我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcH8Tgvwehp
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQr6a4ox5UT
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A0X9rHCUI
「咬下——」明白了。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgIBHO57JJ
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyh9veYEia
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRp5kZl18Ai
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxAvCgUeSp
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUMz8MjJ6z
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2GJ8JjHaD
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUHQm6cRTD
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3g08eYnk5
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKopFdJGri
神是不是故意的？747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQdSnXRo6E
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhI1vk1GXVh
竟然……安排這種測試給我。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXvGcA9yoa
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHeAtGWG1I
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BIcBA3rnS
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3MArhGzSv
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4V7w9IOR3
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIP0ecKEsB
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKTGK1bJJS
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPJApW7sNQ
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MNqWLqScQ
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrVsC201St
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttScYb1oOK
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGueaWiNk6
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYlf4kruJp
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnrbTQtcVD
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIKrwKWLHS
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7zK20Luwc
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu3xu8wprj
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fB6EFy04d
「唔好再講喇。」我說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRQbC7ojRJ
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwIcRQRVhZ
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmr6RNhS1i4
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXvSXNc84x
然後我沒有再阻止她。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WeG5frygH
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGkW4Ramz7
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0Ayae1G32
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oRQB3rHiX
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFCJaxxxgR
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwzALfE1yd
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdj96OEo4n2
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFl1AatNm29
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBNf0FeP3L
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5NmVaN6KD
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm60tVGFcJF
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutFe5mmXEm
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFroS4hEh6n
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tdGUH9g16
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQFAsgpPux
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltFJmeMoTt
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEPGDXJSqV
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUctv3FtG8S
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kBKOyeLXo
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jlasa9Lqi
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KVwOKOOdr
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeONzfuw4a
我也正在難過。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5I2VsdRDNy
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3rZ6kKreX
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzEJQel9oK
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdUl8hZdFU
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaK2X9XkY6
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY37tf7QiR
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUT4K2H2yEf
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewfkYnJGcG
「點解？」她問。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtB4idUqDVu
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQADOzspzd
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLSw68lMiS
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs39Nq7Uano
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofC5xpmp4M
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiSxlKLCgJ
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksvVi2nB6s
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU4rMRyK1U
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvyjMDDvdS
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63JRAWl2Nu
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyFhksuaJa
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdcNttUfFK
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwoqY2oV3M
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ca0dCO0p1
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmViG5QrCJE
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3baXEnvNu
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIG8EH57Qs
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxN0YAMd4jz
這是……什麼爛方法？747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1wm3O5goJ
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKXBvuLHln
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKr0nLuSF0
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZmQZLXqPm
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUMxiqz9R1
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZHfCLaUo2
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuU3x80xiBD
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7G2zUhrDsh
「咩條件？」她問。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq1GeUkFBR
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsf7iO2mWu
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tleTOoQIt
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqalS1YdTC
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxH7fmUVogu
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDxpX7S19r
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHk6ZSuxx3Z
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLhw35DIhQ
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5YU3vV5G0
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2X0TihGv81
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEabei9rSN
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1n3jTE1XG
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOVKEVkHw3
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRubZxWT2lm
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrcHMCAtZU
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7tFQ34Bdc
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPm92HN31i
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4Bnbc3wIY
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IWGaTMykg
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAcbdsPGiK
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoe1Lt3JZc
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2feSvjsUXA
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2vGduc45M
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09q2PEvRCq
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtpLYBznZp
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPatO4OSW4
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW94gOump5
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMWSjo9a8W
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83c1vNKHQv
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVKN6yKWOW
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA5HSUguvx
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxDroNcBUJ
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ2sUyp5Sj
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRipyxQ4BCV
說完，她聽完。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFq4VULQ8b
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqqSdPaYWD
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ftL1KLkER
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE02048NLvg
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ762LdHyYp3
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5faACgnBLt
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoKE1ebvnC
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgla1qQlv7j
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOL1MoZd8a
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFYO1rXyLf
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZh5gStnX48
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtOKLDKH3d
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0sd9b1PCg
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pX4aGYDsz
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kvRaqpOeG
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5EgN2pJLB
「陸傾兒……」我說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1kxPW4CyA
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtFJMVSA6c
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA1ayjbKg6
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy5wxiImuE
「揀咩都得？」我問。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEdZOvQbzh
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8c1cB6eiZV
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxzvAJRdOI
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsh0Lsuoho
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq7hIxgSZ8
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdk4Yskwz51
而我不懂回答。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkNtu9pHIs
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6xnDJ8fzA
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLATdgMBjrs
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWRnmT3oXA
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUOqiyCoPW
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIXkneehdv
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWq0J8LH6E
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDYDu544rc
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgy3mBWDlUY
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1FPNUyU6m
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLCEDHTnUp
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ON4nOXvkT
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJY2tsjto8
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPwZrTkA1j
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOH2EVPVHi
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfc4dgYj1M
過後——747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvoOIGLKNn
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUES67fNu4
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3NiVfnPLV
屁股坐下。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRrzhGU0QH
747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8D4GPDK1A
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。747Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviZ3pTUDTf
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