊，難以湊成一個家。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoeC62nWPa
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需要感到遺憾嗎？無需要。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcZMrknqVb
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曾有感到遺憾嗎？曾有。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdoSTEQ7NF
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會繼續感到遺憾嗎？不會。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bePBCU0uy
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我慢步走向鐵路站。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQnQTT3Bpg
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慢慢的，慢慢的，有如二十年歲月一樣慢。漫長的二十年裡，我一步一步走過來，無數次踏在內心的缺口上。自以為腳掌會感受到缺口的虛空與不平，自以為低頭就會看見缺口的廣闊與無邊，自以為缺口會永遠存在。殊不知缺口已在不知不覺間被時間撫平。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmumI1NkIx
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剛才我不是故意將不快記憶輕描淡寫，而是無論我怎麼努力去回想，所有細節都經已模糊不堪。最清晰的，只有我當年留下的那句話。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZuPn016ZA
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「這一句話，我會記上一輩子。」395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCb89kJj0n
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簡單的十一個字，濃縮了多年的壓抑和不滿，是負面情緒的頂點。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAwwa2EQE0
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說話離開了唇角，繃緊的情緒失去支撐物，慢慢紓緩下來。由最無關痛癢的，至最為要緊的，一點一滴隨年月悄悄消逝。我忘記了誰講出讓我記上一輩子的說話，忘記了對話的內容，忘記了對話的前因……取而代之的，是能夠被握在手心的現在和能夠被觀望的將來。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjMDGg8hYn
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我倏忽停下腳步，換個方向，走到便利店，買了罐冰凍啤酒。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgYf8ydGkM
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為何仍清楚記得那份恨意？395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh0fsLHI6t
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我知道答案。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkrOwsqjnd
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答案像啤酒。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhamRe4ajwm
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啤酒不是必需品，但我習慣在心情欠佳時喝啤酒。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0P5SeNDMX
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那份恨意不是必須存在，但我習慣了它的存在，習慣用它去概括描述我離家出走前的人生。久而久之，那份恨意就成了那段日子的代名詞。那段日子只有恨意，沒有願望，沒有七情，沒有喜好，遑論快樂。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEphlJV3hv
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我將啤酒一飲而盡。空空如也的啤酒罐精準地落入垃圾桶裡。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCB6mOV6ha
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若果我可以同樣將記恨習慣拋入垃圾桶，該多好！395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7OgoPKXhi
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不要緊。給我二十一天，戒掉壞習慣。395Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZx5qpAQC9
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我保證，往後滴酒不沾，吋恨不記。
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