晴空萬里,美麗一天。但對這人來說,似乎並不怎麼好……386Please respect copyright.PENANAzQDmyph3E2
粉髮少年死瞪著衣櫥內的衣物,猶豫到底該以何種扮相外出,清亮的紫羅蘭雙眸此刻成了鬥雞眼。386Please respect copyright.PENANAOQq6RZzdOr
「嗯……嗯……嗯!」386Please respect copyright.PENANACiRdFPu12C
「敞,你是要在那邊嗯多久!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAKfSxP5220c
早已換裝完畢,已經望了他良久、徹底看不下去的室友,吼了一聲。386Please respect copyright.PENANASZwCAqLHTN
聞聲,約回首可憐兮兮地巴望著友人。386Please respect copyright.PENANAYDzAGfvSL8
「……開,幫我……我不知道我該選哪件衣服來穿……」386Please respect copyright.PENANAKEhOjqICRF
對於室友的懇求,開很不以為意地回了一句「你自己的衣服,自己挑。我不知道你的需求是什麼?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAURyLHo5z31
「我現在最大的需求就是你!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAX67YJv3k4w
面對此等預料之外的真情告白(誤),開環抱身體冷顫一瞬,露出吃到討厭食物還要誇張十倍的表情。386Please respect copyright.PENANA49ZX9xLSOQ
「好噁……有生以來第一次……」386Please respect copyright.PENANARGKPYd59uB
「幫我!我需要你!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAduGkBVKHvf
約十指相扣,意圖馬力全開衝到對方面前,深情款款求助性地眼巴他人,只差沒連續眨眼,卻被對方一手擋了下來,同時往後退了好幾步。386Please respect copyright.PENANAAmsmXwzhQj
「不,我現在最需要的是找親愛的馬桶吐上一輪。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAWtKWEGCWHG
開摀著嘴,別開臉,險些作噁。386Please respect copyright.PENANAr10FPOyqFI
「……!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAwXYVmxLM5P
「你、你身體不舒服嗎?!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAP7vnr27ur4
聽不出開的話中語,要是開沒事先阻止,敞此刻早已撲到他身上去了。386Please respect copyright.PENANAfDwwMl7mP6
不尊重人一事,開無數次額冒青筋,此次再添一筆。386Please respect copyright.PENANAKCs0viZUGF
「我先去廁所再做一次潔淨處理。」386Please respect copyright.PENANABftLeP0IjG
話一落下,開馬上快步走入盥洗間,獨留敞一個人跟他的外出衣、鞋奮戰。386Please respect copyright.PENANAM0hXpiWTb1
時過一陣,盡可能在浴廁中調適情緒、刻意久待的開,打開門,見到令他目光死的一幕。386Please respect copyright.PENANATHIoGWIUFL
臥房內,除了他自己空間的潔淨完好,床另一側的主人所在地……簡直像被轟炸過一樣,沒有一處完好,無衣倖免……386Please respect copyright.PENANAk3TyMlUnWQ
看著衣櫥裸空和灑了滿床、滿地、滿書桌狀態的敞景……他再次起了搬遷的念頭。386Please respect copyright.PENANA65PiigCRWr
「……只是準備出門去吃早餐而已,有需要這樣嗎?敞?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAAT7Rt7CRXC
快要不知該說什麼的開摀著額,輕嘆。386Please respect copyright.PENANAMmIyZhDAkS
「你知道你已經在那裡挑到都快過清晨了嗎……?再拖下去,早餐都要變中餐了。」386Please respect copyright.PENANA4fmBxwPa8d
見室友離廁,正為衣著苦惱不已的始作俑者,目光閃耀猛地抓起他『目前』認為較好的物品衝到開面前。386Please respect copyright.PENANAcy7lp5dPjs
「開,你覺得上衣粉點好,還是綠多一點好?褲子要樸素點還是花一點?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAvy5hEdsgLz
「開,你覺得這些衣服要配哪種鞋子?涼鞋?運動鞋?草鞋?」386Please respect copyright.PENANABlV8PVHxZH
「開,你覺得我該怎麼穿才好啦!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAwPSRzxZtV1
你乾脆什麼都不要穿算了。開嘆了一口大氣,直接回了方才同一句「你自己的衣服,自己挑」。386Please respect copyright.PENANA0VVHoaiC86
「我頭髮要梳嗎?!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAiHpMvhJbDE
「我不知道。那是你的事情,與我無關。我去食堂買早餐吃,不跟你耗了,掰!」386Please respect copyright.PENANAwJL8osvmVu
房門開啟,關閉。386Please respect copyright.PENANAiHHU84pjS0
又一次地,敞垂首望著手上成堆的衣物,嘟起嘴,環顧身周慘遭轟炸的寢室。386Please respect copyright.PENANA6Z5RQL4ciW
毫無自信地從中挑了一套衣褲、涼鞋來穿。386Please respect copyright.PENANAWYDIaCeHMi
梳洗完畢,來到食堂享用早膳時,殘留美食氣味的食堂已剩他一人,十分清冷。386Please respect copyright.PENANA1Y5N5eyGX0
「……」386Please respect copyright.PENANANLyoJHUZfb
挑了許久餐點,最終點餐時,已鄰近中午……386Please respect copyright.PENANA2LixjzOxsn
優柔寡斷、性格懦弱,意志不堅。這是他人對他的評價,而本人也十分贊同。386Please respect copyright.PENANAOXqitLjGQP
結束早午餐,在宿舍大廳遊蕩的敞,目光受到舍媽專用櫃台上的書籤吸引,整個人探了過去。386Please respect copyright.PENANAPlZ3MYU7Wu
你,是否太過於在乎他人的看法、想法?
當下,敞的想法是,肯定。386Please respect copyright.PENANALTnMqPRv8H
片刻,敞立即被自己的想法給擊沉……386Please respect copyright.PENANATo0DWeUh9m
正當他準備回房繼續泡他的消沉泥沼時,舍媽從櫃檯下抬起頭來,瞧了他一眼。386Please respect copyright.PENANAzCCXon8fGu
這一幕,讓毫無防備的敞嚇得跳了起來,驚愕不已。386Please respect copyright.PENANAfI2Uum0wig
自入舍以來,以觀察為興趣,從旁觀察他許久的舍媽,安撫了一下,隨後,邀請敞來到她面前。386Please respect copyright.PENANAz5LMIH3hzn
「心情這麼不好,是發生什麼事了嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAxndI8uUzQA
「……」386Please respect copyright.PENANA7yo3IOcyYp
敞垂頭,不語。386Please respect copyright.PENANAx6vQCyR1Z2
早已從敞的室友那裡拿到申請換房的申請單,獲得批准後,其室友便樂開懷地收拾行李搬遷至隔壁房。386Please respect copyright.PENANAnFLtEr1jpC
「我說敞啊,難道你沒有自己的想法嗎?開已經被你的每日一問……不,是每日大小連問給快逼瘋了,還來跟我討論換房的事情。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAWA8FW2OAVY
「……」386Please respect copyright.PENANAgbcbGlAjDl
兩人靜默片刻,舍媽望著眼前毫無自信的男孩一眼,淺淡一笑。386Please respect copyright.PENANAFsNSLOJLb6
「一直以來辛苦你了,敞。是時候對自己敞開心扉,接納自己也接納別人,放手去做想要的事情。一概的自我批評……可說是極為不健康的行為。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAwldIhe6NmO
自認會受到譴責的敞,聽聞對方的話語,感到比方才嚇得跳起來更大的驚愕。386Please respect copyright.PENANAZuK8WWp15E
敞抬起頭,怔愣地處在原地,瞠大雙眼望著此人。386Please respect copyright.PENANAERRVAwDmhi
當下,他不知該說什麼,許多情緒揪在一團。386Please respect copyright.PENANASp5oZ5TEam
因獲得他人突如其來的慰勞而開心?386Please respect copyright.PENANAXKQRLqgK2z
還是因為受到全然理解而備受感動?386Please respect copyright.PENANAwGFdGUEG9N
又或是,未知悉自己而糾結、挫敗?386Please respect copyright.PENANAv8EFaJgRG9
「……所以,意思是要我完全不在乎他人的想法嗎?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAc9fW20FQ2o
語氣稍有哽咽的敞,微聲開口。386Please respect copyright.PENANAnuCeqT3EPU
「並不是說,一定要完全不在乎他人,這樣反而會傷害到自己和他人……從他人身上我們從中獲得我們看不清的自身盲點,但也不要太過全然相信他人所有的話,有時候要懂得分辨,所以觀察力就顯得重要許多……嗯,這麼說好了,你是否過於在乎別人對你的看法嗎?敞?」386Please respect copyright.PENANAucIu8dlFO3
聞言,敞面有難色地四處張望,手緊抓衣襬。386Please respect copyright.PENANAEDk7fvqYXX
見狀,舍媽微微一笑,鏡片下的雙眼十分和藹、同理。386Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZmGnooEdL
「別想太多。沒有人會過度在意你說的每一句話,除了你自己,敞。」386Please respect copyright.PENANA1al9c5n1JY
敞垂下頭,抿了抿唇,不語。386Please respect copyright.PENANA31jvjOUHm7
在對方的應許下,舍媽拍了拍他的肩膀,輕語。386Please respect copyright.PENANA1H5A7DUnaA
「你有沒有想過,你將自己託給他人的行為,其實是一種對自己的不負責任。自己的一切行端,得由自己承擔。」386Please respect copyright.PENANAg9m7z0pqaR
「……」386Please respect copyright.PENANAn4qq2XmI67
敞,一直以來都知道自己的自信不足。386Please respect copyright.PENANAOLSUyuqX7X
中學時,長期受到霸凌的他,為求校內生存,而處處接下連自己都很討厭的霸凌團體各類請託,甚至為求自保,連自己的陽剛性格降轉過度自信不足,需求他人指示,方能執行的態度。386Please respect copyright.PENANACDyQrXuwNZ
沒料到,這反而害了自己,害了自己的自尊,身心傷得遍體麟傷。386Please respect copyright.PENANAvN0oCowBHq
入高校,久而累積的習慣、性格,因糾結而轉好不靈。386Please respect copyright.PENANAWGXkfoaqoG
「舍媽,謝謝妳……」386Please respect copyright.PENANA1jOeIFL0kX
此刻,心境轉好的敞,鬆開緊抓衣襬的雙手,深吸口氣,淡淡一笑。386Please respect copyright.PENANA77gHO5hPBG
隱藏多年的自己,終能獲得解放、不再拘束。386Please respect copyright.PENANAPD1Lbjhc60
為提升自己的勇氣、自信心,他開始練習大聲唱歌,所幸臥房隔音極好,不會干擾他人的生活。386Please respect copyright.PENANAwP4fgw0jyT
起初,歌喉生澀,十分羞怯。386Please respect copyright.PENANAqEwF6JqQte
一遇此況,他便會如此自我激勵。386Please respect copyright.PENANAEUyEVRpTPr
就算不好意思也沒關係,勇敢敞開心!
386Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZTbSETnLV
一練再練,唱出好歌謠,受到師生的青睞。386Please respect copyright.PENANAXieqxzpVaE
自信充盈內心、勇氣十足地迎接各式挑戰。386Please respect copyright.PENANAgri4hoBwW2
爾後,因歌聲備受讚揚而收到國內知名音樂學校邀請信函,這又是後話了。
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失敗為成功之母。386Please respect copyright.PENANAHMhWWvkBNq
但是,若不敞開自己,接納自己,無失敗、無自信,何來成功?386Please respect copyright.PENANAoIuTcZhsNu
許多時候,失敗,並非不好,只是你在成功的路途上。386Please respect copyright.PENANA31rqPeoue0
你說,不管是了多少遍還是不成功?386Please respect copyright.PENANAsnpyviNISE
嗯,那你或許可以試試往另一個角度來探討、換一個方式來實行。386Please respect copyright.PENANAMWpCKPE3rz
成功了,恭喜你,獲得了美麗體驗。386Please respect copyright.PENANAElnmbATnbq
失敗了,恭喜你,獲得了寶貝經驗。386Please respect copyright.PENANAYcvNve94tb