我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼，但我未嚐半口，心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少，心越亂，人越躁。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDxG2nQjvb
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eh7e75qn3
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIZVQuFr1q
廳中老妻瞄我半眼，大概知道發生甚麼事，沒有作聲，繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZxXeHAxK3
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滾水撞上茶葉，水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FKhjlLFef
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壓力似乎一併消散。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPBXtDidu5
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茶盡。我再續杯。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI2XFgqILT
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添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDzLH61jLF
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRyZj4DUYF
嘆一口氣，慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分，而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tCob1k1vp
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口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5M7un6DhY
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUxA7ZNVXH
是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故，更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7q19aUpts
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夢醒一場空。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1KcFx08oO
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我本平庸，無甚專長，唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已，卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDktj2Ix7J
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzlbRxYDNz
工作不順利時，我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上，所以被罵亦是無可厚非；人際關係不如意時，我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通，我該是表達能力最好的人；走倒運時，我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsIIdjuMak
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRXNGEZWIP
一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhqoomMyER
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捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l93CMx3gi
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前，我又嘆一口氣。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChrKQOXmGg
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我不曾長大，仍是幾十年前那個我，沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份，請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTAFYFZxsi
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我沾沾自喜。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ772VueSa8x
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9y782cOrBb
細心回想，我當時已覺竅門不在天分，而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用，努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味，努力思考故事情節起伏，努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvd5vj66Wl
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Zq8BMYzBT
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZE1yXbLMkH
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努力，努力，努力。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qccXartFg
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我的寫作技巧與日俱增，亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rPviOpSXV
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我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbGhT8bB3D
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以為。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqjaoj3kpG
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告別校園後，我成為一個普通文職。普通收入，普通打扮，普通生活。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofknBJ6VlI
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普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFtnHmrpCj
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhxHRfXfGH
我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份！我是多麼的獨特！478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1ko7S42ED
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zGJxiiXgE
某夜下班回家，我泡了一壺水仙，乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾，我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心，那麼安寧，那麼快樂。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxpc3ZUP2V
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLL1XiQ6Ve
我的作品感動了我。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPE3eWRaRlY
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTnjQyR21k
我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3VXz67ImW
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4Uwv6EjeY
幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊，我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問，變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗，一發不可收拾。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnZJd6xi8l
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPssRmpOXYr
無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNl5xCmkPSM
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjlxFIYpmi
無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMiBAFfsnn
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熱茶又涼了。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyayypZn77
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIftDCIlLO
屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgYrnnuVcF
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYU7tGRNlsE
老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKjL1un6gt
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWY3NBOXZSv
我的作品只感動了我。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS1Wt0bB9C
478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq23dzp9Xg
因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ888uwlZnmx
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