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我得了一種病。一種讓人健忘的病。340Please respect copyright.PENANAoWuDlVW7De
它潛伏在我的腦袋裡,在我不注意時,偷偷的啃蝕著。340Please respect copyright.PENANADSCC7i8a2L
——漸漸,變得殘破不全。340Please respect copyright.PENANAd53jIa3lhh
奇怪的是,當我意識到時,我不知道自己該感到難過還是開心。340Please respect copyright.PENANAekak54WV5M
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「來,一共是一百四十元。」早餐店的阿姨把熱騰騰的早餐遞給我。340Please respect copyright.PENANAffD3j3pkwX
一聽到這個數目,原本在掏錢的我困惑的抬起頭,「一百四?」340Please respect copyright.PENANAFCBamBKGtk
「是啊。兩個三明治加上紅茶和果汁。」阿姨說。340Please respect copyright.PENANAYQ7Cv9EhWU
「⋯⋯喔,對,沒事。」我微笑著把錢付清,「是我搞錯了。」340Please respect copyright.PENANAKAsJdybRrW
「妳今年是大二對吧?時間過的真快⋯⋯想當初妳還只是個小小孩呢。」阿姨感嘆。340Please respect copyright.PENANAZ4TbNsrUKX
「是啊。」我同意道,並瞥了一眼時鐘。「啊,我要去搭公車了。」340Please respect copyright.PENANAOedNVi1WgZ
「喔,好。那拜拜囉。」340Please respect copyright.PENANAVvCIaNxL9y
我與早餐店的阿姨道別後,便一路用跑的跑到公車站。差一點就沒趕上了。340Please respect copyright.PENANAHf5HlOZRpF
呼。我重重吐出一口氣以緩和呼吸。340Please respect copyright.PENANALo8nJoChiW
打開塑膠袋,我看著不小心多出一份的早餐。340Please respect copyright.PENANAfzsnkTL0l3
唉,又忘了啊。340Please respect copyright.PENANAj49py0xPf9
明明只要買一份就夠了⋯⋯340Please respect copyright.PENANAU0A22t0c3h
「早啊。」這時,我頭頂上冒出一個聲音。340Please respect copyright.PENANAkKQMRQdEF5
我抬頭,並認出她是時常會坐在我前面的那位同學,「早安。」340Please respect copyright.PENANAKEi6fiafcC
說完這句之後,我們就陷入了沈默。雖然每天都會見到,但我們其實沒有很熟,最多也就是例行的問候而已。340Please respect copyright.PENANAtu7cMVbc67
我看著她,突然冷不防的問了一句,「妳吃早餐了嗎?」340Please respect copyright.PENANANslM1VlDJf
她似乎很驚訝我會向她搭話。「還沒。」340Please respect copyright.PENANAHDIOXNxJPw
「那,」我遞出多的那份早餐,「妳要嗎?這是我不小心多買的。」340Please respect copyright.PENANAbBhPnGj7S7
「噢,好、好啊⋯⋯」她遲疑接下,「呃⋯⋯謝謝?」340Please respect copyright.PENANAG9eex27PUb
我笑了一下。340Please respect copyright.PENANAtwhLibjmO3
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到了教室,我坐到以前坐的位子上,下一秒,我才想起我現在的位子不是這裡。我想換到別的地方,但因爲這樣會顯得很奇怪,所以只好待在原位。340Please respect copyright.PENANAG8Se5b15Nb
啊,果然是生病了呢。340Please respect copyright.PENANA1VoHjywio5
明明很久以前就不再坐這個位子了。340Please respect copyright.PENANAtbhRLekUxl
我瞄了一眼身旁的空位,卻彷彿被什麼扎到似的迅速撇開眼睛。340Please respect copyright.PENANAai0rDmAna0
就在此時,我看到了那位同學坐到了我前面。她看看我,又望向其他地方,似乎欲言又止的。
「雖然⋯⋯我這樣問很奇怪,但妳⋯⋯沒事吧?」340Please respect copyright.PENANARetbpU9Qi3
我擺出不解的樣子反問:「我沒事啊,為什麼這樣問?」340Please respect copyright.PENANAhKiDo7XTZK
「不⋯⋯只是覺得妳不太好,自從——」340Please respect copyright.PENANA0kZgu29BuK
她打住,因為我正不發一語的看著她。340Please respect copyright.PENANAthtYXDrYLm
「——不,沒事。只是建議妳多睡一點,妳氣色似乎不太好⋯⋯還有要幫忙的話,可以找我。」她舉起塑膠袋,「就當今天早餐的謝禮。」340Please respect copyright.PENANA88CYNMTPse
我對她笑了一下。「好啊,謝謝。」340Please respect copyright.PENANA9XVaQpDSOt
「那⋯⋯就這樣。」她默默的轉回去。340Please respect copyright.PENANAnVxFajSX70
等她不再看我後,我的笑容垮了下去。我在心中默默感謝她的關心,但我不想去想她那個「自從」之後要接什麼。340Please respect copyright.PENANAAg2OFda84Q
我閉上眼,想試著把旁邊空位的景象記下,但不管再怎麼努力,腦海中,那裡總會坐著一個熟悉的身影。340Please respect copyright.PENANAjfcluJ5YoK
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看著那個空位,彷彿有什麼東西擾動著我的每個細胞,我頓時覺得每多待在這一秒就要停止呼吸。令人⋯⋯喘不過氣。340Please respect copyright.PENANA4OoYAzhopC
我猛然站起身,抓著自己的東西走出教室。我越走越快,到最後變成了狂奔。我大口大口的喘著氣,像是在逃離什麼似的沒命的跑。不知過了多久,痠痛的全身使我逼自己停下。340Please respect copyright.PENANAHYpUE6YBfI
下意識的,我跑到一個小池塘邊,幾朵睡蓮輕輕托於水面,幾綹風絲吹起了漣漪。每次來到這裡,我總能找回平靜。340Please respect copyright.PENANAM84L9RW8Mv
但,那也是因為有他在。340Please respect copyright.PENANAoiiigMWgOQ
哈。我甚至忘記來這裡已經沒有意義了。340Please respect copyright.PENANAP970MTfZsB
我一屁股坐到地上。而在我的腳旁邊,有一張紙從我包包裡滑落。我撿起它,發現這其實是照片時,便馬上就後悔撿它了。我重新回想起那些事物。340Please respect copyright.PENANASunCHJEmMv
鮮花。黑色衣服。照片——那是我人生中第一次的告別式。340Please respect copyright.PENANAMM6SFGNvXO
突然間,我想起剛剛那位同學。我想她想說的應該是:自從他不再坐這個位子時。340Please respect copyright.PENANAJMnkusy0HQ
我望向手中,想不透我的包包裡為什麼還會有他的照片。340Please respect copyright.PENANAgj9mMkttR4
明明都收起來了⋯⋯我連自己還漏了一張都忘了嗎?340Please respect copyright.PENANAR84fIsEu0Z
「⋯⋯真是健忘。」我輕聲說,看著水中倒映著的自己,期待身後會出現熟稔的臉龐,但不管等了多久,始終只有我一個人的倒影。340Please respect copyright.PENANAEKNbLvWtkM
我賭氣似的用手劃開水面,漣漪使倒影變得無法看清。340Please respect copyright.PENANAw3SDJ6lsi4
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有時候,我覺得他仍會出現在下一個轉彎處。340Please respect copyright.PENANAWG9LCDwQ3N
有時候,我會忘了他已經不在我身邊。340Please respect copyright.PENANAV4QCsxDmuk
有時候,我在想我自己到底是怎麼了。340Please respect copyright.PENANARxpDw7tSSu
我開始感到害怕、擔心——我發現自己得了一種病。一種讓人健忘的病。340Please respect copyright.PENANA7maSCts7yY
它使我仍舊惦念著過去的美好時光,如同正做著美夢一般;也使我對他留下的空缺感到不知所措,像個找不到拼圖的孩子,明知擺放的位置在哪,卻始終無法找到最後一片。
我不知道自己該為此感到難過還是開心——腦袋已經是千瘡百孔,我沒辦法釐清思緒。340Please respect copyright.PENANA90IcFRVkWR
不過,我卻清楚知道一件事。我得了一種病,一種讓人忘卻的病。340Please respect copyright.PENANAY15NIKaoVg
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而現在,這個病使我忘了如何遺忘。340Please respect copyright.PENANAc1AUNq3sEr
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