Don't let him know 

Why did I let him know

Fear controls my body

My spirit fighting for a way out

A walking robot

Frozen in time 

Days

Hours

Minutes

All flow together

Until 

I don't know where I am

Racing thoughts

Going faster than the cars beside me

Night a blanket, warmer than the one I hide under

Snow a pillow, softer than the hand I hold

I grabbed the jars

Opened the boxes

Full of my feelings

Let them into my body

Like drugs 

They tamper my mind

Hazing my thoughts 

Love is a disease

And you've infected me