一切都要從升高中的暑假說起。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AhFGcStFL
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「笙，這禮拜六有空嗎？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWWH4u9u7o
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VJqoPxL53
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爸爸說，禮拜六要跟他的再婚對象吃飯，在台北。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jpoKlAnde
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vTKdltBVw
「要穿很正式嗎？」我問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw4EVOM2E9
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3kut4aShw
「普通襯衫就好。不是多高級的餐廳，太正式反而讓對方不自在。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwY08JmzcC
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVort9O6Ist
爸爸對我當時的反應應該很欣慰。對於他再婚，我沒有意見，對新媽媽的要求也不高，別像之前那個一樣、愛上別的男人就行。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgde0vCIifb
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKsLeNIV0Y
之後要和新媽媽一起住，趁現在熟悉一點比較好，我抱著這樣的想法赴約，穿了件普通的藍色襯衫，但一到現場我就後悔，因為爸爸沒有跟我說，現場還有妳。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNClVr6Y8pF
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPEcQHXUVg
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwLO4nGD8s
「她叫白絃。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExZmXBVGqS
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpkvYv5pNv
「我的女兒，也是你未來的姊姊喲。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxjlYdPxTa
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxC563mvy4
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaUjP0WQcB
如果爸爸事先告訴我，我就不會挑最討厭的藍色，而是我喜歡的粉紅色襯衫。因為爸爸對顏色的刻板印象，我一直不敢穿它，我就是這麼膽小的人；如果那時我鼓起勇氣，或許就能和妳開啟「喜歡粉紅色」的共同話題，而不是互用尷尬卻不失禮貌的微笑看著對方，應付這場聚會。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPuSbuuH4L
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnzpvefLQa
妳大我七歲，已經出社會工作，是成熟的大人，言行舉止均符合社會標準，但我知道妳在忍耐，因為我從妳身上嗅到跟我一樣的味道，我們臉上都戴著虛偽的笑臉面具。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB9X5NnrYv
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPj5o4ZXKR
不過，妳應付社交場合的經驗比我多，和爸爸的互動十分自然；相較之下，我像有社交障礙的高中生，常常不知道怎麼接話，但新媽媽把我的沉默歸為乖巧，莫名對我讚譽有加。我們的餐局在怪異的和諧中結束，兩個月後，我們搬去妳們的房子，由法律維繫的重組家庭就這麼拉開序幕。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOON6NY8ZzV
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6qQeliuOg
爸爸再婚的決定是對的，不只減輕他養育我的壓力，有媽媽的感覺也很不錯，至少每天放學都有三菜一湯的晚餐，而不是一邊吃爸爸買回來的便當，一邊滑手機、看「媽媽」跟陌生叔叔吃飯的打卡照片。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQacN7Mk3RQ
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxxq4WDQMA
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiYFUpATVl
「我來幫忙吧。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NOgeVmJHl
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uSJb8Rc9Z
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7Wp3heLgx
回家時，媽媽都還在廚房，我通常會去幫忙，比如擺餐具。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlYtXS2kkP
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv819gaaPUz
「笙，拿三副碗筷就好囉。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qT7FGu0fl
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShHcN4ic0j
爸爸七點前一定到家，少掉的那副碗筷不是他。我問媽媽：「姊姊不回來吃嗎？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfSvQOdUnd
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6AgxJVeoG
「她工作很忙，常常加班到很晚。」媽媽說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RydYwQQda
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzgjen37RI
「姊姊做什麼工作？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAM696KiMSE
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7N3herytyM
「一間藥廠的助理，詳細我沒問。」媽媽說：「你姊姊大學讀政治，畢業後失業了半年，我原本想逼她考公務員或研究所，幸好她最後找到了這個工作。雖然常加班，但看在薪水高、給家裡生活費很多的份上，我就懶得說她，畢竟每次跟你姊姊講話，我都會被氣得半死。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQJgXjizys
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuYVT8I2HS
媽媽對妳有很多不滿，我知道，因為她的控制慾很強。哪怕妳已經出社會，媽媽還是會管妳的穿著、交友圈、職涯規劃；但妳從不把她的話當回事，導致媽媽對妳很失望，妳們總是在爭吵。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBvnmls9Bz
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bmgrMYh3f
坦白說，我當時對妳沒太多想法，畢竟我們根本沒說過話。妳都在我起床前出門、睡著後回家，見了面也不知道能聊什麼。這種尷尬的關係維持了三年，一直到高中三年級，我才變成大家所知道的羅笙──那個喜歡妳、喜歡到滲入骨髓的羅笙。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZ4xopzimb
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGjbhAKAL7
先解釋當時的背景吧。我當時的狀況非常差，爸媽不同意我考藝術學院、勸我放棄芭蕾，在學校又因為外表被同學霸凌、被老師性騷擾。那段時間於我而言就像地獄，曾求助卻被反說是自己的問題，光熬過每天的二十四小時都讓我想死，失眠、焦慮、精神不濟等症狀一一出現，身心靈都感到疲憊不堪，覺得自己再也撐不下去。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9XrD3VWNQ
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuhrg3rcW3
某個爸媽都去上班的早晨、我應該要去學校的時間，我人卻還坐在餐桌，吃著硬掉的早餐。明明知道會遲到，身體卻怎樣都動不起來，連開始新的一天的勇氣都沒有。正當我思考曠課會有什麼下場時，一個腳步聲從樓梯走下來、嚇了我一跳，我以為家裡只有自己。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLowpZhcr7r
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1PWl7AGrM
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADry8hD70B
「你不用上學嗎？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfAsroIArP
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tVuII2FwU
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMD3nXIOQND
是妳，妳竟然在家裡。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYmirQhgmP
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsr9hCQkf4V
「妳不用上班嗎？」我錯愕問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoFtFO4zKO
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRzX4klMvO
「實驗沒進展，老闆乾脆放我假。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC4gWqT2h5
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfrkQQ6BLo
妳從我旁邊走過、打開冰箱。我以為妳指的是治療疾病的藥物實驗，現在回想，妳那時協助的實驗，應該是水果塔的研發。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sRf2EMojG
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItNYgiTFKh
「你不去學校嗎？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6vXOzFybR
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVE6MtGtcKJ
妳突然問，口氣不是關心，像在亂開話題。但當時的我瀕臨崩潰，竟下意識說了句：「我只想去死。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU08pOxTsR2
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6lJauMPCp
「……？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNmPo4h3lj
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ASfYbK2Sd
妳把目光從冰箱移到我身上，我這才意識到自己說了什麼。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPxHzM5eRs
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMm1Gx2RaH
「呃，我的意思是……！」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSzcdmANkL
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3t7cBZO5J1
「想死的話，我不會阻止你喲。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95YBtNplX0
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWeklERIgi
妳關上冰箱的門，盯著我吃到一半的麵包。比起我的性命，妳似乎比較在意早餐要吃什麼，這讓我很受傷。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXD2t8BLekf
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JSwrmzKR9
「唉，別用那種表情看我，我不是在叫你去死。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2W0SIxDVf
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6zvQCwHL8
看我僵在原地，妳一臉「這小孩真麻煩」的口氣說：「要生要死，你自己決定，怎麼運用生命是你的自由，我不會干涉。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGADjUnMCt
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43sqyo2jWf
「可是……」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCYPiZiQTT
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5Jm0dJ0mB
「但有個前提：你已經為自己活過一次。如果你的人生跟屍體沒兩樣，死不死根本沒差。從沒活過的人，沒有資格談死。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XO7G2sTp0
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlbBQaaGOr
我什麼話也說不出，當時的衝擊很難形容。我的生活只有家和學校，但同一棟房子裡，卻有個人──妳──在用全然不同的思考方式在生活。我封閉的世界彷彿被敲開一個洞，新的顏色灌進來，是妳的顏色。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiwMOijLAL
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbdF9TApze
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtN5Rguu0T1
為什麼妳說得出這種話？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruDCzq7mRL
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRXNu3efuo
為什麼妳的價值觀和大家這麼不同？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGWAiraqsj
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgqP1RGjyN
妳都在想什麼？都經歷了什麼？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenqcod0kBi
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWWtrhPLYU
面具脫下後，這才是妳的真面目。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHG9umWYEnN
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsv0X33dzjh
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxObZlunfY7
「姊姊。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46mKuxQ5sT
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYdOZsekqm
我突然問妳：「妳平常是真的加班，還是不想回家？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVS2mtRf5u
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUye7kGEVUw
妳沒有回話，只給我一抹迷人的微笑。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nAsjO45zM
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb8saRZeIW
「好羨慕。」我說：「很多人都說不想長大，但我想趕快變成大人。小孩子沒有獨立生活的能力，大多時候只能任人宰割，我討厭這樣，所以我很羨慕妳。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5vrsf2lcc
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZTz3gZlrK
妳雖然在笑，卻解讀不出喜怒哀樂，也看不出是否認同我的話。妳應該改名叫「白懸」，因為妳就像一部懸疑小說，令人摸不著頭緒。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53sHLHZemg
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaj0aRxqLJ
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBafIz0Q3SF
「笙。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmipTNJEYQ
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb0xT7ZUIv
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8abQ23Hr4Z
三年來，妳第一次叫我的名字。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI2NU7QmrZ
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIg8BLTqZo
「我幫你請假，一起去吃早餐吧。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EO78RMumy
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR6b9gDAjd
於是，我們一起出門，那是我人生第一次翹課，感覺出乎預料平淡，是妳讓我心跳加速。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCRHaQUZmS
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FaADUOp9P
那天我們一直在一起，吃完早餐去逛街，逛完街去看展，看完展去夜市，一路上沒太多話，畢竟（當時的）我們話都不多，但那氣氛非常舒服，我至今都記得我們早餐吃了什麼、展場入口的收票員、射飛鏢贏來的獎品，尤其便利商店的布丁雪糕，那是我此生唯一從妳手裡接過的禮物。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLEgA6yOnj
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIdl1tNs73
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJeQ1fY5za
「我一點都不值得羨慕喔。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpCPOSn11m
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4VsZEtYlq
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAtsJw78E0
一直到晚上七點，我們從夜市走去車站的路上，妳才回覆我早上的話。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxMuyj7fID
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfppnlJQAu
「確實，我擅長與人保持距離，因為我對自由的嚮往超越了任何一份情感。我甚至想追求更多自由，擺脫倫理道德、打破社會框架，當一個徹頭徹尾的瘋子。」妳苦笑，「但我們這類人啊，忠於自由、安於歸宿。嚮往自由並非厭惡束縛，而是對束縛自己的人不滿；一旦出現值得效忠、值得愛的人，被當成寵物也無所謂。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTp3JP82z7y
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckb1wdo9b7
我當時沒發現妳這段話有多恐怖。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcct49GQBY
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee68qHDXKE
「我的人生，就是不停地尋找能給我套上項圈的人。假使那個人真的出現，我會變得多瘋狂呢？那份執念又將把我帶去哪呢？我會為了那個人做到什麼地步呢？我整天都在想這些，一點也不高尚，所以我不值得羨慕。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvfq9G6wpr
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3I6EKi681
妳說這些，並不是想得到我的回應，單純為說而說，因為妳很自私，妳的腦中只有自己，連正在聽自己說話的我也不願意顧慮。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3dWhTCAXX
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB7HKJfZBI
所以妳永遠不會知道──因為無聊而打的請假電話，拯救了身心靈差點崩潰的我；隨便挑的一間展覽，開啟了我對武士刀的熱愛；衝著第二支半價買的布丁雪糕，從此成了回憶，我一百年後也無法忘記。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwd0tBwqfg
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKG3Rn1Xhl
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2NinwAZIn
「抱歉，現在說這些，你也聽不懂吧？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0ulXEjCuo
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5v2SFTHo1M
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhVhSCtpAo
確實，我不敢說全部聽懂。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDRiBuEhMp
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgYrhvwiJr
但我知道妳很寂寞。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn21JeKCris
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMxqF7f1de
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeV0VPVoEV
「竟然跟一個高中生說這些，我也是瘋了。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBFePKnZoH
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYpfwmgFae
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寂寞的妳，兩年後得到能操控距離的水果塔。一夕之間，爸爸媽媽變得不認識妳，親戚朋友叫不出妳的名，高中同學翻開畢業紀念冊，全然想不起妳的事。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmNP9I4yZ6
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而妳彷彿重獲新生。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqvRs5GvRj
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「……！？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRC1hxjCa4o
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里奧給我看妳的相片，已經是我大學二年級的事了。我記憶中的妳成熟穩重，但相片中，妳只穿一件寬擺帽T，頭髮全部變成粉紅色，看起來比我小。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtonvUaTGEl
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「她是你姊姊？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQhc5RfzXV
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里奧大我兩屆，是商學院的資優生，講話還不是現在這副死德性。特地來藝術學院找我，是為他的摯友瘋帽而來，目的是打聽妳的事。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgQC4Zyic9
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「五官確實是她……」我盯著相片，「但是，氣質和我記憶中不一樣。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3r8UJE1Cvg
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「你們很久沒見了？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGPsfJNq99
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「嗯，她本來就很少回家，我現在又是外宿。上次見面是兩年前，我高三的時候。」我問：「她發生什麼事了？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CllC6MV5F
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「情況很複雜。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ChK7CujD0
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里奧用他琉璃色的眼睛凝視我。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wHtg9H8lf
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「你姊姊現在，是某人身邊最麻煩的鬣狗。我們換個地方談。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYm7ckb7CZY
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妳想擺脫過往的一切、拉開與所有人的距離，卻沒想過我會主動靠近，所以我很感謝里奧，因為他帶我進入妳的世界──一個荒誕的仙境，成為你們荒誕的一部分。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Px1Vvanli
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「初次見面，我叫紅鶴。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Q7sX8XDFQ
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追隨妳的腳步，我也重獲新生。和妳一樣的髮色，和妳同個色系的衣著。我用全新的姿態來到妳面前，妳卻看都不看我一眼。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXsmlo8ieM
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「幸會，我是艾莉絲，可以叫我夏悠。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKNBGvXilj
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給妳套上項圈的人，除了身體塞滿棉花，我找不出任何特色。她是連表情都沒有的人偶、用來滿足自己母親思念的替代品，我不懂妳為什麼選擇她。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZP7cOn7Dse
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「我最喜歡小悠了！」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDmfP1tSgH
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明明比較早認識妳的人，是我。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxLl5gZ6EK
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「我聽妳的！小悠說什麼我都聽！」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fduIigoCm
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被妳拯救過、最了解妳孤獨的人，是我。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAVhCMuQyH
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「我只要有小悠就夠了！」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjfMvjgs4X
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最有資格把妳綁在身邊的人，應該也是我。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeF8WWZo6V
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我不知道這份執念從何而來，畢竟我和妳沒有太多相處，但我就是好不甘心。我以為我們戴著一樣的面具，後來發現，我們其實活在不同的宇宙；妳的宇宙只有妳，妳孤單一人漂浮在深沉的黑暗，我是唯一前往過那片黑暗的人。我厭煩戴面具的世界，嚮往妳追逐的自由。我想擁抱妳、陪伴妳，我願意和妳一起死在那片黑暗，我願意以弟弟的身分給妳想要的歸宿。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFVtWFpht3
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但那個人──那個被權力腐化的人，非但沒拯救妳，還對妳施加內而外的破壞。她破壞妳的人格、妳的美，妳所有令我著迷的一切。妳是尊貴的獅鷲，卻被連人都稱不上的怪物糟蹋，我怎麼可能嚥得下這口氣？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvWjpz8mTP
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「我愛她。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2lJJzJi2Q
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我的偏執讓我變得越加恐怖，我開始殺人──最初我們一起看的展覽、那些武士刀，我揮起來竟毫不費力，習慣「剝奪他人生命」所需要的時間，也短暫得令人難以置信。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcC3rVMy85
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「我多麼希望自己能擁有她。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDhJjdsgil
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我創造了新的宇宙，那個宇宙充滿妳，但血紅色的鶴會汙染妳，我不能讓妳蒙受更多汙穢，所以向他託付了妳。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrjwDwXEzc
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「拜託你了，金允燦。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJExZrOfz9
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我親愛的姊夫，一個不屬於仙境，卻影響仙境至深的男人。他是艾莉絲與黨對接的窗口，也是唯一沒有水果塔，卻知道我們所有事情的人。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUvlpp7B64
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「可是她……」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDdbJXqOLS
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「我會幫你找到姊姊。」我說：「能救她的人，真的只剩你了。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqJPAgxBoW
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妳說金允燦是玩具，我一眼就看穿妳的謊言，他在妳心裡的份量與艾莉絲相當。艾莉絲是王、是帝、是絕對的權，她給了妳項圈；金允燦是普通上班族，除了高個子和中分外沒有特色，能給妳的只有沒有特色的生活，但那恰好是妳需要的。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45WLruT9Ff
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“In me the cave-man clasps the seer,”678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWT20F4QkhZ
──於我，穴居者攫取了先知。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM2vg8nHIt
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“And garlanded Apollo goes”678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2qURAcavw
──佩帶花環的阿波羅，678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhzCHOi0U8
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“Chanting to Abraham’s deaf ear.”678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6oNgDbxaG
──向亞伯拉罕的聾耳吟唱。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IUa3FKHHV
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姊姊，我親愛的姊姊，妳的人生根本不需要項圈。妳在我眼裡如此耀眼，這樣的妳足以驕傲、足以抬頭。妳必須扯開項圈，妳才是凌駕在艾莉絲之上、那宛若神明的存在。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6SjvR3Uaj
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“In me the tiger sniffs the rose.”678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NFDSWQlRv
──我心有猛虎，細嗅薔薇。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbTxBZRi3O
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“Look in my heart, kind friends, and tremble,”678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDaYzUHdxQ
──審視我的心靈吧，朋友，你應戰慄。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuWzGO7Cwk
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“Since there your elements assemble.”678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPQsa1LSE2
──因為那才是你本來的面目。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMu2ih98kZ
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重拾勇氣的妳，殺死了他們一半的人；剩下的苟延殘喘，變成今天的高宇維、神與畜。重創艾莉絲體系後，妳和金允燦創立Platinum，妳終於有了自己的家。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXucizO4ua5
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「你做好覺悟了嗎？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SFpkIRn5b
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一生都在不幸的妳，和姊夫幸福快樂了一百年，我也不知不覺監視里奧他們如此之久，久到第二代、第三代出現，導致我的名單越來越長，必須殺死的人越來越多。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJBCVJnUdi
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「注射後，蜘蛛糖會埋沒你的理智，你將只剩『快樂』一種情緒。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSInAKOO8Wy
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閉館的體育場，笑臉還是那頭墨綠色的頭髮。她平淡告訴我：「除非你的理智戰勝它、搶回主導權。你將和蜘蛛糖合而為一，得到難以想像的力量。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Pc9kflZWO
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「無所謂，這樣就夠了。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxdmEO1zgS
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一百年後的二十二世紀，姊夫已經離開，妳平靜快樂的日子畫下句點。妳的目光再次注視艾莉絲體系，暗中阻止悲劇再次發生，因為妳就是這麼溫柔，和當年幫我請假的妳一樣，妳從來沒有變──678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIfI9LTvlq
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可是這樣不行啊，我親愛的姊姊。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdQSenD8r2
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只要水果塔還在，妳就無法置身事外，這樣的妳是沒辦法幸福的。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ77SmOtzm
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「嘻嘻嘻……嘻嘻哈哈哈哈！」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHu1ta7KqL
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所以，一切都交給我吧。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwmomspHbt
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「姊姊……姊姊……哈哈！我會把他們全部殺光，感謝我吧！姊姊！」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKyjBunGb5
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我和我體內的蜘蛛，是為了妳的幸福而生的。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2hV2dEanM
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一百年前，妳幫鶴找到活下去的希望。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Kw6rIqMwf
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