我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAtgUBYLmi
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYU2Td1e8Gx
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgVCEh0LdH
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITOG9seqL2
「咬下——」明白了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8JLJMKfRL
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJce2YFDJd
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd3xNhvJBd
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFVnhrx1Kk
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarc4Yl0IzU
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpDemTiiAJ
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e48kADBVl
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppxWG5PDKV
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4flVFOFPB
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXaEcQFuJu
神是不是故意的？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5VQJmx99n
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZQCy9dCqY
竟然……安排這種測試給我。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4E66XLSKj
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43rzoLsJzg
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Qw6QgIxcP
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yxceNiC2E
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjX4by3C86
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwpEZXOXSX
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwzLKXomB4
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWCMMxDyFk
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQg2AXyhuDP
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFrgnHqbIV
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiTcj5rlf1
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldp5fBo9B9
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeUa1rLZ23
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTYD1mmMau
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwpvmfgRtL
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOYxd7yUua
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ010eI8chPv
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7cPKnJfER
「唔好再講喇。」我說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogCi9vViAu
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MAGxYZ7pT
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxjtkWKw8w
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS6BFWkop5
然後我沒有再阻止她。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDxllHIrAf
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFNdwPuHaf
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1uprTwTEw
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvOKLyK5zL
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tqvArLsob
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqFih43XOh
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDMqXH3DUI
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6KHBfbZJC
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4GTOvYZY9
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Swaxp3IBS
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYldCnPI8dn
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInMHNP9IFN
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CLhi2XFDR
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU82M74PVHS
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyqlgz4xPT
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdIRHjq374
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUSphFynmK
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEqnpHe7q5
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8eJCcKEVH
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoE1PoZ5BMX
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AXnwqskfI
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhQ4haNyVX
我也正在難過。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ917s94OYOR
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsREmXicNI4
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq81XImzXSh
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlEqFRhXiW
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3DzoSOE0M
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEfZBwrdgV
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSWuqSiCBK
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVTgnQo4V9
「點解？」她問。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPRNh8gbFC
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wmiNwcPGV
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTne61LgApg
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzY5d1sVNlb
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWiywavqVx
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lcPagpfvO
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClvmefPdDw
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOMltga0Mv
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8CcKQeLN5
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtMLq0tSHp
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KEYq6EmJE
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFQgD4Wg1p
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRo5cwW28Bf
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGr0cdBY9yp
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikZ8EdzUtL
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapqPJkIe9S
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEkmFcHLAu
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtgQbE864S
這是……什麼爛方法？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraSNeUvrKG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbQaeaDB3C
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP2olZ9mVa
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7VYE1xbvD
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU11Pj8WeeG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT6CBP51Io
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AMjtiHzsz
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4pe6U89Rm
「咩條件？」她問。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZVHzO4M8d
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaMPijpscV
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlftsSbpezv
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5EhGydvTb
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMFakrRYzl
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqJzh4fniv
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6uJafDVbv
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSgl4evTwD
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRheaVuyH6F
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AZ3WnDviw
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTLb4qUyQf
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZgfXF9NON
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDIfVEg2rj
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbUTvjhE4f
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBUhpaxdnk
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2xplwbyct
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfweAbA6i5
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtJrNxAkLg
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLocVRQSD2
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlhslxc4qV
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKfCclEEE5
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFseG7jU4L
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOafWvg3mg
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIjlCI7Qyg
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsunyvPdgAh
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bwlwR9X4j
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQzLJU1ynb
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStIGa9AgcX
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFLv5TTov7
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2GGErcczw
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURHLNaOFDe
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAC9aJzVi44
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvJ4f7f4uO
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWxdztqqMx
說完，她聽完。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRA573RYOHd
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbt8a4GdgAh
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktOsXkWnXS
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOnEGCJBOW
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsziXohEdMk
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqnVfThibV
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUMiA0mNbU
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mI06Uqtz1
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVxF7rZsg3
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytavpiU2kY
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uvy5OVrz1
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfSCeeBXKS
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbXkVac19c
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWUxkHZE2S
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPtbD0kNlG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9iPTzRsqS
「陸傾兒……」我說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvLbtst13v
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OoNX2KAKi
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFwHZifuj9
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe3j58oXsL
「揀咩都得？」我問。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAvsXHTtHT
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi5hDegfkR
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybsXfMm2MB
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfEmrogwvt
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMesgq97gyG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN7v9WvbJV
而我不懂回答。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidUfTG50Un
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH4PSy0J0g
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEnCPFKdiC
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6JDZtUfjW
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1heMW3sET
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwmJ3FkFwo
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7yVQKhXGu
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7daapE6fOg
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8uYHaeX1E
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjzMOzhfsO
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBxgnGnEEK
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMoHdbdzj8
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMeietKclh
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6VEkchYfl
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfPtXu0cLR
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweNc27Ubag
過後——873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7ttkIHpaW
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkC5HEVXm3
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzYZAg85Db
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicutrQOpDI
屁股坐下。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciuTtWIfXY
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOXg9ntHOD
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2fChfZVdI
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