根據居民的指示，我沿著竹林小徑走了一整天，終於到達目的地：一間全竹結構的寺廟。它比我預想中更為破落，冷冷清清的。我抬頭望向高高懸掛在山門的匾額，寫著「竹寺」。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOkx7Ntgxl
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蠻有意思的名字。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKb1cwq3zN
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當我正要邁步內進時，一個打扮樸素的瘦削大叔剛好開門踏出。四目交投，雙方都愣住了幾秒。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfT5Cw1jvY
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「歡迎內進。」沒等我回答，大叔已轉身為我引路。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yNLBrkth0
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眼見天色漸暗，我不再磨蹭，看能否找到綫索，省卻逗留此地的時間：「不好意思喔，大叔！請問黃XX女士住在這裡嗎？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUMwpZX3Ay
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大叔的腳步突兀地戛然而止。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlYitOAjdy
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是我的提問過於唐突嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5e8HHSYQii
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大叔回頭仔細打量我，神色疑惑，似乎在猜測我和黃女士的關係。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDT6NWV5di
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「有人託我將信件親手轉交予黃女士。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZqgCyezVg
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「黃女士已離開這裡好一段時間，不知何時會回來……甚或是不知會否回來。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDZaMuiLqB
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「她有透露去處嗎？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEWrtieRDF
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「沒有……我帶你去她昔日的房間試找綫索。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFGQj3iq2o
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大叔再次邁步，步履沒有之前的輕，重若銀鉛。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiAueHR9vy
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陰冷的空氣，空洞的房間，慘白的牆身，最基本的傢俬和雜物。沒有生活的氣息。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkmpP5GaNd
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「剛才在門外碰見你，也還真令我驚訝。」大叔沒有進入房間，逕自在門外呢呢喃喃。「竹寺曾香火鼎盛。後來毗鄰的兩個小鎮分別新建更大更金碧輝煌的寺廟，無意間將信眾分流開去，到來竹寺掛單的僧侶亦逐漸減少，住持最終徇眾要求到另一寺廟主持大局。他指派我長駐於此，打掃清潔，說要方便途經的旅客。我一直覺得他想多了，豈料今天就遇見你。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlwFIVF6Dv
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「可能佛祖不想我白走一趟。」我話中有話，提醒侍奉佛祖的大叔不要忘記佛祖的存在，萬萬不能撒謊。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPnvUktpFB
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「我可以明天帶你見住持。他有掛單紀錄，可能有黃女士的聯絡資料。」大叔也不是省油的燈，簡單幾句就將我逼至沒有退路的位置：「但我希望你能先對我坦白事情的前因後果。住持是個大忙人。我可不希望為他增添不必要的麻煩。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjls4trHXL8
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我只得坦白交代。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLMdX6A3gX
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我的妻子過身了。臨終前，她希望我能預留一年時間為她完成唯一的遺願：親手將遺書交予離家出走多年的生母——黃女士。事隔多年，黃女士曾在多個地方落腳。我每次根據綫索趕至時，她早已遷居。輾轉間，我追尋至竹寺……336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpomsgz2uaT
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「距離一年限期，還剩多少日子？」大叔生起關切之情。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLtWVw5Iyg
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「三日。竹寺很可能是我的最後機會。」我加倍留意他的神色舉止。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PELUUmwGL
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「不考慮延長？」大叔表現出來的的關切絕對超過一個陌生人該有的限度。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZuljU4rRb
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「妻子信緣份。她認為努力過後仍沒能找到，證明彼此有緣無份，毋須強求。她還叮囑我要燒毀遺書。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntQ08TTDDG
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大叔若有所思後，講出驚人的一句：「若果一年期限屆滿時仍找不到黃女士，介意給我看看遺書嗎？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt4fevVtmb
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「極度介意！」我心裡認定大叔有事隱瞞。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSET26gLFm
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尷尬氣氛令大叔不再多話。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQc9ofPeU7
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晚餐後，大叔在其他地方忙著，我則留在房間對著愛妻的照片痛哭一場。哭過以後，壓力得以紓緩，但心頭卻未能添加半分澄明，混沌混濁。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDxHIg458z
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我離房在寺內溜達散心。逛著逛著，忽爾看見大叔彎腰對著花園中的小樹喁喁細語，臉上盡是蜜甜。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkaKLrvMer
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我上前跟大叔打招呼。他微笑回應，和顏悅色，渾身散發著慈祥氣息，沒有白天時的隔膜。我嘗試放下戒心，開心見誠與他聊天。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA85BVxT0Ed
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不知怎地，聊著聊著，話題竟牽到大叔的心事去。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhRbEUD2c3
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「貪，使人執著於一切順情之境。嗔，使人執著於一切違情之境。痴，使人不明白真理，致使生起貪嗔。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwdrtadPbS
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我痴愚半生，痛苦不已。到此地求法，希望住持指點迷津。但他認為我凡心未盡，要我留在這裡靜思。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrqyBq7gtq
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我在竹寺侍奉多年，住持依然不為所動。我以為他在敷衍我。今天遇到你，我才明白住持所言非虛：任何無關的人事物都可輕易勾起我對逝去伴侶的思念。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZtSAxM1hN
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我終於明白初時大叔何以對我不太友善。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJJVsYVEZA
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將心比心。喪妻之後，任何人事物均能勾起我和對太太的思念。我曾抱怨上天幸災樂禍，何解不讓我安靜避世。我已盡力放下身邊一切，辭掉工作，不聯絡親友，遷出愛巢，但偏偏愛妻的遺願就是要我去彌補她的畢生遺憾！我沒有一刻能放下她，因為我的分分秒秒就是為她而過。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8ZeOLw4Sf
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那種痛苦實非筆墨所能形容。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCDdrr58fp
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「你的妻子真聰明，給你的痛苦設下一年期限。只要你在這一年裡拼命為她圓願，往後也就了無遺憾或悔疚。我可沒那麼幸運，不知要拖著這副臭皮囊乾等到哪年哪月哪日……」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlbUUpNHoM
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說罷，他跟我和小樹說晚安，然後揚長而去。
翌日，我翻遍整間竹寺亦找不到大叔，只在他的房間找到他留給我的手繪地圖。我跟著地圖的指示走了大半天，來到住持現處的寺廟。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQiYDykyNW
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住持聽罷我的經歷後，不禁黯然慨嘆：「黃女士始終凡心未盡……」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hFSJ93IC8
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黃女士當年拋夫棄女，與情夫私奔。豈料甜蜜日子不長久，情夫患急病逝世。黃女士大受打擊，認為是自己作孽甚深，連累情夫。她來到竹寺，望住持能指點迷津。住持認為她深陷激動情緒當中，容易作出錯誤選擇，逐要她在竹寺靜思己過。可惜她半夜逃離。當黃女士重臨竹寺時，她已花光積蓄在黑市做手術整容及變性，以情夫的外表現身……336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9idpdF5Fq
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「大叔就是黃女士？」我不禁驚呼。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuoqOeAIVS
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震驚之情瞬間即逝，取而代之的是說不出的矛盾。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgXq2trZIt
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這個人，我恨不來，亦原諒不了。
翌日，我和住持往竹寺走一趟。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtj6WQKvF2z
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寺前，我倆不約而同抬頭望向匾額。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4HZWRYlit
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「你知道『竹寺』何以得名嗎？」住持問。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtT8AgM8Noj
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「等？」我的猜想有如初來之時。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vLbu30Dg7
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「這名字只不過是客觀描述寺廟本身。」住持揚手指向全竹結構的寺廟：「大家實在想多了，對自己的想像投放情感，賦予它過多的意義，致使看不見眼前真象。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWzAndxp7E
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我驀地憶起大叔前夜的說話。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxwbhGZzvx
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住持直接走往花園。不出他所料，小樹已被連根拔起，樹下土地被挖出一個大坑，足以容納一個成人。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WuUJs9k0w
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我心頭一涼，頓時明白那是甚麼一回事：多年以來，情夫的屍首一直埋在這裡。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NDym5bfkm
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我鼻頭一酸，淚如雨下。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXytfNN0ijc
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「『強逼自己放下執著』也是一種執著。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVz1zeiRJ0A
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