一切都要從升高中的暑假說起。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRiH0WjCQV
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「笙，這禮拜六有空嗎？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlScnuf8hk
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnopzalY3Gi
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爸爸說，禮拜六要跟他的再婚對象吃飯，在台北。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIqxlm9Zz1
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7c5NWqauX
「要穿很正式嗎？」我問。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWk9jv8Sea
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rgB6p55jV
「普通襯衫就好。不是多高級的餐廳，太正式反而讓對方不自在。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyRiwW0wbD
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SEo518tzc
爸爸對我當時的反應應該很欣慰。對於他再婚，我沒有意見，對新媽媽的要求也不高，別像之前那個一樣、愛上別的男人就行。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL27U5ycs2J
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW24r0hgma
之後要和新媽媽一起住，趁現在熟悉一點比較好，我抱著這樣的想法赴約，穿了件普通的藍色襯衫，但一到現場我就後悔，因為爸爸沒有跟我說，現場還有妳。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2aFYIa3ru
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC02BNmRuHa
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDoN9HS3Ez
「她叫白絃。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bg3Zkx3J0
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmifkLKBfxm
「我的女兒，也是你未來的姊姊喲。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7KliXP3Fy
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Cw0cDzxYX
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3fHVZKupm
如果爸爸事先告訴我，我就不會挑最討厭的藍色，而是我喜歡的粉紅色襯衫。因為爸爸對顏色的刻板印象，我一直不敢穿它，我就是這麼膽小的人；如果那時我鼓起勇氣，或許就能和妳開啟「喜歡粉紅色」的共同話題，而不是互用尷尬卻不失禮貌的微笑看著對方，應付這場聚會。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyRn5XbnWX
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBFmWneIoD
妳大我七歲，已經出社會工作，是成熟的大人，言行舉止均符合社會標準，但我知道妳在忍耐，因為我從妳身上嗅到跟我一樣的味道，我們臉上都戴著虛偽的笑臉面具。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mkylqF7Sy
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75h9o55LIL
不過，妳應付社交場合的經驗比我多，和爸爸的互動十分自然；相較之下，我像有社交障礙的高中生，常常不知道怎麼接話，但新媽媽把我的沉默歸為乖巧，莫名對我讚譽有加。我們的餐局在怪異的和諧中結束，兩個月後，我們搬去妳們的房子，由法律維繫的重組家庭就這麼拉開序幕。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNdD4M0Rml
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRQXSXAncp
爸爸再婚的決定是對的，不只減輕他養育我的壓力，有媽媽的感覺也很不錯，至少每天放學都有三菜一湯的晚餐，而不是一邊吃爸爸買回來的便當，一邊滑手機、看「媽媽」跟陌生叔叔吃飯的打卡照片。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiBqBCyN9S
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQIrxbgqo6
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAOmMXpKzj
「我來幫忙吧。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe3Nw7njPa
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQHOTByQpa
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS07zMYCMDX
回家時，媽媽都還在廚房，我通常會去幫忙，比如擺餐具。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf91bAhhFXZ
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lFYJcXWux
「笙，拿三副碗筷就好囉。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLeSV5gG9f
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0Nnv3h72b
爸爸七點前一定到家，少掉的那副碗筷不是他。我問媽媽：「姊姊不回來吃嗎？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡab6IgQk4gH
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9iFHrTBtx
「她工作很忙，常常加班到很晚。」媽媽說。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxO0yw6AtZ
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiH1PTsfN7
「姊姊做什麼工作？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeY9fTecSc4
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeRKDxHETo
「一間藥廠的助理，詳細我沒問。」媽媽說：「你姊姊大學讀政治，畢業後失業了半年，我原本想逼她考公務員或研究所，幸好她最後找到了這個工作。雖然常加班，但看在薪水高、給家裡生活費很多的份上，我就懶得說她，畢竟每次跟你姊姊講話，我都會被氣得半死。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGH31exZsz
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWJqUlcRby
媽媽對妳有很多不滿，我知道，因為她的控制慾很強。哪怕妳已經出社會，媽媽還是會管妳的穿著、交友圈、職涯規劃；但妳從不把她的話當回事，導致媽媽對妳很失望，妳們總是在爭吵。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa86ZWj1w0J
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4xlBiyQh2
坦白說，我當時對妳沒太多想法，畢竟我們根本沒說過話。妳都在我起床前出門、睡著後回家，見了面也不知道能聊什麼。這種尷尬的關係維持了三年，一直到高中三年級，我才變成大家所知道的羅笙──那個喜歡妳、喜歡到滲入骨髓的羅笙。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh1dB4SOS1
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJchJjf7IU
先解釋當時的背景吧。我當時的狀況非常差，爸媽不同意我考藝術學院、勸我放棄芭蕾，在學校又因為外表被同學霸凌、被老師性騷擾。那段時間於我而言就像地獄，曾求助卻被反說是自己的問題，光熬過每天的二十四小時都讓我想死，失眠、焦慮、精神不濟等症狀一一出現，身心靈都感到疲憊不堪，覺得自己再也撐不下去。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5ooSEoNgz
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEwI8SkMOu
某個爸媽都去上班的早晨、我應該要去學校的時間，我人卻還坐在餐桌，吃著硬掉的早餐。明明知道會遲到，身體卻怎樣都動不起來，連開始新的一天的勇氣都沒有。正當我思考曠課會有什麼下場時，一個腳步聲從樓梯走下來、嚇了我一跳，我以為家裡只有自己。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8wYvqv8gp
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFv4q0AB5t
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHATj9o2Ur0
「你不用上學嗎？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefoMmhNFQT
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3y5Zgy2Z4
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQgKBivJLj
是妳，妳竟然在家裡。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dDoyR2HDW
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KQbP65Agg
「妳不用上班嗎？」我錯愕問。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFTNR6HsUu
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDZ5EMRH6G
「實驗沒進展，老闆乾脆放我假。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sbvu1Q0tB
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuNT9Gznl8
妳從我旁邊走過、打開冰箱。我以為妳指的是治療疾病的藥物實驗，現在回想，妳那時協助的實驗，應該是水果塔的研發。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9H4SRit7Sl
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPY2CR0jdu
「你不去學校嗎？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ajYIOcw7L
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4xw1bTVob
妳突然問，口氣不是關心，像在亂開話題。但當時的我瀕臨崩潰，竟下意識說了句：「我只想去死。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz9l2un0Vx
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYtzxoCeBQ
「……？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFn6QYCtZA
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oBG62d1QZ
妳把目光從冰箱移到我身上，我這才意識到自己說了什麼。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMU36P4CRP
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV07uoDmPkg
「呃，我的意思是……！」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qTUylgr3b
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXsNXiMuth
「想死的話，我不會阻止你喲。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWVcYxUMRC
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3Hw2GsmNy
妳關上冰箱的門，盯著我吃到一半的麵包。比起我的性命，妳似乎比較在意早餐要吃什麼，這讓我很受傷。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80fWiaLfuc
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrJJYahYRq
「唉，別用那種表情看我，我不是在叫你去死。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5JBxp6sOb
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByFH9OdwMa
看我僵在原地，妳一臉「這小孩真麻煩」的口氣說：「要生要死，你自己決定，怎麼運用生命是你的自由，我不會干涉。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjJuhYU4y1
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2dne1MHch
「可是……」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxALwUu4ryN
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQ2VNlqNCe
「但有個前提：你已經為自己活過一次。如果你的人生跟屍體沒兩樣，死不死根本沒差。從沒活過的人，沒有資格談死。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRn0VG8fk6
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WyfyD2HqE
我什麼話也說不出，當時的衝擊很難形容。我的生活只有家和學校，但同一棟房子裡，卻有個人──妳──在用全然不同的思考方式在生活。我封閉的世界彷彿被敲開一個洞，新的顏色灌進來，是妳的顏色。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPE9g5mVMTH
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBsNQTEKVZ
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhknieNEAt
為什麼妳說得出這種話？912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPKObO8RjK
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvknIQhLJn5
為什麼妳的價值觀和大家這麼不同？912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaCraND7Mk
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptnP9jUpbm
妳都在想什麼？都經歷了什麼？912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI6uyRksgA
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAopMl0omW
面具脫下後，這才是妳的真面目。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6q3YMBy8n
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8jdDsiwlm
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0x5jprUE8Q
「姊姊。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4M3G9kGkh
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmxdr6Z9Wl
我突然問妳：「妳平常是真的加班，還是不想回家？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GD2cnZ44m
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykNcCldhUs
妳沒有回話，只給我一抹迷人的微笑。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZcTMbnq2y
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEwrs0aqzj
「好羨慕。」我說：「很多人都說不想長大，但我想趕快變成大人。小孩子沒有獨立生活的能力，大多時候只能任人宰割，我討厭這樣，所以我很羨慕妳。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWgyDJ7Xcm
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHVlL1UYRY
妳雖然在笑，卻解讀不出喜怒哀樂，也看不出是否認同我的話。妳應該改名叫「白懸」，因為妳就像一部懸疑小說，令人摸不著頭緒。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzpRnQkt6a
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdSVxuA924
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghGMMGd4IH
「笙。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJC10sI6M1Z
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1xMt06zxv
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3o3dVwDQg
三年來，妳第一次叫我的名字。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMBljwOkDB
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBByjtgh3v
「我幫你請假，一起去吃早餐吧。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4RJOlrZXq
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVLL5PF9zF
於是，我們一起出門，那是我人生第一次翹課，感覺出乎預料平淡，是妳讓我心跳加速。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRjpuj5A2R
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZKKcRTtNO
那天我們一直在一起，吃完早餐去逛街，逛完街去看展，看完展去夜市，一路上沒太多話，畢竟（當時的）我們話都不多，但那氣氛非常舒服，我至今都記得我們早餐吃了什麼、展場入口的收票員、射飛鏢贏來的獎品，尤其便利商店的布丁雪糕，那是我此生唯一從妳手裡接過的禮物。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmc1AF5B6Q
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1OCX2dUUH
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv16NPjVD9k
「我一點都不值得羨慕喔。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05216jtiBR
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz41WECwraQ
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBUMGBJxMM
一直到晚上七點，我們從夜市走去車站的路上，妳才回覆我早上的話。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSksKfWcuF
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9ZmYmhB7F
「確實，我擅長與人保持距離，因為我對自由的嚮往超越了任何一份情感。我甚至想追求更多自由，擺脫倫理道德、打破社會框架，當一個徹頭徹尾的瘋子。」妳苦笑，「但我們這類人啊，忠於自由、安於歸宿。嚮往自由並非厭惡束縛，而是對束縛自己的人不滿；一旦出現值得效忠、值得愛的人，被當成寵物也無所謂。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfIhgBLzJA
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YFAIM9WLO
我當時沒發現妳這段話有多恐怖。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIkUfhB50e
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp0qYpFrMf
「我的人生，就是不停地尋找能給我套上項圈的人。假使那個人真的出現，我會變得多瘋狂呢？那份執念又將把我帶去哪呢？我會為了那個人做到什麼地步呢？我整天都在想這些，一點也不高尚，所以我不值得羨慕。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvywSJIIihM
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxUVyCzklF
妳說這些，並不是想得到我的回應，單純為說而說，因為妳很自私，妳的腦中只有自己，連正在聽自己說話的我也不願意顧慮。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7BJEJGZIl
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwhe4gHprT
所以妳永遠不會知道──因為無聊而打的請假電話，拯救了身心靈差點崩潰的我；隨便挑的一間展覽，開啟了我對武士刀的熱愛；衝著第二支半價買的布丁雪糕，從此成了回憶，我一百年後也無法忘記。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty6WGK0H0A
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhOVthf52H
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOrHCBDpiR
「抱歉，現在說這些，你也聽不懂吧？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzLTv9QhUi
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4oCUaI03q
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRx3JNEeGp
確實，我不敢說全部聽懂。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFviFQdwCD
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONnwTgiqWp
但我知道妳很寂寞。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl7UFak2lm
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YJeqfAMfK
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR5r0oF53a
「竟然跟一個高中生說這些，我也是瘋了。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6npxyLOQu
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aMEarrwHp
912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfBdk24jkM
寂寞的妳，兩年後得到能操控距離的水果塔。一夕之間，爸爸媽媽變得不認識妳，親戚朋友叫不出妳的名，高中同學翻開畢業紀念冊，全然想不起妳的事。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrw99ShGFNj
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而妳彷彿重獲新生。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYBPY8d7kq
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「……！？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KtfDb3qsN
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里奧給我看妳的相片，已經是我大學二年級的事了。我記憶中的妳成熟穩重，但相片中，妳只穿一件寬擺帽T，頭髮全部變成粉紅色，看起來比我小。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2ONzTZ3lU
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「她是你姊姊？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j4G5RhguI
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里奧大我兩屆，是商學院的資優生，講話還不是現在這副死德性。特地來藝術學院找我，是為他的摯友瘋帽而來，目的是打聽妳的事。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlfLT87ffq
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「五官確實是她……」我盯著相片，「但是，氣質和我記憶中不一樣。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUGIL2MBtz
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「你們很久沒見了？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL5xSH0JKH
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「嗯，她本來就很少回家，我現在又是外宿。上次見面是兩年前，我高三的時候。」我問：「她發生什麼事了？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ944V6Jt3Rn
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「情況很複雜。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzmQXSjWVY
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里奧用他琉璃色的眼睛凝視我。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRlMdosBiQ
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「你姊姊現在，是某人身邊最麻煩的鬣狗。我們換個地方談。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQx2mUq69O4
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妳想擺脫過往的一切、拉開與所有人的距離，卻沒想過我會主動靠近，所以我很感謝里奧，因為他帶我進入妳的世界──一個荒誕的仙境，成為你們荒誕的一部分。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY7ccJD37m
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「初次見面，我叫紅鶴。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87JeBTqfBb
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追隨妳的腳步，我也重獲新生。和妳一樣的髮色，和妳同個色系的衣著。我用全新的姿態來到妳面前，妳卻看都不看我一眼。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgZ6Se0exP
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「幸會，我是艾莉絲，可以叫我夏悠。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPbWGcWMA3
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給妳套上項圈的人，除了身體塞滿棉花，我找不出任何特色。她是連表情都沒有的人偶、用來滿足自己母親思念的替代品，我不懂妳為什麼選擇她。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9CsGpjDyi
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「我最喜歡小悠了！」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8rGEMjJYU
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明明比較早認識妳的人，是我。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY6PgwEgtj
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「我聽妳的！小悠說什麼我都聽！」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXJ1vV1zfs
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被妳拯救過、最了解妳孤獨的人，是我。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOy5OtdJQ01
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「我只要有小悠就夠了！」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtcvrDsNxJ
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最有資格把妳綁在身邊的人，應該也是我。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYatYp78hb
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我不知道這份執念從何而來，畢竟我和妳沒有太多相處，但我就是好不甘心。我以為我們戴著一樣的面具，後來發現，我們其實活在不同的宇宙；妳的宇宙只有妳，妳孤單一人漂浮在深沉的黑暗，我是唯一前往過那片黑暗的人。我厭煩戴面具的世界，嚮往妳追逐的自由。我想擁抱妳、陪伴妳，我願意和妳一起死在那片黑暗，我願意以弟弟的身分給妳想要的歸宿。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOQVvGlg55
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但那個人──那個被權力腐化的人，非但沒拯救妳，還對妳施加內而外的破壞。她破壞妳的人格、妳的美，妳所有令我著迷的一切。妳是尊貴的獅鷲，卻被連人都稱不上的怪物糟蹋，我怎麼可能嚥得下這口氣？912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wH8TDfygE
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「我愛她。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviJXSscbxz
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我的偏執讓我變得越加恐怖，我開始殺人──最初我們一起看的展覽、那些武士刀，我揮起來竟毫不費力，習慣「剝奪他人生命」所需要的時間，也短暫得令人難以置信。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdp0wMHFSq
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「我多麼希望自己能擁有她。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUaUPVLJ6U
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我創造了新的宇宙，那個宇宙充滿妳，但血紅色的鶴會汙染妳，我不能讓妳蒙受更多汙穢，所以向他託付了妳。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGp0gBuzkOr
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「拜託你了，金允燦。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr96sEVDJyN
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我親愛的姊夫，一個不屬於仙境，卻影響仙境至深的男人。他是艾莉絲與黨對接的窗口，也是唯一沒有水果塔，卻知道我們所有事情的人。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWe1UiG22c
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「可是她……」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3K6UJXED2v
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「我會幫你找到姊姊。」我說：「能救她的人，真的只剩你了。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrmg5EdnXQ
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妳說金允燦是玩具，我一眼就看穿妳的謊言，他在妳心裡的份量與艾莉絲相當。艾莉絲是王、是帝、是絕對的權，她給了妳項圈；金允燦是普通上班族，除了高個子和中分外沒有特色，能給妳的只有沒有特色的生活，但那恰好是妳需要的。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWawhg0oQ4
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“In me the cave-man clasps the seer,”912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8W8xUQzO4
──於我，穴居者攫取了先知。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegIjpkq2O6
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“And garlanded Apollo goes”912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxej8KA9sp
──佩帶花環的阿波羅，912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqLpyavxAu
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“Chanting to Abraham’s deaf ear.”912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02BpTDGT7d
──向亞伯拉罕的聾耳吟唱。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6kkTwTHGH
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姊姊，我親愛的姊姊，妳的人生根本不需要項圈。妳在我眼裡如此耀眼，這樣的妳足以驕傲、足以抬頭。妳必須扯開項圈，妳才是凌駕在艾莉絲之上、那宛若神明的存在。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmc8yTRnDa
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“In me the tiger sniffs the rose.”912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeQrXm9z50
──我心有猛虎，細嗅薔薇。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3nzL1wBAr
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“Look in my heart, kind friends, and tremble,”912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pu4JpuKKx
──審視我的心靈吧，朋友，你應戰慄。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iKycA5m9Y
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“Since there your elements assemble.”912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPaa1yLC7M
──因為那才是你本來的面目。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gKr0vQTZM
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重拾勇氣的妳，殺死了他們一半的人；剩下的苟延殘喘，變成今天的高宇維、神與畜。重創艾莉絲體系後，妳和金允燦創立Platinum，妳終於有了自己的家。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKakda3iIJq
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「你做好覺悟了嗎？」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJBJbgpHyG
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一生都在不幸的妳，和姊夫幸福快樂了一百年，我也不知不覺監視里奧他們如此之久，久到第二代、第三代出現，導致我的名單越來越長，必須殺死的人越來越多。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbdmcm9H5E
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「注射後，蜘蛛糖會埋沒你的理智，你將只剩『快樂』一種情緒。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHHLm7HXwA
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閉館的體育場，笑臉還是那頭墨綠色的頭髮。她平淡告訴我：「除非你的理智戰勝它、搶回主導權。你將和蜘蛛糖合而為一，得到難以想像的力量。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgb6RV5vXTY
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「無所謂，這樣就夠了。」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8YbdEfRT1
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一百年後的二十二世紀，姊夫已經離開，妳平靜快樂的日子畫下句點。妳的目光再次注視艾莉絲體系，暗中阻止悲劇再次發生，因為妳就是這麼溫柔，和當年幫我請假的妳一樣，妳從來沒有變──912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9iNNkEHso
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可是這樣不行啊，我親愛的姊姊。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1yQi6p0bP
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只要水果塔還在，妳就無法置身事外，這樣的妳是沒辦法幸福的。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEbszuGNqU
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「嘻嘻嘻……嘻嘻哈哈哈哈！」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCZ8Y2JKw6
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所以，一切都交給我吧。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIo1KpLX7BV
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「姊姊……姊姊……哈哈！我會把他們全部殺光，感謝我吧！姊姊！」912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVzg9uVDsQ
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我和我體內的蜘蛛，是為了妳的幸福而生的。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdJtNlktz4
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一百年前，妳幫鶴找到活下去的希望。912Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55gE6ZRRQh
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