一切都要從升高中的暑假說起。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iW08sQvrQ
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「笙，這禮拜六有空嗎？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgq57yPPtPp
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爸爸說，禮拜六要跟他的再婚對象吃飯，在台北。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyc8jkYnxr
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYeLynctm4
「要穿很正式嗎？」我問。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyWrrpOifc
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeUuKlEsMb
「普通襯衫就好。不是多高級的餐廳，太正式反而讓對方不自在。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu04MAHzj6
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3w0KnC3mZ
爸爸對我當時的反應應該很欣慰。對於他再婚，我沒有意見，對新媽媽的要求也不高，別像之前那個一樣、愛上別的男人就行。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNJmRil4a1
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMTIJwVtBC
之後要和新媽媽一起住，趁現在熟悉一點比較好，我抱著這樣的想法赴約，穿了件普通的藍色襯衫，但一到現場我就後悔，因為爸爸沒有跟我說，現場還有妳。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgO4E5kA3R
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694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRB3CwSKQ0
「她叫白絃。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNpfq1RLsK
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWkCr9vpwP
「我的女兒，也是你未來的姊姊喲。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAXwN7xpHz
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBxcSc31SA
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTY9F8SIDl
如果爸爸事先告訴我，我就不會挑最討厭的藍色，而是我喜歡的粉紅色襯衫。因為爸爸對顏色的刻板印象，我一直不敢穿它，我就是這麼膽小的人；如果那時我鼓起勇氣，或許就能和妳開啟「喜歡粉紅色」的共同話題，而不是互用尷尬卻不失禮貌的微笑看著對方，應付這場聚會。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODiKGirtG7
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxZ4j08MzK
妳大我七歲，已經出社會工作，是成熟的大人，言行舉止均符合社會標準，但我知道妳在忍耐，因為我從妳身上嗅到跟我一樣的味道，我們臉上都戴著虛偽的笑臉面具。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFLLIXOjTD
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB6uJRf8Yo
不過，妳應付社交場合的經驗比我多，和爸爸的互動十分自然；相較之下，我像有社交障礙的高中生，常常不知道怎麼接話，但新媽媽把我的沉默歸為乖巧，莫名對我讚譽有加。我們的餐局在怪異的和諧中結束，兩個月後，我們搬去妳們的房子，由法律維繫的重組家庭就這麼拉開序幕。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2e7Aop4AIi
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJMpanIZF0
爸爸再婚的決定是對的，不只減輕他養育我的壓力，有媽媽的感覺也很不錯，至少每天放學都有三菜一湯的晚餐，而不是一邊吃爸爸買回來的便當，一邊滑手機、看「媽媽」跟陌生叔叔吃飯的打卡照片。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NmL6UguPa
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「我來幫忙吧。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP36ArMssE
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtvU1kHfs1
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回家時，媽媽都還在廚房，我通常會去幫忙，比如擺餐具。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIAjhhjWfW
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZBXUouSE5
「笙，拿三副碗筷就好囉。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGKH73t3f4
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc94YI6rtrR
爸爸七點前一定到家，少掉的那副碗筷不是他。我問媽媽：「姊姊不回來吃嗎？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHJgfrtBmk
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkj3R0xlG2
「她工作很忙，常常加班到很晚。」媽媽說。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtIpwY2HZ2
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCkGESVfZL
「姊姊做什麼工作？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmnuDtgIDA
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy6IrpFwLi
「一間藥廠的助理，詳細我沒問。」媽媽說：「你姊姊大學讀政治，畢業後失業了半年，我原本想逼她考公務員或研究所，幸好她最後找到了這個工作。雖然常加班，但看在薪水高、給家裡生活費很多的份上，我就懶得說她，畢竟每次跟你姊姊講話，我都會被氣得半死。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUArbPTenr
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgaK0wZtkw
媽媽對妳有很多不滿，我知道，因為她的控制慾很強。哪怕妳已經出社會，媽媽還是會管妳的穿著、交友圈、職涯規劃；但妳從不把她的話當回事，導致媽媽對妳很失望，妳們總是在爭吵。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZW2P0dk58d
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52PjwWTj6Z
坦白說，我當時對妳沒太多想法，畢竟我們根本沒說過話。妳都在我起床前出門、睡著後回家，見了面也不知道能聊什麼。這種尷尬的關係維持了三年，一直到高中三年級，我才變成大家所知道的羅笙──那個喜歡妳、喜歡到滲入骨髓的羅笙。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1XJwQvht6
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy7uGuJNCc
先解釋當時的背景吧。我當時的狀況非常差，爸媽不同意我考藝術學院、勸我放棄芭蕾，在學校又因為外表被同學霸凌、被老師性騷擾。那段時間於我而言就像地獄，曾求助卻被反說是自己的問題，光熬過每天的二十四小時都讓我想死，失眠、焦慮、精神不濟等症狀一一出現，身心靈都感到疲憊不堪，覺得自己再也撐不下去。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTL8G666lU
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdu91YXPxb3
某個爸媽都去上班的早晨、我應該要去學校的時間，我人卻還坐在餐桌，吃著硬掉的早餐。明明知道會遲到，身體卻怎樣都動不起來，連開始新的一天的勇氣都沒有。正當我思考曠課會有什麼下場時，一個腳步聲從樓梯走下來、嚇了我一跳，我以為家裡只有自己。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb96BDJvcX6
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg1Ar3vayJ
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG8AihHQnY
「你不用上學嗎？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpxEnQQU6C
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHa3FQWlVZm
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOExhHTxPk
是妳，妳竟然在家裡。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UbSFZ3fIE
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4tfK4LIAW
「妳不用上班嗎？」我錯愕問。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCZAhHT8ag
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGrGc7Bclm
「實驗沒進展，老闆乾脆放我假。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjO0cU30op
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwRh3abJkn
妳從我旁邊走過、打開冰箱。我以為妳指的是治療疾病的藥物實驗，現在回想，妳那時協助的實驗，應該是水果塔的研發。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnou3FFEMbE
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrSur2PMvH
「你不去學校嗎？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECY8UVWCcf
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8ccaaebO9
妳突然問，口氣不是關心，像在亂開話題。但當時的我瀕臨崩潰，竟下意識說了句：「我只想去死。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahdXy1KEVk
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJphDG2NPu
「……？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9dsFUtrmC
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArlTzcC6lB
妳把目光從冰箱移到我身上，我這才意識到自己說了什麼。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8kljR4Uby
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Y0SO8UEam
「呃，我的意思是……！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRfjm79Vhh
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4Bm3oCvLE
「想死的話，我不會阻止你喲。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirvprNxCpo
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9EuCByh8T
妳關上冰箱的門，盯著我吃到一半的麵包。比起我的性命，妳似乎比較在意早餐要吃什麼，這讓我很受傷。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB8hfjDsmI
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrIVkU8txm
「唉，別用那種表情看我，我不是在叫你去死。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GHyv1Q3FM
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEwLQ8gkw0
看我僵在原地，妳一臉「這小孩真麻煩」的口氣說：「要生要死，你自己決定，怎麼運用生命是你的自由，我不會干涉。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWHYMzYC0n
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7zeRHYblq
「可是……」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BvtU8PSS4
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlG8WKjGWj
「但有個前提：你已經為自己活過一次。如果你的人生跟屍體沒兩樣，死不死根本沒差。從沒活過的人，沒有資格談死。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO934pJhngO
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSSxOFJjxO
我什麼話也說不出，當時的衝擊很難形容。我的生活只有家和學校，但同一棟房子裡，卻有個人──妳──在用全然不同的思考方式在生活。我封閉的世界彷彿被敲開一個洞，新的顏色灌進來，是妳的顏色。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcgicInK28
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694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRhsKfpxZK
為什麼妳說得出這種話？694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLmktJwH5z
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITMDkNbO8H
為什麼妳的價值觀和大家這麼不同？694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡci4xfxabDb
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1g6AJ7h21
妳都在想什麼？都經歷了什麼？694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQf84tqNxh9
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhPcdrCubo
面具脫下後，這才是妳的真面目。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YKetUEvDI
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71d4nXpG2o
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWhvuoGiCV
「姊姊。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHJgNbmGDU
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUJtB82pu3
我突然問妳：「妳平常是真的加班，還是不想回家？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oqQCXVHJ2
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbT3oJJSeEh
妳沒有回話，只給我一抹迷人的微笑。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLTuLTKfM0
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItEVm5qg7v
「好羨慕。」我說：「很多人都說不想長大，但我想趕快變成大人。小孩子沒有獨立生活的能力，大多時候只能任人宰割，我討厭這樣，所以我很羨慕妳。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYvlWtp4r1
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB2nDK54lE
妳雖然在笑，卻解讀不出喜怒哀樂，也看不出是否認同我的話。妳應該改名叫「白懸」，因為妳就像一部懸疑小說，令人摸不著頭緒。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis8dXyxgg8
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIbTMjbVfp
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64cIeb3tuA
「笙。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjWXCE45h3
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694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWRL3C9vI6
三年來，妳第一次叫我的名字。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZLJRbgl0R
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstlQ1VTPqo
「我幫你請假，一起去吃早餐吧。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf10bAQVcHG
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZek7YZMARa
於是，我們一起出門，那是我人生第一次翹課，感覺出乎預料平淡，是妳讓我心跳加速。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzxWach3O3
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVbfzJKd8t
那天我們一直在一起，吃完早餐去逛街，逛完街去看展，看完展去夜市，一路上沒太多話，畢竟（當時的）我們話都不多，但那氣氛非常舒服，我至今都記得我們早餐吃了什麼、展場入口的收票員、射飛鏢贏來的獎品，尤其便利商店的布丁雪糕，那是我此生唯一從妳手裡接過的禮物。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LzDgWwkf1
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02fmEmduo2
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgihj8OBq6v
「我一點都不值得羨慕喔。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7e5KO751WL
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iT1Bwlbl5
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEjjEV2MUA
一直到晚上七點，我們從夜市走去車站的路上，妳才回覆我早上的話。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96hqCGqxuN
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgV4ndL6WDb
「確實，我擅長與人保持距離，因為我對自由的嚮往超越了任何一份情感。我甚至想追求更多自由，擺脫倫理道德、打破社會框架，當一個徹頭徹尾的瘋子。」妳苦笑，「但我們這類人啊，忠於自由、安於歸宿。嚮往自由並非厭惡束縛，而是對束縛自己的人不滿；一旦出現值得效忠、值得愛的人，被當成寵物也無所謂。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreqD3CdWph
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroVIs6ud1t
我當時沒發現妳這段話有多恐怖。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N3qYWxLZf
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIC0q5iD4eM
「我的人生，就是不停地尋找能給我套上項圈的人。假使那個人真的出現，我會變得多瘋狂呢？那份執念又將把我帶去哪呢？我會為了那個人做到什麼地步呢？我整天都在想這些，一點也不高尚，所以我不值得羨慕。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p4uxIV0mo
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktDk2YwCQB
妳說這些，並不是想得到我的回應，單純為說而說，因為妳很自私，妳的腦中只有自己，連正在聽自己說話的我也不願意顧慮。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQ9jcRREQY
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvTNjZr6vf
所以妳永遠不會知道──因為無聊而打的請假電話，拯救了身心靈差點崩潰的我；隨便挑的一間展覽，開啟了我對武士刀的熱愛；衝著第二支半價買的布丁雪糕，從此成了回憶，我一百年後也無法忘記。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCvHtS4G64
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPOhQcvFrC
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvZq8ngmpd
「抱歉，現在說這些，你也聽不懂吧？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohvXKsr31u
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzJBR6jSjC
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgPTkixVoe
確實，我不敢說全部聽懂。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXojffEdChn
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgu0xOeLXl4
但我知道妳很寂寞。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIk14mKuDCj
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yDyFK4Sm6
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA06ORclsBW
「竟然跟一個高中生說這些，我也是瘋了。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYuTfqHxyS
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY65Fp0c2Ic
694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpsppa5Zn3
寂寞的妳，兩年後得到能操控距離的水果塔。一夕之間，爸爸媽媽變得不認識妳，親戚朋友叫不出妳的名，高中同學翻開畢業紀念冊，全然想不起妳的事。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTAla54BX1
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而妳彷彿重獲新生。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4d9jmZjiQ
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「……！？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjX80mgvNK4
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里奧給我看妳的相片，已經是我大學二年級的事了。我記憶中的妳成熟穩重，但相片中，妳只穿一件寬擺帽T，頭髮全部變成粉紅色，看起來比我小。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYzTiPZd4U
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「她是你姊姊？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjp1fiseWt
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里奧大我兩屆，是商學院的資優生，講話還不是現在這副死德性。特地來藝術學院找我，是為他的摯友瘋帽而來，目的是打聽妳的事。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbcPvPxtmv
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「五官確實是她……」我盯著相片，「但是，氣質和我記憶中不一樣。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cMP8RwKnK
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「你們很久沒見了？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Bi5CrMILc
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「嗯，她本來就很少回家，我現在又是外宿。上次見面是兩年前，我高三的時候。」我問：「她發生什麼事了？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUZDOqZ4Te
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「情況很複雜。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ5IU9Ah9Q
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里奧用他琉璃色的眼睛凝視我。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdH6su7Qj2
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「你姊姊現在，是某人身邊最麻煩的鬣狗。我們換個地方談。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0l8Y7DQek
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妳想擺脫過往的一切、拉開與所有人的距離，卻沒想過我會主動靠近，所以我很感謝里奧，因為他帶我進入妳的世界──一個荒誕的仙境，成為你們荒誕的一部分。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzdy4VDW3v
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「初次見面，我叫紅鶴。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaYsuNW2Ts
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追隨妳的腳步，我也重獲新生。和妳一樣的髮色，和妳同個色系的衣著。我用全新的姿態來到妳面前，妳卻看都不看我一眼。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvMgh0NrJS
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「幸會，我是艾莉絲，可以叫我夏悠。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LZKOQTV7B
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給妳套上項圈的人，除了身體塞滿棉花，我找不出任何特色。她是連表情都沒有的人偶、用來滿足自己母親思念的替代品，我不懂妳為什麼選擇她。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1Fy1CifxO
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「我最喜歡小悠了！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD73g3S1pri
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明明比較早認識妳的人，是我。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5V5kzB1YI
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「我聽妳的！小悠說什麼我都聽！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g4Rb1Pb98
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被妳拯救過、最了解妳孤獨的人，是我。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8eIOrvupP
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「我只要有小悠就夠了！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam6atgfwNY
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最有資格把妳綁在身邊的人，應該也是我。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzJps8MbTa
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我不知道這份執念從何而來，畢竟我和妳沒有太多相處，但我就是好不甘心。我以為我們戴著一樣的面具，後來發現，我們其實活在不同的宇宙；妳的宇宙只有妳，妳孤單一人漂浮在深沉的黑暗，我是唯一前往過那片黑暗的人。我厭煩戴面具的世界，嚮往妳追逐的自由。我想擁抱妳、陪伴妳，我願意和妳一起死在那片黑暗，我願意以弟弟的身分給妳想要的歸宿。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0jzugPREV
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但那個人──那個被權力腐化的人，非但沒拯救妳，還對妳施加內而外的破壞。她破壞妳的人格、妳的美，妳所有令我著迷的一切。妳是尊貴的獅鷲，卻被連人都稱不上的怪物糟蹋，我怎麼可能嚥得下這口氣？694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCOTfHHE2v
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「我愛她。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMM8fRX8ww
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我的偏執讓我變得越加恐怖，我開始殺人──最初我們一起看的展覽、那些武士刀，我揮起來竟毫不費力，習慣「剝奪他人生命」所需要的時間，也短暫得令人難以置信。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ659GeiK7hb
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「我多麼希望自己能擁有她。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbDM11c02K
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我創造了新的宇宙，那個宇宙充滿妳，但血紅色的鶴會汙染妳，我不能讓妳蒙受更多汙穢，所以向他託付了妳。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnTffdFhT7
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「拜託你了，金允燦。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx3ElqSLIj
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我親愛的姊夫，一個不屬於仙境，卻影響仙境至深的男人。他是艾莉絲與黨對接的窗口，也是唯一沒有水果塔，卻知道我們所有事情的人。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39pnKKOdbq
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「可是她……」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Rbq2trYhH
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「我會幫你找到姊姊。」我說：「能救她的人，真的只剩你了。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2mbxLf49v
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妳說金允燦是玩具，我一眼就看穿妳的謊言，他在妳心裡的份量與艾莉絲相當。艾莉絲是王、是帝、是絕對的權，她給了妳項圈；金允燦是普通上班族，除了高個子和中分外沒有特色，能給妳的只有沒有特色的生活，但那恰好是妳需要的。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICWBewOgmZ
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“In me the cave-man clasps the seer,”694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1k22woCNk
──於我，穴居者攫取了先知。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Jrys60dmc
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“And garlanded Apollo goes”694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4tZ7944bg
──佩帶花環的阿波羅，694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIWeIPXIzG
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“Chanting to Abraham’s deaf ear.”694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfDVD5TWGF
──向亞伯拉罕的聾耳吟唱。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBICidxLM0
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姊姊，我親愛的姊姊，妳的人生根本不需要項圈。妳在我眼裡如此耀眼，這樣的妳足以驕傲、足以抬頭。妳必須扯開項圈，妳才是凌駕在艾莉絲之上、那宛若神明的存在。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4IUHLq7a0
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“In me the tiger sniffs the rose.”694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcHgT4VP71
──我心有猛虎，細嗅薔薇。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DO0UlnVQs
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“Look in my heart, kind friends, and tremble,”694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVf8K23RCYu
──審視我的心靈吧，朋友，你應戰慄。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡessmk0XqtS
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“Since there your elements assemble.”694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3W3pFNzY1
──因為那才是你本來的面目。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI5g8VMP4x
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重拾勇氣的妳，殺死了他們一半的人；剩下的苟延殘喘，變成今天的高宇維、神與畜。重創艾莉絲體系後，妳和金允燦創立Platinum，妳終於有了自己的家。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQw94lFwcBV
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「你做好覺悟了嗎？」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6OdGEkSBC
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一生都在不幸的妳，和姊夫幸福快樂了一百年，我也不知不覺監視里奧他們如此之久，久到第二代、第三代出現，導致我的名單越來越長，必須殺死的人越來越多。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZTweBNngf
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「注射後，蜘蛛糖會埋沒你的理智，你將只剩『快樂』一種情緒。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThCeU2bgdO
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閉館的體育場，笑臉還是那頭墨綠色的頭髮。她平淡告訴我：「除非你的理智戰勝它、搶回主導權。你將和蜘蛛糖合而為一，得到難以想像的力量。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhI8zrMsfqF
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「無所謂，這樣就夠了。」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKLE4sVpjC
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一百年後的二十二世紀，姊夫已經離開，妳平靜快樂的日子畫下句點。妳的目光再次注視艾莉絲體系，暗中阻止悲劇再次發生，因為妳就是這麼溫柔，和當年幫我請假的妳一樣，妳從來沒有變──694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivxaYD24BY
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可是這樣不行啊，我親愛的姊姊。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s2ozsVS34
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只要水果塔還在，妳就無法置身事外，這樣的妳是沒辦法幸福的。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjclGsabdw
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「嘻嘻嘻……嘻嘻哈哈哈哈！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1tXzocsiU
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所以，一切都交給我吧。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4Za7Vjtz7
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「姊姊……姊姊……哈哈！我會把他們全部殺光，感謝我吧！姊姊！」694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwXZu1dIc3
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我和我體內的蜘蛛，是為了妳的幸福而生的。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiMAbStbKx
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一百年前，妳幫鶴找到活下去的希望。694Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYyVmIrdve
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