As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkMDJwsoyN
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIzDLLVilV
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCXa3RvuA4
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhz3ukI6eaI
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qmdQ8nJZD
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aLqur5CpC
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzqjve6F3F
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0TfSJmf5U
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXTDg3kM5y
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgje0vXwuBR
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQoZnYoTxa
'Uselessness'956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr4TMp0DfM
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklNV5esDz4
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEUh1RxXvc
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKzWTBHMoX
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFJnNw8izC
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYTgRwKIg9
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIo0KKBdLM
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajCjU06XaW
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiwlz1jhD4
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW44vf314y
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzxfTI5CQq
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsU0xGu7vD
And with that, I ran. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbKKME14MC
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfE7i2mkjP
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyU8VqbwqHX
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltzAShsWQY
See you next time!956Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXq9mGv816z
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