After that day, the days just keep getting harder and harder. First, it started with my new asshole stepfather abusing my mom. That, or my mom getting drunk and going on constant tantrums. She would usually just go to the bar and stay there for the entire day. She's not stupid enough to get laid by random men.
Well, at least I hope she isn't.
I tell off my asshole stepfather every day, but in the end. My mother stands by his side. All he ever does is go to work, flirt with random girls, and brings them to our house. My mom is usually out when he does shit like that. It is truly a disgusting thing. No matter what I do I can't fight him, I am stuck to this goddamn wheelchair.
The work just kept piling up at school as well.
I never have any free time because I am the only one taking care of this goddamn house. Can you imagine being in a wheelchair and having to go to school? Then, come home and work in a shop or shop because your guardian can't? It's stressful isn't it? I hate this. My dad didn't ask to be killed, and yet he was. My mom never asked to be a drunk, because she always hated alcohol. But guess what? She eventually became a drinker.
I sure as hell didn't ask for a fucking stepdad. A stepdad that acts like he is on a girl's period every single day. But guess what? I have one now! Fuck the world and its problems. I wanted to help my mother, but it seems like my asshole father keeps getting in the way of that to huh? Fucking prick. Okay, I know I need to calm down but I just can't! Maybe I can get more information of how to get rid of him. By going to the other world.
Before I can continue to write in my journal. I hear loud banging on my door, I bet it was my stepfather.
"Raiden! Open the door!"
Sighing upon hearing the husky deep voice I close my dark greenish brown journal and turned my wheelchair around, I used both of my hands to position the wheels. It was hard at first, but I soon became accustomed to being in a wheelchair. I know that three weeks have already passed but, there was a reason why I was still stuck in this stupid wheelchair.
I wheeled myself over to my egg shell white door. I outstretched my arm so that my hands can touch the lavender doorknob. It felt cold. I guess that's how they are supposed to feel right?
"Cold and distant huh?"
Mumbling out my thoughts. The door rumbles out even louder, I snap out of my thoughts and turn the lock slowly. That's when I am forcefully pushed out of my wheelchair.
"What took you so long to open the damn door, brat?"
My stepfather says coldly as he slams his foot down on my spine.
"AHH!" Yelling out in pain wasn't rare when I was near a guy like him.
He was wearing his special steel toe shoes. He usually only wears them when he goes to a factory for his construction job. That, and when he is really in the mood to bring me pain and suffering. I always try to fight him back, but I always fail in the end.
Hell, I even tried calling the police. But no matter how many times I called them, they just won't arrest him. My mother even scolds me when she finds out. She lies to their face and tell them that everything is okay and I am just on my 'usual tantrums'. Then my retarded stepfather woo's them over as well. He is actually rich enough to bribe the police officers into committing their undying loyalty and trust to him.
Rich bastard.
'I never really get time to myself any longer. Day and night it's the same old thing. This rich bastard always has his way with me. Sexual harassment is what he does. I want to kill him, but I know I can't'.
My desolate thoughts are broken up when I feel another power kick land on my spine.
"Ah!" I scream out once more.
I attempt to seal away my pained screams by biting down on my bottom lip hard. He doesn't seem satisfied with my actions because he brings his steel toe shoes even further down, until it starts to crush my spine.
"Aw, are you trying to act tough shit face? Do you actually think that it would do you any good considering that your dumbass can't even walk?"
His taunting voice angered me.
I tried to pick myself up off the lint infested tan ground. But he pushed me back down.
"Do you really think that you can go against what I say raiden?" The tone of his voice was lowered and cold.
I brought my head up and glared at him. "Fuck off, you rich bastard"
He looked even more vicious than he did before.
"Who do you think you are?"
He stomps down on my stomach eighteen times. Then he pulls me up by my hair.
"You forget raiden, you belong to me" he hissed out as a smirk forms on his lips.
My breathing is jagged. One of my eyes were shut tightly due to my asshole stepfather punching me fifteen times in the face yesterday. He is just a nuisance, I hate him whenever he would do shit like this. All my mother does in response is drink alcohol.
"Go, to hell, you evil bastard. My mother is still too good for a man like you".
I spat my words at him in disgust.
He scoffs in response. "Do you really think that drunk bitch is still good? You must be delusional."
Before I could say something back to him, he punches me in the stomach and throws me to my egg shell white wall. My whole body is aching. But I still hold my stomach from the after pain. I never know what my mother saw in such an abusive man such as himself. It's disgusting and I want to get rid of him.
"Heh, I'm glad you're in pain. Learn when to respect me more and I might just think about hurting your internal organs less"
He was mocking the state I am in again.
He slams the door shut as I hear his heavy footsteps become distant. Trying to get up was very difficult. My body hurt like hell, I couldn't feel anything after a few hours of laying on the floor. I was glad that we didn't have school today. There were more reports of missing people, it was much faster than before. Every few minutes a person goes missing, people think that there is a serial killer on the loose.
"Heh, if that was really true. Why haven't they killed Charles yet?"
I mumble out as I grab on to my mattress of my bed.
I flinch in pain, the bastard got me good this time. When I am finally able to get on top of my bed, I fall down on the mattress. It feels comforting to lay on my sealy posturepedic silver plush king mattress. It would always cause me to be unbearably tired.
Looking up at the ceiling, I heave in a sigh. It even hurt to breath.
"Hopefully, they might have the answer to this problem. If not, well. I don't really care since I feel less pain when I am there".
I whisper to myself as start to drift off to slumber.
It was the same as all the other times I did it. It felt like I was being carried somewhere else, it was a nice feeling. I slowly opened my eyelids. I felt myself falling, there was wind swiping against my skin. It felt rough, I think that I was falling from the sky. Strange. This never happened once before, I know that I should be worried, but I have been through much worse than this. Plus, I want to know what it feels like to die.
"Even if it really is a dream" whispering silently, I turn around and brace for impact.
It was the only other thing that would satisfy my suicidal thoughts once and for all. I was sick and tired of my mother, I was already sick of my stepfather the first time I laid my eyes on his hideous face. No one would care if I would have disappeared anyway. I bet my mother would be the one to make up an excuse to why I have sudden died or vanished out of thin air. I wasn't sure why, but the very thought of that made me feel depressed.
I even felt cold tears run out of my eye sockets as I was falling down. Seeing water above me was what confirmed their very existence. I hate crying. No matter what I do, I end up looking like an emotional sensitive girl. I just can't win anymore can I? I didn't think that things would turn out like this. I think that I am running away from the pain, but right now I just don't give a crap.
I hit something hard.
I was surprised that none of the idiots tried to stop me this time. I was sure their 'leader' would have told them to not kill myself. I'm glad that they finally learned when to leave me alone and mind their own business. Not everyone in the world is worth saving. But how am I still thinking? Shouldn't I be choking up some blood or something like that? Wait, further more. I should be splattered by now right?
"Stop acting stupid raiden. You are very special" The feminine voice said to me as I flinched in pain.
Not wanting to talk back, I look around instead. All I see are waves of grass moving with the wind. They look like they are dancing with the motion of the wind. As I bring my attention upward, I see the light blue skies and flaming white stars. There was no sun to be seen in the sky, only the brightness from the stars shined out. I didn't understand what was going on anymore. My hair swished back and forth as the wind guided it.
I stared up at the sky with a blank expression. My body felt kind of stiff as I picked my upper half of my body up. My body was in pain. It wasn't a 'FUCK! IT HURTS! IT HURTS! SOMEONE CALL A DOCTOR!' kind of pain. It felt like someone hit me with a huge flying pan and stuck my entire body in a swarm of fire ants, and then left me there for ten minutes. Standing up to get a better look at my surroundings wasn't hard.
That was, until after pain fell in.
I almost fell to the ground. I was just that unbearable. How did I survive that fall anyway? I know that none of this was real but, why the hell do I continue to hurt? None of this is real and the pain might actually just be side effects from what I have been through. Internal pain I guess. What else could it be? This spiritual bullshit is giving me a headache.
As I blink my eyes open. My vision blurs so much that it seems like I might just need to go out and shop for those retarded glasses that those cliché nerdy girls and guys wear to be ugly attention whores.
"What's, happening?" I mumble out as my dizziness increases.
All I could see was blurred dark clothing and a glowing red sword shoved into the ground. I fell unconscious soon after that experience. As I landed in the darkness once again, I can't help but notice that I didn't see my white room once more. Instead, it actually did look an abyss.
'I couldn't see a damn thing in this darkness. It would be really nice if I had night vision like that idiot starfish from a kid's favorite television show. Wait, he didn't have night vision. He just got a fucking Flashlight lunged into his stupid head. What was that idiots name again? I think it started with a 'P'.
I shook my thoughts away and tried to look for a way out of this hellhole. Nothing was in sight of course. Did the darkness in my heart finally consume me? Am I in hell at last? Or did I fall into eternal darkness? Neither one of those choices sounded so bad because I thought it would be nosier down here.
"Raiden, please follow me. You have a destiny that you can either accept or crush. Either way, someone will die in the end"
That voice sounded the same as the voice before. Was it that little girl? I mean I don't know how old she is, but I do know that she is so short that my eyes wanted to burn from seeing how tall she was. I tried to trace where the voice came from. There was a brightly lit light to the right side, I covered my eyes so that I wouldn't go blind.
"Why are you telling me this? What do you mean by destiny? This is a dream so none of this is even real!
I yelled out as I tried to make out who the person might be. Try as I might. I still wasn't able to see who it was. All I knew, was that the feminine figure was getting closer to me.
She held my hand tightly.
"All of your questions will be answered soon enough. All you need to know is that you are not dreaming raiden. I love you, and I hope that you will be able to remember who you truly are within the meantime".
She sounded so lonely and full of regret.
This was felt like one of those terrible television show that no one really watches. Why can't it just end already? Do people get pleasure in seeing a seventeen year old boy suffering for no reason? Sick bastards. Turn off the channel already.
My eyes were starting to hurt. I grabbed the girls hand tightly without realizing it. My actions weren't exactly making much sense. Did I trust this girl just because she said that she loved me? Or did I feel like there was more to it than just that? I know that it was bright, so bright that I couldn't see her face up close.
But, I swear that I could see her smiling.
"Good" She said relieved.
The girl was now dragging me into the bright light. This felt similar to the time when that short girl almost kissed me in that black hole. Another question sparked into my head as I turned to face her shining face.
"What is your name?" I questioned her.
She stopped moving and pushed me into the bright light. She smiled even more as I tried to get closer to her. It didn't feel like she was getting farther from me, it felt like I was getting farther from her. I was getting sucked into the lightness.
"Raiden, please. I want you to see a certain person named-"
She sounded desperate.
Her voice was getting smaller. I didn't catch what she was going to say. All I heard was the person's first name. Jessy I think. What a weird ass name. Not having time to really think about how weird of a name that is. I fall into unconsciousness.
I hate this on and off shit. That is honestly the most irritating thing that anyone could go through. Why do I keep on passing out? Then I wake up somewhere completely new. What, will I wake up in the real world? Damn, I think death is better than being there with my stepfather.
I hate life. Now I sound like a pathetic Goth. Those sad and disgusting creatures. Now I need to think about my destiny right? Pftt. Like that is ever going to happen in a fake world such as this. My eyes open wide open when I feel someone slap me across my face.
"Oh! Guys look! I finally got him to wake up!" A very energetic voice rang out.
My face felt swollen and beat up. What the hell happened to me? I bring my head up to see who slapped me. My mind went blank as I saw that stupid cupid girl named erin smiling at me. My anger boiled over. I stood straight up so that I could strangle the life right out of her.
It was a big mistake.
The first thing I felt was a massive migraine. Then after that I felt my spine Bend in a strange way. I fell back down on the wooden ground and hit my funny bone. My face contorted to look like one of those troll face memes, or whatever people call them.
Hearing laughter, I try to stop making that hideous face. I stare up at the laughing individual and I see that it is still that idiot named erin. She kept going on and on about something called 'trolololo'. What a strange woman. Wait, it might actually be a guy in drag with fake breasts? Small breasts at that.
She noticed my gaze and hit me on top of the head. She didn't slap me, she punched me then stabbed me with a plastic knife. It didn't hurt that bad, but she did stab me in the stomach. So I'm not going to say that it didn't hurt like hell either.
"What the hell was that for?!"
I screamed out wishing to know why she did that in the first place. All she did was get close to my face and stared at me. She looked like that Cheshire cat from Alice in wonderland. I say that because her eyes lit up, and her mouth curved up into a twisted smile.
After a few seconds. She backed away from me and pouted.
"That's for looking at me in an inappropriate way! Perverted idiot!"
I blinked as I tilted my head in response. 'Is she serious? I don't even like cross dressing men! I don't even like women either! I'm asexual for a reason!' My thoughts are jumbled up and confused at her actions. This girl must be the mix between a Tsundere and a Yandere. All I know is that she is one crazy son of a bitch.
"Are you crazy?! You are the pervert for dressing up in girl clothing!" I screamed as loud as she did.
She looked offended for one second. Then she started to lightly slap me. Did she seriously think that it would hurt me? What is she, five years old? This crossdresser has some serious issues.
"I am not a crossdresser! I am a girl you idiot!" Her screeching got loudly.
Not able to bear it any longer. I just tell 'her' what she wants to hear.
"Okay! Okay. I'm sorry for calling you a crossdresser when you are obviously a girl" I say sarcastically as I roll my eyes.
I could tell that she wasn't convinced. But her ranting was cut off by footsteps.
It sounded like several people were approaching over. I turned my head over to the left and see that there is now eight people standing in front of us. Erin is freaking out. It might be because her precious leader is standing right in front of her.
"Ah! M-ma'am haha. So um, raiden was looking at me in a perverted way. So, I tried to get him to back off. I am so sorry I injured him in the process"
She wasn't trying to cover up her crime. But she was trying not to get into trouble. This girl needs some serious help. The girl in the cloak looked over to me, then put her hand on erin's shoulder. She didn't look angry or frustrated. Her expression looked sorrowful and full of sadness.
"Erin, please don't do this anymore. You know that raiden shouldn't go through any more than what he already has."
She sounded as if she was deep in thought. Erin looked like she regret what she did.
"I'm sorry Ma'am, I hope that you can forgive me" She whispered as she looked at the girl in the cloak.
The girl didn't respond. She turned to two girls, the gothic Lolita and the annoying preppy pink girl. She walked over to them and whispered something that was so quiet. That it seemed like she was merely mouthing words to the both of them.
Both of them nodded as they walked over to me. I still didn't understand what was going on now, but I did want to leave this floor. No, it wasn't dirty. It was actually quite clean. But I didn't want to stay on it because it was so cold to have my bare skin on it.
'Great it's just what I needed. A gothic creep who is probably planning on killing everyone and a preppy airhead who finds the good in everything. I would rather take the uptight dog and carefree idiotic cat than these two' I think irritated as touko took the plastic knife out of my bleeding stomach.
I stare at her as she outstretched her arm to my stomach. She gently put her hand on my stomach as I felt another hand on my back and held my arm tightly. I was guessing that it was that idiot named shion. I don't know why they were holding me like I was about to disappear any second now. But I wanted them both to stop right now.
"What are you doing? Stop touching me!" I hissed out as I glared at touko.
Touko didn't say anything for a few seconds. Both Shion and Touko were starting to talk really fast. All I heard was 'Da'. So I was guessing that they were talking in Russian. There was a light pink and green light forming on their hands.
I don't know why I was getting worried. But If these two were some kind of magical beings, I think it's better to be safe than sorry. I try to get away from them. They tighten their grip on me in response. They were surprising very strong, considering that they were girls.
"Let me go, god damnit!" I screeched out trying to escape.
In my attempts of breaking free. I fail miserably as I feel something being injected into my body. 'Did they poison me? Or did they inject me with blood of a diseased animal?' I think frantically as I start to become worried. Then I realize that none of this matters because this place isn't real.
The pink and green light disappeared. That was the moment they finally decided to let me go. My body stopped feeling tense, it actually felt better. Did they do some weird voodoo on me or something?
"What did you do to me?" I mumbled as I stared at them and stood up from the wooden ground.
THUMP
I turned my attention to the girl on the ground. The girl in the cloak fell to the ground without me noticing. It seemed like she couldn't get up. Everyone ran over to her except that guy who set me on fire. I glared at him as soon as I saw his hideous bronze face.
He smirked at my facial expression as he opened his mouth to say.
"You know that chick just saved your ass right?"
I stopped glaring at him and gave him a puzzled look.
"What are you talking about?" I asked him as I stepped closer to him.
He scoffed at me then grabbed my face and turned it. I was about to bite his fingers off, but I saw that everyone was bringing the girl in the cloak upstairs. Could she seriously not move? What, was she paralyzed? As I saw them carry her away I let my feelings pour out.
"What an attention whore. Seriously, faking that isn't cute" I mumbled out as I feel something smack me face.
I held my face as I stumbled away. That bastard tito punched me in my face. Who the hell does he think he is?! I stared at him coldly as I spat my annoyance for him out.
"What the hell?! You aren't even near that thing! You're probably too busy smooching with that crossdresser erin!"
He cracked his knuckles slowly. He doesn't look angry though. The atmosphere between the two of us seems deadly. The silence feels deadly for some strange reason. He looks up at me right before I can say something else.
"What do you know? You don't know me and you don't know that girl. I am only protecting her because I want to help Erin out. Me and erin aren't dating. We are old friends yeah, but we never dated because I have a girlfriend"
His response was desolate and distant.
I was at a loss for words. I stayed quiet. He walked right past me and to the wooden door. Before he left, he turned around and smiled. He added one more comment before he left.
"Oh, and that girl just traded her spine and other good parts so that you don't feel like total crap anymore."
He put up his hands and did a peace sign as he ran out the house. I just stared at the open door for a few seconds. I may have misjudged that girl again. I sighed as I walked over to the door and shut it. I made sure that I tightly closed it as well.
I picked my head up to see that it was going to take forever to get to her. I had to walk up the wooden staircase for a while until I reached the bedrooms. I opened the closest one first. I made a mistake in doing so. There was a queen sized bed with a zebra blanket covering it.
There was twilight posters at the edge, with famous popstars. Then there were jewelry and money. There were many battle gears as well. I could tell that it was kiara's room because I saw pictures of her and that idiot erin saying that erin was "best friend".
"What the? Is she a girl or not..." I trailed off as I shut the creepy door.
I turned around to feel something cold on my neck. It was a blade. I saw that Kiara had a dagger to my neck and looked mad as she stared into my very soul.
"Why were you in my room?" She asked me coldly.
I don't know how she got this close to me without knowing. But I did know that she might actually be as crazy as erin was. I could tell that she was getting annoyed by my silence because she pressed her blade closer to my neck and repeated the question from before.
"Why were you in my room?"
I tried to laugh it off because she seemed a little unstable. It didn't seem to work because she pressed the blade closer to my neck and started to cut some of my flesh off. Crimson blood was starting to roll down the blade and off her arm.
"Okay, Okay. Calm down. I was in your room because I wanted to know where the girl in the cloak was".
I explained to her as she removed the blade from my neck. She looked at the bloody ground and dropped her weapon.
"I'm sorry raiden. I didn't mean to act crazy. It's just that, somethings aren't meant to be seen by others"
She said apologetically as she cleaned up her mess and my wound.
She grabbed my hand and said that she would take me to the room that she was in. The front door had a poster of a KPOP group called 'SHINee'. My eyes were burning at the very sight of it. I didn't realize that the girl was a crazy fan girl of some pop boy band.
Kiara opened the door slowly as she walked in. I walked in after her and closed the door after me. As soon as I turned around, I saw a whole bunch of Japanese figurines, Japanese cartoon dvds, Japanese comics. This a room of an otaku, how disgusting.
I can't believe that this girl is an otaku.
After a few seconds of looking around this horrid room. I followed Kiara after I couldn't bear the sight of this room any longer. She showed me to a huge bunk bed. She moved out of the way so that I could get a good look at the girl. She the head of her cloak pulled off, but the rest of her body was covered with the blanket.
She had a washcloth over her face. So I actually couldn't see what see looked like. Out of curiosity, I outstretched my arm so that I could take the washcloth off her face. Kiara grabbed my wrist and tightened her grip on it. I turned my head and looked at her face.
"Don't take it off. She doesn't like it when others see her face" she mumbled sadly.
I yanked my hand away from her.
"Don't touch me. I won't take the washcloth off your precious princess okay?"
I said frustrated as I glared at her.
She didn't say anything. She just kept quiet and stared at her leader. I wanted to talk to her but I didn't see that as an option considering that there was a loud voice interrupting me.
"Hey guys! She'll be ok! Just hang on, I need to change her washcloth real quick"
That voice sounded like that idiot shion. I really wanted to punch her in the face for doing this to me. Before I could say anything I was pulled out of the room. I tried to get away from whoever pulled me out of there. But they grabbed me tightly and ran out of the house.
It took a few minutes to get out of their grasp, but I was finally able to punch the person.
"OW! What was that for raiden?"
The voice belonged to erin. I shook my head in response to hearing her voice. She was rubbing her head in pain because I actually put some effort into hurting her.
"Why did you take out of their erin?" I questioned her
When she stopped rubbing her head. She looked up at me and I didn't notice it until just now but, she is actually really short. She looks like she is about five feet and six inches. She slapped me lightly on the arm in frustration.
"Stop looking at me like that you pervert!" She screeches out flustered.
Her 'attacks' are really pathetic. So pathetic that I actually want to cry laughing. I step away from her so that I can respond to silly assumption of me being some kind of perverted male.
"I am not a pervert erin, you are just really stupid and short".
I say bluntly as she makes a huge fit again. 'This is really getting sad now. I wonder how anyone can put up with her. Do they have invisible earbuds? If so, where can I find a pair?' I think exhausted as I walk away from her.
"Don't walk away from me raiden! I will not stand for this!" She yells at me.
Ignore her and continue to walk. She yells something else out but I continue to walk forward until I fall into a bottomless pit. I think that she was actually trying to warn me about this. Maybe this might be showing me that I will be destined to fall into darkness.
"Or maybe I am the darkness..." I mumble out as I close my eyes while the darkness consumes me.
I open my eyes slowly to see my room once more. I turned around to see what time it currently was. It was early, I slept all day and night long and it's an hour before I have to go to school.
I take all the energy I have left in my body to get ready. It took forever just to wheel all the way to the school building. I was happy when I was able to sit in my desk as other people put my wheelchair away. My happiness was crushed when I saw Satan's face.
His acting was getting better. His smile almost looked real for once. He clapped his hands to get everyone's attention. He cleared his voice to say.
"Good morning class! We have new students for our classroom. Come on out and introduce yourselves."
The class became silent as the door slid open. Five students came out. I also turned my attention to them. One had short blonde hair, her skin was the same as mine and she had blueish green eyes. The second one had medium long black hair, she had light brown skin and dark brown eyes. The third one had pale skin and long silver hair, her eyes were dark grey just like mine. The fourth one had long fiery red hair tied into two pigtails. Her skin was fair and she had deep sea blue eyes.
The last one wore a jet black cloak. There appearances caught my attention. They looked similar to the girls in my dream. But it can't be them right? That's impossible! None of that was even real.
The girl with blond hair spoke up.
"Hello everyone! My name is Erin and these are my friends, Kiara, Touko, Shion and-"
Before she could finish her sentence, the girl in the cloak spoke up.
"Just call me No name..."
That was all she said before she walked over to me. She leaned over and whispered to me.
"Now we finally meet raiden, hello again"
I was at a loss for words. They were from my dream world. They weren't just people in my dreams. They were real after all. So does that mean that the other world truly exists?263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9BZJCJje8
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I am so sorry for the extremely long wait everyone. I had so many things to do. My sister's birthday was two days ago and I went out the very next day. My mother had a project to do so I couldn't update either. I only have today to update because my birthday is tomorrow. I hope that you can all understand. Thank you for all the votes and reads. I hope that you can all feedback and accept the late waits. School is starting on the first day of September, so I will get done as many chapters as I can.263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqIVTIKf69
Also, erin is a girl. Raiden just views her differently.
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