Mai uses her plié to come into relevé, her toes in grande pointe. She feels the sheen of sweat on her neck, even as she holds it high, trying to embody the grace of a swan.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOAdp2rAHQ
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Her execution is perfect, her expression is perfect. She shows no outward signs of her toes screaming in pain, even as she feels the telltale wet warmth in her shoes.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV9Edvwjz1
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Her face remains serene.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNzHYx2aK8
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A memory comes to her mind—Megumi-chan as a baby curled in Dad’s arms. She was born too early. She was sick. Her heart wasn’t strong enough. She wasn’t expected to live past a couple of years, even with all the 23rd century medical technology.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavimqOst1u
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Mai feels her expression falter and quickly snaps it back into place, coming into the present and leaving behind a past she can’t change. When she dances, she has utter control over every part of her body. It’s the only time her life feels like it’s truly her own.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKh17KGrmI
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The audience is packed. Flashes burst from the auditorium before her life dramatically dying stars. Fourteen years and five auditions. All the sacrifices she’s made, and all the hours she’s put in. Mai didn’t go to prom or Homecoming or any other normal high school event. And it was all in preparation for today.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzczbpf6AqP
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This should have been her beginning.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXdH5Zgtmi
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Megumi realizes she’s wrinkling the program between her fingers and quickly tries to smooth it out, running her finger along Mai’s name.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpEfppHHnA
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She tries not to fidget, even though her mind wandered off at least an hour ago. She’s in Hawaii, hiking up the side of a volcano, the blackened lava rocks warm beneath her sneakers. The air is choked with steam and the odor of sulfur.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFUwXIPDh5
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From there, she makes her way down a white beach sand. The soft, wed sand sinks under her feet. Warm and gentle waves lap across her skin, leaving behind patterns of salt and sand. She can feel the warmth of the sea breeze that makes the palm trees dance, and she can taste the tang of the air.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq53skOAXwv
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Her guidebooks are at home, filled with annotations of everything she can’t leave Hawaii without seeing. Megumi wishes she brought one of them along, but immediately feels guilty. She should be watching Mai right now. Mai’s dream is ending because of Megumi.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c6CQQEZW7
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A sharp ache in her chest makes her flinch. She rubs at it surreptitiously at her chest. When she’s certain her parents are focused completely on Mai, she pulls a pill out of her pocket—hiding it in her palm—and slides it into her mouth.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIN4oDgD6wM
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Mom’s gaze snaps to her immediately. She starts leaning in toward Megumi.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvxUWCo4vq
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“I’m fine,” Megumi says, a little too sharply. She softens her voice. “Let’s just watch Mai, okay?”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCliAMPOUD
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Her mom takes her hand but turns forward to watch the performance again.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Tq36wX9MN
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Megumi watches too, keeping her eyes on her sister rather than on the other dancers. Although Megumi can’t even do the same hike twice, Mai is the type who can do the same step one thousand times over until she knows it perfectly, even if that means breaking her toes in the process.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa9I9VkZdw
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Megumi knows the heart is just an organ, and she knows living heart donations are common in this century, but Megumi can’t help but wonder. She wonders if the piece of heart she’s being gifted will change her in any way or if she’ll still be one hundred percent Megumi.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXZjZk068t
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After the performance, Mai sits on a bench in the dressing room, staring at the ballet slippers encasing her feet. She can’t bring herself to take them off just yet. She wants to wait at least until the other dancers are gone.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblyFZgnfP7
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Once the last of the voices fades away, she begins to unlace her slippers slowly and ceremoniously, letting them fall off her feet—her feet that are so calloused and bruised and broken that it’s a wonder they’re each still in one piece. She cleans the blood off carefully, loving her mangled feet for persevering through the torture she’s subjected them to. They are her pride and her prize, proof of the work she’s done.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIblSinbGru
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Her heart aches, the pain so real she wonders for a second if something might be wrong with her heart too. But, no. Her heart just knows it’s about to be broken—split in half and taken from her.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGOAjO20hM
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Mai isn’t upset about that. How can she be? Megumi-chan’s life is far more important than anything else.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTGQ0hRJTu
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Still, she selfishly wishes a miracle would happen—Megumi-chan’s heart would magically heal or an even better donor match would drop out of the sky. But Mai knows she’s the best option. Their parents are too old. It can only be a sibling, and Mai and Megumi-chan match almost perfectly.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjotUqoUsh7
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She wonders what it might have been like to live in a time when living heart donations weren’t possible.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjMGMvNhO8
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“There you are,” Laurel says, sitting on the bench beside her. “That was fantastic, Mai. I could really only see room for improvement in a couple of places.”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uCuEiPnMU
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Laurel goes on, and Mai lets her, barely hearing her words. Mai wants to say something about Laurel being the best dance coach ever, but thinks Laurel would find it weirdly sentimental. Mai hasn’t told anyone she won’t be able to dance anymore because she can’t let go of the selfish hope that something will save her and release her from this obligation.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduqqx3Lhei
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And then she feels guilty for thinking of Megumi-chan as an obligation.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpyVTQPPkA
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When Laurel leaves, Mai pulls her knees to her chest until she feels turned inside out.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTt3JN28l8
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Her life until now has been a dream, and she’s being woken up.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7OO2BTvg3
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“Are you scared?” Megumi asks Mai.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wBeyRBi2a
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“No,” Mai says from the other bed. “Are you?”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZfYOfazFR
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“Of course not,” Megumi lies.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2xcKbIszp
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She hears the steady beat of Mai’s heart monitor. Megumi’s own monitor beeps a little erratically as her weak heat tries to find a steady rhythm. She wonders what Mai is thinking right now—what she must be feeling.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6zXv2iwCx
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“Half a heart isn’t enough to support an athletic lifestyle,” Dr. Aguerra said seriously when he proposed the surgery to the family. “Mai, no one can coerce or pressure you into making this decision. If you agree to do it, you’ll undergo a psych evaluation to make sure this is your choice and your choice alone.”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhSVJRngYu
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Megumi was so tired at the time she could barely keep her eyes open. She let them fall shut because she didn’t want to see Mai’s expression as Mai said yes.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNAukWCTSE
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“I’ll do it,” Mai said. “I don’t need to think about it.”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwMqavlXBe
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When they were kids, the two of them would go on adventures. It’s something Mai outgrew quickly, but Megumi still hasn’t. They found a treehouse in the woods behind their house once. Seeing it was abandoned, they decided it was theirs. Megumi would go there and wait for Mai to come home from dance practice.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarrp7VjBQJ
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She was there one day, waiting for Mai, when the rotting wood collapsed beneath her, pitching her out of the treehouse. Mai arrived just in time to catch Megumi, breaking her arm in the process. She didn’t complain about it once, even when it meant she couldn’t dance for three weeks.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9HNp4FuS3
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Megumi swallows the guilt and the fear that she’s being selfish.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXl2cFyCbRT
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Her weak heart manages to catch up to Mai’s heart—the one they’ll soon be sharing.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0PQuxaBZe
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Mai has a moment of panic before the anesthesia is administered. She doesn’t think she can’t do this. It’s a nightmare, spilling into her lungs and suffocating her. She can’t stop dancing. She doesn’t know how to be a full person if she isn’t a dancer.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwk3iK2T8k
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But then she looks at the black hair spilling over the side of the bed beside her. Megumi-chan is already under, maybe dream of everything she’ll do when she wakes up with a new heart. After all, half a functioning heart is better than a full non-functioning heart.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wUEW3A5gL
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Mai tries to take her sister’s hand, but she can’t reach it.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3P1dVa4q4
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She closes her eyes and opens them a moment later. At least it feels like a moment later. The soreness in her chest says otherwise. She feels in pieces. Her mind is still foggy from the anesthesia but the mental capacity that is still working tries to make sense of the changes she has to make to her life now.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIoMrmUW5i
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Mai feels incomplete already, like she needs to undergo some sort of mental rehab to teach her to be a normal person without being a dancer. She is empty and devoid of purpose, wondering how people adapt to situations that turn their lives around completely.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDDLxLCw2z
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She supposes they do it out of necessity. Mai has made this choice, and although she doesn’t doubt it’s the right one, she has no idea how to come to terms with it.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSv02ZK1P0g
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The light is too bright when Megumi wakes up. Her eyes mist over, and she has to blink out the tears and let them adjust before taking stock of her surroundings. Oxygen is being fed to her through a mask. Needles thread her arms so she can barely move without tugging at one or another. She lifts her hand to her chest, feeling the uneven skin under her hospital gown. She hears the beep of a heart rate monitor—but just one.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtpTRyLwB4
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Turning her head as much as she can, Megumi sees Mom right outside the open door. Mom’s face is buried in her hands, shoulders shaking.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBQ8hFM9eY
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Megumi is a bit more alert, her blood going cold. Did something go wrong with Mai?1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw5XDgNWRu
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But she turns her head to the other side, and her sister is on her bed—at Megumi’s side as always. Mai is flipping through magazine sand eating chocolate pudding, but she exclaims when she sees Megumi awake.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoe5M6zb9F
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“Are you okay? How do you feel?”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMzHxU1vAN
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Megumi motions tiredly to the oxygen mask on her face. She feels lightheaded and tired, but her new heart feels strong. Even having just half of it feels so much better than her old heart.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sOfSGVr74
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That’s when she realizes there are two heart monitors after all. It’s just that both of them are beeping perfectly in sync.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx1Ct83wsZ
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Dr. Aguerra comes in and checks on Megumi, finally taking off the oxygen mask.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡld9hNolyxI
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“We just need to run a few tests,” he says. “We’ll take Mai out first. You just wait here and relax until we come and get you.”1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNFIuTLZTM
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He turns on the TV and hands her the remote after helping her sit up. Megumi thought she just wanted to sleep, but once she’s seated, she feels more awake.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzR8AtLucA
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As they wheel Mai out, Megumi catches sight of her backpack on a chair in the corner of the room. The lace from Mai’s favorite ballet shoes hangs outside the zipper. Swallowing the ache, Megumi turns her gaze back to the TV. She isn’t really paying attention, though. She’s enjoying the feel of her new heart and thinking about everything she loves…and admittedly everything she hates too. To her relief, her new heart responds as it should. She’d still the same person.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3wk5aLdPg
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But then she stops on a channel showing a dance competition. Megumi, who couldn’t even watch her sister’s biggest performance without fidgeting, finds herself riveted by the strangers dancing onscreen. Her pulse quickens, and she lets the remote rest on her lap.1011Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5FM67fVNr
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For some reason she doesn’t quite understand, a tear squeezes out of her eye.8964 copyright protection1007ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIffkKk1nh 維尼

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