我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWmuiDw9jk
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZrmf8McS1
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「咬下——」明白了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq31313IJ3
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdukS8PuFS
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uXRlwPAI1
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjIiRzJsij
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMFkhnF6iT
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmaholKHYi
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTr87hE4kEH
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFc59eSOh4
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsZbYsyyjF
神是不是故意的？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrYk1Xo7wh
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6nL5RDGgB
竟然……安排這種測試給我。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ8ZsAnjrn
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEtq7nAp05
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqA9AdgQKq6
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKr8h3bMO9
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgGUPQMFjg
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGJ0dvgPio
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUv4iKFcZpk
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQAqVsS73k
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6wBErrElT
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubEewPyoFr
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZamIBH8Laq
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgn2wlseiA
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt64g3VQsDA
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6hCuUEXGt
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9JhyC7gaw
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vQEKOTVC3
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIIZZtZvJI
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJptynqwKYd
「唔好再講喇。」我說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRVLNnCYNJ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgtTUQvllx
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdRuyDf2K3
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHDcaum9iA
然後我沒有再阻止她。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YvYXS3pJG
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaCmWPw3T7
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPvZAT04hw
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aDg7Uoh7v
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxdFZ1zxuK
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRLdR7lMjh
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrKBTlgs0W
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntyjqBvnpn
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16vMpCkM9i
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRu53PwQXb
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUuZd0cXrd
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrHKDHe3aK
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ06BWQQSp
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZyNBnjLLO
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHa9M2JOJY
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQizHYJ6Fo
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfRj8yzwJG
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5LFLR9LG9
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDtGy5yAuh
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmuRDyGPVG
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0vP45L1kg
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxcphpad65
我也正在難過。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaulVnqG9iF
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvZYfxA9k9
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRciv3N7yM
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtJ5SJFpRq
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxBeWVbzBx
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsDc7dRROC
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVu4X33AEYl
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTMDBnaM1m
「點解？」她問。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHfZU6jddG
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSZiZfTSoX
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIx9ZFkGED
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9n6xojC4Z
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvnI1QBE2I
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37g5BzkCFQ
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzyuWofG4G
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwKB3BpOcW
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrRIWThTV7
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuDcqltQu3
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRzp3BhdXs
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjtIiVqkem
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXjCRQhKOg
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tRU0H4Ms2
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNZgofe2q4
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULlVLXbTXT
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0drum7mjV
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTEEscHZd0
這是……什麼爛方法？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOgMRT7iCb
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFDuZitS3X
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFkU0OwevJ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw1Dvsp88r
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXEjIYiW9e
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAxiUxTko5
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahlzPD7pR5
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZsYUE4upI
「咩條件？」她問。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wH2wUT871
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLuu03Vhqe
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KB0grGCQ3
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpwLO9OSZC
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrM5qZPCzN
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhxarQqbNY
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1GucM0ZnN
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMvMituoQd
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8yj6SpZbQ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡus6LduNHik
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGC5InfObbZ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpPcbkzJ0O
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtc9Fm8gpo
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKu5sHnFv2
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfePStQwamo
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog19H6oKsy
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxpsl0vc2d
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdzwiSYce3
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAETKjK1evl
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRaelP8oqi
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyoG86jkzw
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIGzcbXGMJ
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rsxNGm8L1
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03HFViAwtN
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24SxTUbUfw
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCStdZEyi6L
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRTYagOodU
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jeORKZmyZ
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9IwdBwigp
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnd2lrypleJ
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHRQLDlNOo
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qVWvZN2L1
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5LERvfVgf
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ623b5lE0Zw
說完，她聽完。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8ktmvzM4z
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTfXyilC3T
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbflciudQkO
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0lI6nVdoQ
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGG8HK3fHhR
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzVSh4dwqq
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzf4KsOdv8
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBkh0kiLzU
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkK96fvixh
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPq3kweMGl
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMYy2b3MWW
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g6uxarDao
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZfmbn1oFI
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrN0uI45oN
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek6f97OzJn
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFfN7F5AHL
「陸傾兒……」我說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZa5T40cvD
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOvlWvHjx4
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uJr83MFkV
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FRnlpimGM
「揀咩都得？」我問。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UbSu4BZlv
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F7rTnZdKI
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNcSP9FEq2
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTElMCn2sc
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPBcG8fbwj
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7OTjWRWmP
而我不懂回答。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4RBP80EEO
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysG2oH4Vcb
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0r9j5JSjq
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtprvNEgdog
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDqqI9PnTl
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZzl5iEq8a
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEHnIlxwyb
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ256YYeHW7o
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84C5j6sLVo
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVsIA1RbzP
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsnK4walOZ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxdmzCV2vi
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWncxRNghJq
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkVRgIplxj
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1D8Jce9AJ
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過後——889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllgp5ltiua
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HxrLGwMUl
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzib8mlyLL
屁股坐下。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eEqgq3KWv
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxCQOe8nO0
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