天亮,上班。634Please respect copyright.PENANA6eIVHhu3Jy
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擠進人山人海的車廂,心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物,我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟,好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。634Please respect copyright.PENANAPoy2v0GSgk
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車廂一如往常,平穩中帶輕微搖晃,教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲,繼續進食,令人側目。634Please respect copyright.PENANAuTsWznbIuq
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食物的細碎,像沙子一樣,在人們毫不注意的情況下,悄然掉在地上,再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站,人們再肆意加以踐踏,令碎粉再度粉碎。634Please respect copyright.PENANAsdoKaSkHYf
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到站了,我有意無意地繞過人羣,「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉,心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上,我回頭望進車廂,想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉,但列車經已開駛。634Please respect copyright.PENANAfwpwL9LWvA
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看不見,罷。
天黑,下班。634Please respect copyright.PENANAuKgY0AST44
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂,繼續講上司的壞話。634Please respect copyright.PENANAF8JF8Hsrd0
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。634Please respect copyright.PENANAX8IKyuDwfD
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不!有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰?我看不見……我不想看見……634Please respect copyright.PENANADrm6H0PNjj
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「啪」的一聲,男同事一手拍在我的小腿上,那隻螞蟻——扁了。634Please respect copyright.PENANAH54m7jxObQ
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「沒事了!」他笑了笑,問我:「你很怕小昆蟲?」634Please respect copyright.PENANAjMaqPzBgTM
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「不,只是怕蟻。」我感覺到,我的唇還在顫抖,但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司,午飯時間。634Please respect copyright.PENANACqY5SzXt8u
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甲小姐正在上網看劇;乙先生在打盹;丙小姐外出吃飯去;丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒;戊小姐……634Please respect copyright.PENANAvgwDZIiIBF
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看著同事們的百態,我突然覺得自己和他們一樣,都是很渺小的生命體,小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事,尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌,不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎?那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別?634Please respect copyright.PENANAXLx3kV6iZE
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驀地,我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過,卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上,讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失,我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實,真正的我只是一隻螞蟻,不過會偶爾做白日夢,幻想自己變成人類,過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活,是有目的的付出,有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑,多奢侈!無他,這就是意義。634Please respect copyright.PENANA7GLrdfi6pu
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還是……634Please respect copyright.PENANALMS2cxzKFE
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其實,真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢,幻想自己是一隻蟻,過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味,只懂一味尋找食物。無他,這就是生存!
公司,工作。634Please respect copyright.PENANAuic8I5nccN
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。634Please respect copyright.PENANACHoohcJhjA
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大家心知犯錯的不是我,奈何人是怕事的,只好把我推上斷頭台。事後,一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。634Please respect copyright.PENANAeUs0VTRB9T
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。634Please respect copyright.PENANAHPNZEdyAd0
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剛巧,一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。634Please respect copyright.PENANAHRFRX66IHt
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快意,笑了。
酒吧,喝酒。634Please respect copyright.PENANARiWlex8JLo
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎?為何現在也怕酒起來?」男同事笑問。634Please respect copyright.PENANAHybcI3itKM
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「其實,我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。634Please respect copyright.PENANAj9mYWmGp8T
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒?」他哈哈大笑。634Please respect copyright.PENANAxU0t8TVUBI
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲,我突然變得不大抗拒,乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。634Please respect copyright.PENANADJS4pz6U8z
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醉倒。634Please respect copyright.PENANAYwL1SjzsV7
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迷糊間,我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體,不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲,想要到它的洞穴去……634Please respect copyright.PENANAxXYlLQTQYp
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「上天取走你的一扇門,定會留給你一扇窗。」634Please respect copyright.PENANA6pjMIsz4kr
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今趟,上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期,醫院。634Please respect copyright.PENANAaOBlE2zISb
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病,還未明確,因為報告要待下星期才會完成。634Please respect copyright.PENANAFM2pLnS35O
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看見媽的時候,家中各人都是淚眼漣漣,很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。634Please respect copyright.PENANA3xI6MqpiGa
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「我覺得……」近幾天,媽的話都變得斷斷續續:「自己……」634Please respect copyright.PENANAbqyF2cZkld
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大家都屏息靜氣,深怕這是她的最後一句話。634Please respect copyright.PENANA21qaSF5s2A
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「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音,輕如柔絲,但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。634Please respect copyright.PENANAVwePvQ3utg
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死寂。634Please respect copyright.PENANAHDUsss2Jyv
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出乎我意料,這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話,不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家,晚飯。634Please respect copyright.PENANAWYwbJpRoIK
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一枱六椅,異常的沉默。電視的聲浪,掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意,繼續吃。634Please respect copyright.PENANAWwOBYcY0aR
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「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子:「不如外出吃飯。」634Please respect copyright.PENANA5ftnJ54Eh7
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妹放下筷子衝進房內,甩門;姨低下頭來,但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見;婆呆了,眼眶紅潤;我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。634Please respect copyright.PENANAdUukzlcBOZ
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我心想:世界末日來臨後,地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻?
每次望著媽,心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣,彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。634Please respect copyright.PENANAQaIBYUb1PK
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑!就是因為她是一隻螞蟻,所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭,去減輕她的負擔。634Please respect copyright.PENANA4duRcNupEA
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久而久之,我每次一見到她,便會掉頭走。634Please respect copyright.PENANA0HFwDdiToh
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但我知道,我永沒能走遠。
男友家,床上。634Please respect copyright.PENANA6Y2x5vkIWq
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前奏後,男友進入極度興奮狀態,沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時,我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。634Please respect copyright.PENANANxzUIx6bPy
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産房內有一張床,床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了,是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示,她要生産了。不消一會,整張床上都是幼蟻,恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。634Please respect copyright.PENANAKhxjDkefW4
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我驚恐萬分之際,耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音:「他朝君體也相同!」634Please respect copyright.PENANA1ERHg96Jvo
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮,於是更用力……
舊生聚會,內地某酒家。634Please respect copyright.PENANACAc6mbMHdm
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說也奇怪,舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意,說會給我們驚喜。634Please respect copyright.PENANASX6jQ6xMCP
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「蟻宴?」我呆了,但逃不了。634Please respect copyright.PENANAgBj48thNiX
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎?」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。634Please respect copyright.PENANAmmsNxN4nNc
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼!」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。634Please respect copyright.PENANAXOymxdlOPW
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「結局何如?」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。634Please respect copyright.PENANA6LdyQrBlYj
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「沒好下場!」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。634Please respect copyright.PENANAHKzIxWujlg
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「對!沒好下場!」我在心裡重覆著,衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物:蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時,他都會放一些寵物在床邊,以增加他的性趣。634Please respect copyright.PENANAuAIzghYlQx
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今趟,床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後,我不經意的問道:「你的寵物呢?」634Please respect copyright.PENANASlXC0UJgdg
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「在你體內。」634Please respect copyright.PENANATOfODlG36F
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「甚麼?」634Please respect copyright.PENANAKp2j7ep0Wk
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「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。634Please respect copyright.PENANAlPQXmGAIED
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它平常會做甚麼?做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯,它會做的事真的很多,但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活!它最好立刻消失!634Please respect copyright.PENANA61fnYSQgdV
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結果,我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上,我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。634Please respect copyright.PENANA0cMdYgFAaH
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「她真的死了嗎?」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊,但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。634Please respect copyright.PENANAlK023JfsNj
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「誰?」另一聲音反問。634Please respect copyright.PENANAFFJuGs9PKV
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道:「她……」634Please respect copyright.PENANA2tLzQzgZme
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靜。634Please respect copyright.PENANAXqnG9xVGBP
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我回過神來,低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我:「我的耳朵有毛病嗎?為何會聽到螞蟻講話?」634Please respect copyright.PENANASKf1mOIsRp
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醫:「不。是你的壓力過大,導致有幻聽。」634Please respect copyright.PENANAXiPYrelQzP
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我:「我有精神病?」634Please respect copyright.PENANAbKslpfC242
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醫:「是情緒病。」634Please respect copyright.PENANAYS69xC9KFK
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我:「怎麼辦?」634Please respect copyright.PENANAeKKsdeRQAl
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醫:「我會處方一些藥物,你要按時服用;另外,你也要多休息……」634Please respect copyright.PENANAaFE3RlPeLi
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我:「謝謝醫生。」634Please respect copyright.PENANAVI5H3rK3Po
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醫:「不用謝。」634Please respect copyright.PENANAyKYkiN8L54
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離開診所時,我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。634Please respect copyright.PENANAIk0OJDfIv8
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不,我走近細看,是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻?634Please respect copyright.PENANAkNDSK2nV4o
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醫生替我作身體檢查,一切正常;634Please respect copyright.PENANAbPxWdqwJ5C
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男友向我解釋,螞蟻之說,純粹幽默;634Please respect copyright.PENANA9p1BG0VoTZ
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同事都勸我休息,減少工作量;634Please respect copyright.PENANAd1ygDqmDDM
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……634Please respect copyright.PENANAWqyKHVyQAI
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「真的有蟻在我體內!」我尖叫,奪門而出,從天台一躍而下,肝腦塗地。634Please respect copyright.PENANAFAVcEIvR9K
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臨死前,我看見那東西了——不是蟻,是……