我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼，但我未嚐半口，心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少，心越亂，人越躁。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzaRzY1MO2
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprDjKwhFGk
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dayzxlfpa
廳中老妻瞄我半眼，大概知道發生甚麼事，沒有作聲，繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd2nAvpj0e
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaww9grSfAK
滾水撞上茶葉，水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANefoXonYM
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壓力似乎一併消散。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbH2RPpKos
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茶盡。我再續杯。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubHNRbVkvn
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添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mikwPWDXy
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56m2jYEyU3
嘆一口氣，慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分，而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFKzClbDWM
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口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1ndz6cPCk
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuiQSAHozX
是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故，更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKjXtLIcuX
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夢醒一場空。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVmXm6bFJZ
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我本平庸，無甚專長，唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已，卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUsUqAKvd5
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKVoV3tmQF
工作不順利時，我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上，所以被罵亦是無可厚非；人際關係不如意時，我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通，我該是表達能力最好的人；走倒運時，我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkLJ38LSdx
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一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6O9P2LmMK
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh1GQyPoPg
捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZUGEZDq0R
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前，我又嘆一口氣。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNFUxr2xum
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我不曾長大，仍是幾十年前那個我，沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份，請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83dtHIwcpm
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我沾沾自喜。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds6O67Aa6U
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZhlzeG7Dt
細心回想，我當時已覺竅門不在天分，而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用，努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味，努力思考故事情節起伏，努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEd3wcALDN
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sb79RxnTP
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yQHnIOGMt
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努力，努力，努力。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NNZB12rSE
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我的寫作技巧與日俱增，亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM71xFKsDB4
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我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FoYMpQtEh
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以為。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhylZouBS8Y
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告別校園後，我成為一個普通文職。普通收入，普通打扮，普通生活。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplddvYhM3p
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普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9s6UMLaMuw
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnmstPrW5d
我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份！我是多麼的獨特！456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1aCyg1sok
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOFbsDEU4r
某夜下班回家，我泡了一壺水仙，乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾，我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心，那麼安寧，那麼快樂。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh9XFaTvMV
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKqJA0DycN
我的作品感動了我。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpx3suTd2z
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxtSa8kdEi
我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcT4e9m6Unt
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幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊，我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問，變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗，一發不可收拾。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeQkZtnq5P
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsawUwhCo5
無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFr8DXlyyAG
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無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUEhk2ZWqX
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvABs5rSO73
熱茶又涼了。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpJ92MAmas
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsnGG5ABgY
屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9l7wu2X0p
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRiVKV9Lk7z
老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfrvZAQ4cF
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzL7n838t0t
我的作品只感動了我。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3GI21a86I
456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcMg0OSOzc
因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。456Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeI0R5a24v3
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