我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。936Please respect copyright.PENANA0J75Gmx5Sy
936Please respect copyright.PENANAgur4UxI8bh
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。936Please respect copyright.PENANAvpcXoMDAez
936Please respect copyright.PENANAIT54NEyrON
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。936Please respect copyright.PENANARCC7EWhFfr
936Please respect copyright.PENANApHLNVXuYQf
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。936Please respect copyright.PENANAGqK0bBUwgJ
936Please respect copyright.PENANApsBpPw6wdK
走進了屋邨商場。936Please respect copyright.PENANAaan7MC04Vp
936Please respect copyright.PENANAFztpWkLrh4
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。936Please respect copyright.PENANAVTeYffI5lp
936Please respect copyright.PENANA4bvMWHgpiE
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。936Please respect copyright.PENANAxnXSosgiom
936Please respect copyright.PENANAm6AIT8hy5c
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。936Please respect copyright.PENANATq8iicGBCN
936Please respect copyright.PENANAzU1vPEWnjE
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。936Please respect copyright.PENANAqENPUGxkv4
936Please respect copyright.PENANATPE0BYT9zk
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。936Please respect copyright.PENANAOkIxXTtCOV
936Please respect copyright.PENANA5lE8bcR3wO
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。936Please respect copyright.PENANAyXJY2YE8lN
936Please respect copyright.PENANAE3kMu3CdqD
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。936Please respect copyright.PENANAGut3nz14c4
936Please respect copyright.PENANAwLv0dUWpqC
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。936Please respect copyright.PENANAkJwDi1cNB9
936Please respect copyright.PENANAPJmYSs9djL
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。936Please respect copyright.PENANA5iEI3jptMI
936Please respect copyright.PENANA75ZtXLwW0O
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。936Please respect copyright.PENANAIcaMSUY68g
936Please respect copyright.PENANAqi1qmrdZNq
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——936Please respect copyright.PENANA6e5iMbTo4r
936Please respect copyright.PENANAXeOIr3rFyp
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。936Please respect copyright.PENANAcLynkpOji9
936Please respect copyright.PENANA8xdj4UF8SD
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。936Please respect copyright.PENANAX9AJ56SiXZ
936Please respect copyright.PENANA1Z6o3J64KH
腳步還是能動。936Please respect copyright.PENANAKNc5l6Wmp9
936Please respect copyright.PENANANXvw6GL9dA
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。936Please respect copyright.PENANAPtcqUa5utx
936Please respect copyright.PENANAkW8oDSresJ
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……936Please respect copyright.PENANAOIBslTZ9mX
936Please respect copyright.PENANAMZWojrVuu3
腳步才轉向離去。936Please respect copyright.PENANASaVL1qMcYS
936Please respect copyright.PENANArjSnW3ke19
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。936Please respect copyright.PENANAeMx5KESWjo
936Please respect copyright.PENANA3knWFq4DsJ
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。936Please respect copyright.PENANAX7Eia7eGEg
936Please respect copyright.PENANA8OwVpq0v6i
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。936Please respect copyright.PENANA6iYEDsQ6Tu
936Please respect copyright.PENANAmoavgXfv63
但是已經不再重要。936Please respect copyright.PENANAy7N68Y4pkE
936Please respect copyright.PENANAtGD4xQlV67
她騙了我。936Please respect copyright.PENANAnYgjc0MySQ
936Please respect copyright.PENANA1drV9eO2Yx
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。936Please respect copyright.PENANAWCnXuFPKgI
936Please respect copyright.PENANAiYZNkaLvUW
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。936Please respect copyright.PENANACC8MfwGBKo
936Please respect copyright.PENANA60vaHInTg1
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。936Please respect copyright.PENANAdHI9PnguUG
936Please respect copyright.PENANAmZMoIWvpds
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。936Please respect copyright.PENANADdU1S6cg1M
936Please respect copyright.PENANA0JjMv839ko
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。936Please respect copyright.PENANADTl3UgRESD
936Please respect copyright.PENANAz0st7xXSXQ
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。936Please respect copyright.PENANAJMvUnGYExT
936Please respect copyright.PENANAG8E7bNqYPg
但我錯了。936Please respect copyright.PENANAPsThUvHWBN
936Please respect copyright.PENANAVw8YxLOvZM
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。936Please respect copyright.PENANAnAx1EBblun
936Please respect copyright.PENANActdmChvZMy
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。936Please respect copyright.PENANAKZwK8cdBbH
936Please respect copyright.PENANA2GeHnCcHn4
眼下——936Please respect copyright.PENANAPGe5C2yh9S
936Please respect copyright.PENANAyVup33j1yX
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。936Please respect copyright.PENANAKLh9aLCZMr
936Please respect copyright.PENANAY42pTqr0mA
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。936Please respect copyright.PENANAqIxkTN1HzK
936Please respect copyright.PENANABVbCX2vLTD
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。936Please respect copyright.PENANAeUIhqMj2Qa
936Please respect copyright.PENANAX4qUinxUvt
我能夠再承受一次嗎?936Please respect copyright.PENANAVRfunCvyMg
936Please respect copyright.PENANAKOsinZsF92
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。936Please respect copyright.PENANANI0pSWuufj
936Please respect copyright.PENANA1cAbEvIQyP
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。936Please respect copyright.PENANAZmqDeTAoRd
936Please respect copyright.PENANAytvPM8aQN4
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。936Please respect copyright.PENANAoxAfrNItRh
936Please respect copyright.PENANA9Yyyzy0hBl
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。936Please respect copyright.PENANAqgy8GRAfkf
936Please respect copyright.PENANADJd43BHN3T
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。936Please respect copyright.PENANAfAb1bX8OMg
936Please respect copyright.PENANAPvb2dhiZ3s
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。936Please respect copyright.PENANAg32roXQ8Kl
936Please respect copyright.PENANA9CteYLOpnm
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。936Please respect copyright.PENANA54OzDWwfo2
936Please respect copyright.PENANA7vNEHgzfe8
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。936Please respect copyright.PENANAPKHSOCRUcd
936Please respect copyright.PENANAiFBRw7A6tX
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。936Please respect copyright.PENANAL2EwqWq2xP
936Please respect copyright.PENANAvoqXlsZ7At
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……936Please respect copyright.PENANAc9pKm3wyPB
936Please respect copyright.PENANACusugRgxAF
我樂意代勞的。936Please respect copyright.PENANAgUeTDvTyDy
936Please respect copyright.PENANAYGv2mQyRDc
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。936Please respect copyright.PENANAawDRWn3vsq
936Please respect copyright.PENANAqDIVvd8Mao
我馬上看看後座的乘客——936Please respect copyright.PENANANJcHcEQ0KU
936Please respect copyright.PENANA2ZBIdSot04
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。936Please respect copyright.PENANAyW8N8Kd1ct
936Please respect copyright.PENANAKHIjtkxKel
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?936Please respect copyright.PENANAstxbmBNJ2R
936Please respect copyright.PENANAd5eZR363JF
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。936Please respect copyright.PENANAPslUz0BxbV
936Please respect copyright.PENANA15ewYaAkhy
在下午等待至日落——936Please respect copyright.PENANAdfANilcOck
936Please respect copyright.PENANAdw5CNUvFca
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。936Please respect copyright.PENANAGaTVw0PXf2
936Please respect copyright.PENANAYItQgEBIf4
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。936Please respect copyright.PENANAE6YeLpPZgc
936Please respect copyright.PENANAqzSlnDxIkP
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」936Please respect copyright.PENANAI11u5ON2X0
936Please respect copyright.PENANA0hyzOdaQTz
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。936Please respect copyright.PENANASlV9RJ00A5
936Please respect copyright.PENANAt9HOeJwLLM
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。936Please respect copyright.PENANA9G8c5IYKLM
936Please respect copyright.PENANAPGRoDullfI
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。936Please respect copyright.PENANAINJdbqve6S
936Please respect copyright.PENANAZEwnnOYx3n
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。936Please respect copyright.PENANAeIE5wdqDgz
936Please respect copyright.PENANAXUeJaoUGfS
「嘭——」也是不進。936Please respect copyright.PENANADCxDeIkJff
936Please respect copyright.PENANAlmzkyzgkxj
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。936Please respect copyright.PENANAVoTiCppCBX
936Please respect copyright.PENANA45tJCMcutf
漸漸出現晚霞。936Please respect copyright.PENANAloQZ3PeP5t
936Please respect copyright.PENANAWHOZxAytCt
回去吧。936Please respect copyright.PENANAaU1jr2xINE
936Please respect copyright.PENANAcfLGEAkk6n
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。936Please respect copyright.PENANAW0vfJQ3C0k
936Please respect copyright.PENANAxmVyCZziSd
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。936Please respect copyright.PENANAR5gzdCasXe
936Please respect copyright.PENANASLtWm6EFs0
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。936Please respect copyright.PENANAcHBjtypyFf
936Please respect copyright.PENANAlBAcgZtiiT
背著書包,累然站起——936Please respect copyright.PENANAL510MdNLV9
936Please respect copyright.PENANASCSrnyf8DL
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」936Please respect copyright.PENANAfUuaYUD9xx
936Please respect copyright.PENANA75meEZowEc
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。936Please respect copyright.PENANAPFgoIaAYDR
936Please respect copyright.PENANAkL0qb23T0G
最後,舉起手。936Please respect copyright.PENANAHbF6pQBPoJ
936Please respect copyright.PENANAgkAi2YQOGv
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。936Please respect copyright.PENANA6KulJYyYCd
936Please respect copyright.PENANASQYpHz2HLU
* * *936Please respect copyright.PENANALpM1AuDmPA
936Please respect copyright.PENANAlSUU2uh2dQ
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。936Please respect copyright.PENANAddgdr6PKMR
936Please respect copyright.PENANAwYeSsbGRm6
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。936Please respect copyright.PENANAcD4k8IL5XW
936Please respect copyright.PENANA5sbpN87a5v
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。936Please respect copyright.PENANAKRS7iRNQp0
936Please respect copyright.PENANAbRudVCayXD
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。936Please respect copyright.PENANAhundsjdhmT
936Please respect copyright.PENANAfkawxuhwVr
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。936Please respect copyright.PENANAavF7wTObHW
936Please respect copyright.PENANAGEwO2SUhcn
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。936Please respect copyright.PENANAJeHSCkVI3K
936Please respect copyright.PENANAIeKBh7Ekmd
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。936Please respect copyright.PENANAfZ63KZlRWS
936Please respect copyright.PENANA5894tEX4Iu
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。936Please respect copyright.PENANAwh1ZoZR58c
936Please respect copyright.PENANA07m885Z8mw
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。936Please respect copyright.PENANACG0Uen1SkD
936Please respect copyright.PENANAp2qAMKHWCT
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。936Please respect copyright.PENANAfHlGGHWw0D
936Please respect copyright.PENANAusSNlbfJ8O
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。936Please respect copyright.PENANAYjH8cRnmb9
936Please respect copyright.PENANAFevvATLtz5
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。936Please respect copyright.PENANARpv0RFDXa3
936Please respect copyright.PENANA1cWFBVgxbm
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。936Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0TgdtitqY
936Please respect copyright.PENANAGXjtKi53Mv
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。936Please respect copyright.PENANA4fhIJmiP19
936Please respect copyright.PENANASip1kYp5oX
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。936Please respect copyright.PENANAbW0O9Zc1hg
936Please respect copyright.PENANAySM1WX4XJT
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。936Please respect copyright.PENANAl0kkpEJr1K
936Please respect copyright.PENANAL6oRSEauwj
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。936Please respect copyright.PENANAQT7i47kiMb
936Please respect copyright.PENANAhFaVA48PqU
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。936Please respect copyright.PENANAFJBVp8MzzX
936Please respect copyright.PENANAI6e2b8gf9Y
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。936Please respect copyright.PENANAv7AaRO1dT0
936Please respect copyright.PENANAjGoNLdPgMn
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……936Please respect copyright.PENANAnQjJSRZyKe
936Please respect copyright.PENANAoruy6yN3cI
——放大瞳孔。936Please respect copyright.PENANAwiXjJqqZqp
936Please respect copyright.PENANAnDnzuU6uqi
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。936Please respect copyright.PENANARJLQhKNaFP
936Please respect copyright.PENANAVV5x7giJ9m
手機就在我的褲袋。936Please respect copyright.PENANA0AcXXMe9vY
936Please respect copyright.PENANA17q2U9VCjz
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。936Please respect copyright.PENANAOAMLeN7Rfw
936Please respect copyright.PENANAI7LQt8pezK
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。936Please respect copyright.PENANAm4fSPhjFWr
936Please respect copyright.PENANAakXboC55yC
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。936Please respect copyright.PENANAzOjzaEcznd
936Please respect copyright.PENANAUfhcPAC6x8
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。936Please respect copyright.PENANAlxNFfZRfcj
936Please respect copyright.PENANAEDuZDEAlmJ
那麼,打嗎?936Please respect copyright.PENANAaQacV73rV3
936Please respect copyright.PENANAC5GRPwSMkM
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。936Please respect copyright.PENANAMOZjCXjKhK
936Please respect copyright.PENANA1vqh5MGd8Z
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?936Please respect copyright.PENANAZBuMVjfxJH
936Please respect copyright.PENANA1riEIWCduC
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?936Please respect copyright.PENANAE96pFLf2sW
936Please respect copyright.PENANAjxPFEuKvqR
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。936Please respect copyright.PENANAYf6nEcu1vl
936Please respect copyright.PENANAAOtBpTTOho
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。936Please respect copyright.PENANAy42eZF7TZE
936Please respect copyright.PENANAnp8DTHrqw2
幾度拿出手機的我——936Please respect copyright.PENANAY9792G0axX
936Please respect copyright.PENANA9fQZpzlHGi
算吧。936Please respect copyright.PENANAKND1XgSle5
936Please respect copyright.PENANAnOfYk79ShF
把手機放回褲袋。936Please respect copyright.PENANAR4QhCsxoal
936Please respect copyright.PENANADyc9Gsh0zL
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。936Please respect copyright.PENANAocJEKwiTFX
936Please respect copyright.PENANAKUGlKl8S1U
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。936Please respect copyright.PENANAW2h52xw1qI
936Please respect copyright.PENANAWBq0oBIct1
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。936Please respect copyright.PENANA7eB421aLVE
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孤獨的島住了一個人
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孤獨的島住了一個人
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