餐廳入面啲客唔係情侶、一家人、就係一班Friend出嚟食飯,有啲一大班人傾計傾到興高采烈,有啲就兩個黐埋一齊睇電話傾密計。551Please respect copyright.PENANAGcijOaPfd6
惟獨我同楊悅盈坐嘅呢一枱,粒聲唔出,好似搭枱咁,同成間嘢個氣氛格格不入。551Please respect copyright.PENANA92mMqFtEY1
我哋喺個卡位度各坐一邊,明明大家都無玩電話,但係就完全無話題。551Please respect copyright.PENANAoSz5W78I3F
無辦法,因為唔係好似之前同班咁日日都見到,我入咗U之後呢半年都已經好少搵佢,淨係知佢重讀緊中六諗住Re-take DSE…551Please respect copyright.PENANA2oV0T5GqDK
有時我望下佢佢望下我,有時望下電視;好在楊悅盈似乎唔係好介意我哋之間嗰種Awkward Slience。551Please respect copyright.PENANAYeLfPAvSYj
同時直到而家我先發覺:原來之前同佢嘅相處,都係源於其他事,先至將我哋兩個連繫埋一齊。551Please respect copyright.PENANApP6tC63YlS
我同佢好似真係無試過好Casual咁約出嚟見面。551Please respect copyright.PENANAKjsELipMjX
如果隔離枱啲人望過嚟,會以為我哋係情侶吖,定還是兩個平安夜無街去約出嚟圍爐嘅人呢?551Please respect copyright.PENANANnXOm2IJZl
「你頭先問聖誕有咩值得快樂…」我決定求其講啲嘢打破沉默:「聖誕對某啲人、對大部份人嚟講Default就係要快樂,如果你感受唔到,就證明你唔係嗰種人。」551Please respect copyright.PENANArOT0uYSSfQ
楊悅盈聽到,皺起眉頭望住我,好似唔明我講乜嘢咁。551Please respect copyright.PENANAbhymNbTcpu
「呃…你有無聽過『聖誕綜合症』?」551Please respect copyright.PENANAA6pjZnrrWV
楊悅盈搖搖頭。551Please respect copyright.PENANAUL7iK0Inxu
「有次又係臨聖誕之前,我同家姐傾開計…」我諗番何晞媛同我講嗰次,好似係佢啱啱入大學嗰年:「佢話我聽每年十一月尾十二頭開始,就會有好多唔係太熟嘅朋友、甚至三唔識七嘅人會無端端想約佢聖誕出嚟玩。」551Please respect copyright.PENANAWa3llEKm9X
呢個時候伙記拎咗我哋叫嗰兩個常餐過嚟,呢啲天氣,楊悅盈竟然仲叫咗杯凍檸茶…551Please respect copyright.PENANAvadTvCavXh
「我問佢啲人係咪想呃蝦條或者溝女,佢話唔一定,有啲人真係約出嚟去倒數、行下街、睇下戲咁,因為佢哋…」我拉咗自己杯熱奶茶過嚟落糖,繼續講:「…臨近聖誕受到個氣氛影響,覺得自己過節一定要有伴、有Party、有人交換禮物,諸如此類;如果無,就會失落、唔開心、週身都唔安樂咁,然後——」551Please respect copyright.PENANA6U9m7aiKqi
「然後就會千方百計搵個人,唔理係邊個,但求有人陪一陪自己。」楊悅盈拉開個櫃枱拎出兩隻叉,放咗落杯熱水度:「過後就唔會再見面?」551Please respect copyright.PENANAXo80OcaPyL
「嗯,何晞媛話呢種人就係感染咗『聖誕綜合症』…」我拎隻叉開始捲起啲米粉:「叫做綜合症,其實只係一個情緒:有啲人會覺得聖誕就係Default要快樂,而佢哋又得唔到,所以一句『聖誕快樂』,或者有人陪住佢哋過節,對佢哋嚟講好有意義。」551Please respect copyright.PENANARfWGetPnhw
——而且,我發現原來我真係感染咗呢個綜合症…因為唔想楊悅盈以為我係因為咁先搵佢,我唔敢講出呢個事實。551Please respect copyright.PENANAPIbwxs5PML
我講到呢度,楊悅盈瞇起眼望住我;佢係咪睇得出我有啲心虛?551Please respect copyright.PENANAgfqoXM2les
「唔怪得之…」佢好似真係識穿咗我咁講一句。551Please respect copyright.PENANAwLuR2KaLWn
「吓?」我其實驚咗一驚,但係惟有詐傻扮懵。551Please respect copyright.PENANA8Cn8CJ4hDV
楊悅盈無俾反應我,淨係除咗個眼鏡開始食嘢。551Please respect copyright.PENANAo0WKyFR53l
——仆街喇,佢係咪嬲咗我?551Please respect copyright.PENANAO48aKQr5lI
「頭先臨收工嗰陣,有個客講咗件事俾我聽。」佢忽然間又抬起頭同我講:「本身有一點,我一直都諗唔通——」551Please respect copyright.PENANAYFy1TDaixl
「啊?你而家番緊工咩?」551Please respect copyright.PENANALBr3ilGVlg
「呃…係呀…」無端端俾我差開咗個話題,佢有少少愕然。551Please respect copyright.PENANATvPRqe5X7C
「番乜嘢?我以為你重讀緊中六。」551Please respect copyright.PENANA7DBd7oQ6dM
「阿哥介紹咗我去佢朋友間髮型屋…」佢諗咗一諗:「做打雜、助理;因為反正我讀多一年中六,其實都唔會入到大學,不如——」551Please respect copyright.PENANA3MytDuqbVc
「你今年…出年考DSE之前,我可以陪你溫書。」我諗都無諗就插咗一句。551Please respect copyright.PENANAtB1iKFApZz
楊悅盈聳聳肩。551Please respect copyright.PENANABk3bm2wkI3
「不過大前提係你真係想入大學?」我又再問佢:「一路都覺得你讀書唔係好掂咁。」551Please respect copyright.PENANAj71papB4FN
楊悅盈笑咗一聲。551Please respect copyright.PENANAhctP6LwEdC
「哈哈…仆街啦你…」佢望住我,好似恥笑咁嘅語氣:「我中三之前成績好好架…」551Please respect copyright.PENANAAWTWX8FqdN
——我中三之前…551Please respect copyright.PENANA9nvcDTPv49
「我中三之前都未轉過嚟。」我反駁番佢一句。551Please respect copyright.PENANAWDN5IENMJ7
忽然間。551Please respect copyright.PENANAkXRdVh66iy
我同楊悅盈好似忽然間打開咗個話匣咁。551Please respect copyright.PENANAKfJQ2xHFbV
至少,我哋唔再係兩個無街去約出嚟圍爐嘅毒友。551Please respect copyright.PENANAckcIBzyW4f