我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。917Please respect copyright.PENANAL3h0xlyWFQ
917Please respect copyright.PENANA8euu7mShFo
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。917Please respect copyright.PENANAOExEIDZ27D
917Please respect copyright.PENANAwjin8L8wxF
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。917Please respect copyright.PENANAh1IYYTGW4O
917Please respect copyright.PENANAdii9iKjg32
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。917Please respect copyright.PENANA6YYcbV6SGw
917Please respect copyright.PENANAwh64h92ll3
走進了屋邨商場。917Please respect copyright.PENANAZaz4KGhfKD
917Please respect copyright.PENANAQj1i59wdUU
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。917Please respect copyright.PENANAxMe475XJ3I
917Please respect copyright.PENANAXG2HLBwNgb
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。917Please respect copyright.PENANAqSl0NlsLc8
917Please respect copyright.PENANAATRH3w2HEK
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。917Please respect copyright.PENANA9UBpeImiyj
917Please respect copyright.PENANAGQCgn7BprE
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。917Please respect copyright.PENANA7AuaYzi5cg
917Please respect copyright.PENANAT6tcdAYNUw
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。917Please respect copyright.PENANAlLCF3jBKIc
917Please respect copyright.PENANAezx95joMyc
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。917Please respect copyright.PENANAOFL5V7xWJ4
917Please respect copyright.PENANAyI3SgJD7kq
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。917Please respect copyright.PENANAQaCfdVpVvJ
917Please respect copyright.PENANA5XAbMGsWg5
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。917Please respect copyright.PENANAxzI1Bv5ei1
917Please respect copyright.PENANAVYn7mi7crh
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。917Please respect copyright.PENANALwpsHF2OVR
917Please respect copyright.PENANANmah3Rq8iW
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。917Please respect copyright.PENANAyba2k7IcO7
917Please respect copyright.PENANAXATbZuC7l6
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——917Please respect copyright.PENANAxIpacC7ULl
917Please respect copyright.PENANAKHY2alQ04f
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。917Please respect copyright.PENANAHR70Waqk3t
917Please respect copyright.PENANADrWsB0SaBc
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。917Please respect copyright.PENANAeNo04dWCQB
917Please respect copyright.PENANAdUREODDHzW
腳步還是能動。917Please respect copyright.PENANAujwVTvJVSY
917Please respect copyright.PENANAfC9KpUy76f
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。917Please respect copyright.PENANACrpPlYNesW
917Please respect copyright.PENANAIRYZbV0X2Y
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……917Please respect copyright.PENANAYUeq1rC0Xr
917Please respect copyright.PENANAzOmtEZlnSm
腳步才轉向離去。917Please respect copyright.PENANALWfeeub30I
917Please respect copyright.PENANAs7tzxFhAqu
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。917Please respect copyright.PENANALCqyDSxoO7
917Please respect copyright.PENANA1pt0WV3Z7R
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。917Please respect copyright.PENANAlooc9gOV8D
917Please respect copyright.PENANAK5IzpKLuz9
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。917Please respect copyright.PENANA2f9qL74ISs
917Please respect copyright.PENANAsrN4RJscJS
但是已經不再重要。917Please respect copyright.PENANAS5nrbKdXWa
917Please respect copyright.PENANACNkkuJvUiz
她騙了我。917Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZVrnTKr8w
917Please respect copyright.PENANAiGQATNXEye
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。917Please respect copyright.PENANAV5I5bBqrJi
917Please respect copyright.PENANAymte3cuAI3
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。917Please respect copyright.PENANAQxbk1CdmuA
917Please respect copyright.PENANA9vOGZqoFy3
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。917Please respect copyright.PENANAqyU7yfVFvQ
917Please respect copyright.PENANATxLniIWL5g
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。917Please respect copyright.PENANA90owz5DvSy
917Please respect copyright.PENANAw15uSYty6N
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。917Please respect copyright.PENANArktYrTtuC0
917Please respect copyright.PENANA4WcyjmdPjy
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。917Please respect copyright.PENANAEoUh7rd8Kw
917Please respect copyright.PENANAf2Wl20xZyE
但我錯了。917Please respect copyright.PENANAE90oZw4AuZ
917Please respect copyright.PENANApCzQASXSBb
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。917Please respect copyright.PENANAogavWpviN6
917Please respect copyright.PENANAWjPqBcpfid
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。917Please respect copyright.PENANAfWOmnGDE90
917Please respect copyright.PENANAfky7SjsSRY
眼下——917Please respect copyright.PENANAOkNoyfadT4
917Please respect copyright.PENANAQOubdmvtDX
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。917Please respect copyright.PENANAdyfhnp7tFw
917Please respect copyright.PENANAkcpCHlWMc3
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。917Please respect copyright.PENANAxOHYYdNkQt
917Please respect copyright.PENANA6Glb6wXR8f
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。917Please respect copyright.PENANAZeAMByGab2
917Please respect copyright.PENANAI9wOLN9KLa
我能夠再承受一次嗎?917Please respect copyright.PENANAcUvrJOlpjz
917Please respect copyright.PENANA0NssDeeTpZ
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。917Please respect copyright.PENANAui8aCpi6Rq
917Please respect copyright.PENANAR21YVtZ4t7
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。917Please respect copyright.PENANAdOXLPos7Ly
917Please respect copyright.PENANAb0U5ukkLEc
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。917Please respect copyright.PENANA1aKwnkc43b
917Please respect copyright.PENANAf6TMMAh8rW
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。917Please respect copyright.PENANAHe45yl8TOL
917Please respect copyright.PENANAEhq78kOXZU
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。917Please respect copyright.PENANAHvFTOLzjj9
917Please respect copyright.PENANA2tTZ82klqB
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。917Please respect copyright.PENANA7eRkrj770L
917Please respect copyright.PENANAqf5SKFDT90
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。917Please respect copyright.PENANAIkWs8SrZkT
917Please respect copyright.PENANAjr0yTQgfp1
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。917Please respect copyright.PENANA7uSO62x2XR
917Please respect copyright.PENANAbIzcHTdsad
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。917Please respect copyright.PENANAsshSSkVEhH
917Please respect copyright.PENANAmgpvoeEU6t
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……917Please respect copyright.PENANAGNDkzvChJb
917Please respect copyright.PENANAzAvV2tQ6Rt
我樂意代勞的。917Please respect copyright.PENANAeep0fCypc7
917Please respect copyright.PENANAd5jjL7r9dc
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。917Please respect copyright.PENANAB34NbGKSZI
917Please respect copyright.PENANAK8hEcFr1tN
我馬上看看後座的乘客——917Please respect copyright.PENANA8XwQHXlQ2p
917Please respect copyright.PENANAEw6uF5Z9b9
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。917Please respect copyright.PENANA0Ovn4sksNQ
917Please respect copyright.PENANA9EL0PlrO7F
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?917Please respect copyright.PENANA0MMD0n5S71
917Please respect copyright.PENANAz62fj43Loo
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。917Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1ZyK9Asbn
917Please respect copyright.PENANAVSLqIK7TZk
在下午等待至日落——917Please respect copyright.PENANAaPySUypTy9
917Please respect copyright.PENANANAmy7xrnyX
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。917Please respect copyright.PENANABrZVwM4VfE
917Please respect copyright.PENANAaP6OUdBwcz
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。917Please respect copyright.PENANAi75mOFljuM
917Please respect copyright.PENANAhFwSVXj4Cd
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」917Please respect copyright.PENANAM1bfbaicF2
917Please respect copyright.PENANA8XBjXi1My2
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。917Please respect copyright.PENANApK1lr2dZqo
917Please respect copyright.PENANAYTDb2R67p1
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。917Please respect copyright.PENANAhhg55aOrGE
917Please respect copyright.PENANAz5M4VeHmx6
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。917Please respect copyright.PENANA6HJwQNKWVS
917Please respect copyright.PENANAEdlJBfhWsj
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。917Please respect copyright.PENANA8O3SFiaCzR
917Please respect copyright.PENANAXbs8zCxRtm
「嘭——」也是不進。917Please respect copyright.PENANAF5jAxnE0BQ
917Please respect copyright.PENANAEsncvShlQZ
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。917Please respect copyright.PENANAuqH5RcpU7G
917Please respect copyright.PENANARINHeCpQSH
漸漸出現晚霞。917Please respect copyright.PENANAjhKDHaF6oI
917Please respect copyright.PENANAA1OcvKbGW0
回去吧。917Please respect copyright.PENANAeS2SbcJlC5
917Please respect copyright.PENANAURwZt1Y2uz
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。917Please respect copyright.PENANAf9BvJIV45g
917Please respect copyright.PENANARvNDmFlCpm
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。917Please respect copyright.PENANAKWMydUhl4e
917Please respect copyright.PENANAnJz7Itkce9
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。917Please respect copyright.PENANAXBu3Ni31Uy
917Please respect copyright.PENANA6f1PcN1xYG
背著書包,累然站起——917Please respect copyright.PENANAPb8wQY0LOa
917Please respect copyright.PENANAazsSKi8SlM
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」917Please respect copyright.PENANA6NZj5OSvHX
917Please respect copyright.PENANA0cBkIYAeFK
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。917Please respect copyright.PENANAzIti9fsBok
917Please respect copyright.PENANA8voqxiqTfK
最後,舉起手。917Please respect copyright.PENANAIT72TZ9eo6
917Please respect copyright.PENANAY4eIxV2VwS
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。917Please respect copyright.PENANAPDvakYeHnX
917Please respect copyright.PENANApCiQC66VuO
* * *917Please respect copyright.PENANAgaPqx0IQ34
917Please respect copyright.PENANAjPZU44BZmO
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。917Please respect copyright.PENANAXqoNFEycFb
917Please respect copyright.PENANAEoCCZzjUzh
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。917Please respect copyright.PENANAnzSYX0oi2F
917Please respect copyright.PENANAM3AqL3eEZs
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。917Please respect copyright.PENANAX8rPgvADoz
917Please respect copyright.PENANAw2MlzWZVIG
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。917Please respect copyright.PENANA1TEQ58WOuk
917Please respect copyright.PENANAGm4YfV4l8m
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。917Please respect copyright.PENANAC8KDNE8840
917Please respect copyright.PENANA0VzZ7la8ge
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。917Please respect copyright.PENANAqVa3hp7hMI
917Please respect copyright.PENANAhLYFZy0LKN
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。917Please respect copyright.PENANAAhJkWYeyJw
917Please respect copyright.PENANAj3bbtwcno0
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。917Please respect copyright.PENANABXq6c6IBUJ
917Please respect copyright.PENANAfhHqRkC1C9
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。917Please respect copyright.PENANAiFcufPPHih
917Please respect copyright.PENANAS5Av2DIpk5
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。917Please respect copyright.PENANAnGwSZwWONI
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。917Please respect copyright.PENANAqUg8DHn6ql
917Please respect copyright.PENANAhjLys9A2QZ
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。917Please respect copyright.PENANAevhPdpJXFy
917Please respect copyright.PENANAiECxr0jHI3
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。917Please respect copyright.PENANAz5JOC6EpWA
917Please respect copyright.PENANAKpLbF4mmqd
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。917Please respect copyright.PENANAjPnp550nRe
917Please respect copyright.PENANAPazFGaRjN9
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。917Please respect copyright.PENANAAaliBO7eCg
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。917Please respect copyright.PENANASwyrPmd72S
917Please respect copyright.PENANAT1Ib5vZmDQ
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。917Please respect copyright.PENANA972arkcASp
917Please respect copyright.PENANAJPVU9nhoby
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。917Please respect copyright.PENANAah6E9KeCxv
917Please respect copyright.PENANAu78kJki1Il
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。917Please respect copyright.PENANA90R3nFkUqF
917Please respect copyright.PENANANGItPqy85I
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……917Please respect copyright.PENANAXN3AeHLq1q
917Please respect copyright.PENANAckGMTjbGOL
——放大瞳孔。917Please respect copyright.PENANALtatAdap5f
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。917Please respect copyright.PENANA8l0YTbAgHo
917Please respect copyright.PENANAWia8JrSaU2
手機就在我的褲袋。917Please respect copyright.PENANATFfM2OfLxS
917Please respect copyright.PENANAi5oweFsCae
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。917Please respect copyright.PENANAZbMtH85UF3
917Please respect copyright.PENANAboiaLEAt6D
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。917Please respect copyright.PENANAQSQxolGwkw
917Please respect copyright.PENANAxXgTAqaOdb
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。917Please respect copyright.PENANARBKussfy0r
917Please respect copyright.PENANAHdZiHkZs0c
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。917Please respect copyright.PENANAWiA0zzF4QD
917Please respect copyright.PENANA34SUt0GK7z
那麼,打嗎?917Please respect copyright.PENANA3RLF7x3ulj
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。917Please respect copyright.PENANAiKm4ofLtLX
917Please respect copyright.PENANAQmMf6FoXwB
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?917Please respect copyright.PENANArLwWJKcjbg
917Please respect copyright.PENANANPsJpqqlL4
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?917Please respect copyright.PENANAGuuS2BEEr4
917Please respect copyright.PENANANeTOOzmpHF
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。917Please respect copyright.PENANAGT0EAXKqtV
917Please respect copyright.PENANApBhytLrz28
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。917Please respect copyright.PENANA7lJ5DM3fHP
917Please respect copyright.PENANA5oaro6J2jl
幾度拿出手機的我——917Please respect copyright.PENANAoNt8Qy125a
917Please respect copyright.PENANAkIkr2RFFqJ
算吧。917Please respect copyright.PENANAhdiY3iFKLM
917Please respect copyright.PENANA1wr41NNeOC
把手機放回褲袋。917Please respect copyright.PENANAoXBMKPbi0g
917Please respect copyright.PENANAk9He6Qtdcv
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。917Please respect copyright.PENANAKp1kRKq7lX
917Please respect copyright.PENANAyiL8qA9B4J
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。917Please respect copyright.PENANAbtU3EKg1U9
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。917Please respect copyright.PENANALKmFLud0OC
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孤獨的島住了一個人
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孤獨的島住了一個人
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