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每次想及那傢伙,他心裡難免生恨。可是恨不了多久,恨意自然而然會被無奈與無力取代,彷彿不曾生起。246Please respect copyright.PENANA0yvqxMAsQY
輕嘆一聲。246Please respect copyright.PENANAvjxwcUhyn0
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媽媽的身影忽地浮現腦海。246Please respect copyright.PENANAU2OcRO8vu5
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她是個不起眼的女人,普通得他早已忘記那張臉。只記得她怕熱,喜在夏日穿寬鬆短褲散熱,露出一雙細長白腿。他常趁著媽媽在露台忙於晾衫時,從後環抱她的大腿,把滾燙前額緊貼被清風吹得微微發涼的幼滑皮膚上。嘻,消暑妙法。246Please respect copyright.PENANAvz4k0MLWNB
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以為這做法可以持續至小學畢業,或是直到他世故成熟得無法繼續假裝天真。誰料媽媽突然拋下一句「感情變淡」,離家出走。246Please respect copyright.PENANAM2z7HUr0eK
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他反覆思考何謂「感情變淡」。246Please respect copyright.PENANAS9ZwHBZXmH
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茫無頭緒,直至那傢伙有意無意向他指出重點:變。「感情」,對媽媽毫不重要,否則她不會狠心如此;「淡」是相對而非絕對,若無經歷過對立的「濃」,「淡」其實不是問題;由濃轉淡的過程稱為「變」,也就是問題癥結所在。246Please respect copyright.PENANAGE10C8NPkV
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為何會變?如何變?可否不變?246Please respect copyright.PENANAxhjdmHMGXe
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他百思不得其解。246Please respect copyright.PENANA43zsZ8MXrM
再聲輕嘆。246Please respect copyright.PENANAzyLqBdtVto
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阿杰的身影忽地浮現腦海。246Please respect copyright.PENANAUQB6Az7iVJ
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舊同學聚會裡,他和阿杰並肩而坐。昔日無所不談的摯友相顧假笑,努力尋找共同話題。阿杰唇邊盡是紅酒遊艇名錶,他只記顧商場即將在週末舉行的購物優惠日——妻子叮囑他務必買下保濕精華和優惠裝尿片。246Please respect copyright.PENANAnCtwr3G8Xh
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真懷念往時。他與阿杰一起為那些不值一哂的天大課題感到煩惱:學業、夢想、籃球、愛情、人生規劃……後來那傢伙教曉他——一切變幻莫測,根本不由自主。無力與無奈令他深深體會自身的無能。他妒忌,妒忌阿杰仍在那個未醒的夢裡。阿杰察覺到他的妒意,露出一個輕蔑笑容。246Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8VmXlJ4IB
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昔日無所不談的摯友相顧假笑,不再努力尋找共同話題。246Please respect copyright.PENANAlGSJ7kqpKO
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緣起緣滅,不由自主。246Please respect copyright.PENANAFVC2YKjURK
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既要緣滅,何必緣起?246Please respect copyright.PENANAt2EBAygZVG
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他百思不得其解。246Please respect copyright.PENANAiRsqGPNWGq
輕嘆有三。246Please respect copyright.PENANAbJY3l392kO
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自己的身影忽地浮現腦海。246Please respect copyright.PENANAgYSMKIqRMD
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身影有前無後。難怪,少有留意自己的背。妻子笑說他背部有七痣,像北斗,可導航。他苦笑,笑自己人生無方向。因為自己看不見北斗?只好抬頭望天。天無星,難打卦。無卦,有掛,掛心的掛。掛甚麼?不知道,總覺得人生缺失了甚麼。甚麼甚麼?不知道,難以言明。246Please respect copyright.PENANAsQN5anKb6D
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鬱悶。246Please respect copyright.PENANAM0g2uzQ5Vt
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懷念媽媽的腿,想要抱抱。懷念阿杰手中的籃球,想要奪走。246Please respect copyright.PENANAUWXjDGOrnB
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去抱!去奪!246Please respect copyright.PENANADG1pI79Zkb
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抱甚麼?腿已不在。246Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q5tvnPDLy
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奪甚麼?球已不在。246Please respect copyright.PENANAH1rO3p2Byt
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為何不在?為何統統不在?246Please respect copyright.PENANA5O3P2AlbRU
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那傢伙沒有回答,繼續前行。246Please respect copyright.PENANAnsj6st1QOu
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停下來!246Please respect copyright.PENANAS1zQvdpPTe
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那傢伙沒有回答,繼續前行。246Please respect copyright.PENANApxWqC4qFoT
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慢下來!246Please respect copyright.PENANA1GMljnzBwf
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那傢伙沒有回答,繼續前行。246Please respect copyright.PENANAX0XqDjZV9C
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他只得拼命追趕。走馬看不見花,花開花落馬不知。馬累馬停,他累他停。回頭一望,是天不是地。何時開始背朝天?不肯定,許是拼命追趕期間、忘記自身當刻。竭力抬頭,盡力挺身。不果,只得餘生躬背望地,無法望背望星。246Please respect copyright.PENANAzR1IS3wGml
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孫兒笑問他為何腰背變躬,他答背上擔子過重。孫兒受驚拒絕背負擔子,他說無法選擇,人人不由自主。孫兒再問何解不由自主,他道是變幻莫測之故。孫兒三問為何會變、如何變、可否不變?他答不出話來,淚目凝視孫兒。246Please respect copyright.PENANAL6VNAd1Vp6
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昔日的他,今日的孫。246Please respect copyright.PENANAa1M2IzBUO7
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永劫,輪迴。246Please respect copyright.PENANAypnxZbS0HV
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不敢思,不求解。246Please respect copyright.PENANAbVnSxxruJM
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嘆,嘆,嘆。246Please respect copyright.PENANAjousqHZxZj
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孫兒問他是否有煩惱,願為他出謀解決。246Please respect copyright.PENANAnz1KZR0L75
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他搖頭。246Please respect copyright.PENANAsOonnbr1Xs
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深知世人永遠無法解決那傢伙。246Please respect copyright.PENANAKFL3M7Wn0i