這算什麼?867Please respect copyright.PENANAmVOhpUCawa
867Please respect copyright.PENANAjuQriydIMh
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。867Please respect copyright.PENANAWx6EuAijSY
867Please respect copyright.PENANAzwpQBYYqPd
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。867Please respect copyright.PENANAuW3cjQuujy
867Please respect copyright.PENANANghMFoDspu
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。867Please respect copyright.PENANA4DpeyTWOQD
867Please respect copyright.PENANAhPlfmx2AZf
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。867Please respect copyright.PENANAfOAtR06I9I
867Please respect copyright.PENANAnBJHwgTHz5
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。867Please respect copyright.PENANA0sBSfkJ4ml
867Please respect copyright.PENANAl4lVoHzMfc
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。867Please respect copyright.PENANAMbkaVSRV7U
867Please respect copyright.PENANAzbDhC5y2sB
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。867Please respect copyright.PENANA8pTcPdMlU7
867Please respect copyright.PENANA0KHUcVw2As
然後便準備下山了。867Please respect copyright.PENANAvTsaP2cFGx
867Please respect copyright.PENANA0dlNEXBBZu
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。867Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3FO6S5v3T
867Please respect copyright.PENANAvmusiJmzAk
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。867Please respect copyright.PENANAYOWN9GAEPv
867Please respect copyright.PENANA3aNodVQwQb
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAE57RIIvaOr
867Please respect copyright.PENANAChTS6U0mdq
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。867Please respect copyright.PENANAF7BFtybxTg
867Please respect copyright.PENANAeJOM7gK2ZH
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。867Please respect copyright.PENANAI8jlrum3SR
867Please respect copyright.PENANAz1JJnQ57ws
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。867Please respect copyright.PENANArDippKsGLq
867Please respect copyright.PENANA1L1RvYWKav
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。867Please respect copyright.PENANAes61rmUCBw
867Please respect copyright.PENANAfknaM9u0KK
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。867Please respect copyright.PENANA7rDB5CyPdb
867Please respect copyright.PENANAWkiOw1FgzM
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」867Please respect copyright.PENANAIy2ahX6jsD
867Please respect copyright.PENANA9Yrp9KXzny
不會告訴我,又一天了。867Please respect copyright.PENANA0TWUmQKdwe
867Please respect copyright.PENANACfFH0LWnvH
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。867Please respect copyright.PENANAAVuWUwMZF9
867Please respect copyright.PENANAzQh2EVeXso
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。867Please respect copyright.PENANAMRk0Q38aKZ
867Please respect copyright.PENANAf4dGuW4dvG
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。867Please respect copyright.PENANAFd46R8D4Nh
867Please respect copyright.PENANAEZb7t51FAF
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。867Please respect copyright.PENANAURZUY8zOyU
867Please respect copyright.PENANAXCOQF2J1P5
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。867Please respect copyright.PENANA1CfGfs71gS
867Please respect copyright.PENANA1b5WRgn19Y
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」867Please respect copyright.PENANA4glO7m64HZ
867Please respect copyright.PENANANPA4NDh3VX
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。867Please respect copyright.PENANAvzs9OcKT3Y
867Please respect copyright.PENANA5LKYQ3Ilpp
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。867Please respect copyright.PENANAqabaYmYLtj
867Please respect copyright.PENANAKDzbEU5n44
怎麼說呢?867Please respect copyright.PENANAPfV4RipOth
867Please respect copyright.PENANAItNqytlCGE
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。867Please respect copyright.PENANATeXNxOEgrd
867Please respect copyright.PENANAsdth9wmXlN
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。867Please respect copyright.PENANAuJaBYMfAWB
867Please respect copyright.PENANABFS40XZIbK
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。867Please respect copyright.PENANA3BwWTuOfRJ
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。867Please respect copyright.PENANAoXoUcd5ymt
867Please respect copyright.PENANAS3zjTUsEZJ
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。867Please respect copyright.PENANAkUgu7kV2KV
867Please respect copyright.PENANAdco1MNHaGg
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。867Please respect copyright.PENANAEYKwter3tz
867Please respect copyright.PENANAxT5xYq4Rzp
我再點頭。867Please respect copyright.PENANAKQZKDGHBLi
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。867Please respect copyright.PENANAUEY0ZUea08
867Please respect copyright.PENANACWUmP13NKV
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。867Please respect copyright.PENANAEUSQVde8O4
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我馬上看第二天。867Please respect copyright.PENANAAzbR9PWhlf
867Please respect copyright.PENANAbQNtkZlgDi
中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。867Please respect copyright.PENANAhXFJl9k3Sq
867Please respect copyright.PENANAeemewjZGoh
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。867Please respect copyright.PENANAmNYNBQBUGn
867Please respect copyright.PENANA39aPtGY0m0
在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……867Please respect copyright.PENANARiev6Q4SOV
867Please respect copyright.PENANAXwFyQBUqXy
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。867Please respect copyright.PENANAgRgDMUa1z9
867Please respect copyright.PENANAHcsoG1IL1a
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」867Please respect copyright.PENANApNpEIp6ALW
867Please respect copyright.PENANApkADLWsgRZ
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」867Please respect copyright.PENANACF81yQhFG3
867Please respect copyright.PENANACTZo3AWIEq
第二天「END」出現。867Please respect copyright.PENANA7NWcA4gFig
867Please respect copyright.PENANAWYCTh4N5Z9
我蓋上了練習簿。867Please respect copyright.PENANAIafCSHB4DH
867Please respect copyright.PENANA5kHuYnop9H
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。867Please respect copyright.PENANAzHNLCHeFnV
867Please respect copyright.PENANA8e6kLt9BWM
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?867Please respect copyright.PENANAaNINoKizQQ
867Please respect copyright.PENANAOPsBmXdW37
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。867Please respect copyright.PENANAm3dduvboZE
867Please respect copyright.PENANA6myxTWJwAf
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。867Please respect copyright.PENANArFvJaPCwTp
867Please respect copyright.PENANAivuao1RZdR
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。867Please respect copyright.PENANAs83E7qmA6b
867Please respect copyright.PENANAKYTrDYbC4p
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。867Please respect copyright.PENANAGu5WWrRk6r
867Please respect copyright.PENANAm8CqJGRNoe
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。867Please respect copyright.PENANA2LqZDXylYW
867Please respect copyright.PENANAKpmjyOXklk
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?867Please respect copyright.PENANA4hBUsGzDLU
867Please respect copyright.PENANAV3MtdBvlvl
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。867Please respect copyright.PENANArI0TTvLfTG
867Please respect copyright.PENANAJr8Dz7D14a
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。867Please respect copyright.PENANAmMyydCNfWK
867Please respect copyright.PENANAv4YczeV4Fa
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAqDF2KYIUGW
867Please respect copyright.PENANA8H77KkOeZ1
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。867Please respect copyright.PENANATNe3d977tM
867Please respect copyright.PENANAXqyQ6xGIOj
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAdSoQ4NAEHK
867Please respect copyright.PENANAlrTd4jWxBu
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。867Please respect copyright.PENANAEUwbj2l9On
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。867Please respect copyright.PENANALfDm4a6nAk
867Please respect copyright.PENANAvzaaKKUrAC
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。867Please respect copyright.PENANAKe1cU35WTh
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然後再次坐好。867Please respect copyright.PENANAi90oB5ZKW0
867Please respect copyright.PENANAQxKSPaS5DO
「陸……傾兒。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAr4C4IUXL8D
867Please respect copyright.PENANAeM8DhVs4vL
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。867Please respect copyright.PENANAe3S61Zdl5N
867Please respect copyright.PENANAqQN61QUL6j
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。867Please respect copyright.PENANAzFfBqCbsRs
867Please respect copyright.PENANAyX72lLV1OW
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。867Please respect copyright.PENANAVJMUJRyHrm
867Please respect copyright.PENANAC697OhpJOV
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。867Please respect copyright.PENANAxDXMcjBe4q
867Please respect copyright.PENANALeDHucHf0y
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。867Please respect copyright.PENANAej5vTglMcg
867Please respect copyright.PENANAlKrTG9lfA0
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?867Please respect copyright.PENANAbIrwBMCsgn
867Please respect copyright.PENANA4dKrWwn86d
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。867Please respect copyright.PENANAHnrm5kZUIQ
867Please respect copyright.PENANAAUrc2bky5G
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。867Please respect copyright.PENANAl3QhfKe1g1
867Please respect copyright.PENANAvTYPQZcN96
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。867Please respect copyright.PENANAJDCo9uMT4U
867Please respect copyright.PENANAAoT69USDI5
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。867Please respect copyright.PENANAj8lfkQGcXY
867Please respect copyright.PENANACNEu5JfzK2
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。867Please respect copyright.PENANAq3tuSV3cUQ
867Please respect copyright.PENANAtMSOYNtzh9
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。867Please respect copyright.PENANA8H2Fltxfus
867Please respect copyright.PENANA14u4noELeO
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。867Please respect copyright.PENANAIJDa2WuhMJ
867Please respect copyright.PENANAQfS4g9CPEf
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。867Please respect copyright.PENANAx2ACI6AWHO
867Please respect copyright.PENANANizTiLMHQf
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。867Please respect copyright.PENANADgrOIv2JnY
867Please respect copyright.PENANAGwbMUonfDI
那麼,我呢?867Please respect copyright.PENANAvUfjRcF0Sc
867Please respect copyright.PENANAvN5gpI2ZD4
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?867Please respect copyright.PENANAbYkuDntiaI
867Please respect copyright.PENANALwqXSjd7Nh
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。867Please respect copyright.PENANAS3Wh8N3n00
867Please respect copyright.PENANAYWuqiY13g9
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。867Please respect copyright.PENANAAkwuBHUwy9
867Please respect copyright.PENANAfmBIsMgMXV
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。867Please respect copyright.PENANAHdUToOfoVN
867Please respect copyright.PENANANLrArepd1Z
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。867Please respect copyright.PENANAaEiIik9JGn
867Please respect copyright.PENANAvcY0OGHYyH
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。867Please respect copyright.PENANAOBULAmJaPZ
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 867Please respect copyright.PENANAnrISbGrCY0
867Please respect copyright.PENANAb5wLZAr3Ro
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 867Please respect copyright.PENANAm8q9WH2mHW
867Please respect copyright.PENANAvpzAmtZW3e
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。867Please respect copyright.PENANAHJRhNKOFYn
867Please respect copyright.PENANAwDkyD22jr8
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAPqRLuubt5b
867Please respect copyright.PENANAtz7fI1kMy1
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAQSKxs88QBV
867Please respect copyright.PENANAKcDxrFOVpe
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAgSuaV0WUhm
867Please respect copyright.PENANAzuZmeK6Qbd
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAjsaqwNbAAt
867Please respect copyright.PENANAmvQYiRBm26
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。867Please respect copyright.PENANADRhTMj62IO
867Please respect copyright.PENANARdtRxPIRjE
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAW6JmzGmtTW
867Please respect copyright.PENANAE1pg0mNYNp
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。867Please respect copyright.PENANA8bynbhJjrj
867Please respect copyright.PENANAE2fVoxbvlt
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。867Please respect copyright.PENANAlSw0r0Juk2
867Please respect copyright.PENANAF0VKy45sCY
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。867Please respect copyright.PENANAhh6JbHNQ5s
867Please respect copyright.PENANAEdPQkoE1XH
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。867Please respect copyright.PENANAivofAbaq69
867Please respect copyright.PENANA2884xBdvoW
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?867Please respect copyright.PENANAZLM0jlRmQh
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我期待著。867Please respect copyright.PENANALWu5Vc4ncG
867Please respect copyright.PENANAllWQs9axCn
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。867Please respect copyright.PENANABF8AAPBApy
867Please respect copyright.PENANAQsvrfGlOC7
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。867Please respect copyright.PENANAwGZhYQ1eGp
867Please respect copyright.PENANAIXXGWRzVEj
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。867Please respect copyright.PENANASRppQkiqMT
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」867Please respect copyright.PENANA2HvV2zjgZl
867Please respect copyright.PENANAmkuJhNv8vE
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。867Please respect copyright.PENANArpOJI5XtiY
867Please respect copyright.PENANA0ClcFV2qoI
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAru2GFe6As8
867Please respect copyright.PENANAtqLDplHBg5
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。867Please respect copyright.PENANA1YMNxDaGDT
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。867Please respect copyright.PENANAgt84ZXrWM0
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傾耳以待——867Please respect copyright.PENANAvzq9KBrsNa
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAZBaG2My9Ai
867Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2DgENuXsR
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。867Please respect copyright.PENANATvjzhbjqgP
867Please respect copyright.PENANAOZMRlzFe11
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。867Please respect copyright.PENANANxkITQxXLq
867Please respect copyright.PENANAK2uzdolwzd
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。867Please respect copyright.PENANAwC0sEfKr2A
867Please respect copyright.PENANAnbLfZRjBgp
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAKxRR6JM4WR
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身體傾後,躺了下來。867Please respect copyright.PENANAMjc7TlpglF
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「係諗住攤。」867Please respect copyright.PENANAS6wx509NhO
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。867Please respect copyright.PENANAxHIHqrPKy7
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孤獨的島住了一個人
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24 / 餵雞的哲思
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