我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4h7MfyRdF
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsscEdI5dcF
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「咬下——」明白了。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LdpBkTmCZ
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTH4pPwEzL
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2dvbGN4xh
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jUs6t6tvO
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Rqp0Yr1uP
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzz3YW0SkSA
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QHjXDrlXZ
神是不是故意的？726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrLiWpmmeG
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DkcIln8lP
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkRvrsEctq
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tvO0wVNYY
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92YkUhRbCc
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmchyH1kbn
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlke3hIQEo
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDFCeZxOuI
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBzwIRm9mu
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1wRTvCGsM
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPx8HxOexO5
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV9mmFlduo
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCjn1w4dtm
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvREvNdMzP
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTWZOhLTDK
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99JLqkcyxq
「唔好再講喇。」我說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3LIdbGpum
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLLEOxsiUI
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9piAqlrQC
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然後我沒有再阻止她。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlSgH0ay6v
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU0TtCnZla
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QyNppeTCC
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RKEnslLK3
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwvlVJVR2P
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLxyK3T7i1
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVU19jScfO
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviTwIG7AvY
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08O4SyIDzm
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJQRxdg7rl
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXd6oTVMGb
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGcmu3hO9L
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6gJbTX9WX
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFr9Z9XGmQ
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeQcwtRpUc
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBY1TWn5PHo
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMPiyKciZo
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPijlryYqt
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVonwbyjDf
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiQNm0k15V
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkhAxuxYXq
我也正在難過。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgv9wwfTFwQ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LLIF1cBuD
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2iP6w0baW
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxAfs47c1R
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCp4l5ORDcM
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmg3R2G7E44
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6u71jhAoc
「點解？」她問。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuEE68qVzy
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1GREh5v4U
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcMITYrJ6c
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6cgvwZWMc
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAY6QCRSwN
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmQyCfB1Ms
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDwKSfDb8u
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LjclfdiJF
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewTde2xsqA
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8AYj1Fo0y
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOluEYMFbf8
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwqUGjlW3o
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeLHC3IpJ7
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0Sq4WU0Vw
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這是……什麼爛方法？726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qB6CkZE1u
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEQ3cTN8dJ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rjb8BwOps
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuSDr6DI8e
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLsJp2KxDX
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTeusSDMwL
「咩條件？」她問。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbLSobTaWP
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CNXEqbqzD
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW7mg3EdhK
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oyWbeHNs7
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5c6vXOjRMd
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYIzUYnoIj
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t8XTuyTte
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUNPQyrmiE
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r4btbdtKJ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQedaakCv1b
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAQX51jwst
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvpEQLA4AD
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIfpEFWOwZ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanigyOp1xt
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zSIk2ebO1
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWi37osOC8
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4XhrHZdaR
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhmIbLo0AC
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mWAdmv4aF
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dgHA32ChK
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVLfQ0sZcu
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQZQ75XwwI
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS56DUrcihU
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAc3ZGfWi7
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMQM3lWks7
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIaDqt2Z0U
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31Kvb1xSON
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNHThSP1S1
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNJZ9e0eQj
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbChNlEfAqi
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqica5ntQCq
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt6QNxk9AB
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50nsTdAUuu
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HVYr1SYFG
說完，她聽完。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODyk6gfdLO
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMt9RpPzOv
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlU7vAdpho1
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0Wk5AV2Td
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyW2fS3oS4s
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrWIjXXiyQ
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujg1ciOWCr
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIewjUgquQ
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0np07vkMdF
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphWmft7AtD
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsrSw5MyHs
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp0TKf8km9
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nKOIit6sL
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PIwBAeKJC
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkw16pLs7P
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCOLbhEIcY
「陸傾兒……」我說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ6JuLuQlO
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8E2n63Gwa
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5bGLLrTKe
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpeX590bZG
「揀咩都得？」我問。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5UYfDEDY7
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtXQPKHLR6
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2oO9jt3uQ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqf9dIQ57X
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFTVduKJcV
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUfZ475krA
而我不懂回答。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwgMIU20UW
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEOMOU4Cfv
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CEKFQTejk
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHL7kZkRsJa
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1rvcCXqIk
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZPxgf0UCg
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnaGxVz6yp
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpRld6DU0z
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7av9tdmEMP
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAo4Yvryws
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhO8cTaFwi
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhpeat49YG
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblL0MiHxLV
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4G5Ez8snCf
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過後——726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiXhEGxIuF
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbpCgNEqiU
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屁股坐下。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXOqlRfb10
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqXpS2aQBa
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