仍然沒有人向我拜年。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw4UUb8JR3
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紅桃紫衣金龍，滿堂歡慶與我無關。我和唯一親人阿弟是家族中輩份及年齡最高的兩位。同樣白髮蒼蒼，老態龍鍾，待遇卻天淵之別。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BzIISlQna
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大家喜歡他、敬重他，圍著他團團轉，噓寒問暖，斟茶遞水。我只得穿上寒衣呆坐露台一隅，隔窗遠觀那份溫暖幸福。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42uKYARgQK
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妒忌？羨慕？後悔？329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhopHvHpZ8
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幾十年來，我無數次問自己，若早知結果，會否重蹈覆轍？若然抉擇不同，如今會否活得更好？329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYdIOw1flW
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目光不期然瞟向客廳沙發。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlmmLCdjyd
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看，與阿弟閒話家常的表妹，就是當年其中一個見死不救的傢伙。聽，表妹說救活阿弟的醫生即將百歲大壽，打算送他足金壽星公像作賀禮……329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAUxXEtYFy
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嗖——新春寒風格外刺骨沁人。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyxWN0K53Z
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那是一個純樸年代，大家毫不忸怩造作，全無顧慮表現出心中所思。阿弟命懸一線，醫生開天殺價，親友一毛不拔。我可以怎麼辦？我有選擇嗎？329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHM4DZoPB4
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嗖——落地玻璃門被趟開，不知哪位親戚的小孩傻呼呼冒冷踏入露台，詫見有人安坐黑暗角落：「你也在捉迷藏？」329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgUnejxyW3
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「沒有。」突然有後輩對我說話，我乍驚乍喜，略顯不知所措：「你知道我是誰？」329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptVQ5gq6hY
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「遠房親戚長輩。」稚子聰敏，答案模稜兩可，卻也挑不出錯處。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTrXC7rb5o
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「乖！」我珍愛輕拍他的小小頭頂，喜悅淚水差點兒奪眶湧出：「給你紅包！」329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGkaO8kTka
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每年新春，我總會預備幾封紅包在口袋，為的就是不知何時出現的新舊交替。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EEZOLYic4
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人難免一死，記憶和歷史無法完整傳承予後輩。知情人士相繼離世，加上他們向來忌諱提及我的過去與存在，終有一天，後輩們只把我視為「遠房親戚長輩」、一個普通不過的老者。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLZFqYdk0F
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小孩收到紅包，興奮連講幾句祝賀說話，喜孜孜踏著小跳步回到室內。他的身影在拐角處消失尚沒一分鐘，表弟婦臉色玄青，直闖露台，不發一言，退還紅包。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJG0Dm1yd4b
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我沒有接過。她乾脆將紅包扔在地面，轉身俐落揚長而去。客廳人聲消失好幾秒，然後再次熱鬧起來。新年快樂、喜氣盈門、一團和氣……329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0cwdOknI1
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我知道大家心知肚明露台發生甚麼尷尬事。我知道地上紅包已被風吹走。我知道今天遭遇是未來寫照：我將會孤獨終老。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4Ns9X4T2e
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嗖——落地玻璃門被趟開，某青壯後輩從客廳搬來一張有背竹椅，置於我身邊，然後阿弟在旁人攙扶下安坐。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HUI754aJr
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關門關窗，與世隔絕。只有我兄弟倆的世界。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkf2IcawVb3
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「小心著涼。」我倆同時開口。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRlhXzY54V
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相視苦笑。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy5CQibPN5
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「今天氣溫與那個冬夜差不多。」阿弟輕嗟。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJeNkx9sxk
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「還可以。」我那時候完全不覺冷。短時間內在村裡來回跑動十幾圈。求醫生，求親友，求路人。最後只得取刀架著醫生喉嚨……329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSPe7ky1G5
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「你不打算到客廳坐坐？」阿弟每年都會如此問我。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgsF2ftABw
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我猶豫。明明渴望融入家庭，為何我竟在阿弟主動伸出援手時卻步？329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGyhofWjbm
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「哥，不用怕，大家會給我面子。」阿弟暖笑。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFAwHpz8xn
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阿弟說得沒錯，面子的確重要。無人想跟犯罪者扯上關係，懶理我有何不幸遭遇。難得阿弟多年花盡心血建立大善人形象，重新得到大家接納，我又豈可破壞他得來不易的一切？329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpRhSpN86V
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只願他新年快樂。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNqBCsxQS2
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「不了。」我搖首婉拒。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBWZUBB5V8
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幾句寒暄後，阿弟在親友催促下回去室內。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5rHc02eu2
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關門關窗，與世隔絕。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8NxJswtTh
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我長嘆一聲，把口袋裡所有紅包扔掉。329Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix52DR0S8F
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