雖然蜜拉說他可以隨心所欲,可是,不久前才剛捅出婁子(至少他是這麼認為的),亨利一時間實在不敢照著自己的心意貿然行動,他安份了好一陣子,每隔一個禮拜,亨利就會問蜜拉現在局勢是不是夠穩定了,縱然頭頂王冠的是他,不過蜜拉──或者說愛地爾家族──更像實質上的掌權人,畢竟以亨利可悲的政治敏銳度,別說隨心而為了,連穩住政局都有困難。414Please respect copyright.PENANA6fpF0c5PVU
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「差不多了吧。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAzjCHlQq7hH
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某天晚上,坐在窗前喝晚茶的蜜拉如此說道。414Please respect copyright.PENANAE6x0Zwq0uj
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金陽宮沒有白蘿宮那樣的玻璃牆,即便窗戶大開也瞧不見星座,剛回寢宮的亨利走到桌邊坐下,他才剛發出疑惑的單音,雙手捧著茶杯的蜜拉便道:414Please respect copyright.PENANAF0reMFQB6g
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「你差不多可以娶我了啊。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAnqu904CO7F
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「咦、欸?!」414Please respect copyright.PENANAwcFL2mOdXI
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少女目光如炬,眨也不眨地盯著滿臉錯愕的少年,她輕輕攪弄茶匙,小小的茶杯蕩出陣陣漣漪,「難道你不想娶我嗎?」414Please respect copyright.PENANACF7yAOnvkP
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「不、沒有──我是說,我沒有不想。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAAilZtJsQ5j
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亨利慌張地連背脊都冒出了冷汗,這一切對他來說實在太過唐突──不,依照蜜拉的行事風格看來,這或許稱不上是突然吧?就在他心緒混亂的當下,蜜拉又道:414Please respect copyright.PENANAgMWNkMdLcj
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「那麼,差不多是時候了吧。」414Please respect copyright.PENANA2WXRSSUMI5
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「是……是嗎?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAhsW9DcLVBe
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「下個月如何?我挑了幾個日子,你看看吧。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAtRnn0CnsaR
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隨後,蜜拉告訴他預定的日期,亨利汗顏著傾聽她的說明,但只感覺一字一詞都在腦袋裡糾結成團,分不開也釐不清,他迷迷糊糊地和蜜拉進行討論,總覺得自己好像不該在這種狀態下談論婚姻大事,但卻又覺得,反正他在神智清明的時候八成也會錯誤百出、在什麼時候談似乎都沒有差別,只要蜜拉認為可行就是沒問題了。414Please respect copyright.PENANA7XhyXcEjfC
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等到談話告一段落時,亨利依然有種超脫現實的感受,國王娶妻再正常不過,他也到了能成親的年紀,只是、只是……414Please respect copyright.PENANAsJYY463Bag
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蜜拉端起茶杯啜飲,亨利呆呆望著房中的角落發怔,時光一點一滴流逝,直至茶壺見底,他才揪緊衣襬開口:414Please respect copyright.PENANA8B9qZL2uwe
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「這件事……我可以告訴涅澤爾嗎?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAOyT8jdQOr6
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「我說過了吧,你是國王,想做什麼不需要我的同意。」414Please respect copyright.PENANA3XXiNgcr6Y
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亨利在夕陽西下時獨自前往蜂之森,他在老地方按下金球,從前,他都是按了球之後,等到接收到會面許可的信號,才在隔天赴約,但這次,他想在這裡等到涅澤爾出現為止。414Please respect copyright.PENANAbLwjeXarfw
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而不過三分鐘,金球的開關立刻彈回原位,不到十分鐘,褐髮青年立刻降落到他眼前。414Please respect copyright.PENANArftODHJDMZ
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開關回彈時,亨利便愣了一愣,巫師的動作這麼快,簡直像二十四小時都在等待他的訊息。天空呈現晝夜交替的紅紫色,微風吹下落葉,亨利看著許久不見卻又熟悉無比的身影往他走來,涅澤爾對他露出微笑,當回過神來、亨利發現自己已經抱住了黑袍巫師。414Please respect copyright.PENANA2kiVapBwys
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「你長高了啊。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAzOZ9Be5xoT
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青年的嗓音傳入耳中,少年鬆開雙臂「嗯」了一聲。414Please respect copyright.PENANAwuOu9HzCrE
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橘紅褪去,夜色覆蓋大地,平時巫師身邊總有許多動物環繞,但今次牠們卻不見蹤影,只在秋夏兩季生長的螢苔攀附於樹根與岩石之上,好似掉落於林中的點點星屑,散發著微弱卻美麗的光。414Please respect copyright.PENANAgqd5x7JRjA
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「對不起,我沒有去找你。」亨利以雙手握住涅澤爾的左手,聲音雖小,卻字字清晰,「父王那個時候好生氣,我怕如果我去找你,會害你被父王抓走。」414Please respect copyright.PENANA0vkn3NtY3j
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「嗯。」414Please respect copyright.PENANADgspDjhCm8
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「我……我當上國王了。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAKbJ1ydooax
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「我知道。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAdyRNn9SrIk
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「我本來想、我本來想我當上國王就去找你。」亨利用力抓緊涅澤爾的手,語氣像是在辯解、又像是要說服自己,涅澤爾感覺得到他激動的情緒,但並沒有出言安撫,「可是──我不知道……我把鴉之森的軍隊叫回來,太后他們都很生氣,我還是不知道、不知道什麼時候能去找你。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAALWF2Wtbtm
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少年抿緊雙唇,青年沉默著等待他繼續應當未完的話語,頭頂一朵烏雲緩緩飄過,月色被遮掩,片刻後又探出了頭。414Please respect copyright.PENANA84UQSXvh0N
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「對不起。」亨利從乾澀的喉嚨擠出這三個字,明明該有千言萬語,此刻卻僅能道出歉意,「對不起,我應該要早一點來見你……對不起。」414Please respect copyright.PENANA2O5bbrDIXE
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涅澤爾將自己的手從亨利的掌心抽離,抬起手臂緩緩抱住了少年,沒有親吻,亦沒有緊擁,僅是輕輕地摟著他,而亨利死死抱緊他不放,力道大得幾乎會壓出瘀痕。414Please respect copyright.PENANAnBBCjqgpsj
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我原諒你──涅澤爾認為自己似乎該這麼說,但喉嚨卻像被堵住了一樣,所言非真的安慰怎樣也吐露不出。414Please respect copyright.PENANAAKjqvZDkg2
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他確信亨利說的都是真的,也打消了自己先前的疑慮,照理說他該感到釋懷,但涅澤爾卻無法放心,今天的亨利給他的感覺不對,他察覺到了壓抑與愧疚,這孩子到現在都還沒說到最重要的事情。414Please respect copyright.PENANA4pL5lrQh4l
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其實他並不是很想知道那件事,其實他並不願意聽見那件事,其實他並不想猜到那件事。涅澤爾稍微與亨利拉開距離,偏頭彎出淺笑,「你今天來,不只想跟我說這些吧?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAoKHKvhLZOT
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亨利看著他,黑暗中的藍眼不見星輝亦不見蒼穹,少年慢慢地點頭,滿月將兩人的影子拉長,直到它與樹木的暗影混為一體。414Please respect copyright.PENANAUCcbeNxwNm
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如果話沒有說出口,那它就只是一縷虛無的思想,如果話說出了口,那它便會透過語言成為現實。414Please respect copyright.PENANAHAeRck8rWi
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「我還是很想要你當我的王妃。」414Please respect copyright.PENANA00jn842ZNm
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「我說過我不要囉。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAr8I4TrZhEl
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「國王一定得娶妻,國王的第一任妻子會成為王后。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAdB0IgiCyGK
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「我知道。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAk2zeU65Mse
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「我沒有想過我會當國王,可是,王子的第一位王妃也會是正室。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAJYKQ8LtV2o
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「嗯。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAdQ6hi21LO0
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「我還是很希望那個人是你。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAXkwJod0kD8
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「是嗎?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAxatk0f77Xi
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涅澤爾依然撐著微笑,亨利卻露出快要哭出來的表情,前者摸了摸後者的腦袋,涅澤爾搞不懂自己是以何種心情說出接下來的話,但它就這麼從他口中掉落,哐啷一聲砸在少年心頭:「你還有其他喜歡的人吧?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAe4TkiMH2pQ
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「可是──可是我最喜歡你啊!」亨利幾乎是尖叫著喊出回話,遠處有些鳥兒因此飛離枝頭,亨利用力抓住涅澤爾停在他瀏海的手,將其拉到胸前,「父王也最喜歡現在的太后、王兄的母親……一個人可以有很多喜歡的人,但是,還是會有一個最喜歡的對象、不是這樣嗎?我喜歡你、我喜歡你啊!我明明最喜歡涅澤爾……」眼淚自少年的面龐滑落,溫熱的淚珠打在兩人的手背上,「為什麼我不能跟大家說我喜歡誰,為什麼你要被當作壞人,為什麼別人說巫師很壞的時候我不能讓他們閉嘴,為什麼我這麼沒用……」414Please respect copyright.PENANA6Sk1vnH2Tm
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「亨利,」414Please respect copyright.PENANAhH4ALS7071
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巫師輕柔的呼喚止住了少年的自言自語,亨利安靜下來,涅澤爾輕輕回握住他的手。414Please respect copyright.PENANAN12suMF6dZ
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「這不是你的錯。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9q7rueazc
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「是我的錯,」亨利猛烈地搖頭,否定這番安慰的同時也否定了自己,「如果我能想出讓大家心服口服的方法就好了,如果我沒有去綠鷹森林就好了,如果我沒有讓王兄認識涅澤爾就好了──」414Please respect copyright.PENANAt2XO5n33r1
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「照你這麼說,你不要遇見我就好了吧?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAM5iVUZJymH
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「不……我沒有那個意思……」414Please respect copyright.PENANAQL70XUhuTp
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亨利因為涅澤爾的話稍微冷靜下來,他吸了吸鼻子,巫師抬起空著的左手拭去少年的淚水,等到不再流淚以後,亨利才哽咽著開口:414Please respect copyright.PENANA12js81EHdK
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「你是不是不會再見我了。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAjhIGj3ArNB
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「……你知道啊?」414Please respect copyright.PENANADASiu2z4or
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「因為,從以前就有種、如果不是第一位的話,涅澤爾就不要我了的感覺。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAcHQMyLbGSc
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巫師忍不住輕笑一聲,他稍微拉近與少年的距離,露出饒有興味的表情,「原來你這麼想啊?」414Please respect copyright.PENANAVTiDRryIFL
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「上次從赤龍山回來之後,我想了很久,我想說你就是以為我最喜歡蜜拉才生氣的……」414Please respect copyright.PENANAurIhu1BVWI
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「不是哦。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAKRR9MnO7OB
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話被截斷的少年以遲疑的眼神望向青年,泛紅的雙目裡盡是不解。414Please respect copyright.PENANAozxO0sD6A8
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「我喜歡你哦,亨利。」綠瞳直直望入藍眸深處,涅澤爾保持笑顏,說出一直以來的真心話:「因為我喜歡你,所以完全沒辦法忍受有別人一樣喜歡你呢,不管你最喜歡的是誰都一樣。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAmVRVjdlHC5
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「我不懂……」414Please respect copyright.PENANArKy2Ujg5Gw
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「我本來也不想讓你懂。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAXInDrZyyiV
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「我……」亨利深吸一口氣,眼眶泛淚,「可是,我還是想自己告訴涅澤爾這件事。」他停頓許久,最後在遠方的夜鶯啼聲響起時,以決絕的神態說道:414Please respect copyright.PENANAegR8TgTK4D
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「我要跟蜜拉結婚了,你可以來參加我的婚禮嗎?涅澤爾。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAXNLHyj0TiC
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「不行。」巫師的笑容苦澀,他施展魔法讓少年口袋裡的金球飛到手裡,金光閃閃的圓球比起滿月更似太陽,亨利默默看著涅澤爾將他們最後的聯繫收入袍中,卻無力挽回,「晚安,亨利。」414Please respect copyright.PENANAUrEuVSRPVR
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