我看錶,時針七,分針一,天色已黑,是回家的時候了。821Please respect copyright.PENANARuxb5dJjpx
821Please respect copyright.PENANAMeU6hvc1xC
沿著路走,應該右轉的街角,我卻左轉横過馬路。
再走一圈,這圈是最後了,走完這圈便一定要回家,我第十次下定決心。821Please respect copyright.PENANAWnMFpvZVWp
821Please respect copyright.PENANAtp5LtGkUx9
載著半冷外賣的膠袋勒痛我的右手,我加快腳步,希望趕快走完這一圈。家中的女兒一定餓壞了,我比平時晚了整整一個小時,定時飲食對小孩的發育最為重要。821Please respect copyright.PENANARCLqvIwkYS
821Please respect copyright.PENANA6HfiVDniqS
「老兄,你迷路了嗎?」821Please respect copyright.PENANAzr2VNmOI1S
821Please respect copyright.PENANASYme6MJlSZ
我被突如其來的說話嚇了一跳,原來是路邊的報販向我搭話。821Please respect copyright.PENANA1I2q24KQnd
821Please respect copyright.PENANAMmnKFJzBZR
「我見你走了好多圈啊,你要去那裡呢?」821Please respect copyright.PENANAfn6sJuHl8w
821Please respect copyright.PENANARvq97GgDqk
「不,沒事,我想事情想得走神了。」我的視線在報檔游移,於色情雜誌的欄位停下。我隨便抽了一本,把零錢丟下,急步離去。821Please respect copyright.PENANABykdXCOVhZ
821Please respect copyright.PENANAEIVAoLFngc
我走進公共厠所,躲進厠格,將膠袋放在馬桶蓋上。翻開色情雜誌,右手摩擦跨下。可是不論我如何搓揉,跨下都了無生氣。821Please respect copyright.PENANAIbWCmIzCrM
821Please respect copyright.PENANAhHOcl6nb4H
膠袋傾斜,外賣盒掉到地上。我急著把外賣盒拾起,但已經太遲了,外賣倒瀉在不知是尿還是水的液體裡。這家店的菜色是女兒最喜歡的,每次飽飯後露出的滿足表情和她的媽媽一模一樣。821Please respect copyright.PENANA0whKQ6aIoH
821Please respect copyright.PENANAh5FaRPUrRz
如絲絨般柔滑的秀髮,吹彈可破的嫩肌,一雙如寶石的眼睛,她完美遺傳了菲妮美好的一切。簡直就像是她回來陪伴我一樣。821Please respect copyright.PENANAxSkDOIeTVH
821Please respect copyright.PENANA80MvHKmcKO
讓我回過神來的,是跨下的脹痛。我衝出厠格,扭開水龍頭,將冰凍的水潑到臉上。我撐住洗手盤,抬頭凝視倒映中的男人,男人的皮下住著野獸。821Please respect copyright.PENANAZbPMx9WVDJ
821Please respect copyright.PENANA6U8eAHh2uN
終有一天,野獸會失去控制,對她做出無可挽救之事。我已經失去了菲妮,我不能連她也失去,我一定要保護她。可是,這種保護變成了束縛住我們的枷鎖,以後必定會化成刺傷她的利刃。821Please respect copyright.PENANAICNfqyW18v
821Please respect copyright.PENANAOfjuHNB6wV
時間真的不早了,我不能再耗下去,女兒還等著我。我把骯髒的外賣盒扔掉,提著膠袋走出公厠。821Please respect copyright.PENANAveDOSOa7Au
821Please respect copyright.PENANA3hcZ1c7nQ1
在外迎接的是傾盆大雨,我將膠袋的手環打結,低頭往家的方向走。再次面對那分歧路口,我鼓起勇氣……無奈屈服於恐懼,選擇了左轉横過馬路——
消防車在面前呼嘯而過,差一步便要撞到。我連忙後退,返回行人路上,環顧四周,途人都對我的妄撞指指點點。急於離開現場,我轉身便走,幾步後才察覺自己通過那往右的街角了。821Please respect copyright.PENANAwj801xtK8B
821Please respect copyright.PENANApIYqHdSkgC
像齒輪間掉進了一條螺絲,我的腳步猛然停止,恐懼感讓我無法前行。我還未準備好面對女兒,現在還不能。821Please respect copyright.PENANAOIBZBHxDsK
821Please respect copyright.PENANAzPzUiNWV7P
我抬頭看天,混濁的雨雲蓋住城市。
建築物的背後,升起濃煙。胸膛好像被轟了一拳,把我的心臟打飛出體外。我小跑步,顧不了在膠袋中翻騰的菜汁。821Please respect copyright.PENANAmpdSje0Ckg
821Please respect copyright.PENANA5nMweg3bSk
當我停步時,看到公寓在大火中燃燒。路邊停泊著消防車,消防員正在雲梯上射水灌救。周圍聚集著圍觀的市民,還有拉起封鎖線,呼喊群眾後退的警察。821Please respect copyright.PENANArvODXImrcF
821Please respect copyright.PENANAHyCqcpedPs
一隻手搭在我的肩上,我轉頭,是房東。821Please respect copyright.PENANANNkwtwomsV
821Please respect copyright.PENANATE4k7r5a5r
「他在這裡啊!太好了!」手持點名板的房東大喊,「人都點齊了!公寓裡一個人都沒有!」821Please respect copyright.PENANA8SWcVO1EnZ
821Please respect copyright.PENANAIo6yB7uOCF
我掃視周圍,都是其他住客,「慢著!我的女兒還在裡頭!」821Please respect copyright.PENANAXrwpyQ3Zlg
821Please respect copyright.PENANA43pXAwmLuW
「你有女兒?」房東快速翻找點名板。821Please respect copyright.PENANAwWIQyR9NFf
821Please respect copyright.PENANAdtjc6ftKSs
「還有人在火場裡嗎?」旁邊的消防員插話,「她叫甚麼名字?」821Please respect copyright.PENANAgqsg8zYPSe
821Please respect copyright.PENANASgV8m7WlgU
無言以對的我呆看著二人,喉嚨如沙漠般乾燥。821Please respect copyright.PENANAyzzfEmRckQ
821Please respect copyright.PENANAyesa8dv8QY
二樓一個單位發生爆炸,火舌破窗而出,玻璃碎片灑向人群。人們慌忙四散走避,我把膠袋抛下,擠開人群奔進火場。821Please respect copyright.PENANAsZYYskW4WX
821Please respect copyright.PENANA176Q7e2laB
我二階當一階的跑上樓梯,燥熱的空氣把身上的雨水蒸乾,我拉起衣服掩住口鼻以免吸入濃煙。821Please respect copyright.PENANAGaKazpUYiE
821Please respect copyright.PENANAA0OrxNWZfg
我走到住所前,穿過只剩門框的玄關,屋内的一切都在燃燒。我直奔睡房,幸好火種未有漫延致此,可是濃煙已經填滿房間。我的女兒昏迷在床上。821Please respect copyright.PENANAskWST5Awba
821Please respect copyright.PENANAHDnUgyCxA9
我把濕潤的上衣脫下,套到她身上。我抱起嬌小柔弱的身體,跑出玄關。
鄰近的單位再次發生爆炸,整幢建築都在搖晃,焦熱的濃煙撲臉而來,迫我退回室內。眼睛被煙薰得只能睜開一線,熱氣灌入肺部,鼻腔又乾又熱,高温仿佛要把我的喉嚨烤熟。821Please respect copyright.PENANAeOxjo9qJvp
821Please respect copyright.PENANAtKF7UVNnl9
我緊緊抱住女兒,看著和菲妮一模一樣的臉龐,痛苦的皺眉。821Please respect copyright.PENANACSWgqreUU8
821Please respect copyright.PENANA2KId0lGI1z
腦海中閃現那個我一直想遺忘的場景:821Please respect copyright.PENANAwS6nudgzgE
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和今天一樣的雨夜,灼熱的車禍現場。菲妮下身被夾在車内,她把女兒推給我,獨自被火焰吞噬。821Please respect copyright.PENANATeYIgO9pLg
821Please respect copyright.PENANAaZF7QZcpKe
我又要再一次,無能為力地看著這張臉死去。821Please respect copyright.PENANAJJvS34GCWp
821Please respect copyright.PENANAk5esS3LzSy
有人走了進來,只剩一條細線的視界,看到一名消防員。他把防火毯蓋到我的頭上,抓住胳膊將我扶起,他的動作很遲鈍,像右臂負傷而行動不便。821Please respect copyright.PENANAkL6azg0sCm
821Please respect copyright.PENANAdLMv8m6aWz
消防員拖著我們走出房子。我想要看清他的臉,他刻意把防火毯壓住不讓我看見他。821Please respect copyright.PENANAL92Cg4a6cY
821Please respect copyright.PENANAqUZ4RfO06i
「你的女兒叫甚麼名字?」他說。821Please respect copyright.PENANAE49XSIF6z7
821Please respect copyright.PENANAmSj2YnfelI
沉默,我的腦袋空白一片,不懂回答。821Please respect copyright.PENANASi8vr0JKK9
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「她需要一個名字。」821Please respect copyright.PENANAQsWUpiSGD6
821Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZWKKcEYha
濕潤的冷空氣衝入鼻腔,防火毯從我身上滑脫,不知何時我們已逃出火場回到樓下,身邊的那位消防員卻消失無蹤。821Please respect copyright.PENANALxBCOvLbiy
821Please respect copyright.PENANAt5jZciLGYV
幾個消防員跑來,推著把我們趕出封鎖線。下一刻,大批救護員將我們包圍,他們試圖把女兒從我懷中搶走,我抵抗了數秒,被幾個救護員拉住,才鬆手讓他們帶我的女兒去接受治理。821Please respect copyright.PENANARjddeZ1weQ
821Please respect copyright.PENANAxwbyAjyZLy
鎖頭解開了,我頓時感到雙腳無力,跪倒在地上,包圍我的人像蓮綺般散開。821Please respect copyright.PENANAoZShX9hNCN
821Please respect copyright.PENANAFy2U70DZMD
「我有罪!」821Please respect copyright.PENANANXI5P9raH4
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我把雙臂合攏,渴求一對手銬將我鎖上。821Please respect copyright.PENANAMgfLZ8j1Uq
821Please respect copyright.PENANAvKdVEaiCBf
「我囚禁自己的女兒!我本來想保護她!但我現在卻親手傷害了她!我想要被制裁!」821Please respect copyright.PENANAORZ1RMtk0P
821Please respect copyright.PENANAHzL25qFq7L
雨漸停,雲消散,我,仰望星辰。821Please respect copyright.PENANAAHJprY9DGD