「謝師宴是時候開始了,請各位回到座位裡安坐。」969Please respect copyright.PENANABtWnfpiUna
是時候開始了,但我還是看不見浩然,他沒理由會這麼遲,而且還是跟女朋友一起。我發訊息給浩然問他在哪裡,他竟然答我差不多下車,我看他們是全場最遲來的人了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAGNUt7olWBl
然後我也看看這天大概是做些什麼,想不到會有抽獎環節,不過向來沒有抽獎運的我,應該不會抽中的了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAH1jWnQwn9b
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再過一會兒,浩然來了,當然還有他的女朋友,然後還有她。未等他們坐好,我已經不敢往那個方向看了。這一瞬間,頭腦都變清晰了,提起了不知多少次謝師宴,卻想不起她同樣會出席。969Please respect copyright.PENANAw6LdeI2zH7
已經把注意力都放在台上,但我仍感覺到,我的心慢慢的滲出血水,一點一滴的滴下來。幸好的是我哭不出來,不然就嚇怕了旁邊的同學了,但不幸的是這感覺很辛苦,而且也不能表現出來,因為被她發現可能會讓她不好受。969Please respect copyright.PENANAoiQrm7pQzl
待會有可能有一點點碰面的機會,這些時刻更為重要,稍為傷心一點都可能令她有一點點不知怎麼辦,她可能會裝,我更加要裝得沒事。969Please respect copyright.PENANAEBCoVmgBni
很諷刺的一件事,大家心裡都可能有所顧慮,卻要裝著沒什麼事,沒什麼特別。但我卻打算看個究竟,想要知道她的內心,無奈我沒有辦法在這個狀態下做到。969Please respect copyright.PENANAihvgmDxLB0
然而近距離的機會,可說是很多了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAciWsSVpOTv
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「欸,何思雅,你那雙眼很特別,可以看一下嗎?」969Please respect copyright.PENANAYDOl09PsKb
就這樣,同學甲很仔細的看起她祿雙眼來,若果是以前的我,我一定會在心裡想著這有什麼好看呢?但這次卻想他能快一點,我不知道我是希望快一點遠離她還是不想她這樣被人看,已經不能理性分清楚是什麼原因了,能壓住心裡的情緒已好好了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAhfQlQIUvVs
「欸,你拿相機拍下來不就可以嗎?」另一位同學說969Please respect copyright.PENANAV037ZkkAMv
「啊,這又是。」969Please respect copyright.PENANAf7YuzOz7fq
這可又是一個辦法,在我眼中,是一個拍照的方法。不過我做不出這種事來,腦海一片空白,思考?不知道有什麼可以思考出來了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAvEXBXNc73g
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期後有好一段時間都自由活動,大家都開始找不同人拍照,可偏偏這個時候失去她的蹤影,浩然和她的女朋友都不見了,奇怪了,究竟他們去了哪裡呢?969Please respect copyright.PENANAilc7DHpaZG
去了洗手間也沒理由半小時仍沒有任何身影,本想拿出一點點看家本領,別說我這個狀態不太可能,環看全場,只看到一片人海,人影重疊,根本很難找出來,不過我還是想找出來。969Please respect copyright.PENANAWyT1PzhXrd
我一直看,一直找,可能有點奇怪的是,怎麼不走進人海裡找,不知道為何,但我真的用心找,一時走走,一時坐坐。可惜,真的找不到,直到另一次抽獎時間,才看到她回了坐位。969Please respect copyright.PENANAM1G4lyiLbE
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看著台上抽出一個個號碼,看著一個個同學上台,有一刻也曾想著若果真的中獎了,是否轉送給她好呢?但我不知跟她說什麼好,不過這些事中了再說吧。969Please respect copyright.PENANA8yIkLfCVcb
可是世事的巧合是沒有上限的,真的抽中了我,不知是否裝太久了,除了在台上拍照笑一笑,也沒什麼表情表現出來。不過,我拿著那份小獎品,心裡猶豫是否真的轉送給她,但即時就這樣又好像不太禮貌,而且仔細一看,這樣的獎品,給她就好像跟她說我沒用的,所以送給她。969Please respect copyright.PENANAFTOdZDA0d6
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這一節抽獎完了後,為知道浩然他們的行蹤,我立即「定位」浩然的位置,看見他們一路走了出去,應該是去洗手間吧。我一直這樣跟自己說著,很怕會是做些什麼事。969Please respect copyright.PENANA0SHDPDjFHa
浩然很快就回來了,依我一貫作風,都是跟著他,看看有什麼特別發現。可他只是找個位置坐下來,我也只是坐在他旁邊。969Please respect copyright.PENANAonNhGlJCfV
「欸,有什麼事嗎?」969Please respect copyright.PENANAGZLiQEtIN8
「沒什麼特別,跟之前說的一樣,很怕而已。」969Please respect copyright.PENANA6y5EKpBgxo
「這裡很悶,想早點走。」969Please respect copyright.PENANARiemFDbh05
「但我很怕,陪陪我吧。」969Please respect copyright.PENANA7Bn6h52hJ8
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竟然跟浩然說起這些話,心內有一點點苦笑了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAo7N5BZfqTh
我跟浩然就一直坐...969Please respect copyright.PENANAUgK4f6Y0k0
然後她們回來了,浩然的女朋友跟他說想早點走,當然還有其他事,我無謂聽太多了。而我,也注意到她退後了一步,給浩然兩多點空間。眼見這個情境,我相信浩然一定會跟我說這是個跟她聊聊的好機會,但想到這裡,我腦海就空蕩蕩,不知道可以聊什麼。看看她又看看其他東西,又再看一看她又再看一看其他東西,只是想著要聊些什麼,卻又沒膽去聊。969Please respect copyright.PENANAD00GCLfWZS
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阿仁,究竟你是想做些什麼?一直都要把所有事放在心裡,然後又不行動,就只會憑空想。969Please respect copyright.PENANAQRsZroxfTN
最後,他們走了,就只剩下我一個,浩然的行動,讓我感到他也在說我沒用處。同時間,當年的傷痕再一次破裂,有如堤壩崩塌,洪洪烈水洶湧流出,再一次受痛了。969Please respect copyright.PENANAwTPtBtEHHO
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閉上眼睛 還能看見 妳離去的痕跡969Please respect copyright.PENANAogM9wR7BHS
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有一絲間在腦海閃過阿穎,但我覺得失去阿穎也不及這刻的痛心,若不是怎也哭不出,我相信我已經淚流滿臉,然後靜靜的一個人離開。969Please respect copyright.PENANAPMyho5DIom
再細心一想,其實這天已經是最後一次碰面機會,我沒有準備,沒有行動,沒有膽量,沒有勇氣,什麼都沒有,只有懦弱。969Please respect copyright.PENANAmCkAVPnW9D
現在能夠做的,就只有安慰自己和怪責自己。拖跟失去希望的心,回到家裡,希望借時間給自己治療傷口,最好是消去那道疤痕。969Please respect copyright.PENANA4VVSuGYn7v
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怎麼隱藏 我的悲傷 失去妳的地方969Please respect copyright.PENANAab3KTVcCyW
妳的髮香 散得匆忙 我已經跟不上969Please respect copyright.PENANAZzvhP5Dsmb
閉上眼睛 還能看見 妳離去的痕跡969Please respect copyright.PENANAV5obWso05o
在月光下 一直找尋 那想念的身影969Please respect copyright.PENANAEwzbOo6T5C
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如果說 分手是苦痛的起點969Please respect copyright.PENANA5seuwNZvPp
那在終點之前我願意再愛一遍969Please respect copyright.PENANAsbj1ht2Gm1
想要對妳說的不敢說的愛969Please respect copyright.PENANABbVDzb9F8q
會不會有人可以明白969Please respect copyright.PENANAyoyRGGRD48
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我會發著呆然後忘記妳 接著緊緊閉上眼969Please respect copyright.PENANArnloJqxeqM
想著哪一天會有人代替 讓我不再想念妳969Please respect copyright.PENANA9fdcYu2riv
我會發著呆然後微微笑 接著緊緊閉上眼969Please respect copyright.PENANAeLbiUIbDmh
又想了一遍妳溫柔的臉 在我忘記之前969Please respect copyright.PENANAHlPBOS8Fzs
心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線 妳已快 看不見969Please respect copyright.PENANA3coa1w3FVe
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閉上眼睛 還能看見 妳離去的痕跡969Please respect copyright.PENANAUrsmia55LA
在月光下 一直找尋 那想念的身影969Please respect copyright.PENANAwNcU4KnBUd
969Please respect copyright.PENANALjFjXFfDI8
如果說 分手是苦痛的起點969Please respect copyright.PENANA6R7fpV3Ict
那在終點之前我願意再愛一遍969Please respect copyright.PENANABMd7Wl5xaM
想要對妳說的不敢說的愛969Please respect copyright.PENANASfyAHmA3uq
會不會有人可以明白969Please respect copyright.PENANAAuTRP8Vm7z
969Please respect copyright.PENANAm9kMYG5Ey7
我會發著呆然後忘記妳 接著緊緊閉上眼969Please respect copyright.PENANA1sImNL6Vmf
想著哪一天會有人代替 讓我不再想念妳969Please respect copyright.PENANAQD04UYtv5R
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我會發著呆然後忘記妳 接著緊緊閉上眼969Please respect copyright.PENANA6b3bXbQxPW
想著哪一天會有人代替 讓我不再想念妳969Please respect copyright.PENANAE0BZO6jLI6
我會發著呆然後微微笑 接著緊緊閉上眼969Please respect copyright.PENANA0CoEcyNPdU
又想了一遍妳溫柔的臉 在我忘記之前969Please respect copyright.PENANAJvRjIuu3Ov
心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線 我已快 看不見969Please respect copyright.PENANAKMk9RRboRO
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《妳能代替她嗎?她也能代替妳嗎?》969Please respect copyright.PENANAKSyun3AO0l
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