憑窗,霧濛濛的玻璃外,風肆虐地讓旗幟張揚,雲壓著的天陰暗欲雨,好一個爛天氣,冷得我一身雞皮疙瘩。639Please respect copyright.PENANAteMubXJD3E
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默默地立在窗旁,凝視著某個不特定的方向,讓一種久違的感覺慢慢湧起,將我包圍。這感覺勾起了淺淺的懷念,我卻想不起有什麼值得懷念的。學校老舊的大禮堂,又冷又濕的糟糕天氣,越來越多的學生,這、到底有什麼好懷念的?639Please respect copyright.PENANAXGRqUlTrO1
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等等......越來越多的學生?639Please respect copyright.PENANAGPJBWwlhar
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「天氣好像又要變冷了,真討厭,對吧?」我站在窗戶的左邊,望著窗外的世界,居然出神到沒發覺窗戶的另一邊多了個人。愕然地拉回視線和遠颺的思緒,滷蛋圍著她招牌的翡翠綠圍巾,裹著雪人似的大衣,撇著頭,一臉惋惜。639Please respect copyright.PENANAKKmL7miz9M
眼望著她,「嗯。」我只是敷衍地應了一聲。我發現自己明顯心不在焉,明明是望著她,卻不是望著她,而像是透過著她,在看著誰。639Please respect copyright.PENANAth6yNN6LSz
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該怎麼說呢?滷蛋還是滷蛋,可是給我的感覺變了。同樣的姿態,同樣的表情,同樣的動作,同樣的她,但是不是她。639Please respect copyright.PENANAZplO3BciBk
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有一種陌生感,如同我們中間的窗般,隔在我們之間。639Please respect copyright.PENANAKf2KsimBNQ
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那樣陌生的隔閡感,那樣無力的隔閡感,無聲地,只是把我們架開。639Please respect copyright.PENANAE4vSKW8RXa
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「真羨幕 ,穿這麼少都不怕冷。」滷蛋淡淡地笑了,惆悵感卻揮之不去。 是我在網路上眾多假名的一個,也是我在朋友間的暱稱,大家都習慣這麼喚我。639Please respect copyright.PENANA8icKjCJav7
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經滷蛋這麼一提醒,我才發現,原來自己只穿著單薄的長袖,相形起滷蛋那厚牆似的大衣,身上這件頂多只能算是薄紙一張,怪不得會冷得要死。早知道早上就從家裡把大外套帶來,活該讓惰性使自己陷入這種困境,現在可好了,恐怕還得多捱涼幾天了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAjlquzW6g7G
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真是悔不當初。639Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6JDo5UQe9
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皺著眉,意外地發現自己在玻璃中的倒影,臉頰居然又比前些日子更腫了,我本來就陰鬱的心情大概更糟了,「真後悔沒帶外套來啊。」這是真心話。639Please respect copyright.PENANAty7kIDIfm6
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「啊──」而顯然我的真心話被滷蛋同學直接無視了。滷蛋一臉慌張,「趕快回座位吧,說明要開始了!」然後再看了看依舊茫然的我,滷蛋一副孺子不可教也的表情,飛也似地跑了。639Please respect copyright.PENANAy4meqjnGHU
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順著滷蛋離開的背影,我看到全校同學幾乎都到齊了,好像是什麼行前說明會的,怪不得禮堂裡這麼多人。639Please respect copyright.PENANAOTtqxlxNU5
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嗯......似乎是......校外教學?又好像不是......639Please respect copyright.PENANAqUQSihvdVt
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我試圖回憶。639Please respect copyright.PENANA4uhXuWYNqF
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突然地,記憶像是出現斷層,我忘了當初站在窗邊的理由,忘了為什麼自己會在這裡,甚至忘了,自己原本在做些什麼。此時嘈雜的人聲,仿若默片的背景,半分也進不到我的耳裡。639Please respect copyright.PENANAwdVTeVGFMj
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分明是喧囂地、紛亂地,我卻陷入一片可怕的寂靜之中。639Please respect copyright.PENANA9E6izhrVR2
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困惑及疲乏濃濃地捲起,試圖入侵我倦怠而遲滯的意志。639Please respect copyright.PENANAikt2I21lav
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本能地感覺到厭惡,卻只能無助地被動承擔這莫名其妙的氣氛,寒氣越發地刺骨,霸道地鑽進我的四肢百骸中,恣意地蝕著我的五臟六腑。關節結冰似的被上鎖,罷工。639Please respect copyright.PENANA9F4YS8vBKH
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禮堂裡的躁動不知何時沉靜了,所有的人都沉醉地泡在──也許──聲音的饗宴中,台上的人講得口沫橫飛,好不投入,投影片上的文字模糊不清,大家都以一種冷靜的姿態瘋狂著,沒有人發現不對勁,比如說──窗邊動彈不得的我。639Please respect copyright.PENANAttlTqqwhSM
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只有一個面生的老師,捧著一疊資料,像是在享受著自己緩慢的步伐,慢慢地要經過我。639Please respect copyright.PENANAOuX7RuALzG
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該出聲喊住他的,我卻挫敗地一句話也吐不出來,我的聲音大半也被封住了,梗著的求救,或許是發不出來,又或許是不想發出來,我不知道。639Please respect copyright.PENANAWTjoedI63b
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耳裡全是兩個聲音,我抓狂暴走的心跳聲,以及,他的腳步聲。639Please respect copyright.PENANAwOO7H9WFLA
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他的腳步聲格外稠滯,層層疊疊、雜雜錯錯地踩著,聽起來寧靜而荒涼。我倒抽一口冷氣,熟悉的恐懼感油然而生。639Please respect copyright.PENANAC05L4irZmC
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如預期一般,他果然注意到我了。嘴角驅使著特別的和煦笑意,他改變了原來的方向,而朝著我走來。不能動彈的我警戒地盯著他逼近的步伐,莫名地希望自己能離他越遠越好──但我無法靠自己的力量走出這方窗格。嚴謹一些來說,我也突然忘了該如何使喚自己的雙腳。639Please respect copyright.PENANAhShPmQRpur
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凍著,彷彿身下的這雙不是自己的腳。639Please respect copyright.PENANAmDg7RgIu52
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一股強大的脅迫漫天蓋地地向我壓來,我好像知道那是什麼,但我不敢確定。他清晰的惡意毫不掩飾,就這樣極直白地朝我扔了過來。639Please respect copyright.PENANAkI734e0fBn
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他徐徐地走到我的身後。我雖然背著他,看不到他的表情,卻能深深地感受到他的情緒波動,由內而外,徹底地發冷,不是因為天氣,是他,是他散發出來的、深淵似的絕望氣息。639Please respect copyright.PENANAd3B3fzALIb
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我的腸胃喧囂翻攪,滾動著埋在體內的記憶,那些本該屬於我的記憶,被逐漸還原。639Please respect copyright.PENANAJDHdCBzY9b
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原來,我又再一次使自己陷入困境。639Please respect copyright.PENANASOTKYyQ7lB
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轉不過身,我不知道他在哪裡,只能被動地感覺到他的鼻息吐在我的頸間,聲音精準地鑽進耳裡,「想不到,這種破學校,居然藏著意識這麼強大的人,其他的人都毫無抵抗地接受了我的暗示,就只有你......只有你一再逃過,就連我的考驗也拿你沒辦法。更奇怪的是,這個意識並不受你的操控,卻會類似本能地守著你......」我聽懂了,也聽不懂,一些殘破的記憶片段在腦海中一閃而逝。639Please respect copyright.PENANA4Ro4DfCr4v
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「不過這並沒關係,反正我已經把所有的人都困住了,雖然只能暫時牽制住你,但也足夠了。你遲早會落入我的手中,再強大的意識也有鬆懈的時候,只要你一鬆懈,你就輸了。我不介意多陪你玩玩,反正,最後的贏家永遠會、是、我,我最喜歡這種貓抓老鼠的遊戲了。別說我待你不好,現在我再給你一次機會,不如......現在就棄械投降吧?」他的聲音很黏,帶著媚惑的香味想動搖我的心志,催眠般的口吻想抽離我的思考。639Please respect copyright.PENANADeXpQee8Tn
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終於憶起那些遺落的印象,恐怕這人還會封鎖記憶,我想。639Please respect copyright.PENANAlPf02eEfJp
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會這麼累,是因為太清醒,無論如何都不允許自己有一絲鬆懈。不知道該如何突破他的陣,我只能一次次用意志力苦撐,然後重新回到原點,那扇窗,和同樣的時間點。639Please respect copyright.PENANA5hsM8N3726
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「你、休、想。」陌生的忿忿語句被我從齒縫中擠出,堅定而縹緲,低沉而嘶啞,我幾乎認不得這是自己的聲音。639Please respect copyright.PENANA3aS5jig6md
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憑窗,陰風慘慘,颳得樓頂的旗幟張狂,即使隔著窗都可以感受到那份沁骨的冷,好一個爛天氣,冷得我一身雞皮疙瘩。