我……想死。
喔等等等,不知道我用這麼一個……以正常社會眼光來說有點聳動的標題,是不是會讓你有著「這個人發生了什麼?」、「要不要關心他一下?」、「來看個熱鬧吧! 」等等的想法?285Please respect copyright.PENANADSfxL6zI6b
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為此我得解釋一下……嗯,我真的想死,死透的死。285Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0eZ0g6kLM
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等等等,放下你手邊任何,不管是電話還是什麼可以通知那些好比生命專線的東西,如果你真的做了我在想你可能做的那件事,也許我會真的去死。285Please respect copyright.PENANAc2FhtvoACQ
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這樣的話結果就不同……不,從最根本的本質來說就不再美好。會變成我不是自殺,是他殺,是做出這件事的某人,可能是你是他是她,這樣的話對任何人的心理都不好。285Please respect copyright.PENANA6kOwXxbtfE
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所以別做傻事,OK?285Please respect copyright.PENANAVfrWXaJs4D
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好,好,冷靜一點了吧,那現在開始我想問一些問題,希望你可以幫我想想。285Please respect copyright.PENANAvEG2hQavLe
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寶貝,為什麼"死亡"這麼另人感到恐懼呢?285Please respect copyright.PENANA6KAWOTVSXO
這樣問好了,對於死,你怕的是什麼?285Please respect copyright.PENANAegGY8AanAP
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是怕死的時候會痛?是害怕失去現在擁有的?還是怕……我想不到了,到底怕什麼?285Please respect copyright.PENANA5H3YXNwiuM
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我得說,我怕痛,而且是非常怕,不得不說這是我在我的自殺小計劃本本中最大的"不該死"理由。這也許是全世界唯一個可以讓怕痛成為優點、讓"該死"可以成為正面詞語的事情。285Please respect copyright.PENANAJJYrlkQzXM
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好,這一點我同意了。285Please respect copyright.PENANAm7jDEi9NXZ
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那失去呢?說實話我曾經拿起我的筆,在書桌前非常認真的在想我擁有什麼。那是在七歲的時候吧,剛被媽媽罵完很生氣的坐在那想。285Please respect copyright.PENANAPlTB7fqQlX
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最後我寫下了火焰獸,我最愛的玩具。285Please respect copyright.PENANAnDI5lZhCHp
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但現在想想,我如果不是坐在這兒想些五四三,我好像快十年沒把它拿起來玩了。就好像我在十八歲時為了和女友分手哭的死去活來,現在還不他媽活的好好的,只有偶爾會想起那段回憶揪心。285Please respect copyright.PENANAHDFu25DteK
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所以人果然是……用我來概括全人類可能太自視甚高。所以我,我果然是善變的,對於人事物,那我死後就不善變嗎?285Please respect copyright.PENANAH2EoTKEM6n
不知道,畢竟我沒死過,但我覺得沒意外的話我死後個十來年,沒人會記得我,我也不會想任何人。285Please respect copyright.PENANArXhZs5xz5j
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失去不成立。所以……好像我們只是在怕一個"未知"。285Please respect copyright.PENANA7Y2H9BNxpc
不知道我往這邊走會到哪邊、做這件事會怎麼樣,就好像突然叫我去日本,我會不知所措因為不會日文,但真的要我活下去好像又不是件難事。285Please respect copyright.PENANAtzAFwAfHa5
小時候也會對很多地方充滿恐懼,長大的現在只會覺得,小朋友真奇怪。285Please respect copyright.PENANAeJDe3kh83l
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或許死了就會想,人呀,真的很奇怪。285Please respect copyright.PENANAcNoLuaIz5s
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不過拿這例子來想就有點頭緒了,因為人的想像力實在強大,明明就不會怎麼樣,但就是覺得會怎麼樣,搞到最後都不知道是怎麼樣了……,事後覺得,嗯,真不怎樣。285Please respect copyright.PENANAAIPizxjKQK
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所以講了這麼多,可不可以對我抱持"想死"這件事稍微覺得不是那麼怎樣了呢?285Please respect copyright.PENANAXyQiBGWLfx
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如果是,我還有問題想問。285Please respect copyright.PENANAldliOeLnVO
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什麼樣的人會想死呢?285Please respect copyright.PENANACMaft2SFg0
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悲傷的時候?生氣的時候?還是絕望的時候?285Please respect copyright.PENANAeClwv7UtSs
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都會吧我想,但我覺得嘛……應該是任何時候吧。285Please respect copyright.PENANAqsvEJ8p8g7
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就像我現在,我很開心,因為我參與了一場很棒的秀,那個感動,哇,難以用言語形容。285Please respect copyright.PENANAX1YRL2Uvhq
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所以我想死呀,因為如果現在掛了,我就是為人生的最後,畫上了完美的句點。雖然過程可能不盡人意……?285Please respect copyright.PENANAWmFVyzPB4b
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「剛吃飽覺得滿足了,所以覺得就算現在來一顆隕石我把砸爆,食物還沒消化就從我受到擠壓的肚子中傾瀉而出,美呀!」的情景也是有過的。285Please respect copyright.PENANAquBSqJ0XEd
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很多人會問,為什麼要去死?對此我想反過來問,為何不去死?285Please respect copyright.PENANAK1hfkx2stE
有什麼理由讓人苟延殘喘下去呢?285Please respect copyright.PENANAI4HNPC3Uhj
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有,而且很重要,可能…很重要吧。285Please respect copyright.PENANAZSDTvIrTiw
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就是冰箱裡還有一塊小蛋糕,巧克力的,我明天還想把他吃完。285Please respect copyright.PENANA56f22iWI3Z
昨天看了一部動畫,下星期結局,再活一個星期好了。285Please respect copyright.PENANAibQhfxO1sk
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運氣不錯,每天都有想做的事,所以……明天還有事,後天再死好了?
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