沖繩一役,那新加坡男生一席話繞在心頭,重重纏上了蠢蠢欲動的主意,五月,六月,七月,破繭而出。以送自己一份生日禮物為名,報了潛水班。413Please respect copyright.PENANANegBaTcMUF
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一切只是藉口。413Please respect copyright.PENANA9UNyU9S8zb
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我當然清楚,所以才找上最瑰麗堂皇的藉口堵住我媽的嘴。413Please respect copyright.PENANAPHBFtn25sn
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「別吵,這是我的自費生日禮物。」413Please respect copyright.PENANAv84Cu3F0oA
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常言道:無仇不父子。我跟我媽大概就是女的版本。413Please respect copyright.PENANA79C81CBs7V
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我媽總是很怕我玩水上活動,我爸倒是聽我要去滑浪才有反應,對擅水性的我來講這種怕很莫名其妙。「欺山莫欺水。」這句老話也成為了他們反對的理由。413Please respect copyright.PENANAYN9jqmkJlJ
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其實我知道不無道理。413Please respect copyright.PENANAujgxRynsYo
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溺水死的人往往亦是擅水性的人。因為無懼,也因為習慣,繼而一心二用、三用,忽略了潛在危險。那蟄伏於暗處的毒蛇將看準時機,在你自曝其短時,牠忍一時讓你被興奮蒙蔽雙目,退一步任你在身邊得意忘形躺下,當致命點滿身露出時利齒狠狠咬噬,恐慌擴張你的毛孔,毒即躥入骨髓。413Please respect copyright.PENANAyd3sDw7qHy
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當我在看書本理論時,我已經跟朋友說:「他講的危險在我來講不算什麼,我很大機會因此死在海裡。但請記緊,我甘願。」 朋友苦笑望著我,無話可說。
對於大海眷戀我不欲再多費筆墨解釋,畢竟在《大海,我的母親!》已將話說盡。直到同學一句:「你怎麼想學潛水?」才驚覺我對他人學潛水的原因了無興趣。413Please respect copyright.PENANAT1mD0FWpAV
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當然,沒天真的以為大家都因為喜歡才報名。只是同時也不在意別人因為什麼而報名。413Please respect copyright.PENANAAB2FX5J0rB
我的目標筆直且堅定一如千年高杉木直指天際,風吹亦改不了方向。人生苦短,世界無道,一想到終身亦得鞠身聽某君意見,側耳受某人教晦,慢慢地顧慮太多,迷失方向,成了園景松樹,曲撓屈折,便無法忍受。故此,我不愛別人左右我,自己同樣不欲為難他人,乾脆觀察細聽。413Please respect copyright.PENANAawibpfCK7f
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「有後悔學潛水嗎?」考試後教練邊啃著泰式豬扒飯邊問。413Please respect copyright.PENANAv51TLrEzv4
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年少輕狂時,我會答:「後悔?我的字典裡沒有後悔。」我爸總說:「做了決定就別後悔!」將它套入我固執的個性中,一如完美盔甲。但人生總有遺憾!有時你難免會想——413Please respect copyright.PENANASnswC3SVCR
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如果當日沒做這決定一切會不一樣嗎?413Please respect copyright.PENANAYbGdzh1iJd
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如果當日我沒對你坦誠,今日我們依舊親密如初嗎?413Please respect copyright.PENANAhMl0ri0Aon
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如果當日我講話婉轉些許,今日你我就能和睦相處嗎?
但人生沒那麼多如果。413Please respect copyright.PENANActUzoYwyma
甚至如果真的發生了,結局也許差距不大。人和人之間不盡是誤會,有時候根本性的問題擋在關係之間許久,只是我們視若無睹。時機不對,問題未解,怎麼轉換選擇亦是無果。413Please respect copyright.PENANAMnswPz2D0I
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我只答了句:「我很清楚自己要什麼。」413Please respect copyright.PENANAGNWGa5yiYY
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教練點點頭,啜了口椰青「那你為什麼學潛水?因為沒人有礙著你,可以清靜思考嗎?」413Please respect copyright.PENANA7rcrxu8CVw
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聽罷,我半頓。413Please respect copyright.PENANA6SoARa82O2
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這問題我倒是沒想過。倒是今天同學上海時講了句:「在海底很適合冥想。」413Please respect copyright.PENANAyw4nuP16SU
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思考不在於環境,在於傾聽與回應內心。413Please respect copyright.PENANAIvvnEd3kra
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我沒將想法告之教練,轉而告訴了他我在沖繩的經歷,教練點點頭,反向問了我好幾個問題,言語間我隱隱望見自己在他心裡的形象:先想後做真需要才問,惜字如金。413Please respect copyright.PENANA2vHKpltuNN
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「其實這樣不就和潛水很相同嗎?」我笑了笑,拌著青檸梳打「海底生物活命本事在於處變不驚,一不動,一動則快狠準。」413Please respect copyright.PENANARK5Q6VlN17
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教練笑了。413Please respect copyright.PENANAs3zaEp2wBr
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對話也纏在腳腕下沉。413Please respect copyright.PENANAC96GOXAwpO
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下沉,冒泡,隨水流飄揚。