晴空萬里,美麗一天。但對這人來說,似乎並不怎麼好……327Please respect copyright.PENANAJuqTXoVRyJ
粉髮少年死瞪著衣櫥內的衣物,猶豫到底該以何種扮相外出,清亮的紫羅蘭雙眸此刻成了鬥雞眼。327Please respect copyright.PENANAihYEvJwGi8
「嗯……嗯……嗯!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAv8ZpYpTfvH
「敞,你是要在那邊嗯多久!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAffYB5yCBHB
早已換裝完畢,已經望了他良久、徹底看不下去的室友,吼了一聲。327Please respect copyright.PENANA1k39G9UxPn
聞聲,約回首可憐兮兮地巴望著友人。327Please respect copyright.PENANAHfeZfdIbiC
「……開,幫我……我不知道我該選哪件衣服來穿……」327Please respect copyright.PENANAME53116HW6
對於室友的懇求,開很不以為意地回了一句「你自己的衣服,自己挑。我不知道你的需求是什麼?」327Please respect copyright.PENANA4GbLb9SuQn
「我現在最大的需求就是你!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAe7ABRzrbeQ
面對此等預料之外的真情告白(誤),開環抱身體冷顫一瞬,露出吃到討厭食物還要誇張十倍的表情。327Please respect copyright.PENANAkSjRNqtCUV
「好噁……有生以來第一次……」327Please respect copyright.PENANAuq6PX9UTFF
「幫我!我需要你!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAIaLdNSQsOa
約十指相扣,意圖馬力全開衝到對方面前,深情款款求助性地眼巴他人,只差沒連續眨眼,卻被對方一手擋了下來,同時往後退了好幾步。327Please respect copyright.PENANAGinSmGvjVZ
「不,我現在最需要的是找親愛的馬桶吐上一輪。」327Please respect copyright.PENANAhVn89vUmMP
開摀著嘴,別開臉,險些作噁。327Please respect copyright.PENANAGEiVKpuDZZ
「……!」327Please respect copyright.PENANA0XrT6YlDOr
「你、你身體不舒服嗎?!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAq9zHlDKF3l
聽不出開的話中語,要是開沒事先阻止,敞此刻早已撲到他身上去了。327Please respect copyright.PENANAAl2eEG7t87
不尊重人一事,開無數次額冒青筋,此次再添一筆。327Please respect copyright.PENANAj27KyTbodS
「我先去廁所再做一次潔淨處理。」327Please respect copyright.PENANAA5mh8cGkzO
話一落下,開馬上快步走入盥洗間,獨留敞一個人跟他的外出衣、鞋奮戰。327Please respect copyright.PENANA92xuQ2TeAk
時過一陣,盡可能在浴廁中調適情緒、刻意久待的開,打開門,見到令他目光死的一幕。327Please respect copyright.PENANAsAB5bIuINa
臥房內,除了他自己空間的潔淨完好,床另一側的主人所在地……簡直像被轟炸過一樣,沒有一處完好,無衣倖免……327Please respect copyright.PENANA86HBcBNxXt
看著衣櫥裸空和灑了滿床、滿地、滿書桌狀態的敞景……他再次起了搬遷的念頭。327Please respect copyright.PENANAifazraB7XC
「……只是準備出門去吃早餐而已,有需要這樣嗎?敞?」327Please respect copyright.PENANA48mcJ6UZuN
快要不知該說什麼的開摀著額,輕嘆。327Please respect copyright.PENANAvZaQAsxdRx
「你知道你已經在那裡挑到都快過清晨了嗎……?再拖下去,早餐都要變中餐了。」327Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3MCQ6LA2Q
見室友離廁,正為衣著苦惱不已的始作俑者,目光閃耀猛地抓起他『目前』認為較好的物品衝到開面前。327Please respect copyright.PENANA7mw0C9GjpE
「開,你覺得上衣粉點好,還是綠多一點好?褲子要樸素點還是花一點?」327Please respect copyright.PENANAIdnGNVf6d2
「開,你覺得這些衣服要配哪種鞋子?涼鞋?運動鞋?草鞋?」327Please respect copyright.PENANAxkScVLf8CN
「開,你覺得我該怎麼穿才好啦!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAmSk4UTM7uS
你乾脆什麼都不要穿算了。開嘆了一口大氣,直接回了方才同一句「你自己的衣服,自己挑」。327Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3Wq35CLYx
「我頭髮要梳嗎?!」327Please respect copyright.PENANAHmmH928jA6
「我不知道。那是你的事情,與我無關。我去食堂買早餐吃,不跟你耗了,掰!」327Please respect copyright.PENANABKJjdzDNtA
房門開啟,關閉。327Please respect copyright.PENANAgLFVn3zJ8Z
又一次地,敞垂首望著手上成堆的衣物,嘟起嘴,環顧身周慘遭轟炸的寢室。327Please respect copyright.PENANANM8Y2KqGFj
毫無自信地從中挑了一套衣褲、涼鞋來穿。327Please respect copyright.PENANAjk1mljzkzp
梳洗完畢,來到食堂享用早膳時,殘留美食氣味的食堂已剩他一人,十分清冷。327Please respect copyright.PENANAEKdWE6mam4
「……」327Please respect copyright.PENANAyYPa1Of26p
挑了許久餐點,最終點餐時,已鄰近中午……327Please respect copyright.PENANAxXI342gKON
優柔寡斷、性格懦弱,意志不堅。這是他人對他的評價,而本人也十分贊同。327Please respect copyright.PENANAdpobQ3wiWz
結束早午餐,在宿舍大廳遊蕩的敞,目光受到舍媽專用櫃台上的書籤吸引,整個人探了過去。327Please respect copyright.PENANA1qDMoJe9ci
你,是否太過於在乎他人的看法、想法?
當下,敞的想法是,肯定。327Please respect copyright.PENANAYSOd0wKBRm
片刻,敞立即被自己的想法給擊沉……327Please respect copyright.PENANAwJpuT3HNhh
正當他準備回房繼續泡他的消沉泥沼時,舍媽從櫃檯下抬起頭來,瞧了他一眼。327Please respect copyright.PENANApA5HxBRHsO
這一幕,讓毫無防備的敞嚇得跳了起來,驚愕不已。327Please respect copyright.PENANAR3y3vGOGzf
自入舍以來,以觀察為興趣,從旁觀察他許久的舍媽,安撫了一下,隨後,邀請敞來到她面前。327Please respect copyright.PENANANsgqnpTxM5
「心情這麼不好,是發生什麼事了嗎?」327Please respect copyright.PENANAO4JegrUa4I
「……」327Please respect copyright.PENANAZXu1t5EZvv
敞垂頭,不語。327Please respect copyright.PENANAcqgP0yk1fF
早已從敞的室友那裡拿到申請換房的申請單,獲得批准後,其室友便樂開懷地收拾行李搬遷至隔壁房。327Please respect copyright.PENANAGipevvNpcx
「我說敞啊,難道你沒有自己的想法嗎?開已經被你的每日一問……不,是每日大小連問給快逼瘋了,還來跟我討論換房的事情。」327Please respect copyright.PENANA3emvfAkIMq
「……」327Please respect copyright.PENANABhSScNJJF0
兩人靜默片刻,舍媽望著眼前毫無自信的男孩一眼,淺淡一笑。327Please respect copyright.PENANAHsCDPcDJHb
「一直以來辛苦你了,敞。是時候對自己敞開心扉,接納自己也接納別人,放手去做想要的事情。一概的自我批評……可說是極為不健康的行為。」327Please respect copyright.PENANA1cw4wO1Lfu
自認會受到譴責的敞,聽聞對方的話語,感到比方才嚇得跳起來更大的驚愕。327Please respect copyright.PENANAysPgwzYsf7
敞抬起頭,怔愣地處在原地,瞠大雙眼望著此人。327Please respect copyright.PENANAJWKHxs1Qdk
當下,他不知該說什麼,許多情緒揪在一團。327Please respect copyright.PENANAxTLGRX3XYn
因獲得他人突如其來的慰勞而開心?327Please respect copyright.PENANAQPNFalC0da
還是因為受到全然理解而備受感動?327Please respect copyright.PENANAXnA7uRU88V
又或是,未知悉自己而糾結、挫敗?327Please respect copyright.PENANAMahNpGW2Z4
「……所以,意思是要我完全不在乎他人的想法嗎?」327Please respect copyright.PENANAyo01xeAUHv
語氣稍有哽咽的敞,微聲開口。327Please respect copyright.PENANAl1CkKBjPKR
「並不是說,一定要完全不在乎他人,這樣反而會傷害到自己和他人……從他人身上我們從中獲得我們看不清的自身盲點,但也不要太過全然相信他人所有的話,有時候要懂得分辨,所以觀察力就顯得重要許多……嗯,這麼說好了,你是否過於在乎別人對你的看法嗎?敞?」327Please respect copyright.PENANAoSSmeCRhYs
聞言,敞面有難色地四處張望,手緊抓衣襬。327Please respect copyright.PENANAJMry5dFlXf
見狀,舍媽微微一笑,鏡片下的雙眼十分和藹、同理。327Please respect copyright.PENANATjqrMeyjT7
「別想太多。沒有人會過度在意你說的每一句話,除了你自己,敞。」327Please respect copyright.PENANA11425Ql9wR
敞垂下頭,抿了抿唇,不語。327Please respect copyright.PENANA65ikybGzT7
在對方的應許下,舍媽拍了拍他的肩膀,輕語。327Please respect copyright.PENANAJDStG1USn3
「你有沒有想過,你將自己託給他人的行為,其實是一種對自己的不負責任。自己的一切行端,得由自己承擔。」327Please respect copyright.PENANAovsqKrbwCZ
「……」327Please respect copyright.PENANAeXtfnapJUI
敞,一直以來都知道自己的自信不足。327Please respect copyright.PENANAvl1TMuHoRG
中學時,長期受到霸凌的他,為求校內生存,而處處接下連自己都很討厭的霸凌團體各類請託,甚至為求自保,連自己的陽剛性格降轉過度自信不足,需求他人指示,方能執行的態度。327Please respect copyright.PENANATeouoSvBKD
沒料到,這反而害了自己,害了自己的自尊,身心傷得遍體麟傷。327Please respect copyright.PENANAITRWmu06VJ
入高校,久而累積的習慣、性格,因糾結而轉好不靈。327Please respect copyright.PENANAnQznOlsCZe
「舍媽,謝謝妳……」327Please respect copyright.PENANAHwihKAXkGw
此刻,心境轉好的敞,鬆開緊抓衣襬的雙手,深吸口氣,淡淡一笑。327Please respect copyright.PENANAQeN4Kzea36
隱藏多年的自己,終能獲得解放、不再拘束。327Please respect copyright.PENANAlcKwrNgqEz
為提升自己的勇氣、自信心,他開始練習大聲唱歌,所幸臥房隔音極好,不會干擾他人的生活。327Please respect copyright.PENANASbqdn3EoFL
起初,歌喉生澀,十分羞怯。327Please respect copyright.PENANAFvvit1gD5W
一遇此況,他便會如此自我激勵。327Please respect copyright.PENANApzp9CsN0vS
就算不好意思也沒關係,勇敢敞開心!
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一練再練,唱出好歌謠,受到師生的青睞。327Please respect copyright.PENANA08i6fWlfy5
自信充盈內心、勇氣十足地迎接各式挑戰。327Please respect copyright.PENANANwc4GavkGn
爾後,因歌聲備受讚揚而收到國內知名音樂學校邀請信函,這又是後話了。
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失敗為成功之母。327Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7JolCygSm
但是,若不敞開自己,接納自己,無失敗、無自信,何來成功?327Please respect copyright.PENANA0cwwqMxVBg
許多時候,失敗,並非不好,只是你在成功的路途上。327Please respect copyright.PENANA50ks7aK700
你說,不管是了多少遍還是不成功?327Please respect copyright.PENANAvhkU8DHgzb
嗯,那你或許可以試試往另一個角度來探討、換一個方式來實行。327Please respect copyright.PENANAkwJ7C7MvLW
成功了,恭喜你,獲得了美麗體驗。327Please respect copyright.PENANAKOv59OpKrE
失敗了,恭喜你,獲得了寶貝經驗。327Please respect copyright.PENANAqN1BcITx8I