“ No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. Oftentimes, we have no clue. Yet we push it just the same.

3. They didn't care

I wanted to walk with her but then again I wanted my solitude and even if I didn't desire solitude I still will not have her, she has left me. She chose the crowd over me over and over again and I was used to it, if I was used to it then why does it still hurt like it did the first time. I turned away ready to leave when I saw my friend Amaya.

"Lora? Are you going now? I have to buy something for someone," she said to me, looking at her phone and paying Me no mind.

"Yes, I am going now, I was waiting for sofia but she's lost in the crowd already," I replied her looking at the door,looking in the distance looking for a light. I wanted to leave immediately the crowd was so much I didn't want to get lost in the crowd. it was in the crowd I felt lonely the most.

"I pity her! so much stress! anyway let's go" Amaya said walking out of the class with her phone still in hand and me following behind, I will always be behind. We greeted some of our school mates on the way to the store, we laughed and joked about stuffs. They all greeted her and only talked to me because I was with her, her shadow.

My laugh was always fake because in my heart their was a sadness that consumed me, a sadness that I was accustomed to. A sadness I couldn't let go of because it had come to define me. No one noticed that my laughter was fake either they didn't care or maybe I was a really good actress. All of the options seemed probable but it hurt all the same because in my heart I knew I was a very bad actress so they didn't care.