I wrote this when I felt that I emotionally hurt some friend because of my repeated, bad habits. I really try, but I feel that some of my bad habits are gone or that most of the damage can't be fixed. I listened to Army of Me's "Going Through Changes". That was the best song I listened whilst playing "Burnout: Paradise - Remastered". The song is about breaking old habits and facing temptations on the way. 

Note: The m in "monophobe" isn't capitalized due to style preferences.