我看錶,時針七,分針一,天色已黑,是回家的時候了。533Please respect copyright.PENANAOfsaig2BDN
533Please respect copyright.PENANAQIfv9lk8wq
沿著路走,應該右轉的街角,我卻左轉横過馬路。
再走一圈,這圈是最後了,走完這圈便一定要回家,我第十次下定決心。533Please respect copyright.PENANAr02T3mWBQH
533Please respect copyright.PENANAtE2ufKXO1W
載著半冷外賣的膠袋勒痛我的右手,我加快腳步,希望趕快走完這一圈。家中的女兒一定餓壞了,我比平時晚了整整一個小時,定時飲食對小孩的發育最為重要。533Please respect copyright.PENANAiCfdIFP9L7
533Please respect copyright.PENANAdoZC3zOPPf
「老兄,你迷路了嗎?」533Please respect copyright.PENANAYOcjogS8yQ
533Please respect copyright.PENANAKpVEFXBlE5
我被突如其來的說話嚇了一跳,原來是路邊的報販向我搭話。533Please respect copyright.PENANAn6xy1N9pvh
533Please respect copyright.PENANA8JFbn1iBKw
「我見你走了好多圈啊,你要去那裡呢?」533Please respect copyright.PENANANN3MAmpaPP
533Please respect copyright.PENANA9MYEeK3kBR
「不,沒事,我想事情想得走神了。」我的視線在報檔游移,於色情雜誌的欄位停下。我隨便抽了一本,把零錢丟下,急步離去。533Please respect copyright.PENANAyo22T50AI3
533Please respect copyright.PENANAcY3uFcWZ7t
我走進公共厠所,躲進厠格,將膠袋放在馬桶蓋上。翻開色情雜誌,右手摩擦跨下。可是不論我如何搓揉,跨下都了無生氣。533Please respect copyright.PENANAHmSkCGZqDO
533Please respect copyright.PENANA8oklLofpK2
膠袋傾斜,外賣盒掉到地上。我急著把外賣盒拾起,但已經太遲了,外賣倒瀉在不知是尿還是水的液體裡。這家店的菜色是女兒最喜歡的,每次飽飯後露出的滿足表情和她的媽媽一模一樣。533Please respect copyright.PENANAQUAPAivpbl
533Please respect copyright.PENANAOdj72GufpB
如絲絨般柔滑的秀髮,吹彈可破的嫩肌,一雙如寶石的眼睛,她完美遺傳了菲妮美好的一切。簡直就像是她回來陪伴我一樣。533Please respect copyright.PENANAc2QyYcrVR4
533Please respect copyright.PENANAqV5F2LkgOe
讓我回過神來的,是跨下的脹痛。我衝出厠格,扭開水龍頭,將冰凍的水潑到臉上。我撐住洗手盤,抬頭凝視倒映中的男人,男人的皮下住著野獸。533Please respect copyright.PENANATjIPj3WkBN
533Please respect copyright.PENANAyR01jCrENA
終有一天,野獸會失去控制,對她做出無可挽救之事。我已經失去了菲妮,我不能連她也失去,我一定要保護她。可是,這種保護變成了束縛住我們的枷鎖,以後必定會化成刺傷她的利刃。533Please respect copyright.PENANAfq8gUilU8C
533Please respect copyright.PENANAYl4mJiIrl2
時間真的不早了,我不能再耗下去,女兒還等著我。我把骯髒的外賣盒扔掉,提著膠袋走出公厠。533Please respect copyright.PENANAtUYdH8Il5u
533Please respect copyright.PENANAm3tXz2iBb8
在外迎接的是傾盆大雨,我將膠袋的手環打結,低頭往家的方向走。再次面對那分歧路口,我鼓起勇氣……無奈屈服於恐懼,選擇了左轉横過馬路——
消防車在面前呼嘯而過,差一步便要撞到。我連忙後退,返回行人路上,環顧四周,途人都對我的妄撞指指點點。急於離開現場,我轉身便走,幾步後才察覺自己通過那往右的街角了。533Please respect copyright.PENANAO4NS6diW3I
533Please respect copyright.PENANAJZzsVrAEAV
像齒輪間掉進了一條螺絲,我的腳步猛然停止,恐懼感讓我無法前行。我還未準備好面對女兒,現在還不能。533Please respect copyright.PENANAPNJmzATHXb
533Please respect copyright.PENANAskfAgALSBI
我抬頭看天,混濁的雨雲蓋住城市。
建築物的背後,升起濃煙。胸膛好像被轟了一拳,把我的心臟打飛出體外。我小跑步,顧不了在膠袋中翻騰的菜汁。533Please respect copyright.PENANAFQsYr4Q5JL
533Please respect copyright.PENANAzErgOBxjo6
當我停步時,看到公寓在大火中燃燒。路邊停泊著消防車,消防員正在雲梯上射水灌救。周圍聚集著圍觀的市民,還有拉起封鎖線,呼喊群眾後退的警察。533Please respect copyright.PENANA4xZPURQbUy
533Please respect copyright.PENANAEOkppxQQhr
一隻手搭在我的肩上,我轉頭,是房東。533Please respect copyright.PENANABQKSqjYoBM
533Please respect copyright.PENANAfmO0hB2Qpq
「他在這裡啊!太好了!」手持點名板的房東大喊,「人都點齊了!公寓裡一個人都沒有!」533Please respect copyright.PENANAMU5ZYlUYka
533Please respect copyright.PENANAdyiGyG7lRi
我掃視周圍,都是其他住客,「慢著!我的女兒還在裡頭!」533Please respect copyright.PENANASAReflOKu6
533Please respect copyright.PENANAS57WDOlqn3
「你有女兒?」房東快速翻找點名板。533Please respect copyright.PENANAbIYF2wWq6Y
533Please respect copyright.PENANAWzegzBQ9rA
「還有人在火場裡嗎?」旁邊的消防員插話,「她叫甚麼名字?」533Please respect copyright.PENANA1uDpMhh5tq
533Please respect copyright.PENANAu5oBZ9VrMk
無言以對的我呆看著二人,喉嚨如沙漠般乾燥。533Please respect copyright.PENANARhQDz8IljY
533Please respect copyright.PENANALm5lVCSuQ5
二樓一個單位發生爆炸,火舌破窗而出,玻璃碎片灑向人群。人們慌忙四散走避,我把膠袋抛下,擠開人群奔進火場。533Please respect copyright.PENANAHtPkiEPuYs
533Please respect copyright.PENANA2FJLcnfCpt
我二階當一階的跑上樓梯,燥熱的空氣把身上的雨水蒸乾,我拉起衣服掩住口鼻以免吸入濃煙。533Please respect copyright.PENANAJKlQHBcjvM
533Please respect copyright.PENANA4mToHCf5ly
我走到住所前,穿過只剩門框的玄關,屋内的一切都在燃燒。我直奔睡房,幸好火種未有漫延致此,可是濃煙已經填滿房間。我的女兒昏迷在床上。533Please respect copyright.PENANA6vfrmdPHLU
533Please respect copyright.PENANA1Vi8qfUeOa
我把濕潤的上衣脫下,套到她身上。我抱起嬌小柔弱的身體,跑出玄關。
鄰近的單位再次發生爆炸,整幢建築都在搖晃,焦熱的濃煙撲臉而來,迫我退回室內。眼睛被煙薰得只能睜開一線,熱氣灌入肺部,鼻腔又乾又熱,高温仿佛要把我的喉嚨烤熟。533Please respect copyright.PENANANbXGuCvqrO
533Please respect copyright.PENANA65Zkr48guH
我緊緊抱住女兒,看著和菲妮一模一樣的臉龐,痛苦的皺眉。533Please respect copyright.PENANAgSPbeiBBKD
533Please respect copyright.PENANA8WId4CceqH
腦海中閃現那個我一直想遺忘的場景:533Please respect copyright.PENANA0lqd3NgvLs
533Please respect copyright.PENANAJxLHrHqCIi
和今天一樣的雨夜,灼熱的車禍現場。菲妮下身被夾在車内,她把女兒推給我,獨自被火焰吞噬。533Please respect copyright.PENANAQh7t1PLKVD
533Please respect copyright.PENANAl8GAtyrHAc
我又要再一次,無能為力地看著這張臉死去。533Please respect copyright.PENANAl9c3NqizlW
533Please respect copyright.PENANAVmK8xpesdr
有人走了進來,只剩一條細線的視界,看到一名消防員。他把防火毯蓋到我的頭上,抓住胳膊將我扶起,他的動作很遲鈍,像右臂負傷而行動不便。533Please respect copyright.PENANA6WpVGDp9Cf
533Please respect copyright.PENANAM01sBOTsw4
消防員拖著我們走出房子。我想要看清他的臉,他刻意把防火毯壓住不讓我看見他。533Please respect copyright.PENANAMnjKECRSJa
533Please respect copyright.PENANAILfSsTXNQX
「你的女兒叫甚麼名字?」他說。533Please respect copyright.PENANAPXDWNpt0XO
533Please respect copyright.PENANAtH3uLBXj6p
沉默,我的腦袋空白一片,不懂回答。533Please respect copyright.PENANAxEim0qJaGG
533Please respect copyright.PENANAXznzZyBoWh
「她需要一個名字。」533Please respect copyright.PENANAW0eWTFk2Ge
533Please respect copyright.PENANAms91m5pukg
濕潤的冷空氣衝入鼻腔,防火毯從我身上滑脫,不知何時我們已逃出火場回到樓下,身邊的那位消防員卻消失無蹤。533Please respect copyright.PENANAz3dNXbpF7W
533Please respect copyright.PENANAN8pGwm5sKM
幾個消防員跑來,推著把我們趕出封鎖線。下一刻,大批救護員將我們包圍,他們試圖把女兒從我懷中搶走,我抵抗了數秒,被幾個救護員拉住,才鬆手讓他們帶我的女兒去接受治理。533Please respect copyright.PENANAN3kTv56RW4
533Please respect copyright.PENANAKX46qoN0ri
鎖頭解開了,我頓時感到雙腳無力,跪倒在地上,包圍我的人像蓮綺般散開。533Please respect copyright.PENANA2lyNdfQEeG
533Please respect copyright.PENANAZ47iqHjxDa
「我有罪!」533Please respect copyright.PENANAaC22xSr4Dx
533Please respect copyright.PENANA7q8vYee52T
我把雙臂合攏,渴求一對手銬將我鎖上。533Please respect copyright.PENANAP7eeI6ilvt
533Please respect copyright.PENANAdZPnWjtXkY
「我囚禁自己的女兒!我本來想保護她!但我現在卻親手傷害了她!我想要被制裁!」533Please respect copyright.PENANAL0LyJxkbi5
533Please respect copyright.PENANAMzFyAxmvHF
雨漸停,雲消散,我,仰望星辰。533Please respect copyright.PENANACX7m9nZOw5