我呆咗一陣,指著自己,道:「妳細妹講嘅話,係真嘅嗎?真係因為我?」205Please respect copyright.PENANA4rG6ronI4C
蔣美玲道:「呢件事係我自己決定㗎,完全唔關你事。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAjUySIxjWr2
我道:「但係點解……」205Please respect copyright.PENANAsZwwtj0e9T
蔣美玲插口道:「我唔係講過俾你聽嗎?就算即刻做切除手術,都只有零點幾嘅比率能成功,而且也唔一定醫好,甚至可能變成植物人。我真係唔想變成植物人呀,要佗累屋企人照顧我下半世,咁樣好咩?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAg7zQmHV3jF
我道:「我也可以照顧妳㗎。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA9xqQ010mmP
蔣美玲道:「咪傻啦,一世都係植物人呀,我唔可以咁樣過㗎,我接受唔到像個廢人咁俾人照顧。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAV9flarbF4e
我道:「但係……」205Please respect copyright.PENANAbopJiPj8E8
蔣美玲插口道:「唔好但係啦,請你尊重我嘅決定,如果你唔得嘅,你就現在即刻離開,當我哋無開始過,成為陌路人啦。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAkjA6D3NbHP
我道:「好啦,我尊重妳嘅決定。咁妳屋企人知道妳呢個決定未?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAHH8QpvuqNs
蔣美玲道:「知道啦,雖然阿爸阿媽都唔捨得,但係聽完我嘅解釋後,都接受了。就只係麗玲,總係唔明嘅。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAPbqkOhZ52M
我道:「哦,佢都係錫妳,關心妳啫。放心啦,我去開導下佢。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA2TAx6EHnZ4
蔣美玲道:「你?麗玲好自我㗎,你一定會碰釘子。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAsln5lE8KOA
我笑著道:「唔緊要啦,我就去講講。我夜晚再來睇妳。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAnxTYhKkfU2
蔣美玲說了一聲「好」,我就離開病房了。205Please respect copyright.PENANAeaFAsa28YJ
我搭升降機下了樓,才發覺有一個問題,究竟蔣麗玲走了去哪?還在醫院裡?還是離開了醫院?205Please respect copyright.PENANAR6vlkRrSRQ
我心裡想:「先在醫院找找,找唔到才出去再找。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAmxQEMLyrJK
於是靠著我那不可靠的直覺,在醫院裡的每一個角落尋找蔣麗玲的蹤影。205Please respect copyright.PENANAL6GTeytlrf
我找了半小時有多,在醫院的隱蔽小花園裡聽到一把女仔哭泣的聲音,我就行了入去,便看見蔣麗玲背著我,坐在花槽邊。205Please respect copyright.PENANAzmE1XoVmZO
我慢慢地行到蔣麗玲身邊,坐在她的右邊,偷偷地看了一下她哭的樣子,然後從褲袋裡拿了一包已打開蓋的紙巾,遞給她,道:「眼淚鼻涕一面都係,很醜怪呢,來抹一抹吧。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA2jTHEbdy51
蔣麗玲一手拿了張紙巾,抹了抹眼淚和鼻涕,道:「唔好以為遞了張紙巾來,我就要承認你係家姐嘅男朋友呢。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAeTzvlIeyFp
我收了包紙巾,道:「其實係唔係男朋友都唔緊要啦,最重要係可以喺美玲餘下嘅日子陪住佢。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA1LRomD8JRh
蔣麗玲道:「連你也贊同家姐嘅做法嗎?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAZLpmBe3Tqj
我道:「如果妳成世人都係郁唔到嘅植物人,妳會點?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAJLh6peSHxc
蔣麗玲道:「我都有諗過,如果係我,我也會有家姐嘅想法。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA3JbAygEn78
我道:「咁就係啦,我哋應該尊重佢嘅想法。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA4ah89sCRWs
蔣麗玲哭著道:「家姐係我嘅親人,無咗佢,我以後嘅日子都唔知點過,我唔捨得呀。」205Please respect copyright.PENANALV08eeT1XL
我道:「我都唔捨得呢,但我認了,命運係咁樣,都無法,唯有喺佢短暫嘅生命裡面陪伴佢,令佢開心地過埋餘下嘅日子。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAeVtIOO5ku7
蔣麗玲的頭挨到我的膊頭上,不停地哭,我的左手搭著她的膊頭,慢慢地輕拍著。205Please respect copyright.PENANAhxIwiM7RLn
我道:「依家就哭飽佢,但回到美玲身邊,妳就要笑了,唔好俾佢擔憂妳,為佢最後嘅生命留點美好嘅回憶。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA3SWoDNXNfj
蔣麗玲點了點頭,又繼續哭下去。205Please respect copyright.PENANA18UtzFgOdG
哭了很久很久,她的眼淚都流乾了,心情開始平和一點。205Please respect copyright.PENANABjYuAEHAOg
她感到肚子餓,於是我哋去了醫院的餐廳大樓吃個午餐,順便一起談論怎樣令蔣美玲快樂地過埋餘下的日子。205Please respect copyright.PENANAlkrBvQQCjw
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就是這樣,每日中午和晚上的兩更探病時間,我和蔣麗玲都會來陪蔣美玲。205Please respect copyright.PENANAkvs1s8vjfR
除了陪蔣美玲吃飯外,我哋還會一邊睇電視,一邊討論劇集的內容。205Please respect copyright.PENANAXZso8nNop6
有時我哋會輪流讀小說給蔣美玲聽,有時還會一起看漫畫,吵吵鬧鬧又一天。205Please respect copyright.PENANAieAw8XhBYT
日子一天一天的過去,蔣美玲身體也日漸變差,漸漸地連進食、呼吸也困難,開始插喉吊鹽水,要用醫療儀器輔助,然後又過了一段日子就昏迷不醒。205Please respect copyright.PENANAqhpTq1ZWtZ
醫生說蔣美玲差不多捱不住了,問她的父母,會不會考慮一下幫她做手術。205Please respect copyright.PENANAsCCP4lPc7D
開始的時候,因為蔣美玲之前的意願,而令她的父母也拿不定主意,我和蔣麗玲也不能提議什麼,最後她的阿爸決定了,不理任何風險,就簽了醫療文件讓醫生做手術。205Please respect copyright.PENANAJbGjmx5fFu
但可惜命運總是達不到人願,蔣美玲未到手術室前,呼吸和心跳相繼停止了,結果醫生宣告她正式死亡。205Please respect copyright.PENANAVfP7RLhHEN
蔣美玲的阿媽哭得一塌糊塗,她的阿爸忍痛地攬著她的阿媽來安慰,我也借了個膊頭給蔣麗玲哭泣。205Please respect copyright.PENANA4NwlCYkia7
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又過了一星期,蔣美玲的死亡證一辦理好後,就在殯儀館舉辦喪禮,有好多親朋戚友來送殯,也包括我和王希兒、高志軒。205Please respect copyright.PENANAZcVJAoBso3
我哋來到蔣美玲的靈堂前,一躹躬、再躹躬、三躹躬,家屬謝禮,然後和她的家人安慰了幾句,就坐埋一邊聊聊近況。205Please respect copyright.PENANA4c5hBX3xLo
王希兒道:「樂仔,你心情還好嗎?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAhwnUAEBxZ6
我道:「起初就會匿埋自己喺床上憂傷,但隔咗一排,諗通了,心情就放寬啦。」205Please respect copyright.PENANA1R7n7VSaVn
王希兒道:「咁就好了,我哋之前還擔心你呢。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAEkUNVfTK7h
我微笑道:「妳唔係講過嗎,我係好堅強㗎,咩難關都能過,放心吧。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAHbwKR9CGUu
王希兒道:「咁我哋就放心了,既然你無事,有件事要告訴你。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAwZTCO8dD0M
我好奇地道:「咩事?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAcZxdBKUSCD
王希兒道:「有次我和志軒經過某某商場嘅後樓梯,見到一地都是玻璃酒樽,好奇望咗一望,你估我哋見到邊個?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAu7zuUIVezO
我好奇地道:「邊個?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAfuEO5PWs0M
王希兒道:「正方呀,佢居然學人飲酒,仲要係飲好多。」205Please respect copyright.PENANArhPHhseIaE
高志軒道:「係囉,都唔知佢發生咗咩事而咁樣。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAbaLVBUSd6D
我皺了眉頭,道:「唔,完咗呢面嘅事,我就去了解正方嘅事了。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAWKy3Ve0VSo
王希兒和高志軒異口同聲地說了一聲「好」。205Please respect copyright.PENANAMrzROeBTGA
待靈堂一切儀式完成後,王希兒和高志軒先行離開,而我就隨同蔣麗玲和她的家人乘車去火葬場。205Please respect copyright.PENANAZtxptrUcpQ
把蔣美玲的遺體火化,並經過處理後,便拿著她的骨灰去沙田萬佛寺安放在龕位裡。205Please respect copyright.PENANALAP2pN5eyb
當要點香拜祭時,我有意無意之間看到不遠處的龕位上寫著一個很熟悉的名字「郭芯柔」。205Please respect copyright.PENANAq7Gvijfj3t
我摸著頸項的玩具戒指,走上前再看清一些,上面的一幅相是個十幾歲的少女,樣子有點像小時候的玩伴郭芯柔(請讀者自行翻查《樂仔幼傳》第一部)。205Please respect copyright.PENANAfCxHtz7RpG
我心想:「真係佢嗎?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAq9rd9Rt8cM
蔣麗玲睇見我沉默地看著一幅相,也走了過來,問道:「識嘅嗎?」205Please respect copyright.PENANAtPDbmumsWJ
我茫然地道:「好似係,又好似唔係……」205Please respect copyright.PENANAV6M2adWFcr
蔣麗玲拉著我的手臂,道:「哦,既然唔肯定,就唔好諗。來,裝炷香俾家姐先。」205Please respect copyright.PENANAMHRCyCtfAD
學她所說,這可能是我多心了,我唯有跟著她行去蔣美玲的龕位前上香。205Please respect copyright.PENANAzr9ZOljR4V
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雖然我在朋友面前,表現得無什麼事,但心裡仍是會有點憂傷。205Please respect copyright.PENANABUPNtW0nZL
希望日子一天一天的過去,心裡的憂傷會慢慢退去。205Please respect copyright.PENANAfo8bb7QoK0
過多幾天就是開學日,我又要為學業打拼了,為自己打氣吧,努力加油!205Please respect copyright.PENANAxpaV8Dj607
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