When I return home about midnight, Emaye doesn't ask a lot of questions. She, my sister, and Aunt Brenda prepare tea for me.92Please respect copyright.PENANAFVr0Vbaq41
"You know that your father and Jay's father are going to try to get you to go through with the betrothal nonetheless." Emaye lets the steamy smoke from her coffee find its way to her nostrils as she sips.92Please respect copyright.PENANAddrkorxi1X
"I don't want to go through with the betrothal, Emaye." I don't make eye contact. "I don't love him." 92Please respect copyright.PENANAwzpTUy3yTE
Emaye clears her throat with a mischievous smirk. "You loved him last weak, eh?"92Please respect copyright.PENANAJpbPZ4A76b
"I thought I did."92Please respect copyright.PENANAh5c6ENZUWW
Nandita lowers her tea slowly, her mouth slightly agape. 92Please respect copyright.PENANAfdUucFaXb6
"And what has made you so sure you do not love him anymore? He has hurt you, but that would not have stopped you from loving him last week...unless..."92Please respect copyright.PENANAamigOEIHTY
I meet the gaze of a very wise woman, licking my lips and trying to keep my composure; but she sees right through me. 92Please respect copyright.PENANAinb33KRV4r
"Child, you don't have to say anything. We all knew." Aunt Brenda chuckles a little. "The way he looks at you, even from behind the camera lense and how you look at him---can't hide it from people that know you."92Please respect copyright.PENANAOm8KxTrAcR
I turn to my sister. "Abhi?"92Please respect copyright.PENANAXdkaHPb0QQ
She shrugs. "I suspected, but I never believed it. Julie asked me right after lunch about you two, and I just shrugged it off. I thought you loved Jay."92Please respect copyright.PENANA68XGs4HcME
"I do!" I argue. "But it was my duty to love him, and that's not fair. He and I---we never had a chance to decide."92Please respect copyright.PENANAwzYhCwmDcl
Emaye places her cup in the sink, then leans back against the cabinets with both hands splayed along the countertop. "So, what are you going to do? Can your duty and love be combined...or...what?"92Please respect copyright.PENANAees5brK1zE
Angrily, I slam the cup down on the table until the porcelain shatters in my palm, and warm liquid slightly scalds my hand. I squeak a little as Emaye rushes me to the sink. 92Please respect copyright.PENANASV9eoyPFnL
"Child, what is wrong with you?"92Please respect copyright.PENANALcRCzGrJvT
Aunt Brenda cleans up the mess while Nandita grabs a rag to wrap around my quivering hands.92Please respect copyright.PENANAstwdHslCwq
"Answer me!" Emaye huffs. "What is your problem."92Please respect copyright.PENANAqXqHccmSgp
"I want love Emaye..." I whisper. "I don't want what you and Bapi had. I don't want what Bapi wants for me----I always did everything he wanted, and he abandoned me. I want nothing to do with him, Emaye."92Please respect copyright.PENANAteku269R45
Aunt Brenda stands quietly behind the counter, watching as Emaye quivers, shatters, then lets the tears fall. "Be strong for me, babygirl. You mama is trying, okay? I'm going to make things right. We're gonna be alright."92Please respect copyright.PENANAxJ7GqjE4k3
She starts humming, "OOOO, child, things are gonna get easier..." as she cups my hand in hers, and Nandita grabs me and twirls me around the room.92Please respect copyright.PENANAULZO4PBFsP
Aunt Brenda turns on the stereo real low, and we have a whispering karaoke night to end my promtastrophy. But still...in the very back of my mind and very softly on my lips...my mind replays Rizzo's tentative kiss. 92Please respect copyright.PENANA5YhzBLPe0X