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　　既濕且冷，香港的冬天不會下雪，那股濕氣卻彷彿會滲入皮膚，鑽入骨頭每個微不可見的細孔。在下雪的國度也不一定感受得到這種刺骨冰寒。大概三、五、十年後，我這一輩的下代也不太感受到刺骨入寒。畢竟這個冬天也忽冷忽暖了好幾次。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco3qLagYlu
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　　在我準備出發到喀比前，天氣準備回暖。但哪怕全球暖化問題和地球每一個人口也息息相關，數小時後這折磨我鼻子的天氣就再與我無關！全因據探子回報——403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjuNMRk8TU
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　　颱風已去，喀比天朗氣清。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjaEef8uhf
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　　若不是朋友A問我要不要一起去，我也沒留意泰國有喀比這地方。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwnYazJRaS
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　　大抵上，喀比和華欣、布吉等地帶一樣，圈一圈重點字眼：陽光、海灘、外島與水上活動。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBwNIYJZmY
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　　所以當朋友A一把圖發給我時，好水的我自己心動了。畢竟我可是整個夏天沒曬到！！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b2wYT9eZt
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　　摯友聽見淺笑一下，說我誇張，又提醒我五月不是去了回沖繩嗎？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkjz0waBYc
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　　聽罷，我立馬搖頭，拒絕認同五月去沖繩時是夏天，假像來的！無論泳池水還是海水還冷著！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAkPUJp1ON
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　　我滿心歡喜將多年前十二月的華欣氣候經驗複製成喀比的想像時，現實總要狠狠拍在你後腦，恥笑你說：想得美！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmSEBWmOMb
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　　與因工作而遲出發的小隊結伴到度假村，搞定補登記手續，一踏入我們的小屋，安頓好行李後，我二話不說坐在池邊，指尖期待不已破開水面，伸進水裡……403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUtUcNt89D
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　　啊！冷的。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9l0EsuxNKs
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　　還要是很冷那種，據經驗，入夜後氣稍跌，屆時恐怕會更冷。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsmAX6ou0Q
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　　早游一次，晚游一次的美夢瞬間破滅了。但也不阻我的興致，朋友A在介紹行程時，我已經聽不入耳，直躺在池邊，天空一覽無遺：澄清無雲，眼底下夕陽的橘紅已被遠方的白頭浪沖洗掉，白浪漸退後，深海的墨藍漸漸染上頭頂那片天。我單腳悄然沒入池水，一踢一蕩，一踢一蕩，心花蕩漾滿池。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAjgcbQYNd
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　　「你們誰帶了手機走出來？」朋友E笑了出來，指著我說：「你看她高興得，我想把她拍下來。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYcOHp3X56
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　　「才不要。」我連聲反對，擋著臉擋住稚氣，扯開話題問：「剛剛經過下面有兩個泳池，可以去嗎？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0aE2Ywi6e
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　　雖然自己有泳池，但那大小我一蹬腳，還未滑行完，腳也不用踢，頭就直撞上了。我需要空間。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTk9Z87mc8
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　　朋友A答不上我這問題，我也不多勉強，反正早上游水時頭靠在池邊踢腳也可以。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L4YBjeix5
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　　退而求其次。以前我總覺得這句話多多少少夾雜幾分無奈與喪氣，但當生活輾過你的軀殼，當靈魂氣若浮絲困在其中，一刻的療癒才是重點。沙漠久渴的孤獨旅人不會在意第一口水，外人給予的那一口水是清水、氣泡水還是酒水，只要能滋潤他乾涸的喉嚨，他什麼都會喝下去！興許有時候，退而求其次並非迫於無奈，而是想抓緊救命稻草的渴望。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgOXlGAoFH
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　　但有時候，你本人有多渴望、多需要是一回事，現實狠狠摑了你左邊臉，是鐵定不會放過你右邊臉。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ267zW6mQTF
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　　在團友仍在熟睡時，我已忘我地趴在池邊踢腳曬了好一陣子，淋浴淨身後依然一片靜默。我悄悄拉開出泳池的閘門，坐在屋檐下的圓桌後，一字一字寫下浮在腦內的片語，忽然大腿開始痕癢了。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotRdwbppqn
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　　「怎麼了嗎？」我垂頭一看，痕癢泛起紅點，還沒到嚴重的地步，但確實是敏感了「幹！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6fbWjrC9j
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　　這一掌摑得夠響。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLRs317LcG
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　　泳池水遇上紫外線的化學作用一直會讓我皮膚過敏。我很清楚，醫生也很清楚告訴過我：你要游就去游海吧！而最諷刺我是，我小時候可是天天夜夜都池裡練水。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuc1Ar9SFMe
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　　是衝著舊日的資本，我沒遵從醫生的告誡，畢竟要是海的水質不好，我也一樣遭殃呀！於是我不斷用身體嘗試底線，十分鐘，十五分鐘，半小時，像走離地萬呎的懸繩一樣，憋住氣，手提長棍，一步步危走。要若狂風刮來，一失平行，即如今日……403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqrDqLxLb1
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　　我摸著突起的紅點，決定不塗任何精華/乳液下去，讓它先自行冷靜一下。連防曬也不要下，不能冒險，我還要出外島玩水！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg91V8WYeix
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　　潛水、浮潛、獨木舟什麼，你能想到的幾乎都有得玩，不然也可以跟滿灘浸在海中浮浮沉沉的外國男女，享受一下。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mGQnf8Z08
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　　喀比很多歐美客人，這也是我惟一找到它和華欣相處的地方，沒什麼大陸遊客，不擠擁、不喧鬧，和香港截然不同。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVrdNNLC4E
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　　浪捲起了淺層細沙，拍在腳眼，有時攀到腳肚，抒爽了烈日的灼熱。沙灘長裙早被我扯下塞到袋子深處，泳褲兩側的蝴蝶結自在在腿邊飛舞，腰間上衣下擺一圈小球為它打氣：「加油、加油！到岩穴底就可以坐下來了！」開什麼玩笑坐下來？我來玩水的欸！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xQnsALMBy
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　　叫囂，再囂張也不過是紙老虎。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ce8QVR46o
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　　《牧羊少年奇幻之旅》有這麼一個說法：有一不一定有二，有二卻必有三。可想而知，海水水質不夠好，雜質提矛帶槍攻擊入侵的巨人，死士用尖刺的矛為助級級踩出血路！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl60OqTHJy
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　　在岸上撫著刺痛刺痛的腳踝，團友都下水遠去探洞，而我則管著包包，看著外國女人穿著比堅尼，羨慕她們有前有後的豐滿身材。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ3Pu5spO1
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　　「曬不黑真好呢。」我嘆了一句。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yoqO9vmf1
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　　朋友I笑了，安慰我說：「他們退紅後可會有斑呢！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aVxscDUkq
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　　這樣想起來，好像又沒什麼值得比較。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURMM4ZvkHA
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　　可以欣賞他人的長處，但不用羨慕別人，不用忘卻自己的喜好優勝處；可以從過去吸收經驗，但不用借此折磨自己。誰都不能回到過去，身體狀態會變，伴遊的人已變，連與孤獨的契合度也變了。人被困在前人打造陳舊的理想，被他人的過去束著頸驅前，仍要繼續鞭撻自己嗎？403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3r1J3Q7dp
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　　我的心思不曾告之朋友I，兩人只安靜盯著一個外國男人攀岩，岩壁上都撲滿他手上的白粉，他始終未能從右方斜斜橫攀向突出的岩角，更別惶論倒吊攀出去。不少沙灘客盯著他看，每每他摔回原點也為之可惜，每每他再度嘗試又為之屏息靜氣。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgY7phBj0u
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　　連戰火也未能團結各國人民支持和平，此刻無論不同國籍，亦難得以不同語言一致述說相同心思：他到底會成功嗎？他一定要成功啊！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIGmUBhnl1
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　　男人沒讓我們失望，貼著岩壁稍息片刻，他重新出發，終於避過之前的錯誤，登上巔峰。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvI95tYJVT
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　　「如果有台鈴鐺就好了。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCUTDHeIO1
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　　台下的觀眾熱情為他鼓掌，他卻不謝台，不鞠躬，撐手在腰後深鎖眉頭。墨鏡下的眼神會是怎樣？不滿自己所錯過的？成功感溢出的？還是他不過平靜回想今日種種？我不知道，這份心情如同我的心思，任旁人再激動也只會留在我們最深處。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRV3slR2jA
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　　潮湧，又潮退；人來，又離去。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgqNSYQ3Bg
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　　攀岩的人最後與伙伴隨浪退出人海，而岸上沒太多人再在意他的去向。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82Je1p9ZPU
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　　好了傷疤……不對，傷疤尚未好，我便忽略痛，死心不息告別朋友I，走向沙灘的另一端。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPB412GVbbx
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　　轉出岩窟，穿越長灘，海風漸大，長長卷髮吹得亂七八糟。果然電影主角美美走在海灘都是騙人的！我搖搖頭，讓頭髮順風吹到身後，勾走背上胸前暑熱。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16pLIRibRM
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　　沙漸漸變得幼細，軟綿綿撫著腳底。它在自己身上留痕，蜿蜒指向大海，誘惑我走近點，再走近些計，嗅嗅母親白髮間的清香，用雙腳為她梳理一下髮尾。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONbJ325SS4
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　　我忍耐著，對它如下蠱媚言塞耳不聞，故意彎身撿下沙粒中半露臉兒的貝殼。缺半的，完整的，大的，小的，「我活過，我走了。」這樣的存在輕輕抵在手心，了無生氣被遺忘裹在我的拳裡。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfftP9pW1pA
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　　這回，我昂頭走向柔順湧來的浪，驕傲地展現誰都不能命令蠱惑我的氣勢，垂眼看浪扯著不知好歹的細沙離去。我蹲下來，默默盯著它試探性的只湧到兩步距離前，不敢前進，伸出拳頭默默招著它來。終於，幾回試探，它熱情湧來，我亦藉此清洗著拳中貝殼。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPOdGMTRjZ
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　　沙石既退，胭脂紅、橘白相搭、素白泛光，生前死後漂亮依舊。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83XrBpoAK7
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　　我將貝殼嵌入細沙，大大小小，隨機圍成一大圈。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdRWDDUsKm
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　　浪湧來，又退去；沙沖上，又後退；影子與貝殼圈烙在沙上，最後我仍是望著貝殼跟著他們，來了又離去，不再留下活著的痕跡。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvaqYHvQTY
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　　在喀比，我與水注定是一對暗地私會的情侶，在暗處心驚膽跳躲避追殺，就只為了片刻相擁熱吻，綿綿情話無法講盡，天將亮，分別即在眼前。朋友A曾問我：「沒辦法下水，難過嗎？」我笑笑答：「我有下，只是不能長。而且……」晃晃手中酒杯沒把話說盡。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThQP3tZHSi
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　　這趟旅程除了玩水，酒水也是我所在意一環。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggZTAexZYW
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　　我們每晚都在喝，在酒吧回去以後再喝，在餐廳回去以後繼續喝。我和兩個本來會約喝的朋友晚晚圍在池邊圓桌調酒，「這比例後勁有點強……」、「這酒味輕點比較順口。」、「這像果汁一樣失敗了！」類像的對話不斷出現。試想像看看，為了看星我們在泳池會關上所有燈，屋裡的也關掉，三個人圍著圓桌只能開手機的手電筒照明，朋友E偷拍了一張相，恰似巫師施法會一樣。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsN6aot5lOa
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　　晚上盡慶在杯中弄星把月到三時，人人帶著幾分醉意寫意墜入夢鄉，而我七八時左右準時開眼，酒醒過後全無睡意。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsErDE9axZV
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　　真的是酒關係嗎？捫心自問，我清楚這是睡眠問題，與酒無關。但，酒精悉數在血液揮發後，我確是會清醒得可怕。於是換了泳裝，我又去幽會。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHFAgONZvn
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　　我開了音樂，把聲音調低，再三提醒自己只有三首歌的時間。隨之以腳尖試一試水溫，微寒。毫無懸念，不予以心理準備，我插身下水。想在水裡暖和，辦法有二：喝酒或動起久。我選擇後者，伏在池邊緩緩踢腿。水浪輕蕩聲，雞啼，還有……403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0Iq7Cy4rp
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　　嗡一聲快速從左方竄過，我回頭一望，什麼都沒有。又嗡一聲由右方閃過頭頂，這回我望見真身。一隻又黑又大又胖的蜜蜂停在柱上，又不甘寂寞閃在池上。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xo0yDEqgC
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　　我還未能從踢腿與掩耳之間作出選擇，蜜蜂已駐足在太陽下的柱上。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopyWTgYgbX
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　　敵不動，我不動，繼續原來動作。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWwGfFF0V4
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　　一隻飛蟲飄過，怕是昨夜太想不開投河自盡，我連水掬起它，托棺似的將牠送回歸屬處。這念頭讓我想到回程時我一幕。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01wgaYaUEf
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　　大部分團友抵不過一日攀岩涉水的行程，車廂裡一片寂靜，除了司機播放動感十足的泰文歌，就只有輕輕的呼吸聲。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxYOgKUyON
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　　忽然，一陣喇叭聲傳來。我往後一瞥，只見車側用鮮花包圍著的棺材車徐徐後來。我不想惹什麼鬼片情節上身，有所避忌掰開視線。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjiKPwYNtV
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　　未幾坐副駕座的朋友A感慨開口說：「有時我很羨慕泰國人辦喪禮可以熱熱鬧鬧。香港現在連對死亡也匆匆忙忙，沒了這份尊重。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo637zDhFDT
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　　「香港也有儀式啊！」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTH3fL2OBV
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　　「是為儀式而做的儀式，並不是為亡者準備的儀式。」朋友A隨之答道，見我還未睡，便百無禁忌聊起來。反正泰國的鬼應該聽不懂廣東話（誤）「你知道嗎？長洲有個地方讓過身我島民暫且安放、辦儀式。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKTkMbXMPu
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　　我點點頭，長洲沒多大，去玩時一定經過，我甚至見過船載遺體出入。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcs2YRGzmGj
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　　「以前長洲辦喪用鮮花，會各之全島人，道盡死者一生，記念他。人和人之間、鄰舍關係體現出來，可現在……」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IpJwJYaGb
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　　「只有亞洲人要熱鬧宣之天下這樣去安葬，尤其老一輩。新一代不流行這套，生前被稅項、信用卡貸款、生洛種種搾壓，死後還要被敲一筆嗎？門都沒有。簡單就好了。不少人有這種心態。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZnVejfrhl
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　　「儀式可以不辦，但總要大家悼念一下……」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbnFaIsRLV
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　　「如果是我，我倒不用大家悼念，火化後撒海。我生時父母宣告交際圈，結婚要為親朋戚友做足準備，死就讓我痛快一點，也私人一點。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqhdpJZAFR
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　　「難道你死了就不想大家知道嗎？」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLquW0lg1F
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　　「立即知道，一年後、甚至十年後才知道也改變不到狀況，亦不會影響到人生活。況且，生時為他人準備種種，到死也不能為自己身後作準備，也要滿足大家悼念我的需要，太可悲了。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASSegpmRoP
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　　池邊那攤水莫名波動，泛起日光，拉回我心神。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnAHtxVlB4
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　　只見飛蟲離開了池，背可觸地，馬上掙扎。竟然是未死透。好不容易翻過身，即便飛走。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu280dUgpNP
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　　意想不到，我忽然想起拳中色彩斑爛的貝殼，潮脹時活過，飄蕩間走了，繼而又在浪退時換個方式存在。有關死亡向來也是人意想不到，不然哪來各派宗教說法。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiys3dxoFlN
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　　我決定不再想這老朋友，扔身於水中，背一觸水顯得份外暖和，而我盡情望著蔚藍天空，蕩浮沉。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIobSSCvm5g
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　　短短的旅途比三首歌更快略過去。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcv0LB5mMC
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　　我們選擇了早上飛機班次一同離開喀比，前一晚一樣喝到凌晨，稍睡片刻，大家都起床看日出。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRadDXtIks
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　　難得我和團友我起床時間都差不多時間，各自坐在沙灘椅看著雲霞慢慢燒紅，漸漸燒著夜幕的下擺。太陽尚未出來，我們也無緣望到它出來就必須到機場，但天邊漸漸變的澄黃。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWpPVso9Zj
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　　「還有一顆星。」朋友A突然冒了句。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBVQVAdGKj
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　　「嗯。」403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EVVAXw96Q
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　　其後，除了那隻雞，沒人願意再打破安靜。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlPPPcJ1qh
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　　那顆星是來送別的吧！好歹我們也徹夜把酒觀星了好些晚上，讚美它們的閃亮，交情算是不錯吧！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxSCx62mxv
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　　那顆星眨眨眼，拒絕回應這問題。403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7ZvS8e96h
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　　我沒咄咄逼人的意思，在旅程的尾聲有星相送還苛求什麼？但朋友啊！揮過手就轉身走好了。在蕩與退之間再習慣孤寂也別落單，別獨自守著空蕩蕩的夜空，別忘了回歸到你同伴身邊啊！403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80zylLmgIt
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